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@Wisebaxter You're actually in a really good spot. See, I STARTED my journey with psychedelics, long before I learned about Leo's channel, spirituality, meditation, etc. Psychedelics are powerful to take a list, egoic mind straight to absolute truth, but the road is pretty fucking rocky and startling. You won't have any of those problems

Bingo! Yahtzee! Is that your final answer? Our survey says... God! Bing bing bing bing bing! Well, it was nice to meet you, God. Thank you for the Grand Canyon, and good luck with the Apocalypse. Oh, and by the way, you SUCK!

@MisterNoodle When you start diving deeper into this shit, synchronicities will go through the roof. I have experienced so many hundreds of mind blowing ones that the proof is all there... You manifest your environment. No other way around it. You're living in a "real" world with "dreamtime" metaphysics, aka, you're in a dream. 100% fact. The evidence is all around you. When you start regularly becoming conscious that you're in a dream, events will start warping around you in "unexplainable" ways. Don't freak out, that's normal. At this point, it's all too easy to think you're the only person in this dream and you're making everyone else up. No, that's not true. In a sense it is because you're literally everyone else. You are God. But they are all equally valid parts of God, trapped in little egos running around. And other people will unconsciously pick up on your thoughts (thinking that they are their own) and energy. So you as the higher-conscious person can literally "bend" reality around you by influencing other energies, which turn into action through complicated processes. I believe that's the basic metaphysics of it. You can even brain couple to someone hundreds of miles away and feel their emotions and intuit their thoughts. These are all very real phenomena I've personally experienced. Look up remote viewing. You have access to all of reality at the tip of your fingers... You've just spent your entire life led to believe you're a physical human being. Freeing the mind to do these things takes a lot of practice and time to rewire.

@Wisebaxter 150ug is a perfect first time dose. Absolutely nothing to be afraid of! It WILL blow your mind in all the right ways tho... ? I have an album suggestion for you: Valtari by Sigur Rós. Try it at the peak or just coming off of it... Think of it as a little experiment. Please let me know how it goes! Safe travels

Wrong. 12 days to come down to baseline tolerance. A lot more to come to baseline mental tolerance/effects. LSD is not a magic pill to thrust you into these states of Consciousness. 5-meo? Maybe. But definitely not lsd. You have been warned. Give more space. And there's honestly only so far you can go with L. It sounds like you had a pretty peak experience already.

@Annoynymous patience. You can't jump to solving them until you understand the inner workings. There is no cut and dry "method" because each person is different, and these problems must be solved by the individual. They can be "band-aided" by external sources, but the person will unconsciouslly fall back into those patterns without doing the inner work. Let me make another thing clear. You can't "solve" the ego. Think of it as a constantly evolving Maze that constantly seeks to delude you. "The tunnels are changing." Now this Maze sets new traps in predictable ways and patterns, but only to someone that completely understands how it works and what its motives are. This is not a small task, for you are trying to work through this Maze while still trapped inside. Consciousness is the key. Notice how your worry about the consequences of ego backlash is itself an egoic delusion. Where does worry come from? Fear of the future. Fear is illusion. The future only lives within the mind. In fact, the paradox is that worrying about this shit and trying to "solve" it will create the biggest backlash of all. Your job at this stage is to study the ego intensely, but do not try to resist it. It cannot be changed. There's nothing to hate or fear about it, it is a perfect machine that consciousness created in order to have this experience. In short, raise your consciousness and your suffering will start to fade away.

@Annoynymous the answer to your question will become clear when you understand the ego better. I HIGHLY suggest watching Leo's Self-Deception videos (parts 1-3). An ego backlash occurs when you do or think something that goes against the ego. Your accumulated body of habits and neuroses. When you study the ego, these will become very predictable. And these are very normal/OK. You can't force yourself to stop an ego backlash, you can only train yourself to observe them and not let them steer you into negative thought patterns.

@111111 Do not trip every week. Not only will you body's tolerance physically hinder you, but if you try to suck too much out of the experience, you WILL start having lesser or even nightmare trips. I speak from vast experience with this substance... Please respect it and allow time to integrate. So your body takes about 12 days to fully rid of its tolerance to LSD. So if you were to trip again in 7 days, you'd need to take at least 200ug to have a similar trip, and believe me, it still wouldn't be close. Although you may not be aware of it, your brain will need several weeks/months to fully accept and integrate that beautiful experience you just had. So add some more good habits, self inquiry, start trying to occupy that headspace more often. Of beauty and rapture. I know how tempting it is to dive back in every two weeks... But you're going to end up shooting yourself in the foot. Please please please respect this substance. I know how nasty it can get if you ask too much of it over too long a period. It's a TOOL for consciousness work, and it honestly sounds like you've got your plate full for a while. Sit back and relax my friend. Enjoy what you have!

OK, a little backstory. I feel like I'm in a really deep rut that I can't seem to pull myself out of. I'm in my early 20's and extremely addicted to suffering. Of all kinds, you name it: league of legends, PMO, vaping, a low-consciousness job I abhor, not reading, etc. My brain feels like it has turned to mush over the past few years, and because of all these bad habits, I have an inability to concentrate or create good habits. My self-esteem is at the floor. And yet, because of my journey with psychedelics, discoving Leo's channel, and doing quite a bit of Consciousness work on the side lately, I find myself in a very interesting position. I'm awakened, I've had many enlightenment experiences, and through much self-inquiry I've discovered so much about myself and about the world. I'm completely on board with Leo's teachings. And yes, I have made great strides lately that I'm proud of, but it's not nearly enough. I can t seem to lift off! I have the conceptual knowledge and understanding that I need to make the changes I want in my life, but I don't have the willpower or mental framework in order to embody them. I feel like I'm drowning still. The other issue that makes this difficult is that there's no one around me that understands the path I'm trying to take. My environment is pretty low-consciousness. Do you guys maybe have any tips in order to slowly form the habits I need? I've tried the all-in approach several times and it doesn't work. I'm too far deep in a hole to do that. Any words of advice would be much appreciated.

OK, I'll look into it more. Thank you. My financial situation is currently really bad. So I'll see what they can offer. Are there any other things I should know? Things they're looking for?

@Leo Gura You're right. I've been through a few false starts, and the ego backlashes are very real and predictable. I understand the message that I need to start slow. What I was looking for was a tip or technique on how to implement some basic good habits and KEEP them. For instance, my goal is to start with 10 minutes of meditation per day, read 30 minutes, and do the simple Wim Hof method each morning (cold shower and 5-10 min. of breathing). And that's it. I understand that's basically nothing to most people, but at my current state that would be a good step. Consistency is the key. So in times when my ego wants to drag me down, when it connives and tries to convince me in every way possible, is there anything I can try to keep focused on the task? In my case, just having awareness of these egoic urges isn't enough. If you possibly have anything more to share with me, I would greatly appreciate it! And I do apologize, I wasn't thinking and posted this in the wrong sub-forum ?. All I'm looking for is a little "leg up" on my psyche to give me the confidence to snowball that. I'm basically at ground zero. @Mu_ thanks for the response! I'm going to start very slow, and see if I can maintain that. @winterknight thanks for the reply. I don't think a psychoanalytical institute is right for me right now. My psyche isn't FUCKED... I'm still functional. I haven't tried a more strategic and calculated approach yet to overcoming this shit. I'm going to try that first. If I find that I have some MAJOR issues below the surface that's preventing me from helping myself, then I'll try it.

@Arhattobe yes, you're correct in recognizing the nuance of humor. You can say the same thing about love. Lower-consciousness love is directed at someone and is conditional. It can be warped by romanticism. However, true love (nondual), fully unconditional, is not really directed at anyone in particular, it's the emanation (release?) of something higher. It comes from a different UNDERSTANDING. One could say it's the metaphysical connection. So along those lines of reasoning: what is humor and what is its source? I'm talking about the genuine, high consciousness smile or laughter. Why do we feel it? Am I being deluded here? I'm not content with just believing it's something we feel when we're happy... I know there's something more. So humor me.

@Arhattobe If I'm not mistaken, you said "ask anything." I didn't realize your perceived relevance to a spiritual path was a factor. That being said, please answer me this: why is the 10th Ox herding picture of someone who's laugh can brighten multitudes of people? Why does the sense of humor and the wise, enlightened master usually go hand in hand? Is it just a byproduct of spiritual truth? A coincidence? Is this illusion? Or is there something more? Because I believe this to be very relevant, I'm curious of your opinions on this. Thank you

@Arhattobe What is humor? What is its source?

https://theconversation.com/bizarre-dark-fluid-with-negative-mass-could-dominate-the-universe-what-my-research-suggests-107922 Sound familiar? They even use the analogy of bubbles because they can be modeled as having negative mass. This "dark fluid" sure sounds a lot like Leo's description of the Universe as a sponge... It's striking how this brand new theory at the cutting edge of physics and cosmology gets a little closer to the infinite void of Consciousness we know it to be... Anyways, I hope you find the chance to read it, it's fascinating. I think it's a lot more relevant than you might expect.

Thank you @Leo Gura for creating this wonderful thread. I think it's a very important topic! Here's a great article of the playlist that John Hopkin's University used in their double blind study on the effects of Psilocybin mushrooms in terminally ill patients. And while this is a highly effective and beautiful way to spend a trip (I encourage everyone to try it at least once), it obviously doesn't provide for all the experiences one might want to have. Sometimes you WANT to potentiate the trip and mindfuck yourself! Sometimes you WANT to have more emotional range... to induce a sublime state in one moment, then bawl your eyes out the next! I have some suggestions that no one else has mentioned yet. I'll start with perhaps the holy grail. I believe that everyone's life might be a little better if they were to listen to this album while tripping (preferably in nature). I recommend the entire album "Valtari," but here's my favorite song off of it: I'm not sure if this next one is the best WHILE you're tripping (it could be), I find it provides a nice, chill atmosphere for the come-up. It's really underrated how important the come-up stage is. The Full Album is called "Glaciers" (I couldn't find the full album on YT). As I'm sure many of you know, there's quite a bit of prog rock from the 70's that's REALLY good for tripping. I've found these to be my personal favorites: This next one was quite a find... If you're looking for the most mystical and extra-planetary experience, then give this one a shot: I love Pink Floyd, but I've found their best album for tripping (MDMA for healing is especially potent) to be The Division Bell. This song will literally put you on Cloud 9: Ok, moving into psytrance. I'm sure most of you have heard of these already, but I'll put my favorites in anyway Anything by Entheogenic. Here's the latest album: Shpongle... you gotta have Shpongle. If you're new to them, I'd start with this album ("No Turn Unstoned" if you just have time for 1 song): Then move on to Museum of Consciousness (my personal favorite) and Codex VI. Absolutely my favorite more "recreational" tripping music. But don't fool yourself into thinking there's not something to be gained for spiritual purposes. It definitely enhances your trip in unfathomable ways. You're just along for the ride

@SageModeAustin I feel you man. Life is hard. I'm also going through a really rough time. It seems like the distance between Nihilism and God-awareness gets shorter every day. One day I'll feel so happy and peaceful that I'm on the right path, the next I'll descend into egoic mind Chaos... There's nothing but suffering. None of this actually matters. What's the point? FUCK THIS!!!!! I know that these thoughts are illusion. I know this is a violent grasp of the ego to regain control of "reality." I know these emotions inside me are doing everything in their power to make me quit and fall back asleep. Despite this "knowing", I can't control my emotions and I'll still feel them. Emotions overwhelm logic 10 times out of 10. It's literally the most violent and savage battle ever conceived, and it's playing out inside my own mind. Perhaps it's the Dark Night of the Soul that everyone's talking about. It's like a dark vice grip, and I can't control it. Here's the bitter (or sweet?) irony of it: Everything you said was true. Not even Leo Gura can deny that. But he'd tell you that it's a perspective. "Nothing matters" is the fact. Is that the ugliness of it? Or is that the beauty of it? See, I can understand the infinite beauty of this infinite void/consciousness that evolved to where we are right now just so that it could experience and marvel at itself. It's mind-blowing how beautiful this universe is. Inexpressible. On the other hand, I can also see the suffering in it. The grueling nature of it. The filth. The stink. This isn't just a human perspective, look out in nature and the universe. It's cold. It's heartless. It's savage. Everything that lives has to fucking struggle to stay alive. Death is inevitable. It fills me with sadness, disgust, and a little rage that we're trapped here with no say in the matter. I'm being as open and honest as I can, for you. I can see both perspectives so clearly, so fully. I can feel each on a cellular level. What's interesting is that they both make me cry, but for vastly different reasons. I cry with joy and wonder when I experience the beauty of nature. It's the most beautiful sensation one could ever have. Nirvana. On the other hand, I cry like a little child when I experience the anger and helplessness of existential defeat. It's the most palpable and sour emotion you could imagine. It's literally what it feels like to die and not have anyone else care about you or remember you; it literally rips your heart out. Imagine yourself as the man on the floor bleeding to death, still conscious, watching the credits of your life roll past your eyes. Helpless. Is this not the worst fate imaginable? That's because you're taking the perspective of someone who is dying. "Is dying" is an active mode of consciousness. Notice that. You can be locked in that mode while still physically "living." That's the tragedy. Notice how both of these perspectives seem to lie at the same point: Ultimate Truth. Remember Leo talking about the theme of things going full circle? You must go past the inflection point to get to what lies beyond. Life and Death are balanced at the same point. They are the same thing. That duality collapses. God and the Devil aren't on opposite sides of the spectrum of "goodness!" They actually wrap around to lie at the same exact point! God is the Devil. That duality must collapse. But what lies beyond (inflection point), and is there even such a thing? Yes! Even though they're viewing the same thing, there's a very clear and distinct difference between these two perspectives. This may sound really strange.... but it's TIME. Yes, you read that right. "Wait, what? How does that make any sense?" Or if you've heard about this concept before, it really is that simple. That. Fucking. Simple. It's hilarious how simple it is. The difference between someone thinking the world is ugly or beautiful is directly correlated with how much they're living in the present moment. That's literally the only difference between the two perspectives. Now, notice how I'm not saying both perspectives are equally valid... One is closer to Truth, one isn't. One is illusion and ego-based. One isn't. In one perspective, you're trapped in your own mind and actively dying. In the other, you're actively living. I'm not going to spell it all out for you, but the more you contemplate this, the more you'll realize how true this is. It's easy to delude ourselves into thinking it's more complicated or that there's some other way. But it really is that simple. Good luck my friend! I'm certain that I helped myself just as much, if not more, by writing this out. And yes, I'm aware that you could have been tongue in cheek. Doesn't matter. Because this is actually a perspective one could have. I wrote it for myself and anyone else who might need it.

My suggestion? Take 200-300ug. In my experience (vast experience), the trip is very likely to be positive and "controllable" or "steer able" from disaster as long as you're not taking over 300ug. Set and setting are everything. If there's even a 5% chance of something weird happening in your environment outside of your control (like a neighbor), don't do it. It doesn't matter if you're at a friends house or not, you can take things over and make the space as comfortable as possible. Prioritize a stable and safe environment over "familiar." The trip rockets you off anyway. Safe travels my friend!

The wisest people speak the most simply and clearly. There's this whole attitude in academia that you have to be verbose to sound intelligent. This is totally wrong. "If you can't explain it simply, then you don't understand it well enough." -Albert Einstein

@Sven One thing to ponder... Why is enlightenment so funny? It's the most oddly funny thing in the world. What the fuck is going on here?

Perhaps it's the sensation of laughing about laughing? Always keeping a meta understanding of a humorous situation can lead to an infinite regress of laughter, only for you to surrender to infinite PRESENT laughter. There's infinite humor in every moment... It's just a matter of if you're aware of it or not. And not like "savage" laughter. It's humor that's more tender, I'd say... Anyways, that's just my thoughts on it ?

Oh, I'm sorry that I completely misunderstood you. My bad... So you understand that you as a human body have absolutely no control. The one doing the scripting is not you. Is it ultimately scripted? That's a tricky one. This experience only knows and has the present moment, so a "planning ahead" or strategizing is not possible. The very concept of a script is just that: a concept. It can have no actuality. If you haven't yet, I highly recommend watching Leo's live awakening experience video, and the follow up one explaining the integration of the experience. There is no script, but things are exactly how they're meant to be. That's where your inner peace came from. The future will happen exactly how it will happen, inevitably, but there is no script. It's perfectly chaotic. Perfect. Cheers!

@Bauer1977 You don't have to believe me. You don't even have to believe Leo here. You can demonstrate this for yourself. Whether you click this video or not is not up to you. Either your desire for Truth wins out, or your desire to stay asleep wins out. Here is the man himself:

I don't think I misunderstood you. There's an important distinction to be made here. "Not resisting" is not something you can flip like a switch. If it was that easy, everyone would do it. One must learn why they're resisting. They must make sense of it. Why is chasing the Ox one of the first steps to enlightenment? Because the ego needs something to chase to make it worthwhile. It is only through this process of chasing and taming the ox that you are able to embody and see that you were the Ox the whole time. ONLY THEN can you surrender. If I read your post correctly, you advocate for beginners to stop chasing and making sense of the world. It doesn't work like that.

@cetus56 LOL! No, I'm far from embodying it, as I'm still on my early journey. But I feel it. I know the source of humor. And it's a beautiful thing.