Rigel

Good ole 20's swing. Delicious

I like them. They are nutritious and cheap, which is great for a broke ass musician like me. I don't get bloating or gases at all but I know a good few people do. I still can't exist without fresh, juicy fruits and veggies but a staggering amount of my atoms come from beans. Edit: I mean a shocking amount of my flesh is made of beans. I live with the beans. I am the beans.

It's probably right that taking a newcomer to the field of spirituality and throwing him off the deep end with a month of daily 5-Meo is going to be dangerous and unravel their life in unhealthy ways, but that noob can wet their feet. I think they would be making their life harder by trying to burn through every desire before even opening a book about meditation or some other practice. They won't hit rock bottom by focusing on their breath an hour a day but that's a foot in the doorstep and it most likely would help them achieve their earthly desires by dropping unnecessary mental crap they are holding on to. I think what I am coming around to is that getting into spirituality too young is not the mistake. The mistake is making spirituality your sole and only focus before you have a way to exist and survive in the world. Unless you don't care about living and just want the cake of all cakes. Which is totally fine.

If it wasn't for my spiritual path I would have given up on my life purpose a while ago. To me this either/or mentality is equal to stagnation. Some people's minds work in different ways than yours

I cringe a lot at everything YouTube is trying to feed me these days. Especially YouTube spiritually.

“Take this kiss upon the brow! And, in parting from you now, Thus much let me avow— You are not wrong, who deem That my days have been a dream; Yet if hope has flown away In a night, or in a day, In a vision, or in none, Is it therefore the less gone? All that we see or seem Is but a dream within a dream. I stand amid the roar Of a surf-tormented shore, And I hold within my hand Grains of the golden sand— How few! yet how they creep Through my fingers to the deep, While I weep—while I weep! O God! can I not grasp Them with a tighter clasp? O God! can I not save One from the pitiless wave? Is all that we see or seem But a dream within a dream?” -Edgar Allan Poe

@actuallyenlightened Dude, LSD lasts 10hrs and the main angle of attack that we have for legalization right now is to first make it legal in therapy settings. Very hard to fit 10-12hrs trip into a therapist's work day. As long as you don't take too much, there's nothing about mushrooms that you can't handle.

This. If you are experiencing come up anxiety(which is normal; your job is to accept that on a macro dose), you are taking too much. Cut your dose in half and if you still feel anxious cut that one in half again and so on.

Maybe trade all the time you spend searching for and trying new drugs with time working out? I'd wager it's gonna be more effective for your sleep.

What about dried stuff? I eat tons of dried mushrooms, rice, beans & oats. I seem to be doing fine. Is there even living cells in those? Doesn’t seem like it.

I am teaching music to preschool kids in a city where we have French and English as official languages. We speak both of them interchangeably. Like one sentence will be French and the next English. Kids are very good at learning all of that. They can make the distinction later about which is which but they can speak and understand both.(as much as you can expect from a 4ish year old) I don’t have experience with more languages than that but three doesn’t seem that far of a stretch.

Psychs make you less stable not more stable. More aware yes but definitely not more stable. Like if you want to amplify your emotions and feel them more deeply it’s the right tool but if you are taking it to manage them and control them you are going to be disappointed.

I wouldn’t be so confused about everything. I would be sure and confident about my ideology. I would probably try to convince and convert people I know!

Get a job at Starbucks or something. I am sure you could save up that amount in a few months and then you are free to give all of it to those scammers.

How you keep trying to convince yourself is baffling. I know it stings but you gotta bite the bullet and cut your losses. You made a mistake. Learn from it.

I like the guy. He loves what he does.

All drugs aren’t born equal?‍♂️

Why do you keep eating dairy?

Yeah she sounds great! Her dad is a legend in India as well

Day 9 update: life has decided to give me the flu on top. I lost my voice for two days and had to cancel some lessons I was supposed to give. I also have canker sore over my wisdom teeth so it takes me 2hrs to finish a meal and I cry throughout from the pain. My dreams are coming back. I don’t have the insane powerful dreams that people report from quitting. They are very mild. Last night I dreamt I was relapsing funny enough. I am suffering a whole lot but there’s an acceptance of that. Haven’t had this much struggle in while. I don’t have strong cravings anymore. My decision is so final that anytime I think about it I go:” Ah! Mental crap. This belongs in the trash.” And I move on.

I’ve been a pretty regular cannabis user for years in the form of vapour mainly. Some months daily. Other months sober but I always got back into it. I’ve tried moderation. It doesn’t work for me. As soon as I get a taste of it I want the whole damn thing and it becomes neurotic. In the past few months I’ve managed to not inhale any cannabis by using edibles. At first my main concern was lung and voice health which I am happy to say I am doing much better on that front. But by uncovering this neurotic pattern of behaviour I’ve noticed that it’s not just lung and voice health that I want. I want emotional maturity and the courage to deal with my feelings consciously. No more crutches. So I dropped edibles as well a few days ago. I am currently going through pretty gnarly withdrawals so any tips on that are welcome. Today I was teaching in the morning and in the afternoon I wanted to be productive and get my mind off of those withdrawals but instead I laid down on my couch and observed my breath for 4hrs straight. I obviously didn’t fall asleep cause I literally cannot right now. Hard as heck but hey that’s what I wanted right. In that time I uncovered another neurotic thought pattern. I guilt trip and beat myself up constantly for failing to be productive and do the shit I want to be doing to achieve my goals. But maybe laying down and fucking doing nothing was exactly what I needed. I had moments of sobriety in the past but this one feels different. I feel like I am at a crossroad and I want to keep myself accountable.

@Ry4n I appreciate the advice and I don’t doubt that you get benefits from that but I am cutting all ties and not looking back.

@Staples Aaah I get it. Don't mind my previous response. I just realized you've only read the title. That is understandable.

1. Why? 2. Did that years ago. 3. Yeah I am in the process of doing that. Thanks I guess.

I am looking forward to it. I can't even remember what it's like.