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Well indirectly thanks to this deeply suffering experience I ended up having sex with other girl lmao I love how weird life is ?

I met this woman I thought we had good chemistry for once, but the next day I found out she doesn't find me attractive and she doesn't give a shit about me. I can't get to feel myself love from women, desire from women. Whatever I fucking do is never enough, whatever good seems to be happening (apparent attraction, kisses, laughs), only ends up to be all fake, it turns out she doesn't like me. It hurts so much, I don't care about anything else in the world but to feel desired and valued as a men in a sexual manner for once. This crap crushed me to the bottom again. This one was particularly painful because I really thought the date was smooth as fuck, I enjoyed myself, she enjoyed herself, etc...but nothing. Again I get beaten, demolished, destructed, treated as the apparent shit I am. What the fuck did I do wrong to deserve this.

The taste is not very pronounced, they just feel like smoke lol I like them because they burn way slower than the Marlboros or camel, so they last longer Yeah definitely cigars is a step up. Not such a compulsive habit as cigarettes and just make you look cool lol

haha lol https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/West_(cigarette)

@Carl-Richard Those are just two examples. But the flatmate that also used to do this was constant persecution to almost anything I've said. You guys are fucking great at gaslighting, Jesus.

Yes, I know what you mean. Obviously she can could do that because I was in a certain low energetic consciousness that allow it/would receive it But that doesn't make suddenly me guilty and she completely excused. That's like saying a woman that was raped it was his fault because she was in a "receptive" state for a predatory rapist. Or that a bully is excused also because the other person was in a vulnerable or weak state. Imagine saying: Fucking kiddo! How dare you are in a weak state to be receiving the punches and manipulation of the bully! Is all your fault!" @Bazooka Jesus If you guys feel good just assuming that the girl does not have dark energies that might be projecting to, and I'm the "bad one" go ahead. But is clearly not fair. @Princess Arabia The other person do his part to. If you want to deny that, ok go ahead. Sure, she is perfect, fucking Buddha, Dalai Lama. I'm the bad one. Yaiii! I hope you guys are proud of what you are constantly doing with me. Holy shit I might have said something really bad to you in other past lives because the amount of lack of any compassion or understanding to my part is really shocking LOL. I'm the bad one cool. The others are perfect and the good ones. Gotcha. Thank you.

I don't think that is the question. The question is more will the guy that is not bulked but has fighting skills win over the gym bro bulked but has no fighting skills and doesn't know how to hold his nerves/tension on a fight. A big factor when fighting is psychological preparation and intelligence. But of course if you are the skin guy and he grabs you unless you know ji jitsu or some shit like that you are probably fucked yeah

Don't start! Don't be dumb. Once you get physically dependent to it Your receptors will be kidnapped by the caffeine, you will be slave to it and your productivity won't neccesarry will be better. If your job is very mechanical and dumb, caffeine might help to be more productive, but if your work is somewhat intellectual (like software engineer or similar), it might be even a bad choice. @flowboy can tell you more about it.

I agree but partially. I wonder sometimes when I'm at the gym, there are some people lifting weights less heavy than me yet their muscles are bigger Lmao. I'm not Hypertrophy means you have more strength to overpower move someone on a fight. (Saying this with caution because I'm still a beginner at the gym)

Have you ever contemplated the possibility that a woman that is "shit testing" doesn't deserve in the first place the effort? Why you want to have something with a person that you are going to be in fight mode all the time? I don't know about you but when I go out with a woman is to have a fun and try to connect, if is going to be about fighting games, then what is the point. Can we have some maturity as humans?

sure. The thing is, women don't know shit about this. They just see big muscles and automatically assume strength and power. In a sense is good they are ignorant to how nuanced fighting and physically overpowering someone is.

Would you say masculine attractive energy boils down to taking initiative with self confidence/acceptance? I recently had a very interesting interaction with a girl. I started making moves on her, touching her hands, kissing her, touching their legs...etc. while doing all of this, I was doing it in a doubtful/testing the waters, kind of way. For me this was normal, since I just had met her 15-20 minutes ago, but she seemed kind of annoyed with it (not in angry of course but in an attitude of "meh, in disappointed with you, I was expecting you to be more direct), because she recriminated me several times by saying things like "you don't have to ask me for everything that you do, you can just do it" ...etc. I do appreciate this honesty of women lol, is quite amazing to receive that direct honest feedback, but I found myself surprised by it. After that day we exchanged numbers, then we had another date and I did kind of the same, playing with her, kissing her, touching her, ( but of course I could have done this in a more secure/direct way?), Because the following day, she wrote me saying she enjoyed my company but only wants to be friends. I was really surprised by this. Now you have to fuck the girl on the second date or if not they just lose interest? Wtf lol.

@The0Self hahaha nice one man, I definetely fell to that ?? Wow, im surprised by that ratio, that definetely does make me feel not so bad about myself lol

chimps have childhood? ?

Damn, Interesting how we are not that different from chimps ?

@The0Self so basically to have success with women is all about the Now. If you get too invested or start projecting the power to her you are fucked uh? Because at first I definitely did not feel like this. At first I was very little invested, teasing her like she was my submissive, replying to text late (not purposely, but because I really didn't care that much yet about her) etc...then once I start seeing her that she was really giving me attention and validation, I think my mind slowly started to turn the tables 180°, until it has happened what has happened. So my summary is that is wasn't the girls fault nor mine, just that I fell to some kind of bad karmic thoughts of weakness. Hell, even when she told me that she prefer to not take things further and stay friends, I could have just not cared ? . Instead, I got drown into those karmic thoughts and this following hell week came. Fuck me. How dumb i was. Fuck Karma. I could have had so much fun with this girl ?

Any ideas to make a homemade drink that has sugar? I'm so tired of wasting tons of money ok Coke, Sprite, Nestea's and that crap over priced drinks that have dangerous edulcorants, preservatives and shit. I do need sugar, I go to the gym almost everyday and my body craves it, also I have an oxy habit so I think the drug depletes my sugar resources because I really crave it when I do it. So because of this two things I find myself everyday at some point of the day buying this sugary cans. Any idea to make a homemade drink of just water, sugar (and anything else that could be beneficial) and that will taste good? @Michael569

@Schizophonia @Thought Art @Buck EdwardsEdwardsEdEwaEdwardsEdEdwardsEdwardsEdEwaErds Sorry can't unquote. @Schizophonia Dude are you just envious that she was attracted to me or what. Don't try to project your negativity by saying she was "having fun kissing me" lmao, as if that is a bad thing. In the first date when I actually was going to kiss her for the last time he tried to kiss me and I teased her and said to her "oh, no i only wanted in the cheek" when you do that kind of cool shit we can talk about women

Yeah I know, I'm definitely do not do play that kind of dynamic almost never lol, but for some reason it popped up and she totally jumped along with me

@The0Self thanks for the messages, very useful. I have a question, thinking about it now, I can remember she was very receptive to my physical contact like I was touching their hands in a loving way while looking at her eyes and sometimes during the interaction we stare us in each other eyes for some seconds in silence while doing that. So what that means? @The0Self here is what I think; 1. She went on the second date with me because even though in the first one there was some hesitation, the interaction still was pretty sensual/romantic like (we even played around with the dynamic of master/submissive). Still, beyond all of that game there was shame and anxiety underneath me and maybe she sensed a bit that. But I think she still liked the interaction very much because she was very receptive. (In my view, that first date was my most fucking smooth and "high temperature"I ever had with a girl). 2. Then, the second date. I think she came to see what happens. Kind of the way of "Ok, I don't know really about this guy, let's see what he does". In this second date for some reason I was way more anxious and doubtful. We got lost in logical conversation. I still played around with her a bit by holding his hands sometimes and other don't, in a playful way. But overall as people are saying here, I was contracted in my blocked energy of fear and Shame that I have in my stomach. We only make out when saying good bye. When I asked her the following day after she told me she only wants to be friends, I kind of get out of her the words that "I didn't felt much desire". But obviously some receptivity were there, If not how she would have been so receptive to physical contact? (And even she being the one that asked me for a second date). But then probably all of that anxious fearful shame energy underneath me through the second date fuck it all up. I couldn't be myself, allow my desires, lead her, etc... Another thing I've learned apparently is that girls get 0 invested and attached, at least at this point of the "relationship". She didn't hesitated me in saying me good bye when I told her that I didn't want to be friends. But me is like my whole world crushed for 5 days. What the fuck? Lol

@Thought Art @Buck Edwards I'm having crazy anxiety right now can someone PM me

This is my personal view, this not might apply to everybody. But this is what I found. The solution that I have discovered to finally feel Ok in social situations is to completely surrender what I'm feeling in my stomach. It seems there is a deep brutal pain of rejection in my stomach. I have surrendered to it, i completely feel it, and then I speak or say whatever I want to say. For example now I'm feeling oh, look how pathetic I am, I have social anxiety, that's something inferior people have. And I surrender and express this. And I feel this pain and I share it with you. I'm free because I feel comfortable inside my own skin right now, finally I accept myself. In summary: don't try to avoid or escape the pain feeling. Feel it, go deep into it, let it say or do anything that wants to do to you. Don't be scared of it.

@Yimpa what the fuck: " build confidence in dating by talking to a bot! "

I feel this failed date was a blessing in disguise. ?I'm not scared of the pain anymore ??????

@SeaMonster That definetely makes sense. Thanks for the input.