EugeneTheSage

Experienced 3d artists don't recommend going freelance while you are a newbie, neither they recommend doing 'your own thing' they recommend going to the studio where your skill will ramp up and after 5-6 years you are ready to go to freelance. As a 3D modeler, I've made the mistake of doing my own projects. First I've decided to do a model of a tank in a steampunk style from my own concept, but this project was too big for me. Then I've tried to do a steam engine model, but again - too big. I wasted a lot of time on such indulgencies and now I do courses all the time - my skill develops fast and I don't intend to perform some 'own' projects in the next few years. I think you should forget about selling courses before developing outstanding skills yourself and forget about 100$. This top-rank tutorial costs 45 bucks. https://cgmasters.gumroad.com/l/zTVHi I would recommend you focus on developing skills instead of following your passion.

I don't think you are serious about it. I think your LP is vague and cut off from reality. "I just want to do some psycadelics and write about it" - I doubt it could create some value for people that they are ready to pay for.

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The 3D model of Les Pauls guitar: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1IOHo3FYBBiGCxHSdY75e7XuA3QD6SLA7?usp=sharing

I've bought charcoal sticks. The taste after filtration is much better than the taste of boiled tap water - the hardness is surely gone. I've checked the Electroconductivity (EC) of tap water sample - it was 1150uS and after keeping charcoal in it for 8hrs it was 850uS. I can't measure what it had removed though. But 'internet' tells that it removes heavy metals, chlorides. As I suppose charcoal doesn't kill bacteria

I've started to have problems with the regimen since the end of the summer when it became colder. Before that, I was usually getting up at 6-7 AM. In autumn, usually, I was going to sleep around 00-02 AM - I was working on a personal project after job. Sometimes when I went to bed at 11 PM I couldn't sleep because I was thinking too much about my project (mostly because I didn't have enough time to work on it, in periods when I work on it enough, I feel it easier to let go of the thoughts about projects). During November I've got an extreme working schedule: 12hrs a day with no weekends. I was usually waking up at 10 and going to sleep at 00-02. Right now I can't turn back to my loved 22-06 sleeping schedule. I go to bed somewhen at 23 and sleep till 09-10 AM. In the morning I simply can't wake up. Despite the fact I have inspiring work to do, I can't convince myself to get up (very interesting because at night I can't calm down and fall asleep). It happens sometimes: I can't fall asleep for 1,5 hrs, then desperate, I check social media, maybe masturbate. Sleep problem is the main reason why I relapse at PMO. I feel the following could be the cause: Unpleasant sensations in belly I wanted to address this issue by Anthony Williams 3:6:9 detox protocol, but I've moved to an isolated village where I don't have access to most of the ingredients I don't exercise enough. Especially on a holiday day, when I was eating the whole day I just can't fall asleep. I have chronic tension in my neck. Have big trouble relaxing it, even after a few rounds of body scan I can't let go of thoughts about my projects What I tried Doing yoga. But because my daily regimen is wrecked, I can't do it consistently. So it is a self-perpetuating vicious circle Jogging I've stopped jogging because my muscles get stiff after 3 sessions of jogging (spread to the week), and I start to traumatize my legs Drinking sedative teas: chamomile I do Vipassana as I am laying on the bed I stop computer work at 19, then only read books. I've installed software that changes the light spectrum towards red (both to my phone and PC) Actually I have a success of going to bed at 23 o'clock, but still, I usually wake up at 9-10 AM, which is still late. I don't wanna use melatonin because it weakens your body's ability to produce melatonin.

I was doing foam roller massage and then stretch. It was a russian source. I noticed when I became eating fastfood my fascia became more stiff and inflamed

Antony Williams in his book cleanse to heal says that colognes/perfumes, aromatized candles, plug-in air fresheners, air freshener sprays are very toxic. He don't do much of explanation about perfumes/colognes though. I bought myself a natural perfume. You can make your own from essential oils and vitamin E. Vitamin E stabilizes them and makes them last longer.

@catcat69123 cna't argue you. You are right

There was a life chapter when because of compulsive behavior I've spent all my savings on pizza, lost my job, and made big debts. Now, after a few years I've closed debts, made new savings. My financial situation is the best I've ever had. March this year I've got initiated in Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya meditation. After a lot of struggle, I've finally completed a 40-days mandala (doing the practice twice a day for 40 days after which it becomes much more powerful and then you continue to do it 1 time a day and it is as powerful as twice a day before). 2 months ago I was asking myself: "Am I feel depressed?" and my answer was "No" - the first time since 2 years ago. A month after that I noticed that I am happy - the first time in my life. Besides meditation, I've improved my eating habits, started eating a lot of green, lot of raw. But then harvest time had come (like 1,5 months ago) (I'm working on a cannabis farm). For a month I was working 12 hrs per day, without weekends. My day regimen had shifted to the second half of the day: I've begun going asleep in 01:00, sleeping 11hrs and waking up somewhere at 11:00. Why the fuck am I sleeping 11hrs? Even after this crazy harvest time had ended, I still can't fall asleep earlier than 01:00 (sometimes when I try to lay down at 22:30, I am restlessly wreaking the bed till 02:00). I still sleep for 11hrs. When this crazy harvest began to fade off, and I've got more free time - what do you think I did? - do you think I've given myself time to loosen up? - No. I've continued pushing on 3d graphics after the main job. I was too thirsty for my passionate 3d design project. During this crazy harvest, I've got flashes of hatred for this job because I wanted so much to do a 3d graphic. But I knew I needed to finish the current project, though. So it was obvious I needed to have a rest after the harvest, but I did 3d graphics which backfired... Because it was emotionally too much. I've returned to compulsive behavior which I thought I'd got rid of. I've started to order junk food and wasted a lot of my savings on that. Started masturbating more often, started watching some youtube videos, which I don't even enjoy. The most important aspect of my current compulsive behavior is that it is a vicious circle: I order food (Chinese noodles, westernized Indian fast food, pizza) I can't fall asleep because I've overeaten and feelings of tension/stiffness in my thighs. There are also unpleasant sensations in my stomach. So I can't fall asleep before 01:00. Because I don't sleep well, my free will is weakened, therefore I eat junk food. In the morning I can't do Shambhavi Mahamudra (because I am still stuffed), therefore my willpower is weakened Because my day had started badly I can't do anything constructive, but just watch some videos on youtube and order some more food Cycle continues Additional contributors to my compullsivenesst: feel like going outside and having a walk could be like a solution, but I am too lazy to do it. Besides it is cold outside. Also, I have a bad domestic situation. Very uncomfortable living. Like if I have my hands dirty, or go to a toilet I need to go to another building (wear my coat) and wash them. Or sometimes in the morning, I need to wait 20mins before washing my teeth, because somebody is taking shower. I have a small fridge so I need to go to a grocery shop every couple of days. I go there by bicycle, so I can grab only as much as my backpack and bike's 'trunk' could bear. There is so much more stuff that drives me crazy What makes things worse is that I am a home sitter and don't have a company of friends. I actually think loneliness is good. But people who live socially active life could just go with their friends for a party and 'reset' their minds and finish this vicious circle. But it is not easy for me. The only thing I need is to break of perpetuating karmic circle. Then I can return to normal. I've done this many times before. Moral of the story: Don't overwork Sorry for chaotic storytelling - it just reflects my current state of mind:)

I feel 'spineless'. That any activity is very complicated and I don't have enough free will to do simplest tasks. Maybe I choose compulsion, because performing any tasks brings psychological friction, tension

Right now I have a period of compulsive behavior. I know that it would take me some time to calm down and continue my development. But even as I have period of destruction I always improve myself: for example, playing video games in English so I expand my vocabulary. My passion is to create psychedelic art. Something on the edge of programming and art. I am also passionate about mathematics. But I don't want to return to practicing my skills because I currently have burnout because of overworking. So does anyone knows some game that teaches mathematics or programming? Something like Factorio, with some automation or so? You canl recommend any game you would label as Stage Yellow Any help would be much appreciated:)

Johnson&Johnson at 18:50. Ok until 02:00. Strong fever had started. I felt cold and hotness simultaniously. Because of it I've got tremor attacks that lasted for 5-10secs, and were repeating.

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I watched this movie today - it is amazing. My worldview was altered during the watching - life has this magical vibe during this time. Also, I became aware that death wasn't such a scary thing. It almost feels like "yes, sufferings are hard to endure, but they are not as hard if you align yourself fully with nature". Life was really a different thing at that time. There was a guy in this film who was mocked by the whole village - it felt really humiliating. But then later in the evening, he sits normally with the rest near the fire as so nothing happened - probably people weren't holding too much in themselves, but just going with the flow of life. They also seem not to hold grief for a long, for example when their relatives die. Amazing paradigm shift about what is possible for life to be

I was reading "The way of the peaceful warrior" where are main characters Socrates (guru) and Dan (disciple) Once Socrates showed a Dan a technique of self-massage with oil. To demonstrate an importance of it he took a cat and started to squeeze his thigh muscle with thumb and point finger. Dan pleased that he don't do that but Socrates continued to push. Nothing bad happend: it figured out he could push to such point that tips of his fingers are almost connected and just a skin preventing them from touching - it means the cat's muscles were so soft that he could squeeze it without any harm to the cat. Then Socrates showed how to do the massage and told to Dan he should perform it until his muscles would be completely soft. I intuitively feel that is very useful to have completely soft muscles. What I assume it would do: I would be much more relaxed. To such a degree that I become the "superconductor of God" Much more aware of the every corner of my body Less trauma from exercises Much better emotional awareness. I feel I would become much more equonimious and less unconsciuosly reacting to emotions I feel in order to reach that state i need Perform some long water/juice fast. Perform detox protocols Become a vegan then raw and frutarian (very gradually, with proper studying) Stretch a lot Do yoga Do more myofascial release (foam roll massage) Do some Gua Sha(kerokan) Go for a professional massage session. Best Thai massage, Thai isometric massage Maybe try to step on Sadhu Board (board with nails) which triggers isometric points on feet and makes you release tension in other muscles I am already doing foam roller massage, improved my diet a lot. I feel more relaxed now - eventually after 2 years of muscle cramps I am able to sleep. Sometimes I feel that I am parsing some potent Force through myself. It is much easier not to react on compulsion to masturbate - I can observe it without "going with it". I have intuition it is a good way to go with this deep muscle work. Of course I need to study this topic whether this thing is good at all. Until now google search of the phrase "how to make your muscle soft" that I've tried resulted only in videos "how to make you muscles hard" Can you guys and girls give me a trace where to start my investigation? I would contact the author of the book of course. Thank you!

Jew comes to the Rabby and asks: - Rabby, please tell me what is while Rabby thought for a while and replied: - Well, while is the Eternity - If so, then lend me 1000$ for a while - Ok, just wait awhile

I remember the picture about self-help in animals, unfortunately can't find it: where goat is reading book "how to avoid natural selection", tiger reads "predator-prey relationships"

Smoothie is not an option. Because I need to wash blender immediately, because It is common kitchen. Cooking soup is also not an option because my fridge is to small for a pot. Besides I try to eat as much raw as I can. I think I'll stick with soaking seaweed - it takes 10 mins beforu you can consume. And I love it. Soak it with himalayan salt and add some olive oil, spices, and you are ready to go. I also think to replace fruit smoothinv in the morning with fruits.

I'm full of **** (work). I glad I finally became eating healthy. Most of my food is raw greens. But... I feel guilt when I spend 2hrs a day cutting the ingredients and washing the dishes - I eat 2 times a day. I work 6-7 hrs a day while should work 10. Big responsibility lays on my shoulders. Here are my ideas for a quick meal: Huel shake powder (europeans may know). Plant based powder from fruits and veggies. Just dillute with water and drink. However I don't sure it is nutritionally complete meal. Even they tell it is rather complementary snack. But the whole process takes less than 10 mins (including washing the shaker) Seaweed. I've ordered few killograms of dried seaweed and I will be soaking and eating it. However soaking still takes time so I'll need to swing between kitchen and office which is not perfect Now is your turn: how would you solve this problem?

@Captain_Diabetes as i understand this kind of earth contains sillicon dioxide. I'll do a bit of research on it. I actually have chlorella capsules with sillicon dioxide in them. I refused to consume these tabs earlier fearing of getting lung silicosis, but now I could change my mind...

My body begs for cleansing, but I am full of work. I was doing castor oil flush and I will do it for a few more times (3 weeks in a row). However I've experienced ego backlash after that: I was often overeating for a few days after procedure. Because it is cold it makes even harder to endure the detox Does anybody knows method of effortless cleansing your body? I particularly interested in anti-parasite/funghi program. For example, currently, I am taking MSM (bioavailable sulfur) which detoxifies my liver. I've started from 0,5 gram twice a day and increased dosage up to 1,5g twice a day. Every day, through the cource of few weeks I increase dosage until I reach 6g twice per day. I am searching for a similar method Main criteria for the wished perfect effortless detox: Not time consuming Not energy/free will consuming I've heard about Genghis Khan cleanse with garlic There is quick and slow option: I am interested in slow which is about taking garlic every evening through the course of the month - that is the perfect example of what I want I would be grateful for your ideas? Cheers

Ok, thanks guys. Pressure cooker and soup is a good idea

@Matt23 The only job I can't get is a construction worker. I don't want to do some meaningless office stuff, and no MacDonalds or Starbucks stuff. Maybe a waiter. But the problem is that when you work 10hrs per day you have barely the energy to do your stuff (though I did), and I didn't have good mental health, was constantly at risk of firing, and was in situations when I constantly lack money and can't save them. It is no America guys, I am living in Poland now, so take into account my salary. Too much distraction. Period. Besides, I don't think into such dramatic categories now of going to some ashram. I rather focus on pushing on the current cannabis startup I'm now working on. I think it would be more cost-effective to develop what I already have rather than start from a blank, again...

I want to improve my skill of 3d modeling and find myself a decent job in GameDev or the film industry. I don't know how long would I last on the current job and I have some money savings that I can spend to make a "leap of faith" to find a place and go deep into creating a portfolio. Do you know any place (In Europe) where I can live almost for free and eat for free and have few hours a day to do my stuff (in my case to improve my 3d modeling skill)? Ideally, I searching for a hub of like-minded people who are into self-actualization and spirituality. I considered a possibility of becoming an Isha Volunteer in Isha Yoga Center, or Dhamma Vipassana volunteer, or go to some hippie resort. Also, I consider going to some low-cost areas like Goa, Mexico, Bali. But I would need to spend on a flight. I could, of course, go to my grandma's house in the village but I think I will stagnate here. Any guesses?