Javfly33

The cost is brutal. Too much to be worth it

I'll suggest you start with lsd and start very , very low dose. I think it's more easy to handle and to start in low doses is great to catalyze instropection and healing

Smoked 5-meo this morning. I don't know what dose it was because it was in a retreat and the "chaman" prepared to me, but I imagine it was low, next time I'll ask for a bit more. I can't remember how much the peak lasted since I lost track of time but I wouldn't say more than 5 minutes, which made it a little bit sad because I wanted a little.bit more but then I thought maybe not next time because I had a difficult time surrendering. I don't know exactly what happened. After smoking it I closed my eyes and everything started to dissappear, including the meaning of the world until know. I don't remember having much fear but rather my heart beating like crazy and just a while light of pure nothing and trying to surrendering to this nothing. I felt the surrender was too much for my ego. Because what I experienced meant this was all real. And I might be God after all. When I came down I had a kind of meditation "high" in which I experienced typical meditation awareness but nothing too crazy. In summary, I would score the experience as positive because I got a taste of the substance withouth a lot of mental taxing. But in other hand I couldn't surrender to it and I'm not sure if I should do a bit more next time or not so I can go to breakthrough and not in that "waiting zone" where you still haven't died and you are trying to make sense of stuff. Also, it Seems in comparison with lsd or mushrooms trips I haven't retained much from the trip. I feel totally at baseline and I don't feel much difference in regards to identification with the mind. However in lsd trips even I'm very low doses I would feel a lot of mindfulness now. Maybe smoking is not the best ROA to go. Seems brutally fucking intense for some minutes and then instantly at basine. Might have to experiment once and for all with plugging

Thanks, that was a delightful read

Lol. It's literal..it's not a word game. I have never lived life as a human. Just had 4 seconds of awesomeness Joy. How do you can in 4 seconds realize all of your life was an Imagination and you actually never had a human life? Well, you can. It is that crazy this life. And Just in an instant you remember who you been the whole time!

What is love exactly?

You might have done a lot of trips but it's obvious you haven't surrendered yet. Maybe you are kind of insensitive to psychedelics. Try other things. I would bet a long term retreat would be what it would work for you.

Very nice post I agree a lot with what you wrote and I think you hit the nail that wasn't being talked in the thread yet

Hahahaha What is REALITY you say? It's not a question of figuring it out. It's a question so obvious it's painful to see that you are not seeing it Reality is whatever is happening right now. In other words, and exactly as you said, the only true thing is that YOU are the common denominator of reality. Wherever you go, there is reality, along with you. Do you still think that is a coincidence? Or maybe You and Reality is just a duality you made ? You = Reality Self deception is impossible because self deception is still REALITY. ???

It is limitless. How can anything be perceived withouth a mind? The ultimate answer is that there is no mind. No perception. God is directly experiencing itself.

Haha... Man YOU are God Ask yourself how could you be so stupid to not create something that is not Love.

Exactly. Psychedelics come or doesn't come from YOU in the same way meditation does or doesn't. Ridiculous point he put .

Horseshit

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Nice. That seem like a life-changing experience. but I can I imagine it can be too much if you have 0 Psychedelic experience before hand. I'll smoke some tomorrow . Wish me luck ?. If only I get 10% of your experience I'll consider myself blessed!

What happened? Did you write a trip report I can read on the forum?

Same here. @Recursoinominado This

Go for it!

Your problem is similar to mine, you are just not taking it regularly. Psychedelics can be crucial (although they will just catalyze change and healing, you must be there to accept the changes, which is the difficult thing), but they must be done enough. Unfortunately psychs are not usually so powerful that you can trip 1 each x months if you have a very neurotic mind. You might want to trip at least 1 a month. Don´t push yourself with the doses. Just make sure you can handle it, but be regular

Yeah, of course. Is not that there´s somebody "in the back" hahah right man

Infinite love is grounding the present moment right?

Ironically I think that the fact that eternity is a thing is actually a kind of hellish thing . The fact that you can't go nowhere.

What is the "observer"? As far you are concerned, it´s only a thought.

Because they are imagining the experience. The experience never happened. You are imagining everything within the present moment. Including the past and any experience you imagine you had

Time is not experienced because time doesn´t exist. It´s a concept your ego-mind has constructed to invent an story of a self.