Galyna

@Nahm I know you are....it made me laugh though.

@Prevailer Wonderful. This forum is a great place to share. You are not alone...

@Prevailer You too, my friend, sorry if I was not explicit enough. We could continue maybe next time, today this discussion is not in my cards But hey, "stiffen up that upper lip", everything is going to be great, I promise. The state you are experiencing right now is just temporary. Always remember this, and you will feel better, guaranteed. You know my favorite quote is "Time changes everything, even the way you think!"

@Prevailer Nah, I am so sorry, have nothing to do with you, but I am not in the mood to open a new thread, but you are welcome if you want to. Hope someone can help you and best of luck.

Outward thoughts and inward ego, as you call it, is, in fact the same thing.

Absolutely, I do consider that I am a thought, an idea, a concept. In fact, there is no such thing as "I" But on the deeper level, there is an awareness, therefore I am not a thought either. So the question is relative, and depends on the paradigm and various angles you want to look at it.

what you call multiple egos are just thoughts.

I agree with this statement. Well of course, because any cognitive capacity, you name it, is your ego in a sense. Your whole reality is predicated upon your ego.

@Prevailer If you want to go that route, then I will surprise you. There are much more than two egos. Gurdjieff used to claim that a person has a machine-like nature, and this machine is possessed with numerous "I"s, and each "I" has its own arbitration, however, there is no one "I" that can be a CEO of your mind. I hope we are talking about the same thing. OR There is alter ego, super ego, etc...

yep, that is what I need to desire less, to expect less

@Prevailer I feel like you misinterpret the work. Can you please elaborate what you mean under "2 off Egos"

It is hard to say, I mean my current level of development, since I can not assess myself properly. I have some knowledge, trying to observe myself and be aware.

Any emotion that you know has a tendency to lose its power. Just observe them and wait, see what will happen. One day you will wake up and it will be irrelevant.

This is a great question...I feel like I am observing someone, who is apparently "me". So I am observing this entity who has lots of passion inside. I am observing how this entity tries to let go and surrender but fails over and over again. I am observing a crazy desire that is burning inside. I am observing the pain and the hell that my desire gives me. I am observing that I am hopeless and should play this role to the end. I know that nothing will save me since I am not in control. I can not wish, I can not pray, I can not want...and this is my surrender.... I am optimistic that this will pass and I will be reborn again. I know for sure that one morning I wake up and this will not matter. I am sure that this is just a temporary state of my being. When approaching closer this realization, I have peace and harmony inside. I am just a part of this ever changing reality. No feeling or emotion can stay forever. I am always changing and there are so many facets about me that I haven't fathomed yet. This gives me power and nourishes my mental fortitude. But, right now it hurts and almost unbearable... Good luck with letting go and surrendering. I know it is hard.

I've been here on this website since 2014, but my perception is a bit different from yours. About predicting, you can not even predict what you are going to say in five minutes, you can not assume that about others. Like truly! The deeper it goes, the more I understand that I know nothing. I truly do not know myself, I can not guarantee anything to myself anymore. When retrospecting about my life I clearly see that every event sharpens me like a diamond. I am not in control, there is nothing to pray and hope for. I am learning how to surrender. It hurts, and my ego hates it. The only thing that helps me is to be aware of my emotional state, and really do not get involve that much with my emotions. I think he just tries to inspire others. He is a bit strict sometimes. He says that, so you do not take the path for granted. He really does not want you to relax and sit on the back seat, assuming that the path is complete.

@Emerald thank you . Hugs

@seeking_brilliance wow, this is neat.

@seeking_brilliance Nice group ?. In a few, what you guys do there in that group?

@Emerald Hello Would you be so kind to tell me if I get what I was from the current situation ( I can not really say what the situation is) Basically, pertaining to my situation, will my dream come true? Thank you, dear and hugs to you. Stay safe and healthy.

@Osaid Btw, if this happens pretty often it might be an alarm that you have an underlying health issues. When I was twenty I was working on the cruise liners, we never had sleep there. Because at night you party, during the day you work and explore different ports and cities. I could stay without a proper sleep for entire six month. I slept literally two, three to four hours a day. However, I did not have a paralysis even once.

@tedens You need to study your sleep first, and catch that time properly to wake up during the REM. It's freaky, I would not even recommend doing it.

@Derek White I kinda understand what you mean. In lucid dream the world as almost as real as this one, for me, anyway. I would say that reality is a bit different, more like introverted, lol. Everything converges on you and gives you the opportunity to be very mindful. Probably, because we discuss this topic I had an interesting dream last night but it did not trigger the notion that I was dreaming. I had a dream that I was in the car with two young men. They were siblings. One of them purposely started a car and let it go on a high speed from the cliff, I was on the backseat. My thought was: I am not going to die because I am the main hero in this life-movie and others do not exist. I was waiting for some power to stop the car. And it happened. LOL. Maybe because everybody says on this forum that death, in fact, is imaginary. Usually, such thoughts trigger me to realize I am sleeping. But it was not the case this time Another time I had a very interesting lucid dream being in the mountains and trying to fathom the fabric of snow. I was crumpling it in my hand. I noticed that the fabric of that snow was very viscous. I will expand about it later.

@Beginner Mind I am not a psychic, I but I see....

I would love to, I have a lot to say....but do you think they will allow us talking about different things in this thread? Thank you for writing such a detail response, I really really enjoyed reading it.

@tedens Of course not hahahahah I would even feel shame to drop into details about my lucid dream. But been there, done that. LOL