Javfly33

Nothing like this! The subreddits are fine but usually most people are very closed minded there. If you go a bit too much out of the normal narrative fast you will be kicked out or canceled

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Let´s use the energy analogy. Let´s say the Whole of Infinity is one Wave of Energy. In this One Wave of Energy, objects, animals, humans are produced/constructed/created. In an object, the wave of this one energy continues perfectly to the next object, to the next molecule, there is perfect conductivity of the energy, like a gold cable. (One of the best materials for conducing electricity) The same happens in animal, since there is no ego or sense of individuality in this Energy, it also conduces well, although maybe, is already not a 100% perfect conductor, let´s say animals might be copper cables. But meet the humans. In the human, a sense of individuality and sense of individual existence is created. Here the Energy STOPS. And it stops and gets twisted so much (the cable is folded in such a way by this ego) that a whole sense of Individual Existence is created. Suddenly there is ME vs Reality. Fear, frustration, desire, confrontation, suffering, gets created. From here, it starts a seeking to go back to the unlimited One Perfect Conducive Energy. To get back to superconductivity. To finally be at ease. To completely disappear as an individual Existence. To become limitless Energy, to experience the ultimate Bliss, the Ultimate Liberation.

I´m having a blast reading you two. Keep it up. 😀 Is like a stand up but two 😆

Damn

I already told you. Therapy might help in the most basic forms of dysfunctional thought patterns. But It nowhere near touch the issue of the karmic substance. And stop projecting dude as you are better than me. 'Addictice tendencies' duh. Your condesdencing actitude in every one of my posts is pathetic. You are obssesed with trying to put me below you by shooting low vibratory identities to me like "addict" or "you have trauma" or "need to go to a therapist". Im tired of your childish games. Grow Up. You are getting blocked.

Well, heres the thing. To the contrary that most people think, i dont find addiction neccesarily bad. As long as the addiction is giving you what you want out of It, what IS. the problem with having a depedence to It? We have a dependence to water, food, and some of US guys also to Coffee. The reason why most of us keep doing coffee is because in our análisis, is worth to be addicted to It. Or in other words, the mental benefits from Coffee justify having a physical dependence and daily habit to It. When i wanted to try Oxy is because i knew there was a certain karmic energy that was causing all the trouble in my Life. This realization (of realizing my mental healtht issues werent because my mind, my actions but because of a certain energy) came first on an LSD trip 4 years ago. At the point of trying oxy i had burned all normal possibilities (therapy, reading books, Will power, exercise, etc...), and after doing kratom for some years I knew opiates were capable of completely neutralizing this karmic dark energy, although, at least in the case of kratom, at the expense of creating some mental fog and low motivation and emotional numbing, so Kratom wasnt really working for that purpose. At that point i did some research and i Heard oxycodone was considered the gold standard for an "funcional opiate". At that point i had nothing to lose. In my view, if getting addicted to It would mean overpowering this dark karmic energy, i said where do i sign. And so indeed my suspiction was right. Oxy hits very well that dark karmic energy and neutralizes. Is just doesn't numb It like a benzo or alcohol does. No. Oxy literally puts you in a certain vibration above those low vibration karmic energies. After some trials i realized this was the chem. Only after some months of casually using to avoid physical dependence i chosed to start using daily. It wasnt a compulsive decision. It was conscious. I wanted to see how far It could take me. At that point i was going out a lot and meeting lots of people, i was not your typical opiate heroin User that just go reclude itself in their basement. I never used oxy alone at home to avoid Life, i used to enhance It. To go to parties, to try new stuff, etc... However, and just how i suspected before, daily use ruins tolerance too much. The protection from the karmic substance gets lower. And not only that now when you are not under the drug your vibrating much lower because of the chemical inbalances. It all quite ended when i had this last date with this girl last summer and i had a Deep "relapse" on this dark karmic energy, even tough i was popping oxys each day. At this point i knew clear the strategy no longer worked. It was good while It lasted i Guess. In summary, Is not that i got addicted, IS that i forced myself to get addicted. I wanted to know how far It could take me. I was very confortable in my sober Life and popping a couple of times a week in the weekend. I just wanted to see if it could be a permanent solution use to neutralize this energy. If that meant being addicted to It so be It. I endured mild physical withdrawal almost everyday, for months, i would to go the gym mildly sick, i thought, if this is the price to be protected from the dark energy, fuck It! I can do this for a lifetime. I dont care. However, as always, chemical tolerace is a bitch. Is just stops working. So right now going back fully sober. My main Focus now is the sadhana. I have right now all Focus and energy on sadhana. I have a intuition this shamavhi Will be strong enough to dismantle the energy. Is not as easy as popping pill but i have a suspiction It Will be much powerful than any drug.

Whatever the femenine is attracted in that particular moment I also would add, he pays movie tickets with popcorn included, and the cab care for the girl to come back home

Day 2 off them oxys and I feel surprisingly not that bad. I think by Saturday I´ll be completely fine/to baseline. 🥳

Yeah no, i understand. I smoked weed on my own for the first time one month ago and fast It started to become a daily habit. Im not fan of the side effects so thats what i stopped but if i ever have smoked It younger i probably end up doing It every day. Update: Second day off the oxys! I still have those 5 pills in my car though...but at least being physically clean Will be such a víctory already🙏 Psychological attachment is another beast 😪

Is difficult to explain.

Interesting

I think the 'Why' has already been debated in this forum. But what about the 'How'? How a Mind divides itself like this? How Love becomes 'infinite'?

Who said you have to identify with the controller? I just said, there is a controller, and you can use It. In the same way your car has all sorts of buttons. You can press them, to make the car do stuff. But that doesn't mean you are the buttons. Well, i Guess the experience of individuality has those dual aspects. Is just that most people dont have so much time!

Yeah me neither, im also in exploratory Mode, just sharing how i suspect things work. Well, is a certain dimension that is not the mind.

I get where your coming from. But open your mind (ironically lol) that there is another level of "panel of control" beyond the mind. Of course, the control im talking about is not mental control. Is not control via thoughts. Is Direct control via Consciousness/You. You have to realize the mere action of you moving your legs that is already intelligence. Notice how you dont "think" moving your legs. You just do It. That's a rudimentary form of intelligence and Will. So you are aware of stuff. That cool but that is not activation of Consciousness.

3 hours of daily sadhana? Most people can not pull that off if you have a job in western society. Also, It matters more the effectivity that the duration. Whats your daily sadhana look like? In curious

@Carl-Richard with what substance was your addiction?

I was being kinda of funny of course because in this forum they love the word God. I wouldnt say God is small or Big, because those are physical qualities. I would say God is Nothing. But this Nothing exists, this Nothing can control and own a body and a mind. When this Nothing is activated in a certain way, there is a certain intelligence that can consciously handle the body and mind. When is not that much activated, this inteligence is sleep and the body and mind goes into compulsive, repetitive mode, the same as an animal. Thats why i said to the OP, is doesn't have anything to do with their social character. The social character can stay and you can enjoy the benefits it provides. As long as clearly you are that is just a costume you are wearing.

But I never said you are Awareness.

Is a matter of identity. God needs to stop believing is a little human body or a human mind. This won´t stop from God to keep using that body or mind/social persona. Is just that you will use it as you use your car or your bicycle. Knowing now you own it, but is not you. For that, an Infinite Awakening is needed.

No, not really. If I withdraw I don´t puke, or have nausea, or serious pain. Just a feeling of uncomfortability through the whole body for 4-5 days (which can be alleviated with exercise). I´m going to try that. Today I took my last dose but im leaving 5 pills on my car lol. Let´s see if I can be strict with myself if not I´ll have to throw them and fuck it My attachment is that last year I went out so much thanks to oxy. It made me so social and mood-boosted. Part of me wants to leave them to be able to take them once in a while. But if the cost is physical dependence then I won´t pay that price. At the end of it I can go out totally sober, is just that I´ll probably more picky with where I go out. (which maybe is precisely what I need to do).

Yeah, absolutely. A week off can be done by anyone. But deciding to not do them again, one has to be really sure they are not offering you anything positive in your life.

Ive thought of It, is just difficult to find a retreat to do It. But yeah It probably would be an interesting experience. I was actually going to get microdoses, a member of this forum was trying microdosing iboga.

I feel the world is completely messed Up by psychological activity. Is insane. Im not saying stepping out of the mind is the final goal and the "ultimate", but at least It would be an incredible good platform for everything else. I was just wacthing porn now and i just stopped. I realized, what am i even doing? What IS that im trying to achieve? If i observe closely, reality is already Full, Complete, United. But that is only if you are in Reality, if you are in the endless mountains of the mind hallucination, then is all about getting the next "fix" of completedness, be It porn, food, relationships, etc... Nothing wrong with material fun though. Just that using material means to try to feel "full" and "complete" is a hell of a ride that never ends. Once you get the fix, times passes and is over. And then the Next fix. And then Next one. Is truly insane what humans have gotten ourselves into. We are engaged in a never ending race. And It seems we can not get out. Meanwhile, there is actual Reality, completely full, complete, united, pure... But we can not keep our consciousness focused on this "Life" or Reality Phenomena more than a few seconds...with that quality and activation of awareness (so weak, so disperse into psychological daydreaming) then Life seems to be so complex. IMO Is not complex (at least living It, im not saying It understanding It), if you could just stay in It and not go dream constantly in the realms of the mind It seems there is a mess of focus within us. Lot of energy going towards Psychological filter, little to actual Observation, Staying Concentrated on what appears. Staying in actual Reality, where we should be all the time. Isnt It quite insane that we spent most of our time in an hallucination of psychological filter, and very little in actual Reality? Shouldnt be the opposite? LOL If you awareness could remain Focus of the simple phenomena of Reality that surrounds us, such as sounds, breath, light, etc... Would the feeling of "time" exist? No, there would be only exist the Now. Time would not pass. In the Now things are simple. Reality. Life. Silence. Bliss. No time, no problem... Always in Life. Nothing moves here. No psychological fluctuations. Absolute Stability. What a difference. What a difference of quality of Life. In the psychological reality though... A day is a hiking trip. A roller coaster of things, goals, fixes, ups, downs, more, less, etc... Quite a dystopic way to Live. Will we make It to the to the other end (Living in Reality), not just as a 1 day vacation but as a permanent residency, that's a question for all of us. Are we making steps to Life, or are we making steps towards staying more in the infatuation of the psychological realm. We should investigate this.