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  1. @Carl-Richard Lol that should not be something u are able to do, not that I’m blaming u personally since u didn’t use it with any bad intentions; but that looks so much like I actually said that, that I had to check XD. I think I have always understood relativity intellectually since even low stage green, but I never really let that understanding affect my life. Right now though I’d say I let it affect me a lot more than it used to. I’d say I’m more high stage green/low yellow rn though, as in a conversation with my brother (who’s a moderate) we started talking about politics and I still got a little defensive. However, I let it go much more easily than I could have done in the past. I might not be fully stage yellow but one things for sure: I have become a lot less self absorbed. (:
  2. @Aquarius Thanks(: @UDT thanks for the list, I definitely agree with the first 4 checkboxes except I feel more excited about this new way of thinking than I am scared, although that might change in the future.
  3. @bejapuskas Again, I’m not rlly sure I’m in stage yellow I’m just guessing I am and it’s only been one day. But right now I do, I feel better equipped to handle the problems life throws at me, and I think this probably happens whenever u go up the spiral, so even from stage orange to green for example.
  4. As the title suggests: I think, but I’m not sure; that I have broken into stage yellow. Although this could be me jumping the gun and saying I’m higher than I actually am on the spiral because of my ego, I do feel pretty confident that at least for right now, I have become a lot less self absorbed and much more able to see other’s perspectives. I also am semi-confident that this is a stable state as it doesn’t feel unsustainable for me, like other spiritual highs so to speak; have felt. So how did this come to be? I first want to thank Leo: without him I’d probably still be living a mediocre life. So thank u Leo, if you are reading this, a million times a million times a million ad Infinitum lol. Specifically though I’d attribute this breakthrough to his video about democracy, which I think quite deeply lays out the flaws and limits of stage green, and thus at that time myself. This video was phenomenal, and if u are deep in stage green I’d highly recommended u watch it. I also want to tell anyone new to self-actualizing to stick with it. I know that most of the time it can seem like you are stagnating, or at least personally that’s how I have felt. But although the process is slow; it is also steady, and the rewards build upon each other. To give you a sense of the enormity of the time you’ll be required to commit to progress: I have been self-actualizing for 3 years now and have only really advanced one stage. But that one stage is worth it. Leo’s video wasn’t the only thing that helped me breakthrough, although the next part is much more personal. Personally, I have always been pretty introverted and a loner. I never had many friends nor did I feel the the need to get them. I have never really felt all that lonely either. But this introversion made me very unsure of my social capabilities, and for the longest time I felt I was way behind my peers in this department. So fast forward to around a week after watching Leo’s democracy video: I decided to play a dnd-style roll playing game so I could practice my social skills in what I felt was a safe environment. After playing for a while I met a girl who was going through some really bad times, although of course I only figured this out after interacting with her for a while. She opened up to me about her depression and through a long string of messages I finally managed to make her feel happy at least for today. In fact I think I managed to make her have a spiritual high even though spirituality as a whole was foreign to her. This interaction obviously made me much more confident in my social abilities, and since my lack of confidence was probably a key part of what was holding me back personally to stage green, I think that is why this boost made me break through. Anyways, that is it for this post and feel free to ask me any questions. I will let u all know if I fall back down to stage green. Also sorry if the formatting is a little weird, I wrote this out on my phone.
  5. At first I though nihilism was really bad, because it meant that nothing has meaning. So there's no point in doing anything. Then I thought it was great, because it meant that I choose what has meaning. So you should do what you want to do. Now I question why I should give anything meaning, and have come to the conclusion to do what I'm going to do. But while this seems logical to me, it also fills me with unease.
  6. You are authentically beautiful. Remember philosophy. It's ok to have a mediocre life, don't be afraid of it, but set your sights on something higher.
  7. @okulele @Mart Thanks! I'll try to add another 30 min session of abiding during a separate part of the day.
  8. I'm currently doing the kriya yoga laid out by Santata Gamana for 30 mins. At the end of the yoga I meditate for as long as I want to, which is only about 5 minutes. So, should I force myself to meditate more, or is that ok?
  9. @i am I AM Are you just saying that concepts are perceptions too? I would agree, but why is that prevalent to the discussion? Just to avoid confusion, I'm not saying success is better than happiness. Just that I don't think happiness is what you should search for in the end.
  10. @111111 I'm actually taking AP Psych right now, lol. I never stipulated that there was a positive correlation between happiness and material wealth(: But I'm usually of the mind set that happiness is what you should be aiming for, not success. But both material wealth and happiness are perceptions, so they must both be negative space, right? Also, isn't the only reason the illusion of ego exists, is because your excluding everything you aren't?
  11. If all of perception is negative space, that means wanting any perceptual thing is wanting to be less than what you already are. So people who want material things are wanting to be less than they are. Does this also apply to happiness? Does wanting happiness equate to wanting less than what you are?
  12. @CroMagna Honestly, I don't even know if I want to go to college. Instead of becoming a professor, I might make my own "class". If I become a professor, i'll have to jump through hoops and teach what the principal wants me to teach. Also, although there isn't a large market for philosophy teachers, there is a large market for parents who want their children to become successful. So I can market from that angle.
  13. Hi, I just finished watching Leo's latest video and I think I have a very, very, very rough idea for what I want to do for work when I grow up. In one sentence - I want to be a philosophy professor who teaches people how to teach themselves. There are 3 reasons I think this would be a good life purpose for me. 1) I love philosophy. Doing philosophy gives me the same feeling that doing yoga does, sometimes an even better feeling. 2) I want to teach a class and not teach over a media platform. This will allow me to put more effort into each individual, and I think it would be more fun/stimulating for me. 3) I want to teach people how to teach themselves. I think this would have a bigger impact on people, and would require less time. I have 2 questions: 1) What questions should I ask myself? 2) What skills should I cultivate while I still have an "abundance" of free time? Thanks in advance. P.S: I probably won't teach spirituality. Instead I'll teach self-actualization because I think this would be a less controversial method. I can't buy the life purpose course because I am financially dependent on my parents. I'm scared that if I ask them to buy me the course, they'll look into him and see his videos on psychedelics/god. I'm currently trying to raise their level of trust in me. I will probably try to answer any question I get on this forum. This helps me organize m thoughts, get feedback, and get motivation. It also gives me a place to store my research.
  14. @Mu_ Yeah, i'm doing kriya yoga for 30 mins, or 1 hour if i can. It's not that I don't have free-time, but i have a lot less free-time than i used to. The yoga definitely helps with the frustration i get from lack of progress(:
  15. @Serotoninluv &@Mu_ Thank you both(: I'm probably going to stop posting in this forum for a while. I'm at the point in my school career where it's a little hard to keep up, and trying to do school and philosophize at the same time is making me lose sleep ): Thank you all for listening to me ramble on.