Javfly33

If reality is One, how come I have to "watch out" to not hate and only try to love? If all it's love, why this judgement towards "hating"? "Love yourself" but even if you are hating yourself, even that is love, then why try to change anything. Or is the realization of this non-duality makes one realize the hate was always love?

@WHO IS Because God can't avoid itself. Suffering is not a conscious design. Is just the result of being ONE that can't help itself but to be ONE. Since God is all alone and Being is unavoidable, suffering is unavoidable too. But too is pleasure or joy . It's Infinity so everything comes with it. Suffering, pleasure, sadness, orgasms and donuts.

Have you noticed that the problem with life is not finding a solution, but rather "THE SOLUTION"? In detail, is the solution of the ego. See, the ego complains about life but to solve the problem it won't take A SOLUTION , it will only take the solution that suits it's agenda. For example, some years ago I was obsessed with a person. People would tell me "just forget her and focus on You". That indeed was a solution, that would have totally solved my pain instantly. Yet that solution wasn't something that the ego really wanted. So actually when ego is complaining about suffering or problems, it doesn't care any solutions that might arise if they don't fit exactly what his current agenda out of reality wants See, now I will put a present example. I have a lot of things I could focus on, self actualize. Part of my personality, part of my social life, part of my career, healing...etc. All of those aspects, need solutions. And this generate a kind of anxiety to solve this problems, an stress and activation to find solution to this problems. Yet there is a more bigger solution that is ALWAYS available. Surrender to the present moment, to what is. Surrender to what is going to be this life, each second, no matter what. That would be indeed A SOLUTION for all of this "issues". Notice that I already have the solution! That's it! My life is solved! And yours too! Notice too soon the ego wants to interfere with such a brilliant realization and consider that surrendering and accepting is not a solution for all of those issues. Yet it is. It's just that for the ego all it wants is solutions that FIT HIS AGENDA. But what about your Agenda? Your true agenda is not survival, since you are not really the human being or body that's trying to survive. Therefore, if you are wise enough, you should choose the simplest solution available to you.

Boring or unmotivated jobs. For example I got a new job. Is not great but I more or less do it without much resistance. But of course, as long as I do my dose of Kratom or coffee. I can't do that job sober. And is not because I wouldn't have energy. It's because the Kratom or the coffee numbs me a little bit and give me "mechanical energy" to make it But I know that I quit any of those two my job would be sooo fucking lame and tiring. So I'm at a doubt; Try to do my job withouth them, experience more motivation to find another job, but meanwhile suffer being unmotivated and tired. Or either keep doing them but because it's not going to be so challenging, I am going to be less motivated to find another job or start a business.

Woah. Do they accept Bitcoin?

Doubting between 4 or 5 days. Will it be enough for my first solo retreat?

Let's not even talk about that some months ago he said reincarnation and last lives were imaginary... Now they actually happen? Cmon

I know man, I did 'remember' last Sunday (it that even makes sense Lol). It wasn't "me" who remembered, but this whole thing i call life ?

Lol Who are you? I actually become consciouss of this in a Trip. I hit my foot with the table and I saw how the internal dialogue complained, but meanwhile i was able to "separate" the physical sensation and the complaining! I saw that it was just a physical sensation!

If that's true then WHERE is that suffering you are talking about? Maybe you are confusing thoughts with suffering. Suffering is not possible because IT IS a thought. Yet suffering seems to imply it is something different than a thought, when it fact it can't. It's a thought. In high level of consciousness when the ego complains you see that IT is actually not suffering, it is just a thought. But you buy the ILLUSION that you are suffering (you think you are real). So don't try to be smart here. You suffer because you are indetified with an individual entity which it's false. If you would stop believing yourself to be the body and the guy who opens the mouth, you would see that when *he complains *he is not suffering, there are just words coming out of *his mouth. You create the suffering because you imagine it.

Yeah. You pretty much described my thoughts exactly, in a way I wasn't able to do in the OP haha

Please explain more @Scholar I don't think I really get it.

?You must be kidding me?

The cost is brutal. Too much to be worth it

I'll suggest you start with lsd and start very , very low dose. I think it's more easy to handle and to start in low doses is great to catalyze instropection and healing

Smoked 5-meo this morning. I don't know what dose it was because it was in a retreat and the "chaman" prepared to me, but I imagine it was low, next time I'll ask for a bit more. I can't remember how much the peak lasted since I lost track of time but I wouldn't say more than 5 minutes, which made it a little bit sad because I wanted a little.bit more but then I thought maybe not next time because I had a difficult time surrendering. I don't know exactly what happened. After smoking it I closed my eyes and everything started to dissappear, including the meaning of the world until know. I don't remember having much fear but rather my heart beating like crazy and just a while light of pure nothing and trying to surrendering to this nothing. I felt the surrender was too much for my ego. Because what I experienced meant this was all real. And I might be God after all. When I came down I had a kind of meditation "high" in which I experienced typical meditation awareness but nothing too crazy. In summary, I would score the experience as positive because I got a taste of the substance withouth a lot of mental taxing. But in other hand I couldn't surrender to it and I'm not sure if I should do a bit more next time or not so I can go to breakthrough and not in that "waiting zone" where you still haven't died and you are trying to make sense of stuff. Also, it Seems in comparison with lsd or mushrooms trips I haven't retained much from the trip. I feel totally at baseline and I don't feel much difference in regards to identification with the mind. However in lsd trips even I'm very low doses I would feel a lot of mindfulness now. Maybe smoking is not the best ROA to go. Seems brutally fucking intense for some minutes and then instantly at basine. Might have to experiment once and for all with plugging

Thanks, that was a delightful read

Lol. It's literal..it's not a word game. I have never lived life as a human. Just had 4 seconds of awesomeness Joy. How do you can in 4 seconds realize all of your life was an Imagination and you actually never had a human life? Well, you can. It is that crazy this life. And Just in an instant you remember who you been the whole time!

What is love exactly?

You might have done a lot of trips but it's obvious you haven't surrendered yet. Maybe you are kind of insensitive to psychedelics. Try other things. I would bet a long term retreat would be what it would work for you.

Very nice post I agree a lot with what you wrote and I think you hit the nail that wasn't being talked in the thread yet

Hahahaha What is REALITY you say? It's not a question of figuring it out. It's a question so obvious it's painful to see that you are not seeing it Reality is whatever is happening right now. In other words, and exactly as you said, the only true thing is that YOU are the common denominator of reality. Wherever you go, there is reality, along with you. Do you still think that is a coincidence? Or maybe You and Reality is just a duality you made ? You = Reality Self deception is impossible because self deception is still REALITY. ???

It is limitless. How can anything be perceived withouth a mind? The ultimate answer is that there is no mind. No perception. God is directly experiencing itself.

Haha... Man YOU are God Ask yourself how could you be so stupid to not create something that is not Love.

Exactly. Psychedelics come or doesn't come from YOU in the same way meditation does or doesn't. Ridiculous point he put .