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I just ask this because today I was finding myself daydreaming about the past and about the stories of my ego. In a sense deep inside there was an intuition that was like saying "here we go again, into dreamland. See? See? I told you. How I am going to be enlightened if I (ego) keep coming back to this stories. God already realized itself, but you are just not following along.". With this internal dialogue there was guilt. With this guilt I have the sense that I should be doing consciouss practices like all the time because this attitude of the ego is wrong. I actually don´t see normal at all to God shining light into what is false (ego) and ego just keeps behaving as he is real LOL. Ego keeps behaving as he exists LOL. Just want to make sure if it is normal in you guys to this "duality" to exist. Because that would be difference between relaxing a little bit or keep forcing the practices which tbh i dont a have a problem because its like exercise. Sometimes you just have to push yourself and maybe in an ego-backlash is the best thing to do. Maybe guilt is a sign that i should be meditating more?

That confirms my suspicions, I've been deceived by those fast, entertaining thoughts, that I forgot where I am. It looks I don't need to ask thought where I am, I just have to look at the center to see things clearly??The unfolding is happening ???

I´ve noticed that most of my interviews I´m completely "fake". I am starting to consider if this is the reason of my bad results. Basically 90% of the questions they ask me I had to "invent" an answer because if i would be honest i would say just "i dont care", "no", "i didnt do nothing", etc. Questions like: "What is your passion"? ... I would answer "I don´t know" if i had been honest. Instead a make a complete fictional history on the go. "How did you improve x things in your past job?"... I would anser "I didnt really, i didnt care much about last job" if i had been honest. Instead a make a complete fictional history on the go. I have the feeling I´m over invested in interviews, I have been inspecting my beliefs and I have this belief that one should "sell oneself" in the interview, an stupid professor told us that a time ago and since then I think i have been making myself a fool on interviews following this advice. Maybe I should be more honest and not-invested and results will start to come? Could interviewing be similar to dating? Lol

@Nahm My heart is corrupted then because I seriously sometimes think negativity is what I am (that´s because i probably belief the thought and I keep feeding it) (althought have to confess now after just having wrote that, that belief seems pretty ridiculous haha) pd: But I will probably forget of the absurdity and will come back to belief negativity as a normality / aspect of me.

@Mikael89 What if ego is a concept you are projecting into your body/mind and there´s actually nobody there? Suffering does exist but as an illusion. This should motivate you to break out of the illusion

I find it exaggerated to jump straight to the conclusion that his problem is depression. I actually identify myself with much with OP says and I don´t consider myself to be depressed, at all. I´m actually pretty excited for the future.

OMG! That inspired me completely. Awesome post

LOL You´re in for a rude awakening then. That´s exactly how you are supposed to understand women! Btw I´m not saying this as a critique to women. Actually I consider myself to have a lot of "feminine energy"- I´m just saying as a neutral fact.

@Roy What do you mean by "consciouss survival" exactly?

Are you sure your empathy towards animal cruelty comes from honesty?

Some years ago before having any moments of altered consciousness but I already had meditated for a while and listened some Leo´s videos of questioning beliefs/spirituality...etc, I was with my father in a village near my city and we were looking at a roman bridge, and I suddenly got this intuition/insight downloaded inside my mind, and I said to him "Do you realize that we actually haven´t been in the roman empire/we only have lived since x years, so we really haven´t had in real proof that romans existed?" "Yes, the proof it´s astronomically but it just feels from our experience there´s also 0% proof that they existed". Do they? If time is non-existent, reality exists since "I" was born. So my consciousness has created a story about a "past", which created the culture I live in (which also a creation of consciousness) Romans existed but only in my hallucination, didn´t they? In the moment consciousness stosp creating a story about romans and an historical past, there are no romans anymore, right?

Not following you in this one But this was probably pretty a stupid thread tbh.

Hermit? I´m very pissed because I just started socializing for good in my life and now THIS happens.

Your editing skills are dope

Yes, it never ends. This is what infinity is. Isn't it fun?

Before going any further in your enquiry, I would ask myself "What do I mean when I say 'accurate view of reality'? The question is, are we questioning science hability to understand reality as a whole or to understand a defined part of reality where we have put a label on? (A carpet, a chair, a human being, an elephant, cell...etc) If your inquiry refers to the second, then it's probable that science will remain pretty solid in the questioning. However if your inquiry refers to the first, we don't have to even question because science doesn't even approach this scenario, since already assumes that reality is a physical field where objects appear. Therefore, after the physical field is recognized, all science has left to do is to focus in the objects.

@Inliytened1 This it is nothing, yeah. But my question would be "where this nothingness is evolving"? Or "to what new realms of apparent forms will be this nothingness convert itself to"?

@Hello from Russia That is wrong thought You are confusing focusing your awareness on phenomena, with the fact of you being consciouss. You can be consciouss of this or that, but you always are consciouss. Withouth consciousness you wouldn´t be able to know anything. But being more consciouss with seeing more colours or hearing more sounds is totally wrong. You can actually be more "consciouss" if you want . Meditation raises your consciousness and it actually achieve this by denying you from being distracted with visible or auditory phenomena, at this point if you have done meditation it would be obvious to you that you don´t depend at all on visual phenomena to be more consciouss/have more consciousness. Is easy to measure a certain level of consciousness, too. If you are identified with any kind of phenomena (you identify with your thoughts that say "I am a human" therefore you think you are a human) you are a very low consciousness level. You are so low consciouss that you think you are what you see/perceive, and not what you actually are. You don´t even know who you are (conscioussness).

@SamueLSD I think the same.

Give it a try to Kundalini Yoga. Start first with only basic exercises. I wouldn´t advice self-inquiry until you have some yoga or meditation habit in place. If you like to do sports, try also going out running in nature (if you are able) and when you stop meditate/be aware of your surrendings. For me its very strong this combo. I think the quietness of nature + how relaxed the brain is when you just exercised can give very interesting results in meditation.

Lol best message ever.

Hi there, I'm currently doing Kundalini Yoga but I thought I should post this here instead of making another thread. So lately my Yoga practice has gotten very very intense. In some exercises I have started to shout violently the following words "Per litia, per litia, sdraeliee, per litia". I have done some research and there's nothing out there regarding this words. 'Sat Naam' or 'Sat Kriya' are the common words that are said in Kundalini Yoga so maybe is just my brain saying certain words for no reason? What does it mean that after an exercise in yoga, my body gets like 'possesed' and start staying this words like a maniac. By the way the last time apart from shouting, I got my hands close to each other, and I formed like a ball of energy/light between them and I "shot myself" into the chest, I fall into my back and that shot scared me too. I would have laughed if not because I was very serious when it happened and it was like I had no control of why I did that. I hear little people here talking about all kind of strange shit that happens with Yoga exercises. For some way this kind of stuff I don't see happen in meditation. I don't mean I consider myself special for it just want to make sure if this is actually a thing or this is just all deludements from the mind. Since I read fantastic shit from yoga maybe this is sort of placebo effect and none of this is 'real' .

What is the difference between having 3000 thoughts a day in a self-referential mode, or have like 10-20 thoughts that are precisely there to act on them? It seems when I've been in days when I've had very little thoughts my actions are more or less the same. I feel maybe 5% more free from the mind, but my mind keeps running the show. What 3000 thoughts a day do give is illusion of control. Maybe thats why it's hard to let go of thoughts, because one can imagine how would be to actually be free. It's very foreign to be free from your mind. I wonder if enlightened people really can choose accurate thoughts, act on them, and then the mind is silent. That would be amazing.

I just have to say, those of you who have done pick up more than just " a few times" I have all of my respect and awe for you. I just started doing pick up last week finally (did 4 so far) and OMG this stuff is cool but also terryfing. Before doing this 4 approaches, I spent like the previous whole month just "going for it" taking a walk in crowded places with the intention of picking up and then ALWAYS GO BACK HOME with an excuse. Also my mind would make an excuse to "why I am here and I am not approaching" LOL This went on for more than a month! Then last week I finally bite the bullet, and just when I thought I was having momentum and I wanted to do it again today because I saw a beautiful girl, my mind fucking said something and I actually didn't approach. This pick up stuff is not difficult because of girls, seduction, or socializing, actually it has surprised me how is *relatively easy (I did a few more pick up years ago but quit because I found a girl) it's because your mind is a beast. Actually the only way to pick up it seems to just walk your body towards the girl not listening to the mind at all even if it's telling you 100signs in form of subtle racing thoughts and emotions who only say "don't fucking do it, dude". This is no different than strong determination sitting Lmao. It's a battle against your mind. Any other tricks to "force yourself" to approach ? Like maybe breathing techniques or something like that to do exactly in the moment you feel that fear in the body but you know you shouldn't listen to that fear?

@remember LoL then you should have seen my porn tastes a while ago. Now i outgrowned them because I love myself a little bit and I almost don't find them arousing anymore. But they were pure auto-humilating to degrees that im not sure if it was psychologycally safe. Is not so un-commom btw. I guess it just common between people with low-self-love? I mean I appreciate your message because I know you mean it well but also don't be offended bro because I have enough with what I have LoL