Javfly33

Contact your supplier. I talked to mine and they said they do test their product against heavy metals. So now you can't even trust the "organic" word uh?

Today i had non dual state for some seconds. It felt like such an intense Bliss, realizing i was the screen of my phone, that "i" was an ilusion. Then i thought that this state is What Users of hardcore drugs must be seeking. That state of completeness, not localization, and end of self referential "Iness" is What brings a peak of heroin or meth. (By all means do not ever try this drugs they go completely against What Actualized teaches. They are not a wise way to get to non duality, But they are a good way of increasing your chances of making your life more difficult and actually increase suffering). But...What i want to say with this, is, if those drugs, or any psychedelic, or meditation with other practices combo, CAN INDUCE THAT STATE... That means that Enlightment / Non Duality is just... A state. A brain state. Its just a state more pleasurable than the default "Dont do drugs/psychedelics/meditation" state. But...its not truth. If you can induce It with a drug, how is going to be the Truth? SO, the truth must be that which is outside all states! The bottom line is, as long as we have a brain (Leo has said that brains are imaginary But they DO exist, they are just being imagined by Consciousness, But they do exist) we cant ever get to the actual real Ultimate Truth. Maybe once we lose our brain (physical death) we Will be Able to access the truth. Then It Will be posible. But with a brain we cant. My experiences with 5-MeO-DMT inhaled makes me think that maybe we Dont need a brain to "exist" But, as long as we do have one (in this plane of Consciousness) Ultimate Truth is not posible.

@WelcometoReality nice

So after a loooot of trial and error trying to avoid the tough work of approaching and meeting women in real life (street/clubs/work, etc) by using all kind of tactics and strategies to seduce and try to build attraction purely online, I've realized this channel WON'T EVER WORK EVER It has take a lot of time to accept this. But I have. It was also difficult to come to this realization because I AS A MAN I CAN DEVELOP ATTRACTION PURELY ON LOOKS, which means that for me, it's possible to become attracted to a girl just online. In my ignorance, I hit my head on the wall over and over trying to sort out why "she wasn't getting attracted" to me after all kind of trials, patience, different strategies, etc... Because when it's ONE girl it's not a problem. But when it's one And two And three And another, and another, and another, You start to believe there is something seriously wrong with yourself. But thankfully I had this insight that maybe my brain is actually significantly different than her. That no matter what I do she will never be attracted to me online. So that's it, I'm done with trying. I'm basically from this time from now all kind of contact with females online with any implicit hope of "she liking you" it's NOT POSSIBLE. Online, You can only offer her money, basically. You can not provide her with any other value that will match his sexual value demands which she values on a man. As Leo said (paraphrasing here), "instead of criticising women for wanting your money, maybe they want you money because you don't have anything else to give them that would of value to them". Peace!

Well I can tell you I totally been where you've been, like, totally...and nowdays if you put me in that situation I would have a blast! I am still haven't mastered the lead and dominating aspect of game and dating but I would be like fish in the water in the intimate game and the bdsm/sex questions game. It just took a tremendous work and a massive letting go of my ego Vs others, you must realize that you feel weird in those games because your ego is trying to control the situation, trying to control how you look in front of others. It seems your ego has a problem with emotional vulnerability and sex stuff. Instead of trying to avoid being seen as X or Y, work on being Ok/Feeling Cool/Loved etc showing your vulnerability and kinks and etc. I mean you must be ashamed of this things in some way if not I don't see why would you have a problem sharing it with those guys. . So have hope that you can get there, if you want. It will take a lot of time though.

?Yeah maybe we millennials some of us grow up with stage green teaching of our parents, which were great to prepare us for our mind to be open and for new ideas to come, but terrible for getting things done and terrible in terms of accepting that getting results comes with sacrifice and hard work. I basically never knew the meaning of "hard work" all my life until I've started to dip my toes into how you build a business for yourself, mastering relationships and dating, etc. I think life were too easy for us from childhood and we are paying that price of expecting things to fall in your lap. I did grew up with that implicit belief I totally agree.

Thanks buddy, that definetely clear things out for me

Ok, I will do that. I have tried online dating (real dating apps) but I did not hire any photographer. I have to say I still had hope in pulling that off. I mean they are women after all I can't understand why they can't get attracted even though they are there to make money.

Tough to accept for "me" too that I am creating you ? There is only One God bro ?

Its very difficult to not ponder solipsism as the Truth after reading this kind of messages Leo

No

I think the problem too has been that I didn't met all this chicks on an online dating site. It is more of a porn site (it's not really porn but girls try to make money "here") but I try to refuse to pay and seduce them Lol

Well anyways this online shit can go fuck itself real approaching/meeting is way way faster to deliver results. The comfort pays the price of very poor efficacy

Don't know how to ask this ... I hope the title of the thread is not very weird... Some hour ago I was doing Yoga and suddenly it popped in my awareness that "I" wasn't anywhere... So I started looking at my hand, and I thought : "I must be there". Then I look around at the window at the buildings far away and I started Contemplating: "where this thought is happening?" While I looked at the buildings, people walking by, trees, I asked myself "Is this thought happening 'there'"? Because obviously I do not know where thoughts are really happening. Because I went back to my room and sat in my bed and I tried sorting it out by saying "Here, here is where the thought is happening" while pointing at my head. But, "here" is just a thought. I can point to the chair near me and say "Here", does that make that suddenly my thoughts are happening 'in' the chair? And what if I look at the wall far away and say "here", I could too, since who draws the line between "here" the "there" LOL. Does that make suddenly that the thoughts are happening in the wall? And what does it even mean "here" and "there" by the way? It's just a word that has meaning because "here" means my head. So everything else is "there". But we already came to terms with the fact that "here" is a word. So where the fuck is my head? Shit and they said that Yoga was relaxing and to calm the monkey mind. ?

@Leo Gura But 2 of them complemented my looks! So they lied or wtf You just killed me there idk what to believe anymore Lol.

@Leo Gura right. You are trying to say to me something along the lines as "there nothing outside" of this. The truth is this already. Btw brains do exist as an Imagination when we see them right? For example when you take an aspiring the aspiring WORKS WHY IT WORKS if brains do not exist? Is it because consciousness dreams the "meaning" of aspiring (the meaning is = it heals headaches) so IT CURES THE HEADACHE (the imaginary headache). Reality can't be this fucking crazy haha cmon man

Hehehe. If you close your eyes you just see another part of infinity? ?

Here's my theory: Insights and lessons from trips are still "delusions" but they are just more conscious/higher vibrations delusions Lol. And also, You have to take into account that you co-create reality (your ego and God), so for example when you develop confidence in relationships (for example) this confidence is as illusory and "not-truth" as the low confidence. Your ego starts to have more good feeling high confidence thoughts just because...fuck it does feel better. But that doesn't mean that high self esteem is "more true" than lower self esteem. They both are creations of the separate self or ego to survive and do shit in the dream. If you want truth, just be in no self. Everything else will be creation and more creation. So of course, if you are going to no matter what create stuff, why not create good stuff? You still haven't grasped how literal is the phrase "Reality is Imagination".

So mindfucky ?

I hope you didn't do anything stupid. (Physically violent or invasive) And I would be careful with the narrative of "she was ruthless, she hurt me, she was cruel". Contemplate that maybe your mind is playing games with you here. For example we can get hurt of eating one day bad food on a restaurant,but you just don't start to develop with emotional tension wound of shame and humiliation towards the manager of the resultant, even though he did physically hurt your guts that afternoon, and the intoxication could be linked to his "ruthless" selfish perspective on making money and not caring so much of the customer. Now apply this "neutral" not emotional perspective to that girl. Try to see that what you see as an emotional would that she produced, was actually your mind just playing games, not seeing reality clear, and then pointing the finger outside (projecting). Take care man, I tell you this because I've been THERE. And I say thanks to the universe some nights because I was lucky that by circumstances , I couldn't do what my mind wanted to do. But if I hadn't be that lucky that night, I had fucked up my life for good, hurt the life of a someone that didn't do anything wrong, and hurt somebody's family too. And all because your mind is fucked up. Is not the outside world. The outside world is how it is. It doesn't have anything to do with you. But your mind intertwines with it and wants to say all the time "it's me, it's me, it's because of me, me, me, me". Yeah, well. Be fucking careful next time. I hope you didn't get yourself into trouble, but try to be as serious as possible to heal yourself ASAP and try to remind yourself everytime it's not the outside world, it's your mind. You got this. You can do this. It probably won't be fast but it will be worth it.

I´ve been doing meditation on and off for the last 2-3 years. Also similar spiritual techniques to try to get into "altered states" of consciousness. What have happened yesterday in Kratom was very weird, what I think its important to say about Kratom is that while it does numbs emotions (and that´s why I certainly don´t recommend it for a daily consciouss life and clear view about yourself) and it relaxes yoursef, i wouldn´t say really that it decreases your brain activity per se. Kratom usually is very relaxing and one tends to think it decreases your mental chattering like a benzo would do, but definetely doesn´t do it in the common way of decreasing brain activity (decresing GABA) like benzos or similar drugs, because if i have an argument with other person while on kratom i become very active and usually more angry/pissed off than sober. Also I have a very light OCD, if I don´t watch myself I can get very pissed in Kratom in how the lights are turn on/turn off...etc This wouldn´t happen never on for example benzos or alcohol that just makes me dont give a shit and numb myself in all directions. The experience: Anyway, what happened yesterday is that I ingested a regular dose on Kratom and just went to watch the news, and then some time later I had dinner. After dinner I sit on my chair just listening to the silence waiting to get very sleepy like i usually like to do on Kratom. I fixed my position and my stomach did a sound, I imagine it was the sound of digesting the food. In that moment, I had such a powerful thoughts that just told me: - "Wait a moment, it´s so clear right now that I had 0 control about the body doing that sound right now, so I AM NOT THE BODY" - "If I am not the body who is directing this body?" - "Where exactly I am?" And finally... -"Well, right now I dont know where I am located." More than thoughts, this was just direct observations and feelings. I am putting them into words, but I didn´t think all of that in a self-inquiry way. I just felt them like a very clear/crisp observation of the present moment and my direct experience. Consciousness realized that being the body was just a believe, not a fact. So "I" stopped being the body. I would like to know if this is some kind of the classical "out of the body" experience that a lot of people talk about. I have never had one, and while yesterday was weird I wouldn´t say it resembles the intensity of some meditation experiences and one self-inquiry experience I had, but it has in common that in all of them the "I" inside me stop believing it was this body

I think reality is pure imagination. I think the city in which I was raised , I went to school, and lived my teenage years, was constructed by me. Literally. And it wasn't constructed in a weird manner, no. Each detail was intelligently designed. An example: The logo/icon of my city, is a Lion. In our culture, Lion is related with "Kings". My whole life I've been feeling like a victim, like a peasant. Precisely this city, I judged a lot the people who lived here. I was like scared of them. I moved out to other cities from 18 years old because I always thought "this city is not enough for me". Of course it was a defense mechanism of the ego. What I want to say anyway is that I was a victim, scared, feeling "separated" from this city. For example when I go out I would experience way more social anxiety here than in another city. Social anxiety stems from belief of difference/separation. This means I always felt very separated from this city. My theory is, I imagined that icon (the icon of the Lion precisely) to end the dream by realizing I am "The king", not the victim, of reality. (The King = I am God. I am so God I constructed my city, their buildings, everything, with my imagination and power) So while my teenage years I've been living like a victim, in my adulthood years (+30 onwards) I will be the most important person of my city, going completely full circle, loving a lot the people here and basically the city particular spirit/style. This, that would sound complete madness to a psychologist, seems quite probable for me. In my last retreat the realization that my whole life was totally imaginary arised very deeply. And I'm contemplating now this idea. Of course it doesn't matter a lot, they are just details of the dream. But anyway, I just thought to share it... see what you guys think.

@Breakingthewall Well this makes me pissed! Are psychedelics useless at the end of the day? Because they have definetely impacted this type of thinking. And I thought they were the recipe for avoiding the ego ??‍♂️?

And how do you remove suffering ?

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