Surfingthewave

@Raptorsin7 Let go of any expectation. That is where you are meeting difficulty. Can you see that you are already setting yourself up to fail? Meditation is about awareness, oneness and letting go. Just be aware of any thoughts feelings that arise. and let go.

I've seen a reduction in the following soft addictions : TV watching, engaging in gossip, reading horoscopes, social media browsing, bad diet choices, ruminating Reduction in the following hard addictions: Alcohol, overworking, overspending, over eating Meditation sessions this week : letting go, awareness of the infinite Walking in nature, reading books, life purpose work, focus at work, music Resources : Abraham Hicks, Tony Robbins Sleep : better, still some disruption and general health seems to have improved. Insight this week: Receiving. I am supported, aided and guided by the infinite. I look forward to what this will bring.

You are the sparkle on the waves The glimmer of rays The whisper in the breeze The freshness and ease We may mourn and weep But secretly we keep As we wait, to awake You're here, you're there Everywhere, too far and near A laugh, a tear You're where we'll be The sparkle, the freshness, I smile as I see The light, the peace I rest Within

@Raptorsin7 Yes I do get a sensation of my third eye opening, for time I thought it was pressure either side of my forehead but I had a Reiki healing massage and the practitioner said my third eye was quite open. When you say your difficulty is being whatever in the moment, what does that feel like? Perhaps do a Noting meditation to really take you away from thought and resistance. Other technique is Do Nothing so allow thoughts and resistance to come up. Walking in nature helps me connect with being as does contemplating and just sitting in silence. I also find live music connects me with being (depends on how good it is!) in a deep way.

@Rasheed Great thank you!

@Raptorsin7 I got a real sense of the depth of awareness and how infinite it was. It took quite a bit of practice, i used practices such as shinzen youngs Strong Determination Sits and Noting. I would meditate daily but also ramp it up by having solo weekend retreats, for example a day of doing one hour sits (4 hrs in total with breaks) . What I'm struggling with is sticking to the practice however. What are you finding difficult with locating being? You could also try self inquiry work.

Really felt a shift today. There is something bigger at work. Something guiding me, supporting me. Really felt the frequency of this, and the power of this. It's time to fully let go into being. Last few days I've struggled to sleep, felt sick, had headaches and fatigue. My body is purging stuff, all the stuff. Today I felt a sense of knowing, of magic at work. Although I'm going about my day, I'm floating.

@Rasheed generally protein and carbs, but yes I think my digestive system is working over time during the night!

@Javfly33 why do you want to be more superior than others?

@dimitri Thanks for this, I will definitely try this resource, its not the first time this work has come up. Just had a good Do Nothing meditation session. Letting go of toxic social relationships is a priority and also letting go of limitations I have put on myself (perfectionism being one) I look forward to receiving deepened, quality friendships from others and from myself.

I've been examining what brings me meaning in my life and also how I can drop some of this meaning. Family dynamics seem to hold multiple meanings, social relationships, current political systems, sexuality and how I view the path I am on are some of the things I'm aware of. The last couple of days I read a few things on the forum which kind of stopped me in my tracks. There is literally only this moment, and everything else is just perception. There really only is consciousness, which is created by me. My meditation practices tailed off a bit at the end of last week, so am keen to get back on the cushion this week. My dream boarding is giving me clarity but my sneaky self is kicking back on how I manage my Life Purpose. We waste so much time consuming rubbish, again input = output so if I read/look at crap I'm going to feel crap. Resources that have helped recently, The Surrender Experiment by Michael Singer. Great story but tricky to put into practice.

@WisdomSeeker This is the very tricky part of the path, how to navigate your "real life" especially when you have an awakening experience which illuminates the meaning we place on everything. My advice to you would be to consider regular softer practices such as meditation, yoga, life purpose work to get you to the place you want to be in life with your new shift in consciousness. It was brave of you to quit work, so you have fearlessness deep within you. The other thing I would say in the case of your social relationships is, yes you may feel isolated at times but enjoy the new form your relationships will take. When I spend time with my friends I listen more, I'm more non judgemental and can bring more depth to these friendships. I'm open to meeting others on the path and I also enjoy being with the ones who bring me joy, it's almost like everything has come into focus. Case studies would be a great idea, perhaps propose this to Leo or start a thread? I guess the journals are really case studies themselves. I know Nahm has written a previous thread on his journey. We still need to chop wood and carry water, it's up to you how you do this. Good luck and enjoy the journey.

@Red-White-Light By the sounds of it you haven't actually shattered your materialist paradigm. You may have had glimpses but to want to go back to duality as you describe, then somewhere along the way you have got confused. How did you shatter it, what practices did you do and/or are doing? You can't undo what you have seen. Perhaps you are oscillating between being awakened and being a human within the materialist paradigm. Keep going, dont give up, you'll see the light soon. ?

@Sussso Explore your own version of fear. Realisation that fear is just another sensation but with made up thoughts. Letting go and realising everything will work out just as it is, dropping your sense of self in the process. How you do that is up to you. Stop comparing yourself to others and drop the ego. To be a wild motherfucker as you so describe is to live the Truth, but not shout about it.

@peanutspathtotruth @ROOBIO What if we are the surroundings? Yes I agree with you but to have a great life lived we have to experience what it means to be a human and that is to experience loss, suffering, identity issues, societal pressures, materialism, love, rejection, knowledge, pain etc etc etc. The best bit is letting go of all that baggage and returning to being a child again, having fun, playing and experiencing everything for the first time. Remind you of anything?

Feeling very fatigued and sick at the moment, maybe it's my body purging all the unwanted stuff out of my mind. The morning/meditation routine is going well although the exercise has not been as regular due to feeling sick. With my life purpose I've been reading Mastery by George Leonard. Fantastic book, great for thinking about homeostasis, playing your edge and the "keys" to learning. Realise I'm aware of being fairly impatient when it comes to LP, so doing more to allow things to manifest when the time is right / things are ready. Had a strong insight yesterday of letting things be as they are. Almost like a space between thoughts it was a space between actions and intentions. Meditation practice - Do Nothing technique. It's important to meditate with the right technique depending on where you're at- Do Nothing when you're mind is all over the place and the labelling when you're feeling lacking on energy or focus. It felt good to be aware of how our mind clings on to anything, but even creating stuff when there is nothing to hold onto.

@Raptorsin7 Yes I have indeed, I've added it to my list of practices. There is definitely something in receiving, trusting and knowing. This is all part of the letting go/surrender technique. Part of what has scared me in the past, to the point of active avoidance of doing and achieving things is the not knowing what's going to happen. Opening up to having faith in the unknown is new territory for me. Faith is trust. Faith is a deep sense of connectness to being - Tolle.

Current practices : - Letting go technique - Strong morning routine (visualisations based on T Robbins work) - Daily meditation - Improved diet - Clutter clearing (!) - Daily life purpose work - Increased exercise - Weekly goal setting - Dream boarding - Awareness of soft and hard addictions

This is a great example. When you turn into your pain (that is what you are doing - becoming it) it dissolves over time. If you keep working on this you'll see long lasting results. What I would say is if you're meditating for 3 hours a day, it's tricky to keep up with this long term. Shinzen Young talks about "dropping on a dime" so using your meditation practices in your day to day life e.g as you have described in yoga/basketball. Good luck ?

@Raptorsin7 I'm not a meditation guru, I have been meditating for 12 years or so, and it has changed my life. Yes I think you're right it absolutely will be complementary to all the other things.

It will but again be aware you are "hoping". Just be aware of the goals you have for meditation. You are having powerful insights about who you are, thank you for revealing them here. Meditation is a returning to the source, the source of awareness /consciousness, nothing more nothing less. If you want to find yourself and/or be happier perhaps try other things aswell.

You seem to be facing an inner conflict with where all this sits with your beliefs? You have some fabulous insights and yet you are aware of the contradictions. This is a good place to be. Just enter awareness from here.

Here's the problem, you're setting yourself up for failure here. Meditation won't bring you a feeling of happiness. Meditation is a stripping away of feelings. Meditation will bring you fulfillment and yes as you describe, more of the flow state as you are flexing that concentration muscle. You seem to want to live your life in this state but this will take years and years of practice. Perhaps seek advice from meditation teachers/gurus? Just to help you with your tools and techniques. You also mentioned you haven't felt happy for most of your life, do you experience depression /low mood? If so it may be a chemical imbalance and need further investigation.

Strong feelings of anger today and underlying shame. I know this experience that has occurred is not my fault. The letting go part is particularly hard when someone has let me down big time. But this is the thing, letting who down? I am = pure awareness, consciousness, Yet I still feel certain emotions deeply moving through me, and this one is clinging on for dear life. Shizen Young talks about unifying and separating these deep feelings and sensations in mindfulness practice, expanding and contracting like the breath and concentrating on them so they dissolve. Underlying fear here is I still care what people think. Damn I thought I kicked that can down the road! In Singers The Untethered Soul he talks about opening the heart up instead of closing it at the first sight of suffering and letting these feelings in rather than resistance. I've also looked at The Empaths survival guide recently, as someone who is very empathetic, this is an interesting read. Generally however what amazes me is how blissed out I can be one minute and not the next. Unconditional happiness is definitely something I feel more as more (in between feelings of resistance) but maybe the more I let go the more I'm uncovering.

@Red-White-Light What's boring about discovering existence itself? What's boring about discovering love like you've never experienced? What's boring about experiencing such happiness that it will make you cry? This is what you've yet to see. I'm also surprised at Leo's reaction. This is the generation we live in, unable to concentrate for more than 10 minutes. No offence but you expect massive results instantly without doing the work. It takes years my friend. Get to work. Forget the train and walking, you need to meditate first with no distractions in a quiet room. 10 minutes is good. Start slowly and build it up. Also use techniques to mix it up.