Javfly33

Thanks for the link

@Cykaaaa I feel that too. I started doing Yoga and in general spirituality before being aware of a lot of self-actualization I had to get done. I only had the desire to "trascend" my mind because even thought I didn´t know back then, I know something was "wrong" with my mind. But once I realized that my lack of self-love with people was so, so clear, I had to stop trying to "trascend" the mind and had put myself to work on the "lower case self". Of course, we must aknowledge that this is a duality, once you start working on your "lower case self" you realize that it interconnects witht the "capital case Self", so it´s not really about letting go of your ego and going meditate to trasncend all thoughts, and neither is abandoning spirituality and non-duality foundation and going to self-improve just on "controlling" or trying neurotically to "modify" the mind. To be honest I still discovering, but I think is a beatiful yet misterious interconnectness of both self-Self

Yeah, I am seeing I´m falling away again in the "arguing" in my mind in what decision should I do. In both states of mind (doing the decision of self-love, vs doing the decision of putting the other person first) I feel helpless. So I just going to do what I did last time I did a great decision: I´m not going to "argue" more with my mind : ´m just going to breath deeply let the answer get out on its own.

I know, but I put the s in self-love in lower case letter for something You right that Love is truly unconditional. I´m seeing how building your self-esteem and love in a real way can only be done because consciousness can´t / doesn´t judges. Only ego does. Reality accepts yourself always, it´s ego that denies and judges. However it feels I need to go step by step and radically accepting myself fully is a heavyweight process, but I get your point. I surely will get there with time @Leo Gura Also, you mean that if when I choose an action in where I don´t put my priorities first (for example tomorrow I decide to go my father´s house), I should be Loving myself for that too, right? Like really even when we do "shameful" things it´s being ego that is judging and therefore creating "shame"...interesting. So it´s all Acceptance and Love if we get ego out of the way.

I see, definetely i dont know how i´d feel at a retreat with strangers also...

What exactly is the problem here really? It's like I start to doing fasting and I complain that I start to get irritated, maniatic, or way to careless about not very important topics. You are putting your body in a abnormal state (doesn't have to be bad, I'm just saying is not the usual state, to not ejaculate) so expects changes in your physiology. By the way, the "women noticing you" is totally placebo. You are just probably more social / looking at the eyes therefore you notice it more. Don't worry about that LOL

Yes, I experienced. In that state all you can do is let go. Don't worry your human body is too smart to stop breathing just because your mind is hallucinating time hehe

Very special trip report, thanks for sharing.

Watching his content doesn't guarantee that you will have a very different or better life from this day to one year on. However, it will help you set a very profound foundation for a conscious and responsible life. Its more important if you do the work to apply to your daily life just one video of him that you watch effortless all of his videos but you then don't apply it to your daily life.

But isn´t God an idea when you in fact put it into a word? (God). I can see the same happens to the feeling I AM. The I AM existence is really beyond any words or explanations, you can´t actually point out I AM through words, although you can try. That is why really nobody realizes the Self through an explanation or using the help of language or concepts. As you said "The map is not the territory". Although I yet have to investigate, I´m not saying you are lying. However it´s important to point out what understanding of "God" people have in their minds when you say the true nature is God and not just being/no-self/Iamness

I was going to ask exactly that. For what I´ve researched in other forums trip sitter is important with this one. At home it´s where I feel more comfortable but since I don´t have anyone at the moment to trip sit me, I guess then it would be wiser to first go to a retreat to try it?

I know. Sometimes I wonder if working on my ego problems is just another distraction, but I the more I work on myself the more I feel is all interconnected, the more I am more in peace with myself more I'll be able to be in the now and connect with consciousness. I know there will be a point I'll have to let go and be Ok with what I have in life but I sense there's some truly lack of love in my experience that I need to address before moving on to more profound topics.

It seems there is very little research with the use of psychedelics in small doses for spiritual purposes. Watched the old Leo´s video Enlightenment Guided Inquiry - The Neti Neti Method last week on a very low dose of Lsd and it produced an "Interesting" state of consciousness. I did not become Enlightened but the most interesting thing was the rest of the day and the following day (over 36 hours after the dose) I was in a very very intense state of mindfulness/meditation while doing all sort of activities (from going buying groceries to cleaning the house, ). It was like being on meditation but while being able to do all sort of activities. I wonder if a very low dose of psychedelics with self-inquiry guided audios on a regular basis (but not too much) would be able to, maybe not produce samadhi full realizing consciousness experiences, but could absolutely skyrocktet living a more high consciouss /mindfulness state in the everyday life.

Yeah LSD is powerful but i´ve found that at low doses I can get too conceptual / lost in thought if trying to do a normal on my own self-inquiry. On the contrary, with guided self-inquiries I can get in a no-mind state way more easily since suggestion plays a big role with psychedelics. Honestly I don´t when I will have that full awakening. With classic psychedelics I feel I´ll need to solve a lot of trauma before I can completely let go. That´s basically why I´m doing low-doses, but the stuff is so powerful sometimes even If i want the introspection to be on an aspect of my personality I start going too deep that I begin questioning my own identity LOL

Some episodes are pretty good, although others I find them dumb as hell.

I am. I am always. What it's now to do? Nothing. So I have to become a something. So I will become a: Person Thought Feeling An idea of having a mind An idea of having a body What it's for me now if I just stay in I AM? Which motive would I have to destruct my beautiful creation?

@Jonac I don't know. Seems dogma to me. @mandyjw listen to this guy. I couldn't have put it better. Listen to your body, experiment, repeat...until you find the perfect diet for you

@Identity Don´t worry, what you "solve" in Self-Help will also count in Spirituality. I remeber I started doing Yoga+Meditaiton+Psychedelics 2 years ago for Spirituality but I had to stop because in the process of becoming a little more consciouss I realized I was full of trauma and neurosis. I stop all spiritual practices (that´s what i thought) to focus on self-help but in the process of self-help all what you are doing in purifying your ego/neurosis which are just a representation of your distance to Truth! Is beatiful how all it interconnects! Enjoy the ride!

How could actually someone be Awakened and be addicted porn? It seems impossible to me. I consider myself that I use porn as an addiction, but just because I spent my 99% of my time in a very low-consciousness state. When I have been "very" consciouss, I can watch my thoughts, my emotions, and feelings that interconnects to actually let me to use porn. In that state i can very easily , or better said, effortlessly, choose the wiser option. That´s what I call intelligence, and not my ego mind I am one of those "believers" that beliefs that once realized the Self / Awakening , the mind starts to purify itself and starts discarding what you decide is not wise to continue. Maybe you won´t become a millionarie, but how couldn´t Awakening solve nearly all of your neurosis? (which is just everything that needs to be solved on Self-Help). However I am referring to be Consciouss all the time , if we are calling Awakening to have had mistical experiences, but we are not realized and we are "remembering" our insights and using them as a belief and not as a present direct experience, then of course self-help won´t be cured, but because i wouldn´t call that an Enlightened person.

Wow, yeah, that looks like an amazing proffessional. Yeah I´ll keep looking.

As far as I´m understand all mental illness should no longer be possible by being in connection / being God / Consciousness. Since all mental illness arise from and within the mind. It´s important to diferenciate between realizing the Self in a mistical experience or during Spritiual practices VS actually embodying Consciousness in daily life 24/7. The latter is no easy achievable and very rare im afraid.

What about when you are heartbroken? Will you still love all of your mind´s projections? I´m not saying that your girlfriend ain´t real. I´m just saying that most of people who jump on Spirituality is because their mind projections have caused them too much suffer to take anymore. Too much even to keep playing "the game". The game comes with rules, one of them one day you can be in heaven, and another you can be in hell. When you are in heaven is easy to get attached to the game, but when you´re in hell you really want to be consciouss that is just a game. I think the best thing in this life is balance.

What set and setting is the best to experience 5-MeO-DMT for the first time? For example, it is very crucial for example tripping during the day instead of night like with classic long-duration psychedelics like LSD or Shrooms?

Yes! I´m starting to grasp it, subtle, very subtle, It´s truly amazing the intelligence of what I AM!

Hi. Do you guys know if it´s usual that people who get Enlightened, usually "beforehand" they go through a time of living in intense mindfulness? Or the basic consensus is that it comes with a "boom" so strong and clear that you never go back to identification with mind/body/thoughts?