Javfly33

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  1. Nowdays I slide ´in all the DMs I can, basically ? That should answer your question young lady.
  2. I can relate, I don't think you need any technique more than just FEELING that shit. Don't be scared to feel whatever thoughts you experience (It might include your girlfriend, or not). Don´t say "how do I escape this tension." More, how can I open myself to this ? How can I breath through this feeling? Can I allow myself to love whatever I am feeling? Now, Feeling and Choosing what is best. Peace man.
  3. All of this to say "I am God and I imagine things, in which some of those things I call "humans" "? Just kidding man , thanks for sharing ?
  4. @Nahm Can´t the thoughts be true and still feel freaking bad ? Like "holy shit that really hurt, but maybe its just true and I have to accept it".
  5. Thanks brother also if you want to check my previous post ?? you might find interesting to read that too
  6. I've tried in the past, back on the days when i was on nofap. Installing web blockers and so on. But you end Up always finding a way to access it again I just think the only way out IS to change the way i think/ feel etc so i Dont find appealing so much to do this stuff. For example, i would never do findom to male doms. The mere thought makes me laugh. So its only to certain Girls. So What It is? What It is that i hate so much about them And feel inferior to them? Why do i give a shit about the money they make or not? <<<< all of this shadow must be cleansed and deconstructed. Also, because really my issue is global. Now is findom yeah, But actually this feeling of inferiority/need of validation/envy/injustice I already experienced with a girl about 5 years ago. It became a virus in my own mind. The amount of suffering It made me was incredible. So from that i suspect my mind have some serious trauma which makes It create this kind of thoughts and emotions. I think Basically social anxiety/findom etc It all boils down/is the same shit. It is produced because how my mind thinks about me/others, a Deep structure that findom trigger very Deep i think. Thats why even though i hate to lose so much money i know the addiction is not really the problem. My problem is this whole structure i think.
  7. From my experience, I Its basically based on a Deep terrorific pain of humiliation, shame about yourself, and injustice from Girls that you think they hate you or you Dont deserve. It gets particularly painful when after a findom session you talk to her trying to make her feel empathy for you , saying how much suffering this gives you, and help you, she does and makes You feel better. You think you Dont hate her so much anymore now. Maybe she and I, we are not that different. But at the Next day you see shes receiving money from other Guy with no spark of remorse. Thats when i experience an unbearable level of suffering and injustice i couldn't put into words. But its the kind that makes You wonder if Life its even worth living. @Thought Art
  8. I falled After a couple of years of being into Femdom Pov clips . No, with luck they Will send you a Pic
  9. My first day of doing nightgame the first Girl i approached called me literally "pig" from the distance (she was with other Girls). That was the heaviest. Then yeah with other 2 more It happened What you are saying. Not a good night definetely. ?
  10. what u mean haha. Not sure if I understand your question buddy
  11. nope,... its way more fucked up LoL Something fucked up sexually i think its too powerful, This shit its like crack Having said that guys, I´m not really concerned with the addiciton. I mean yeah it wastes me money AF but I know the main problem its other. I´m probably droppping some psychedelic on saturday, need a wake up call/learn to let go a or im going to fuck up my life If I continue like this.
  12. No, But actually the only reason I hang out with wings is last year when i wanted to get back to pick Up and i wasnt approaching at all on my own. Im not sure if i understand you . You mean in the interaction with the Girl, or the fact that i end Up approaching because the other wings create a (involuntary) pression of action?
  13. A little bit haha Sorry cant unquote
  14. I call the mixture between my beliefs, social anxiety, trauma, memories and self identity the "Monster". I am trying to get Rid of the Monster. I have realized recently that awareness is key to liberate myself from the Monster. Getting my prioritites straight is important to defeat the Monster. The Monster is n1 priority. Tonight i got close to feeling i felt again that shame/unworthiness/hate and I started crying desperarely begging the Monster to stop beating me. Because that is What the Monster does. What It has done all my Life. It Beats me to death with no mercy, It REALLY hates me. I need to turn the tables. I need power over the Monster. I wont get mercy from him probably. It is a devil. It Will always beat me. Only way i win is if i beat him to death. How do I kill this motherfucker?
  15. @StarStruck The issue I see with going with wings (at least when one is beginneer, i cant speak later in the process) is that you end Up approaching Girls that you maybe wouldnt if you were Alone. This makes the approach "forced" and when you are there you are not as relaxed/chill as if you had approached on your own. Because when you approach in your own you are not approaching with high levels of tension/fear/weirdness, (maybe with medium at most) (thats why most people never approach on their own also) Nothing inherently wrong with "forcing" approaches, obviously its better than staying at home and eating Doritos. But its also true that at least for me forced approaches havent given me much, unless the fact that they might serve as a Warm Up so later a "confortable" approach happens. Not sure if things change when you stop being a beginner, maybe then It doesnt really Matter and being with a wing is kinda going for a run with somebody: It entertertains you and makes the jog a little bit more easy But you still the one that has to move your legs.
  16. @Michael569 those are such great news because Im basically addicted to this ali-oli (spanish typical sauce done with sunflower oil and garlic) and i am currently limiting myself with 1 pack a week because i had this belief that sunflower oil (along with other vegetable fats) is bad. So i can But 2 or 3 a week now...? ??
  17. Oh shit im already seeing tickets wtf
  18. I think Nahms integrity is too Big to start writing "normally" if he desires to write like that. Having said that, I totally understand Leo. Its a tough decision anyway. Maybe he could *try to speak more down to earth. Although the fact is I always thought Nahms just speaks the Truth, so making It relative instead of "truthful" would be kind of 'lying' for him. Difficult situation. I Hope you stay @Nahm man
  19. @Roy I know, but since I haven´t had a girlfriend it´s like you "were talking to me". I am not looking for physical sexual pleasure with girls. And I don´t think nobody is really. That´s why I think your theory is kinda dumb.