EvilAngel

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  1. Yes. I went out one night during those ten days and saw myself (God) in everyone's eyes.
  2. @cetus56 welcome ? @Aeris@Aeris... This state can be held. You can learn to create this state at will. Not schizophrenia. Schizophrenics suffer greatly. @ajasatya Thankyou!
  3. I've just started a job two weeks ago after being out of employment for a while. I'm a kitchen porter and I work in a busy restaurant/bar. I've been enjoying having a job and the responsibility that comes with it, but a problem has arisen. One of the chefs I work with is a bit of a tough guy. He's smaller in stature than me, but he looks and acts tough all the time. I am an honest, straightforward guy who is in touch with his feelings, so I think it makes him feel uncomfortable. We were on a group chat last night, and there was a misunderstanding when he didn't get a joke I made, then I asked him if he was "out" (what I meant was, was he "out for the night") as it was a Saturday night. He thought I was questioning his sexuality though. He then said I "act gay", which I took offence to and basically told him to "fuck off". All the kitchen staff saw this conversation as it was group chat on messenger. I'm not sure what to do because I'm the only new member of staff, and don't want to cause any trouble, but also don't want to be treated like shit. I want to keep my job, but don't know if I can continue to work with this guy. I've had some mental health problems which I'm still working through. I am quite open about them which is another thing that maybe makes him uncomfortable. But having a job is great for my wellbeing. I finish each day feeling satisfied (even if I'm just a kp). I'm basically worried I will be ostracised because I'm a bit different to the people I work with, I'm new, and now I've had this argument with this guy. Any advice?
  4. @Jordan Welsh thanks for your advice. I got paid off though.
  5. Hey Leo. I don't want to be a dick, but God's telling you not to upload the video. Take a hint dude. ?
  6. Thankyou, but how is reality a giant Mind? Are you saying there is no separate minds, just one giant one?
  7. Exactly, it's the most humbling thing you can do. But if God is "you", and you are only speaking to yourself, how do you explain prayers that are answered with results happening outside of your individual control? I suppose Leo would say there is no outside world. That's something I'm still not convinced of.
  8. This puzzles me. If there is really no free will, and the universe is a unified whole, that simply exists and flows naturally, then why does it seem as if one is "out of sync" with existence? Maybe a question I shouldn't be asking, but I'd love to hear your views on this. The reason I ask is that it appears as if we do in fact have free will - free will perhaps to relinquish free will... Look around you - there are people who are flowing naturally with existence and those who are not... Does this not suggest that there is free will after all?
  9. Sorry ? But it's still not been proven And it never will Accept it!!!!
  10. @Serotoninluv I have no choice, apparently, so it will happen or it won't ?
  11. Sorry but you're still using verbs... VERBS SUGGEST FREE WILL. So why do you "use" them????
  12. Can everyone just agree that free will/determinism cannot be proven one way or the other? So leo should not be saying he knows free will does not exist!! When he doesn't know!!!
  13. Are you saying that I never chose to meditate/self inquire and reach a state of no-self? There would be no "me" if I didn't x bbc cxdjh and had rjr ccfhjbbjgff. You see what I mean?
  14. Sorry but even the fact that there are verbs to be used suggests free will. How can one create anything without free will?
  15. @Serotoninluv haha... "Transcendence" suggests free will ?
  16. Delusions must have some basis in reality or at least be remotely possible otherwise they wouldn't occur. Who would believe they could shoot fire from their fingers when they try it and it doesn't work? Nobody I guess. However, someone believing, for example, that their whole life is a set-up, involving a great many people...this could be true - and that's my point - that beliefs such as this can seem extremely far fetched, and this they may be, yet that does not rule them out completely.
  17. The thing about my delusions is that there is a possibility that they could be true (and not delusions), and that possibility keeps me up at night.
  18. I just wanted to share an incredible insight I have had which has led to a breakthrough in my state of consciousness. I have been doing a lot of self-inquiry today inbetween sets of "do nothing" sits. I asked myself "am I the body"... The answer came back "no"... I asked "am I the voice in my head" and then I went through my five senses etc. Then I realised what "I" think I am... Which is suffering itself. Then I kept repeating to myself "there is the suffering, but I do not suffer. I am the awareness behind the suffering" This is an incredible breakthrough for me, as I have learnt how to detach myself from suffering. It is still there, but as it is not me, it does not have the same effect.
  19. Thankyou! This is amazing! The suffering is still there, but there is no-one to suffer.
  20. There are real life problems that have to be dealt with and thought about. Say you have a fight with someone, and you were in the wrong..., should you apologise, or should you just say to yourself "that was two days ago, there's no need in even thinking about it, after all it's in the past now"? The obvious answer is yes, you should apologise, because it clears the air and you are acknowledging that you made a mistake. However, some people seem to be so eternally "in the now" that they fail to see the need in even apologising, or sorting out long-standing personal or inter-relational issues. It's just an excuse they use to avoid taking responsibility for their lives/actions. This is something I have been guilty of. Meditation for me can act as a sort of get-out clause to avoid legitimate psychological/emotional strain. Don't get me wrong, it's great to be present and experience the actuality of this moment, however, practically speaking, if your problems are always dealt with in this way, they will always reappear, because in reality, by meditating all you have been doing is procrastinating.
  21. You got me there. No, what I should have said was no amount of fake smiles could replace one genuine smile. ?
  22. @Anton_Pierre Exactly man, I wish people wouldn't wear masks so much of the time. What's wrong with showing your true emotions on your face? One genuine smile is worth a thousand fakes.