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Don't you remember a time in your life where you did the exact same thing? Were you conscious of what you were doing? You gotta keep in mind that they are not conscious of their unconsciousness(obviously dah). Would you get mad at a toddler for not already being able to speak? Understand that he needs the exposure to the language and many trials and errors before he can get an idea across.

You need to seriously check out your diet. To be quite honest most of the things you listed are straight up poison for you. Get your diet together and you'll see improvements for sure. Organic and fresh fruits/vegetables above everything but you'll need to pace yourself during the transition if you don't want your intestines rebel against you. With proper diet you should be able to ditch coffee and all medication that you are taking. @Michael569 you got great advice from this guy up there.

I guess it might but it might also not. My health is in way better shape since I stopped counting macros and shit. Your body knows what's up if you care to pay attention.

That's inspiring ?

Forget about what you think it is. This is it.

@Lento ?

There's no ordered process to figuring out your optimal diet but I will say this. You probably need a lot less food than you think. Eat organic, fresh, real food.

@EddieEddie1995 let's say I am learning a new language. Instead of learning a whole bunch of vocabulary and trying to memorize it I would focus on one word and try to use it in bunch of different context until I don't even have to think about it. That way my mind is free to shift focus on another word and so on. Let's say I am learning to play the piano. I could start to learn all the exotic scales that are out there but it would be too much for my mind to actually make music with that. Instead I can focus on one note. That way I have all my mental energy to integrate how that note feels, how I can change it's meaning with dynamics, articulation, etc. I can make music with that one note until I know it intimately, personally, until I don't have to think about it.(that is key) then I can focus on another note, etc. My point here is that you have limited focus and you don't want to overwhelm yourself. By going small you can learn much more efficiently. Verify it for yourself. After a while all the small things you integrate start to add up and your ability to observe and integrate things grows. Before you know it you have enough words integrated in you that you recognize petterns within the language and you can integrate whole sentences at a time. Before you know it you have enough experience with your major scale that you can transcribe a whole phrase without even having your piano at hand because you know the notes deeply, personally. There's no rush. It's tempting to try and take a lot of things or to big of a thing all at once but it's counter productive you actually end up shooting yourself in the foot. I feel like I lack the language to communicate what I mean to you but remember that true learning happens when you totally loose yourself in what you are doing. When there's no distinction between you and what you are learning. When your awareness is able zero in on the thing and nothing outside of it exists. Learning is awareness really. In your case I would say pick the habit that you feel the most, that inspires you the most and focus on that specific habit until you don't have to exerce willpower anymore. When you feel that it has become who you are. Then shift to something else. Edit: Picture it like this: imagine that you want to carry 300pounds worth of rocks from point A to point B.(the rocks are your habits) The only way you are going to even be able to do that is to break that down in chonks and carry all of those individually. I don't know you but imagine yourself trying to carry a 300pounds backback full of rocks on your back lol.

The smaller the focus the better. You can move on a lot faster that way and what you do learn is deeply integrated.

Be yourself

Your life purpose is your creation it won't be revealed to you. I'd say focus on what inspires you most. Every road leads to Rome.

BEFORE anything make sure your diet is on point and start meditation 30min everyday this should help a lot with energy.

I suggest you read the book mastery by George Leonard. Might seem off topic but I think it would be great for you to get your mind off of yourself and there's nothing like mastery if you truly love what you are going into. It also changes you in the process because to persist on this road you have no choice but to change the way you operate. If you don't have a life purpose take Leo's course it is quite heavily linked to that. The goal here is to make your life about something other than yourself which in turn means you'll have to change yourself to actualize that. But you will have the motivation to do it. Just keep walking my friend you got it.

@Nivsch I hope you've watched this week's video. I think it is relevant to your original post!

A better alternative to affirmation would be deconstruction of your existing belief I think. For exemple: let's say I am shy. Instead of saying to myself that I am this confident person repeatedly even though I think the exact opposite I could ask myself questions. Why am I shy in the first place? I am trying to avoid something by doing those affirmations? If so what am I avoiding? etc. Affirmations are like putting a band-aid on a bullet wound. Sure it might cover-up the hole but you are still going to die if you don't remove that bullet inside of you.

Personally I cannot listen to music while working on something that's intellectually demanding. I always end up losing myself in the sounds and I stop working. When I listen to music I sit there, close my eyes and listen deeply. When I do something else I do something else. The more you can narrow your focus in life the better IMO.

Tempeh is the least processed. I would go with that.

Yeah be cautious

Well it would be like the very moment you are experiencing right now.

Take two seconds to look by your window at a fully mature tree and try to fathom what 20 000 000 of them look like.

All the time ideally but at first it doesn't seem like it.

Might also be caused by hearing damage. Protect your ears kids!

You can't fake that. You have to actually be present. You are just avoiding the emotional labor with this comforting belief.

You don't seem very well informed about the substances that are out there. I would say start by doing some in depth research on any substance that you intend to take(especially the dosages). I can't tell for 5-Meo I have yet to try it. 5g dried of psilocybe cubensis is quite a lot. If you are interested start with something like 1g Erowid as great info but don't limit yourself to this one site.

Depends on the dosage I would say. Don't start with 5g dry mushrooms you are going to scare yourself. Work your way up. It's even better if you are alone in my opinion. Unless you are really anxious about it and want someone to tripsit you.