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Your life purpose is your creation it won't be revealed to you. I'd say focus on what inspires you most. Every road leads to Rome.

BEFORE anything make sure your diet is on point and start meditation 30min everyday this should help a lot with energy.

I suggest you read the book mastery by George Leonard. Might seem off topic but I think it would be great for you to get your mind off of yourself and there's nothing like mastery if you truly love what you are going into. It also changes you in the process because to persist on this road you have no choice but to change the way you operate. If you don't have a life purpose take Leo's course it is quite heavily linked to that. The goal here is to make your life about something other than yourself which in turn means you'll have to change yourself to actualize that. But you will have the motivation to do it. Just keep walking my friend you got it.

@Nivsch I hope you've watched this week's video. I think it is relevant to your original post!

A better alternative to affirmation would be deconstruction of your existing belief I think. For exemple: let's say I am shy. Instead of saying to myself that I am this confident person repeatedly even though I think the exact opposite I could ask myself questions. Why am I shy in the first place? I am trying to avoid something by doing those affirmations? If so what am I avoiding? etc. Affirmations are like putting a band-aid on a bullet wound. Sure it might cover-up the hole but you are still going to die if you don't remove that bullet inside of you.

Personally I cannot listen to music while working on something that's intellectually demanding. I always end up losing myself in the sounds and I stop working. When I listen to music I sit there, close my eyes and listen deeply. When I do something else I do something else. The more you can narrow your focus in life the better IMO.

Tempeh is the least processed. I would go with that.

Yeah be cautious

Well it would be like the very moment you are experiencing right now.

Take two seconds to look by your window at a fully mature tree and try to fathom what 20 000 000 of them look like.

All the time ideally but at first it doesn't seem like it.

Might also be caused by hearing damage. Protect your ears kids!

You can't fake that. You have to actually be present. You are just avoiding the emotional labor with this comforting belief.

You don't seem very well informed about the substances that are out there. I would say start by doing some in depth research on any substance that you intend to take(especially the dosages). I can't tell for 5-Meo I have yet to try it. 5g dried of psilocybe cubensis is quite a lot. If you are interested start with something like 1g Erowid as great info but don't limit yourself to this one site.

Depends on the dosage I would say. Don't start with 5g dry mushrooms you are going to scare yourself. Work your way up. It's even better if you are alone in my opinion. Unless you are really anxious about it and want someone to tripsit you.

There's a recent post about that if you scroll a little bit.

Aren't you contradicting yourself?

Could it be that you feel insecure about yourself and that's the reason you feel the need to prove yourself as this strong alpha male? Even the strongest of them all is still vulnerable.

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@SgtPepper Are you talking about the taste or the nutritional aspect?

Just hanging out in nature is amazing. Pick up a musical instrument(I might be biased on that one?)

Notice that you did wake up. You didn't die in your sleep so that's a win already and the day hasn't even begun!

So something interesting as happened yesterday. I was at a family dinner and all sort of arguments started to pop up. Such as the environment, politics(in canada) and to an extent some xenophobic ideas about muslims. I could have just shut up and let the thing happen but I decided to expose some green ideas to my mostly orange family. No need to tell you that they didn't like that. The main blockage that I noticed was that they used their old age to validate their position. As in: I lived through a lot of stuff therefore what I believe is true and what you(me) think is bullshit because you are 20 years old. They are telling me that when I grow up I will understand that I was deluded. They believe that the whole ecological movement is just a trend that will die out. I am willing to admit that they lived through way more stuff than I did and they surely know more than me about how to manage survival within the current system that we live in but I honestly can't buy into their ideas anymore. It just seems so silly to believe that(and I am retelling what I heard yesterday) poor people in less developed countries are responsible for the ecological crisis and that our hedonist lifestyle here in the West isn't. And at the same time cultivating hate and fear for those people so that we make sure that they do not come here and corrupt our way to live with their beliefs. The level of self-reflection is very low and I am a bit lost as to how I can handle those types of situations. On one hand I understand that they are where they are and I can't push green ideas onto them without serious backlash. On the other hand I genuinely feel sad about our unsustainable way to live and I would like to do something about it. I feel like the resistance toward moving up into green is HUGE. I feel like there is no concern at all for what is happening outside of our family. My dad told me that he is willing to make effort for the environment as long as it doesn't compromise his own confort.(By confort I mean all the material stuff like bad food, alcohol, entertainment, shopping, technology. I personally couldn't care less about that so there is a huge gap between them and me. I am trying to find a common ground but I can't find any. By the way I consider myself mostly green with orange and yellow in there.

@Adam M Thank you for the great perspectives everyone.

Remember that the more you do something the easier it gets. If you have social anxiety then go to a bunch of social events. Talk to strangers and face your fear head on. There's is a limit to what introspection can do. You have to consciously put yourself out of your confort zone. Then you will have no choice but to grow.