Galyna

@Judy2 @Vincent S Yes, reality tastes so delicious, yummy till my next dark night of the soul

@michaelcycle00 It did not happen over night, was very gradual. But all of this intellectualization. "I" am still on the pathless path . When I was six, I started searching for God and was trying to explain my existence. Understanding of Reality deepens every day. I cannot say anything about "my" awakening. Awakening? What is awakening? "I" understands only one thing: whatever is available to "me" in a given time, there I am. This is all I know. Truly. How can I know about awakening? I cannot compare "mine" it with the "other"...I know only "mine". Whatever comes from the "outside" experience, stays as "outside" experience! Inner and outer is one, so I am the only awakened being. Me is Other. There is no other.

Interesting, I've read everything. I cannot do psychedelics, so this is not something I am familiar with.@Benton

When you come to the realization that “your life” has never happened, you won’t ask “why” it is there, change the focus of your perception. Go backwards: your life has never happened, nothing has ever existed. What do you feel now? Do you feel at peace?

Break free from duality: something vs nothing. And you will answer this question. Look at it as one coin, not two sides, it is literally one. existence and non existence is one.

Actually this exercise helps to centralize your sensorics.

So this simple exercise brings your awareness back: 1. you are in the room 2. room is in your perception 3. Perception is in your awareness 4. Recognize this awareness and become aware of it. Stay there, somehow it tastes so sweet, you want to stay in this awareness. And in this moment your peripheral vision blurs…it is so tasty when perception really stays in awareness…

I will write down here about the dimensions of perceptions, I know 4 of them.

LOL, I thought I would go crazy couple months ago, I was in existential depression, now, this game that Reality plays with me, keeps my head above

yeah...that is exactly what he told me

It contradicts the non-duality, imho. First vs second. Start vs End...Primary vs Secondary

True....I mean how much of reality exists in my vision? I know nothing is behind my back, but peripheral vision is a little bit different beast.

@Someone here

Guys, can you please explain to me how conscious experience creates peripheral vision? and what is the catch there? Or panoramic vision. Remember Nahm tried to explain to me once and I did not get it. @Reciprocality @Kksd74628@Someone here

@Kksd74628 Yes, I see it is a puzzle to move forward, I know that some interactions with so-called "others" appear to be very painful, but deliberately designed for "me" to rid of the personalized ego. It hones me in a way, hones and killing what has been left from "me".

A lot of people can relate. You will only grasp when let go, relax, forget and won't make an effort. Go watch a stupid show, that is how you get it, LOL. Yes, it is me. Who else would it be? Sommie, wake up, we have been friends here forever....

I mean how can I react to something that is only appearance. Reactions have started to melt.

I do not take "them" seriously, and the coolest thing that I feel, like my reactions that I used to have in the past will start to dissolve very soon.

there is no time, stop here you cant grasp it with logic.

Notice, this is your mind talking, it needs some sort of explanation. How? How can you explain this phenomenon with words? It is not there in the first place to be traced and pointed toward. You see my point? Leave your mind at the Stop sign and try to move on without reasoning. You are a thought/idea, do you understand this? Who and what should be satisfied?

How to deal with it? It is the last bullet to stomach…I became highly aware of this fact.

Everything is just appearance, there is nothing behind the scene ?. remember there is not a body which woke up today. You woke up as reality, noticing this? And you will die again at night. But you can melt it too, since it is a duality. Waking up and falling asleep.

You are the moment yourself, it belongs to nobody, you are not just a pov, you are the whole entire picture. There is nowhere to move, nothing to achieve. Notice how body moves, breathes on its own. You don’t even tell it what to do anymore. I know, wanting to share sucks coz nobody there to see the sunrise, do you get me? You are completely on your own. And I am also writing for myself now, lol….

You are a part of this experience which I call “I”. There is no me in this experience, so there is no you either.

@IamYou Interestingly enough, it does not come with conceptualized knowledge.