Javfly33

I think there are two things. On one there is a reality, even Though is a proyection of the ego, so there is not solipsism. You can Talk to other people and assume they are real. In other, i feel THAT is Still a limitation. Unitary reality/"Infinite Love", etc... Doesn't feel totally quite right. Because merging with all beings Still is limitation, there is that thing that IS over there and i am merging with. And also to merge with other beings or things, there must be a so called reality (even Though It might be quantic, imaginary, or whatever), so there is a subtle fear Still of something Bigger than you existing). The Next step feels Empty Bliss within Yourself. In that, there is no others, universe, other realities, povs, etc, you...etc absolutely nothing. IMO Empty Blissful Intense Silence feels better than merging with all beings. And it doesn't seem that you can have both things, you have to choose between a more limited experience but with more 'illusion' and a more unlimited experience but more 'empty' of whatever the mind has projected. It seems The more you clean the house the better it feels

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Spot on. Hard words but true. @CoolDreamThanks At least in my experience it was like that. It came a point where I realized, no, im just hamster wheeling myself with psychedelics, im actually not going anywhere. Took me 6-7 years to see the 'trick'! (Although im not saying the trips were worthless. They had their usefulness in opening up other more stable possibilities)

Damn I was going to say I was really loving your post until I read 'your post is irrelevant' 🤣🤣 But Ok @Princess Arabia Let me explain to you why my post is not irrelevant. If you truly truly were conscious you WERE ACTUALLY GOING TO DIE would you keep repeating the same personality and karmic patterns all your life? See, I don´t know about you, but I´ve doing the same fucking shit all my freaking life. Same emotions, same thoughts, same personality, same fears, same bullshit, same karma. And everyone else problem is also that, they can not stop for a single second being 'themselves', because they truly think they are a mind, a character, a body and an ego 😂 No matter what they say their actions demonstrate it. But here´s the thing, everyday the stupid fucking ego is one day closer to DEATH. And boy that motherfucker will bite the dust. That´s why im saying, most of fantasies of ego about next life are just more ego. It is trying to survive somehow to the next life so that way it can be inmortal. That´s why im saying is a trick, is a story. Stop believing in things that are not in your experience, because most definetely will be a trick of the ego to keep maintaining the lie.

Hahaha... fucking crying almost reading that 💙 It might be like that. We(I/You) must be so fucking untouchable and fearless and infinite we just go fully into the illusion and dream of the ego 😭😭 Is beautiful my friend, is beautiful 💙 We created this dream and we don´t care about the ego 😆 On point 🤓 These words touched me.

yes, take bigger breaks, with the exception of some psychedelics, most of them due end up causing tolerance

@gettoefl 🙏 @Water by the River You are right. There is no end, because nothing ever started 🤡 I´m talking to myself right now. I am inside a void of empty Love. Perfection, totally empty. Nothing happened. But because I do not trust Love, because I still have fear, I still want to trust the mind. The whole game is about you going towards more and more love, loving yourself more, including more people in life as you. Until you get the point. It was about realising it was You. But I will avoid it and negate it everyday. Because im an ego full of fear shitless scared of Love, I am the darkness, I can not fathom how could Reality be this Good. I will forget everyday, I will limit myself. But meanwhile there is no stopping this. I will end up having to accept this shit.

@James123 A dream of Nothingness Love. All egos cant fucking imagine where they are 🤣🤣🤣 they think they are in a universe or reality somewhere 😂😂🫠 Is terryfing this stuff.

Yeah, i was listening to the song Elastic Heart from Sia an hour ago i opened my body and felt my consciousnesss where Infinitely expanding into all directions. exactly like what i experience on 5-meo, dissolution of limits of perception. Perception becoming fluid, elastic, transparent. I dont know, i feel sick and like im on a trip right now. Enlightment was supposed to feel good. Probably im just back on the mind. Still dont know how to handle this Mind properly.

I watched that yesterday and didnt understand a shit. That thing about triangles seem too complex

Nothingness can not die because is not even a thing or is born. Universe does not Exist. This is nothing. i surrender. Hahaha im going to lose my Mind. This cant be real . Hahaha no no no way 🤣🤣 ego created everything @James123 Universe, reality, me, you, everything.

I was thinking now about some dates I had in the past where there was a feeling or sensation of being humiliated or laugh of, when I would say something. It can be something as dumb as using a strange word in a compliment ("That absolute black combines well with the pink"). And she laughs of using the word "absolute". It does not feel like a healthy laugh, it feels like a "I'm trying to bully you you are so pathetic look the word you use". Another one I had in a recent date: "Isn't that brand (looking at a store) the same of your purse?". Again, she reacted like I was saying a DUMB thing. Bro, like I am a fucking human. I think I can be mistaken to a thing like that and that doesn't make less of a human. Wtf? So I had started to contemplate about this kind of reactions, and I have realized that all of this things ONLY happens to me with WOMEN. It hasn't happened to me that I'm with a friend or a guy and he just reacts like that when for example I mistaken a name of a shop or I use a strange word. It only happens with women to me. Funny. And only has happened when there is some emotional string attached to it. Most of times it has happened WHEN IM ON A DATE. But also last year happened to me with one of my female flatmates. One that I suspect she had envy to me because I was not attracted to her yet to the other female flatmate I would flirt sometimes. Almost everything that I said this crazy bitch would try to find it "funny" but in a bad-bullying kind of way. ESPECIALLY the times when I was with the girl I had good chemistry. Interesting, what a coincidence uh? FUNNY. It seems women also has their dark SHIT inside. And I have been eating that shit all this time thinking I was FUCKING BAD for just using a rare word or mistaken the name of their fucking purse for the brand of a shop. What the fuck. Give me a FUCKING BREAK. And you know what I say is because underneath they have some hate towards certain men (or even envy)? Because I used to react the same with my mother. Sometimes she would just say the smallest thing and I would kind of react with the same attitude. Trying to "laugh" about what she's saying. Underneath I can sense I had to emotional shitty things to my mother, so my way of attacking her was like in a such subtle twisted way. Funny enough, last time this happened with a girl I confronted her but she said she just "laughs about everything". Yeah right, I'm not that dumb emotionally. I can feel how a phrase or a reaction is made. The same thing would happen with my mother. When she confronted me I would just say she is overreacting. But the truth is i was bullshitting and she was right. Is called gaslighting. Women can also gaslight. They are not perfect. And I feel last girl really took his insecurities and deep hate/envy towards me. What a twisted game relationships are. One must remember NOBODY is PERFECT and we all got out shit. I used to thought is just always my fault and the other person is doing it perfect. No, fuck that shit. Is not fair.

There is this belief going on our true being cant suffer, that is always at peace, that is the true happiness, that is beyond everything That is the most shit ive ever Heard. If one ever awakens clearly enough one Will realize ONLY our being is capable of suffering. An object can not suffer. A body can not suffer and a mind can not suffer. They are not subjects or beings, they are not something "Alive" in the sense our being Is. Therefore, of course God/You/Truth can suffer. Is actually the ONLY thing capable of suffering. Your ego or Mind can not suffer because is not real or sentient awareness. They are objects, as a machine or a car. They dont care if you suffer for 1million years.

Ok dude. So it seems clear you want just to show how bigger your dick is. I apologise but still you want to speak to me like that. If you guys don´t like me that much just ban me. At this point is being quite clear to me that most of you here have a sort of ego problem with me because the kind of content I post goes slightly against your current narrative of what awakening or growth is. And I shouldn´t say this, but countless times I´ve seen Leo said 'this is not a place to do the real work, this is just for entertainment' and similar things like that. But anyways.

@cetus ok you can lock the topic it got too derailed I didn't meant to say it in a bad way. my apologies.

I see your bet and I put Infinite Nothing at 11

This. A steady path might not initially be so fun, but the point is to build a ladder, little by little, milimiter by milimeter each day. So that one day you will actually get outside the prison. For good. Psychedelics or other momentary experiences are Ok to see that there is indeed something outside the fence. But is like a trampolin. You can see for some moments above the fence, you get a smile on your face. Then you go down again. You saw something, but thats about It. At some point one must realize "enough seeing, im actually getting out of here".

Now i get why you can not conceptually teach seduction or attraction. You can try, but is not It. Women are not rational, IS all energy and vibes for them. I was going on my way to grab a Coffee and i was in a semi samadhi state, in a sort of super mystical confidence third eye opened state lol. Like im seeing 10 steps ahead of everything. This 8 came into the store when i was ordering and i just said some dumb thing about his outfit, she turned to me completely Euphoric and showing itself like she was a product to me to buy lol (It was cute, i dont say this in a sexist way). I was a Complete stranger but high energy attracts effortlessly sometimes, no Matter the circumstance or even if you dont know his name. Is not me, is the inner energy is being experienced within. Anyone can do It. Which makes me come to the conclusion than the right way to attract women is that something really great must be happening within you. If not success Will always be accidental. So work on your inner experience, women pick this shit Up instantly, they have a radar. Their attraction forces trust this radar more than intellectual or rational reasons of why you are attractive.

Im doing the yoga path of Sadhguru, I learned from one of his teacher another process recently so nowdays i put about 2 hours at least of "real Spirituality" so to speak each day! Like i said to Charlie i use the forum to pass time/entertainment, is not meant to be a place to grow. Happy new year too! You still in india i suppose?

front lever is haaaaard. Did calisthenics for 2 years and wasn´t able to do it

@LfcCharlie4 I use it as a crutch but in the same way I use reddit, YouTube, o etc... I know it means 0% in terms of spiritual progress. haha (in case you were saying to me because of that)

I don´t like to use it, but is difficult to convey the attractiveness of a person through a forum , sometimes numbers help lmao

@LfcCharlie4 I´m working with a teacher since 1 year ago or so. Things take time though! I don´t use the forum as a spiritual device. I use the place to talk about insights or just for fun.

I don´t feel much happier, but I feel something big is being deconstructed. The spiritual device take time to deconstruct all karma one has inside... If you happen to have a faster one...I´m all ears.

why the emoticons? Because it was sexist categorising the girl with a number?