Javfly33

Well, you definetely can tune your inner being so that you experience bliss and a feeling of "perfection" with reality, no Matter what the external circumstances. External circumstances are not bad or good, is just that if there is a famine going on your village, It Will be more challenging for you to experience 'perfection'. But still posible. But you Will have to very refined tools.

Energy locks, or In yoga call 'bandhas'. If you search in the internet, it seems nobody knows what they are talking about. It all seems a regurgitation of what they have read in books. I don´t sense they know how serious this stuff is. If you learn how to hold 3 bandhas at once, you will experience an absolute and complete dissolution of the current energies that are within your body and give you a sensation of separation and individuality (and thus of fear, limitation, and unsatisfaction). This is are all suppositions, because in my view, 90% of the yoga teachers/schools don´t even know what they are teaching. But in my experience, what happens when you successfully lock bandhas is that all energy that was within your body gets completely liberated, into all directions (Infinity). When this happens, it can not be put into words, the Ecstasy, and Love that is experienced. Calling it Love is incorrect. Is Ecstasy. No, that is not enough. Is just a shot of pure Heaven. Unity in such an intensity and clarity that is difficult to match with any other tool I´ve tried. Is a shame is just last a few seconds. But what a few seconds. 💥 heaven is here, we just need to find which buttons to push 💪🙏

So in summary, tomorrow is workweek again and probably wont feel quite right and im going to pop some sweet oxy again. My plan is In Christmas i have +15 days holidays and i Will Kick the habit right with some lyrica (pregabalin). Thats the plan. Unless Tomorrow i feel surprisinly fine. But theres nothing more than i hate that working with any sign of restless body since my job is very sedentary. So yeah tomorrow i Will update what the fuck did i do.

I need to try It joe rogan IS all the time talking about It 😂😂 See I have wd from opiates probably 10-15 times in this 5-6 years. You can taper off until a some point but then you need to make the jump to nothing! If not you never end Up stopping... The previous weeks, with the exception of weekends, i was not doing more than 5-10mg of oxy a day. Which is what americans understand as 1 to 2 percs. Thats peanuts compared to what usually people that abuse opiates consume (and that is why my withthdrawals are never physically too dramatic, i make sure when i jump off to nothing the previous weeks ive been maintaining a low habit). I think the problem has been that to help me through this week i got myself some weird rare chem called tomoll x, which has a muscle relaxant substance call "soma", but also has tapentadol in It ,which is also an opiate. But Google said this tapentadol had different action on receptors so i thought maybe i can pull It off. But no, i really havent wd quite right. At any other wd i know 5-6 straight days of 0 opiate gets me to 80-90% baseline. Ive done It +10times. But this time i wanted to try to ease the wd LoL with this tomoll substance. Bad idea. I actually didnt do much progress. And the high wasn't even enjoyable btw. So kids dont do that crap. Im just going to get some lyrica that worked as a charm the previous year i quit the 3 year kratom habit and just eat those 5-6 days of shitty fever, tiredness and muscle aches. One has to pay the ticket for the trips of this last year i Guess lol

💙🙏 Masturbation usually used to crushed me down. At least when I had kratom habit I had to take a dose always after masturbating. Nowadays my fapping habits have changed (less regular, more when the body really feels like it), so I would say it doesn´t change me much. Sauna I will try I think my gym has sauna, never tried but ive heard is really beneficial. Thanks.

Im fucking sick and today is 5th day clean. What the hell is this. Oh yeah, It must be what It means to be having doing opiates almost everyday for 5 fucking years. Fuck me. If tomorrow im not significantly better im going to rail the fattest line of oxy that god has ever seen.... Na, just kidding. This has to end. I need to mature too and stop doing fucking drugs like i was 20. There is a intuition in my heart...i need to quit all drug use for Life...is now or never. Every high is posible to be produced from within. Or so does say my guru

Imo i tried the psychedelic route and didnt worked. At first It seemed like It but then nah. Imo social anxiety come from dark karmic energies absorbed. IMO No therapy, psychedelic, or reiki session can rewire It for Life. For a day, yes, but if the software doesn't get a permanent upgrade, It Will still drag you. The only solution ive discovered are yoguic kriyas, in this you ramp Up your inner energies in such a way that the inner intelligence that is your being, is vibrating in a certain high way that no longer will choose to identify or feed that old low vibration dark software. But there is still a lot work to be done. If i stop doing the kriyas the karmic substance comes back. Is like a drug. I need to do them each day, most of times twice a day, ideally. Is in my Hope, there IS a possibility for this inner energy to completely dismantled the old software. A lot of work has to be done, but i think It IS possible. This IS my experience, you should experiment with what you feel like, but beware, you might be dealing with sonething much much bigger and extremely well welded into your system that what you thought. If you want to get free of It, you might need a tool of gigantestic proportions. A true miracle. Chances are the karmic substance Will laugh of your trials of you trying to solve this with an Amazon book or a 3 day ayahuasca retreat. Much luck.

Who the fuck IS god. Im tired of hearing It so much in this forum.

You can fuck on 5-meo? 😲

I believe too. Leo IS not perfect but has been doing a great work moderating It, there is a good balance heres between allowing a wide range of perspectives but at the same time not letting It become a mad House

Nothing like this! The subreddits are fine but usually most people are very closed minded there. If you go a bit too much out of the normal narrative fast you will be kicked out or canceled

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Let´s use the energy analogy. Let´s say the Whole of Infinity is one Wave of Energy. In this One Wave of Energy, objects, animals, humans are produced/constructed/created. In an object, the wave of this one energy continues perfectly to the next object, to the next molecule, there is perfect conductivity of the energy, like a gold cable. (One of the best materials for conducing electricity) The same happens in animal, since there is no ego or sense of individuality in this Energy, it also conduces well, although maybe, is already not a 100% perfect conductor, let´s say animals might be copper cables. But meet the humans. In the human, a sense of individuality and sense of individual existence is created. Here the Energy STOPS. And it stops and gets twisted so much (the cable is folded in such a way by this ego) that a whole sense of Individual Existence is created. Suddenly there is ME vs Reality. Fear, frustration, desire, confrontation, suffering, gets created. From here, it starts a seeking to go back to the unlimited One Perfect Conducive Energy. To get back to superconductivity. To finally be at ease. To completely disappear as an individual Existence. To become limitless Energy, to experience the ultimate Bliss, the Ultimate Liberation.

I´m having a blast reading you two. Keep it up. 😀 Is like a stand up but two 😆

Damn

I already told you. Therapy might help in the most basic forms of dysfunctional thought patterns. But It nowhere near touch the issue of the karmic substance. And stop projecting dude as you are better than me. 'Addictice tendencies' duh. Your condesdencing actitude in every one of my posts is pathetic. You are obssesed with trying to put me below you by shooting low vibratory identities to me like "addict" or "you have trauma" or "need to go to a therapist". Im tired of your childish games. Grow Up. You are getting blocked.

Well, heres the thing. To the contrary that most people think, i dont find addiction neccesarily bad. As long as the addiction is giving you what you want out of It, what IS. the problem with having a depedence to It? We have a dependence to water, food, and some of US guys also to Coffee. The reason why most of us keep doing coffee is because in our análisis, is worth to be addicted to It. Or in other words, the mental benefits from Coffee justify having a physical dependence and daily habit to It. When i wanted to try Oxy is because i knew there was a certain karmic energy that was causing all the trouble in my Life. This realization (of realizing my mental healtht issues werent because my mind, my actions but because of a certain energy) came first on an LSD trip 4 years ago. At the point of trying oxy i had burned all normal possibilities (therapy, reading books, Will power, exercise, etc...), and after doing kratom for some years I knew opiates were capable of completely neutralizing this karmic dark energy, although, at least in the case of kratom, at the expense of creating some mental fog and low motivation and emotional numbing, so Kratom wasnt really working for that purpose. At that point i did some research and i Heard oxycodone was considered the gold standard for an "funcional opiate". At that point i had nothing to lose. In my view, if getting addicted to It would mean overpowering this dark karmic energy, i said where do i sign. And so indeed my suspiction was right. Oxy hits very well that dark karmic energy and neutralizes. Is just doesn't numb It like a benzo or alcohol does. No. Oxy literally puts you in a certain vibration above those low vibration karmic energies. After some trials i realized this was the chem. Only after some months of casually using to avoid physical dependence i chosed to start using daily. It wasnt a compulsive decision. It was conscious. I wanted to see how far It could take me. At that point i was going out a lot and meeting lots of people, i was not your typical opiate heroin User that just go reclude itself in their basement. I never used oxy alone at home to avoid Life, i used to enhance It. To go to parties, to try new stuff, etc... However, and just how i suspected before, daily use ruins tolerance too much. The protection from the karmic substance gets lower. And not only that now when you are not under the drug your vibrating much lower because of the chemical inbalances. It all quite ended when i had this last date with this girl last summer and i had a Deep "relapse" on this dark karmic energy, even tough i was popping oxys each day. At this point i knew clear the strategy no longer worked. It was good while It lasted i Guess. In summary, Is not that i got addicted, IS that i forced myself to get addicted. I wanted to know how far It could take me. I was very confortable in my sober Life and popping a couple of times a week in the weekend. I just wanted to see if it could be a permanent solution use to neutralize this energy. If that meant being addicted to It so be It. I endured mild physical withdrawal almost everyday, for months, i would to go the gym mildly sick, i thought, if this is the price to be protected from the dark energy, fuck It! I can do this for a lifetime. I dont care. However, as always, chemical tolerace is a bitch. Is just stops working. So right now going back fully sober. My main Focus now is the sadhana. I have right now all Focus and energy on sadhana. I have a intuition this shamavhi Will be strong enough to dismantle the energy. Is not as easy as popping pill but i have a suspiction It Will be much powerful than any drug.

Whatever the femenine is attracted in that particular moment I also would add, he pays movie tickets with popcorn included, and the cab care for the girl to come back home

Well said!

Day 2 off them oxys and I feel surprisingly not that bad. I think by Saturday I´ll be completely fine/to baseline. 🥳

Yeah no, i understand. I smoked weed on my own for the first time one month ago and fast It started to become a daily habit. Im not fan of the side effects so thats what i stopped but if i ever have smoked It younger i probably end up doing It every day. Update: Second day off the oxys! I still have those 5 pills in my car though...but at least being physically clean Will be such a víctory already🙏 Psychological attachment is another beast 😪

Is difficult to explain.

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