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@Schizophonia what you mean with this? That she should do Coke or something ? Lol @Sugarcoat How is your Love Life?

@Breakingthewall Yes, probably thats a good route. It seems is getting clear for me now. There is a blockage in my energies that i can not avoid just trying to meditate and sit Still. Or maybe the spiritual work is a way to activate that inner Power that cuts through the blockage. So in the city or nature one can do the same i Guess. Thats true Thought

I was super late interested in sexuality. I can remember until I was not 20-21 years old, I didn't had a single sexual thought about fucking a woman. I was attracted to the Beauty and femeninity of women, but is not like my mind had any sort of drive or thought about actually having sex. I decided one day I lost my virginity going to a prostitute because culturally I felt pressured to experience sex. But is not like I had a lot of genuine desire to do it. The last year I noticed it some kind of raw masculine energy of fucking arising in me, I guess this is what is the drive that most males have and why they are constantly chasing pussy. I understand now I think, but is completely tiring, to be honest, is nothing satisfying afterwards, is just pure animalistic compulsion of wanting to penetrate LoL. Afterwards one feel completely empty and even kind of bad (like you have 'used' the women for his body). I think there has to be better ways to do sex. I am interested in trying Tantra Sex, I´ve heard is nothing like vanilla sex and is very balanced, has anyone tried it? Overall, would you say I exhibit asexual traits or is just that I don't resonate with western sexuality and I should try to do Tantra Sex?

@Schizophonia What you mean?

Good one. People just don´t want to accept the direct experience. 'Other versions of me', 'other parallels me'. What the hell is this? Just mind diarrhoea dressed as a profound spiritual understanding.

@Davino @Joshe @Breakingthewall i Guess if my Mind ends Up bothering me also in the retreat, is not that important if im there or in the city, the growth must be within, and from that inner Evolution things Will align Because the desires or blockages are the same in both places. Is just that i see tremendous easier to go deeper in certain places more than others. In Cities going Deep Still and silence is very difficult, but things seem to move faster, the stress seems to be in a way a process forward towards something. In nature or village going Deep Seems very very easy, all of the surroundings and the energy collaborates It for you. However there is the fear of stagnation. What if i invest 10 years and dont go anywhere? Maybe those 10 years in the city altough more tough would acelerate certain growth.

here we go again...lol. Everyone is complaining of the suffering of relationships, ups and downs, their kids, their gf, their husband, their social anxiety...etc. And now you become Free of all of that circus and you say it has fucked you up? Maybe you still has not transcended completely.

Comparisons work like that, is a Lost Game from the start

@Keryo Koffa Definetely. I say there is no God because as you can see OP is using God as something outside of itself that do things for him. So the moment someone uses God like that, then God does not exist. God Only exist if you accept complete responsability for All of existence.

For the 91253 time there is no God.

forcing yourself to take breaks.

Sure. But anyways, the point of this tOpic IS solved by now. I realized i do have cravings of fucking but they were repressed by certain energetic structures of the ego they are beggining to be dissolved.

I get you, but what precisely have you become directly conscious of?

I guess you could say it like that. No idea honestly. @Keryo Koffa That makes sense. Is a process of unconsciousness to consciousness. How come it lost its own intelligence? I have no answer for that, yet. Lol. Is important to talk about death regularly I think. We are heading there. And every time I go up to the mountains I realize I had a lot of spiritual fantasies, while death is real as it gets. Why? Existence can only go forward. Yes, but is not of meditation, is because the rest of the time the ego builds a story about it. Meditation helps, sometimes we need boosters though. Try to do meditation without not expecting anything in return.

@Princess ArabiaWhat can I say, I learned a lot after spending 5K on 'online goddeses' 😂

Detachment from women does not exist for most people here, unless you go full bramachari to a zen monastery. Attachment to women isn´t healthy either of course. Most people mistake with women here is they project too much value on to them. Now other guys are toxic and mysognistic and do the opposite, that's also a guaranteed way to get yourself into big trouble. I´m just saying about not seeing women as something above you. Which is crazy I have to be saying this. If you are approaching 1000 times clearly you are pursuing a price you think you lack. I did not meant the desire of women but the desire of the ego to get things that it thinks it will give him validation or love.

YeahI read the article in the past. @emil1234 If non existence is the case, than that´s what you are I guess, no?

Of course. Nobody is saying you will disappear. You will remain, and everything else (that is not you) disappear

You have to accept you are saying all of this from a place of mental imagination and guessing. You have not become conscious how reality was created. If you do 3000 hours of Hatha Yoga in the mountains you will perceive things nobody will know reading 1 million books. You can become conscious of the mechanics of reality because you are reality. But is a matter of perception of the mechanics, is not mental guesswork or theories. Consciousness is the only tool reality has to evolve. Mental or intellectual meaning is fine for limited things but it won´t cut for this.

@Princess Arabia Sure, but they being illusion does not mean neccesarily mean you become free of it. Maybe if you consciously experience it, yes. But is that your own experience now? That you are beyond time and space? You can not transcend the game by labels or intellectual schemes by calling it illusion. That´s cute but it is no more than a belief and a mental story. definetely!

Definetely. But the ego is illusion created. Of course you won't remember the ego because the ego is not a memory, is just the mistake in perception/identification All beings have the same ego so to speak. Is not something customized to you

Memories do not Fade. What you think your body is made out of? Hahahaha

For example, Paris (yes, the City) is a concentrated pattern of energy, as everything else you see. There is no such a thing as physical reality, Only consciousness. Every act you do in your Life leaves a residue. Thats why we are focusing on being conscious. We want this Life to be an Evolution to something new. We dont want to Keep running the wheel over and over. Some of us have gotten enough of the wheel

@MarioGabrielJ Nope...every action you do im this Life leaves an imprint or karmic "footprint" for the next Life. The point of spirituality is to trascend this Circus of memory.

First one need to stop looking at women like they are trophies to win. The ego is based on a guaranteed lack of value. First thing is to surrender all the ego desires, and Focus on oneself. From that place every approach that you do Will never hurt anything in you.