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@The Lucid Dreamer So….my first dream started spontaneously. I was in Europe, Vienna. I knew immediately that I am dreaming and I started to open my eyes as wide as I could. I could not believe that my mind constructed such a beauty inside of the dream. It did not last long. Maybe five minutes total. I was just looking at the architecture and was stunned with that beauty. I remember it was a night time and there were a lot of lights in the city. I kept asking: how could I see this if I was dreaming and my eyes were closed. Do you want me to tell you about my other dreams or it is enough?

@tedens I am just trying to participate how I can, I am in the middle of my module and writing the work about American Scene murals for my History class.

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@The Lucid Dreamer @tedens Guys, I love this thread. I am swamped with my university classes, I will get back tonight after I am done with my module. @The Lucid Dreamer When did you start your spiritual quest?

@The Lucid Dreamer It is very interesting, I loved your story.... I will get back to you shorty soon with the description of my own dreams

@isabel it is my favorite topic ? it is very very subtle, you need to take some effort to see that thing who is being aware, it is almost impossible. It comes prior to any thought and feeling.

@The Lucid Dreamer so it all started a couple of years ago, when I started to follow Leo and ponder about reality. What is real, what is not. Objectivity vs subjectivity. Basically during the whole day I was trying to be super attentive to physical world, I was looking around and tried to rest in my awareness. Then, all of a sudden I had a lucid dream. It was so funny because I immediately in my dream did something I would never do in reality. It was laughable. It just happened to me, never did anything special for it. Sometimes I would be dreaming and realizing that I am dreaming because what I see is nonsense ( once I saw lots of dead ,kinda like dolls in New York subway. It triggered the realization that I am in the dream) what about you? What do you do in your lucid dreams? I know lots of guys are dreaming about sex with ladies. Other than that was there anything else you do and what was it? thanks for your participation:)

@The Lucid Dreamer we need to transfer some people from that thread thanks for doing it ??

@Nahm It is not something new, I've just never mentioned it for a long time. I had quite a lot of lucid dreams in my life. This is by far my favorite thing to experience. I usually try hard in my dream to open my eyes as wide as I can because I do not understand in my dream how I can see the world with my eyes if I am sleeping.

@The Lucid Dreamer Can you please start a new thread for us, I want to discuss this topic further Thank you @tedens just give us some time

@The Lucid Dreamer In my last dream I told myself : this is just as real as when I am awake I love lucid dreaming, I had like ten of them in my life. I am afraid we can not talk about this in this thread. We can create a special topic for this

@tedens that would be nice

Leo, do you lucid dream? I had a lucid dream again the other week. People say that when you raise awareness, you are even aware in your dreams all the time.

@Emerald I will reply you in PM

I love this thread and this topic so much. Because of this thread and this topic I forgave my friend today and I was absolutely compassionate toward him when he was angry with me. I was just thinking that he was not real and it helped me to realize that there is no need for drama. The idea that others do not exist helps to raise my awareness a lot. I wish from all my heart to remember this all the time, otherwise I will fall asleep again allowing pride and anger to rule my day. Thank you so much and I love you a lot, Leo ( I am not being flirty here), I mean it in a good way.

I am not there yet to see it as infinite love. I can accept it, but still not there yet. I mean the word Love for me is complected. I do not feel it like you do now. To me, love you are talking about, is something unknown, some concept. Leo, I could take a psychedelic, I promise, I do not know where to get it. I do not even mingle with such people. Maybe one day I will. I am sure I will post here my experience with it.

@WHO IS Imagine you are in the big sandbox and can play how you want, would you be upset in destroying some sand castles? Ofc not. You can build and destroy them over and over again. You talk about God as of some anthropomorphic separated being.

@WHO IS I know it is painful to take and seems unfair. Why a second ago someone's child has been killed? Why people lose their families because of the Covid-19? I see God as a fractal with infinite facets.

@WHO IS Well, if you are God, you are infinite and have infinite facets of reality. What you are experiencing right now is just another facet. You as God is experiencing billions of different facets where you can be healthy, handicap, rich and poor, everything you could imagine.

Okay, this is the most by far difficult stuff to grasp as our mind thinks in a liner way. When I start thinking of it, it gives me a headache. I can not grasp that time does not exist and never did, and that I will not be able exit from this reality it in the future with my death. Like I will be in this moment forever, or I have never been born. Well, I am okay with it, but what about yesterday? it felt so real, an hour ago was real. I can not understand this. I have a memory of walking outside an hour ago in my neighborhood. I can stomach that I have never been born, but I can not stomach that I have never walked outside an hour ago. I still remember the people I met on my path. This is crazy.

Actually, it feels relaxing to think about it, but at the same time it is very depressing. I do not even know how to explain this.... From one side no need to worry about how you look, how others perceive you. They do not talk about you when you are not “there”, they do not exist at all. I just do not understand how I should hold myself with others?! I am not there yet. Logically I do understand this concept. But my ego is having a roller coaster from time to time. It still behaves as an animal. I feel shame for it. I just try to observe it a little bit and do not participate fully. I observe my anger, but I am still fully in it. I can not stop it. Thanks God I am aware of my behavior and not completely asleep. But it does not help me to control my temper. My ego acts as a small child when parents are not at home, then I regret and feel shame about it. But also, what I have noticed I never dwell on any of my emotion. I can be upset for 10 mins max and then I reborn. This is crazy. It is like a cloud upon you, then sunshine again. But usual things still upset me, like today I was angry with my computer and was ready to take a hammer and break it into pieces because it was slow and could lose my college paper that I was working on all day. See, acting like an angry animal.

@The Lucid Dreamer Have you really stomached the notion that others are just a part of your imagination? If yes, it should liberate you from any negative feelings.

@The Lucid Dreamer Thank you for the advice. I am not against of any psychedelic’s pursuit. However, I do not know any people or places where they would practice them in a safely manner. I have never tried any drugs, whatsoever. I just can not go outside and ask unknown sources. It is not safe. It is great that you are doing meditations.

I agree 100 % As my coach always told me there was no "right" or "wrong" paths. There is only one path and it is tailored for you.

Thanks for your help and explanation