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Take your attention back to the thing that you are focusing on. If your mind wonders off - bring it back. And yes it will wonder off infinite times. So bring it back! Again.... Again... Again.... AND AGAIN! A few weeks of effort should be enough to see some improvement in your focus. Also your first months of meditation will also be unconsciousness cleansing process, old thoughts will arise in your awareness, you need to purge old held secrets in your deepest core.

Woow do I have a story to share here.. Be open and read the story imagining how it interconnects with everything. Pre-story: 7-8 years ago I was with my present wife, we were together in a relationship for a few months, later we broke off. Main story: Two years ago we somehow matched each other on tinder thus beggining a bound again. On the our first meet with each other I wanted to take her to nature and see the falling stars. (This is a key point of the whole story, STARS!.) But it was raining that night so we just skipped it. The first meet we had we instantly felt a cennection with each other, it was as if we were together in past lives, we felt like being home with each other. Felt right! In that time I was a fan of the group called The Weeknd, he was my jam. And also he had a song called "STAR Boy". My wife later made me a shirt with a sign of Star Boy! Going to that year we celebrated new years eve at her place and I decorated the house with hand made accesories, I also cut out Stars from paper (I will share the pics). That night we got engaged. Moving later we arranged a marriage, our invitations had cosmos theme in it also with what? STARS! We fell in love with stars! Lol. Also on our wedding day we had STAR shapped balloons tied around our chairs. (We got married last year on this day.) Okey moving forward somehow the star theme in our family stuck like glue. Literaly I even made CNC machined stars for her from black plexiglass and sprayed it with gold dots to make it like stars also (pics comming). CONNECTING THE DOTS: On this weekend we arranged an aniversary retreat in the forest (we wanted to be together, alone and to celebrate our 1 year anniverasy. And so we go there we sit around try to contemplate our life and take everything we can from this mini-retreat. In the evening we sat around the camp fire which I made and talked alot. We smoked weed also which is our go-to spiritual tool. We talked alot and I saw her being very dettached from her ego, just enjoying being in the moment. Night came and the sky was clear. Guess whats in the sky? STARS. My wife looked up cause we saw a shooting star (its the season of falling stars) and she was just observing the infinity of the cosmos. Then she looked down at me and changed attention to the stars again. And observing that she awoke! She found out who she is, why she is here and how she created herself. And as she was speaking the insights to me I understood that she finally awaken AND the camp fire just bursted into a blazing flame which lit up our camp with light and we became conscious that its GOD sending the message that this insight was true and he was happy! Yes you could argue that in a scientific way that the timber emblazed in flames because of "that and that" YES, but you dont understand the magic behind this. That GOD made me place the timber in such a way in such a time that in that particular time in that particular moment of awakening that it would blaze up in flames so giving us a sign that he is here, that HE is behind all this and that it is you and it is helping us to always remember that he is with us. And wow was that a mindfuck for the both of us! We actually understood that we are both gods sent to be with each other to awaken ourselves to the truth. The main thing was her looking at the stars! God knew that and sent messages in our entire relationship time to look at what? Stars! This story might not reflect our experience fully, but just imagine how magical it was for the both of us to connect all the dots.

I can fully agree that MDMA is a great tool for personal inner development. Being just on it feels like it makes your body vibrate in a healing manner. You dont ACTUALY vibrate, but you feel like its just healing you

Just one pic cause I cant render the quality down with my phone. Maybe later on the pc I will

@ActualizedDavid hmm great advice tho.

Lol I got it. These past few weeks were nothing but work, home and Kriya. I must be doing something way more to please the bodies internal psychological needs. Damn.

@ahmad ibdah that was a few weeks back. And for now I mean I can get hard, I can have sex and orgasm, but I just got no interest in doing so. Its as if you were be given a choice to have sex, I would choose not to have it.

@ahmad ibdah oh yes! The last awakening I had we went to bed with my spouse and we had love like never. I watched her body and "saw" sex energy everywhere in her. I never felt anything like that. The sex was seen as some kind of training, almost as a ritual where we created energy which bursted with an orgasm. I do believe the right sex is a way to enlightenment, good sex is powerful

@Natasha Yeah I also guess that its just a stage Im going through. Eventualy it will come back. I kinda like this state, feeling free from all that craving of sex is energizing.

@Truth Addict no no no I dont judge sex as something that low consciousness people do. It is in a way if you dont control it and need to fap always. In my experience the drive is just not there, I dont intend to jump off of sex cause the spirituality needs to, no, I see sex as nothing bad about the whole thing, actualy my awakening process revieled that you can have sex with anyone and its totaly ok

@flume exactly what you wrote to truth addict. No, I'm happy with everything, its just the drive thats lost which bothers me a bit, especially when I think that my spouse is not there and gets triggered with me not being so driven with sex than I used to be. @Truth Addict oh wow did you tie yourself in some knots of the mind. What you said is not what is true for me.

Non-dual sex is awesome though. But the thing is that bothers is that I don't want sex. I just choose not to have it for some reasons. If I can I always ignore it.

There was/is Teotl. It created itself and it wanted to explore itself, so it took a part of itself and made more of itself into being. This being is you. You are Teotl. It is looking at itself, living through itself, experiencing itself. Teotl - God/Consciousness/Infinity/Jesus/Allah/Brahman/Krishna All is one. The one is all. You are It (the one).

@Dylan Page You do need a mystical experience to see how much love did you create. All creation is just love. Everything is made with love and out of love. Once you know how you created yourself you will understand the infinite love component of reality. And wow does it blow your socks off

@Cody_Atzori use pillows around your legs, make yourself comfortable as possible. You don't need to sit in a full lotus pose for meditation. I would recommend buying a moon shaped zafu which helps a lot

How I got into it: Randomly found Leo's video on hot to make a girl fall in love with you. After a while I somehow found his mp3 uploaded Podcast channel, started to listen there and so today. Why I chose this path: Life was a shit-hole, had absolutely nothing to lose. Went in, lost myself Biggest challenge: Staying on track everyday.

Why would else you need an initiation. It's a kind of help to get you started on your journey.

@Bojan It's a model not a territory. I studied the model a lot for myself. And in the end you just gotta let go of it, cause reality is so wast that the model itself limits you. Don't think you just can slap a label on a country or a person and say that it's either blue, orange or green. It's just a mix of everything.

@cetus56 No one replies to questions in that thread.

Disclaimer - I have no idea if this is true or not. The initiation is mainly you going to a guru which has some kind of power to activate your kundalini energy (which is dormant for most people) to move up to your 3rd eye chakra and to move it back to your root chakra (also the energy activated is very weak, because full force of kundalini might kill you). Then you can do your yoga with activated kundalini. I heard that some people can't access kundalini until they get the guru to activate it for you. I have no idea how does it work, but im following a guru in youtube who talks about that stuff alot so it kinda makes sense why you would need a initiation. But some people are able to activate the kundalini by themselves somehow, via psychedelics/cannabis etc. or just naturally. You can't dig deep into reality without having strong kundalini going through your body. A lot of people do throw the idea of kundalini being real. But I had some interesting kundalini energy awakening moments in the body, so I do believe in it and would like to research this stuff further.

It felt like I became aware that there is such a thing as Karma, and it all vanished right away when I had an enlightenment/samadhi experience. Can anyone say anything about it?

@Aakash oh. I see now.

Haha

One see's it as God, another see's it as Christ, my mind recognized it as Teotl. It only depends on whats in the mind.

@zenjen A mans ego will never listen to a woman. It's how it works. It's natural for a man to reject your offerings of getting better. Only the wise will settle down and take your things for real. He seems like he want's to do things his way which most males do. My recommendation for you is hold off your emotions on him, don't just give him shit, it will make him angry as he is in a phase where any trigger will probably make him resist anything. Best option from you would be just to give him time and just observe what he is doing, is he just dicking around or is he getting his shit together slowly but surely. After some time wait for an opportunity when hes showing emotions, laughing, being happy etc, then speak to him about the stuff you want to help him with like "How are your things, is everything ok" and also just listen in a observable manner, just listen what he has to say. You have to show that you are actually listening. But also be strict about the subject, don't be weak, he needs to know/feel that you are a strong woman worthy of effort. Because when men sense that the shit they are in might break the relationship with a strong woman they are kinda afraid their SO might leave them. Good luck and hold strong and just take it slow, it's a long process.