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I´ve been studying the last year to pass an exam to work on the postal services jobs of my country. I started studying for this because by the time I was not focused and I didn´t know what to do with my life. I just knew I should get a job. But then I started self-actualizing and realized I want to get proffesional as a software developer to become an entrepreneur. Now I am scared if I pass I´ll have to work on low-consciouss job, any advice to survive it before I can get a work in the tech industry? I am aware that the tech industry it´s also a wage slavery job but that industry I am focusing to get a job (start-ups) is full of entrepreneurship so that way I will be able to progress in my path and meet people alike. Also I am scared of a physical labor job as a postal services could be,at least a tech job i know i will be sedentary it won´t be detrimental to my physical being.

Yeah shifting is a very accurate word in this case! I agree!

It´s a forum. It´s normal that people here we engage in mental masturbation because usually the real work is not done by theorizing or having discussions of "logical truth" because the work is done by doing the practices and in general just embodying what you discover into your daily(human)n life. However I do feel dissapointed when I´ve seen sometimes people giving long-profound-spiritual advice threads about how they are so consciouss and then you see a thread 2 months later of the same person asking for advice in a very basic emotional self-actualization problem like "I get nervous with girls omg i cant get a gf", or "my father judges me ah what do i do", that really does hurt the reputation of what they said previously about being "so consciouss". But Then again, I might also have fallen too into this. Well, not might. I had. I´ve written some profound insights and then probably I see myself stuck in basic self-actualizing ego problems. That tells me I might be going to conceptual and again bullshitting myself, but that´s just how the mind works. It´s not about judging it but rather realizing it that you can start breaking free of it and fall less into the trap.

Interesting question. Idk, although fruit have plenty of fibre too, i was having plenty of it. However fibre from food might be different than fibre from oats/bread/pasta/rice

Because it´s a shitty carb. It´s very low nutrient dense , and high glucose spiking. It usually part of a bad diet of binging into sugars and carbs constantly (due to the glucose spiking, and not being never full due to be so low nutrient dense). Basically i wouldn´t say is bad per se, it´s more of an indicator that if you have it your diet, your diet is shit.

I want to try carnivore diet so bad But so expensive! I want to get another better paid job so I can afford trying that diet !

Yeah...but the feeling I have in my stomach after I eat them I dispase it. However meat, fruit or vegetables I always feel my stomach allright. With oats I feel bloated and sometimes even some pain like there´s "constipation" being caused by this oats/carbs man.

I´m not doing it to be "cool" lol. Oats make me bloated. Bloated and feeling full prevents me from doing sports and yoga. When I had to fast only fruit due to constipation, I realized how good I felt with a light stomach. That´s why I am trying to have diet withouth grains/hard carbs. Also, oats or any kind of similar carbs haven´t got any unique nutrient that other food do not have. Basically their unique appeal it´s their calorie aportion.

@Serotoninluv Interesting. Never have thought it like that. I wonder then, when we are students in a classroom we "know" that we are students, but we don´t identify with being a student because if then we would feel inferior?

I guess I have no problems but I keep imaging them ?

I was walking back home by the river´s boardwalk, thinking about why I am like I am, and how some people are (or at least look) so different than I am, including not only looks or personality, but just the way of living. This kind of thoughts always give me frustration and despair, emotions like "injustice", "jeaolously" have been very present in my mind the last 5-10 years, slowly increasing the past years although also slowly trying to become skeptic of them in the last year. The Realization The realization came when seconds later I had the thought in form of insight (because it was a kind of a deep "feeling" more than a thought) that this "fact", the fact of being an specific person with an specific identity is absolutely impossible. To you to be an specific person with an specific limited in time identity and nothing else, it would be neccesary that you (be careful in what you point to when I say "you"), in any moment of your life, you defined yourself and chose to become this "person" in fact. This hasn´t never happened, if that´d happened awareness will no longer exist in your experience. I have never defined myself. How could I do it? How insane decision would that be? I am not a person living the dream of not being awareness. I am awareness living the dream that I am a person. I keep telling myself and assuming that I need to "get somewhere", or in some kind of "state of mind" to realize some existencial Truth...haha, no!! I am Truth, in other words, I am the one who never defined itself

Yeah it amazes me how I once I started seeing clearly that I wasn't above anybody else, I started seeing people interesting and most importantly I stopped comparing myself to anyone.

Yeap, that´s basically it. I first I thought I was just scared of big doses but soon I realized deep down what I feared it´s some secrets of my psyche been confronted very clearly withouth any barriers If I´d take a strong ego total dissolution dose... (which is, theorically, exactly the best, but psychologically speaking not so much, if you don´t want to risk the fact of getting traumatized and not do psychedelics ever again). It´s best to tread lightly. Also, experience matters. I don´t see normal/responsible (regarding mentally safe, not morally which I couldnt care less) OP doing 400mg the first time although I imagine those doses were the "advertised" but far from being accurate if it was street LSD @Justine I would suggest too OP get the dose way lower and set an introspective intention (and setting) for your trips if you want to reconcile with psychedelics.

I can subscribe to the story of your friend, I think I am more or less the same case but in a less serious case. I don´t think Leo it´s responsible for the attitude of your friend, but definetely I think you hit a lot of very good and accurate points in your post.

Recently I´ve become more in tuned to my lack of self-love. But also I started to skyrocket my self-love by being aware that I lacked a lot through all my life. So let´s say in Christmas you are supposed to visit your family (my father´s family in this case), any other year I wouldn´t hesitate to visit, but this year I am more in tune with emotions and I feel that I this family is some what toxic to me, I still want to keep contact but I want to set boundaries. This for example implies that tomorrow, in new year´s, If i listen to my heart and put myself first I shouldn´t visit my fathers family. However let´s say tomorrow I feel still a lot of pressure to visit, I feel my ego can´t take yet the pain/responsability of accepting their not approval of not visiting. In the case I still go visit them, If I want to keep self-love I should be aware and accept the fact I am going there not putting myself first. By that mechanism of being self-aware of my lack of self-love in that situation, I at least can learn something. What is not very wise to do, is to neither of these: -Put out an excuse to my father´s family so I can avoid fearing their not approval of me not visit them -Lie myself that I should visit them because family is important to be close together and this is not a case of lack of self-love.

@Cykaaaa Thanks And good luck to you too! I´m sure you will make it! @Nivsch Thanks I´ll check it out

Thanks for the link

@Cykaaaa I feel that too. I started doing Yoga and in general spirituality before being aware of a lot of self-actualization I had to get done. I only had the desire to "trascend" my mind because even thought I didn´t know back then, I know something was "wrong" with my mind. But once I realized that my lack of self-love with people was so, so clear, I had to stop trying to "trascend" the mind and had put myself to work on the "lower case self". Of course, we must aknowledge that this is a duality, once you start working on your "lower case self" you realize that it interconnects witht the "capital case Self", so it´s not really about letting go of your ego and going meditate to trasncend all thoughts, and neither is abandoning spirituality and non-duality foundation and going to self-improve just on "controlling" or trying neurotically to "modify" the mind. To be honest I still discovering, but I think is a beatiful yet misterious interconnectness of both self-Self

Yeah, I am seeing I´m falling away again in the "arguing" in my mind in what decision should I do. In both states of mind (doing the decision of self-love, vs doing the decision of putting the other person first) I feel helpless. So I just going to do what I did last time I did a great decision: I´m not going to "argue" more with my mind : ´m just going to breath deeply let the answer get out on its own.

I know, but I put the s in self-love in lower case letter for something You right that Love is truly unconditional. I´m seeing how building your self-esteem and love in a real way can only be done because consciousness can´t / doesn´t judges. Only ego does. Reality accepts yourself always, it´s ego that denies and judges. However it feels I need to go step by step and radically accepting myself fully is a heavyweight process, but I get your point. I surely will get there with time @Leo Gura Also, you mean that if when I choose an action in where I don´t put my priorities first (for example tomorrow I decide to go my father´s house), I should be Loving myself for that too, right? Like really even when we do "shameful" things it´s being ego that is judging and therefore creating "shame"...interesting. So it´s all Acceptance and Love if we get ego out of the way.

I see, definetely i dont know how i´d feel at a retreat with strangers also...

What exactly is the problem here really? It's like I start to doing fasting and I complain that I start to get irritated, maniatic, or way to careless about not very important topics. You are putting your body in a abnormal state (doesn't have to be bad, I'm just saying is not the usual state, to not ejaculate) so expects changes in your physiology. By the way, the "women noticing you" is totally placebo. You are just probably more social / looking at the eyes therefore you notice it more. Don't worry about that LOL

Yes, I experienced. In that state all you can do is let go. Don't worry your human body is too smart to stop breathing just because your mind is hallucinating time hehe

Very special trip report, thanks for sharing.

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