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Dude I dont think you need ibogaine for Kratom. A little exagerated...

What hurts about reading this is that before getting into the anger energy before i have to trascend the shame energy ?‍♂️ and I've been stucked in that one for a lifetime so far

Ey, false alarm. I know why i relapsed. I had to take a coffee because i was starting a new job, and since I Dont have tolerance to coffee, i got very stimulated. When i take stimulants i completely lose control with porn. Before this there was 2 MONTHS since I did findom. So yeah as long as i stay off stims, my findom relapsed are not that concerning.

@Knowledge Hoarder I relapsed yesterday and spent 230€ on a one sitting ? with a romanian bitch. 100€ for a 8min video, 80€ for a Pic of his tits, and 50€ just to speak to her ?‍♂️

Something is not right. Im always with self defeating thoughts , thinking tomorrow i Will do It, its not that worth It, meh, etc. And while i do that i just make myself more miserable. I am 26 year old with good health i should be exhuberant with Joy, energy, passion, Drive, power, vision. I honestly Dont know What am i waiting.

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Right... wel,l I´ll see this next week how do I feel in work and then decide... ?

@flowboy I understand, yeah that´s what I thought. I´ll have to think about it. How about 70-80% chocolate? Doesn't that have caffeine in it?

@flowboy Thinking about relapsing with a expresso tomorrow because tomorrow I start my job as a developer and I literally can´t imagine coding withouth coffee. It´s like its ingrained in my brain. I literally haven't be able to do basically nothing this last week since going 0 caffeine. Physically I finally feel good and honestly it's amazing to wake up in the mornings and not feel the need to have a coffee, but mentally...it´s like I have 0 "fuel" to do stuff. Do you still do coding and do it without coffee?

? Nail it hard. Yeap, hard work, a pair of balls and less intellectualizing/conceptualizing. Goal for 2022: Stop fucking around and follow @JonasVE12 advice more ?

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I Guess you got balls. Not sure What you want to accomplish with this though ?

What is Good? ?

Why Happiness feels good?

@Lyubov Thanks, I'll have to try that approach. I do get matches after uploading profesional Photos But i am having a hard time with Girls replying. By the way, i have a question, how many days/week usually pass from the match until you go out on a date with the Girl? Also, for example right now i am messagging with one Girl that is replying fast and friendly But no idea how much small talk should I do until asking out

Sleep never happens. You just imagine it does

Sorry if that came across too rude. It was not my intention. I definetely had experience high state of Consciousness to understand where you are coming from.

Thanks man my life has totally changed since I just read that post... (ironic). I aprecciate the effort but Mental masturbation doesn't do anything unfortunately more than wasting time.

Of course if you are 100% God Realized then you have accepted loneliness after coming to peace with the fact that others are an hallucination of your own mind. BUT, for everybody else which still operate within the illusion rules, WHY a lot of people seem to be in less suffering/more entertained when they are talking or being with people? Why i cant entertain myself looking at a coffee table and feel "united"/complete/understood? Why the human flesh is special? Its simply because when you Talk or be with people the mind slows down, just like any other activity, or is there a more profound reason? When i am Alone at my room and i Talk with people, even through the internet, seems the loneliness fades a little bit. Why i am scared of this loneliness? Why I dont like It? And Also, if talking to people really doesnt unite you with them (non duality, which you really seek) why we seek It? Our bodies will always be separated, why talking or being close to some human flesh is "less Lonely"?

@Nahm Not at all. I used to "see you" like that at first. (Like you would make a joke about everything and from here that strucked to me as narcissistic or "i know more than you"). However since some time ago I realized there was another perspective possible when reading your posts, which is, to take them seriously! Reading them like that they feel instantly more "powerful". Although that doesnt help with that fact that sometimes I just unable to understand them ??

Yeah i ditched the chocolate bar. Today i am waaaay waay better than tuesday. Feeling almost normal!

I agree But isn't that just a kinda circular answer? I get that we are social But why existencially we look for Love in humans? Why Dont look for Love in a coffee table or a chair?

Had to take 2 chocolates because i couldn't function at work Total 20Mg of caffeine @Gregory1

@Blackhawk What you mean By the brain? So Girls now get attracted/not attracted to how neurons are displayed in each brain?

@Preety_India I don´t know how you are able to understand him ? What a couple of weirdos. ?