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I use my imagination to memorize things. It's a very fun approach. Once I was even the first place in the ranking of a memorization mobile app. It took me around 2 days to break the record, but I did this memory exercise some time ago.

Maybe psychosis and enlightenment are the same thing. The fear of psychosis comes from the Orange paradigm that it's a symptom of a chronic disease. I wouldn't advice people to stay away from Enlightenment, but I would say that, when they feel ready, they can explore it.

Hi, @Feel Good! You're welcome and thank you for your comment My therapist told me that Jung really had a psychotic episode. It seems he also used psychedelics. Most psychiatrists are Orange, but they're still important for the consciousness evolution. Many Blue and Orange people who are passing through psychosis may need medications. For those who are experiencing psychosis or experienced it, I suggest taking a look at materials of these people (many of them are authors and mental health professionals): - Robert Whitaker; - Laura Delano; - Will Hall; - Carl Jung; - Stanislav Grof; - Peter Breggin; - Thomas Szasz; - Peter Gøtzsche; - Sean Blackwell; - Eleanor Longden; - Daniel Mackler; - Paris Williams; - Loren Mosher; - Jaakko Seikkula. There are many others of course.

I haven't been watching last Julien Blanc's videos, but he has approached some stuff related to spiritual enlightenment after the media scandal. I still think he has some shades of Orange. He needs to create a new course by the way. Transformation Mastery is getting a bit old and it would be awesome to have some of his new insights in a course pack.

There was a simple statement that I kept repeating to people when I was psychotic: "I'm God. You're God. Everything around us is God." No wonder why they hospitalized me and put me on medications, lol. Anyway, I was psychotic but my statement was pretty simple and full of truth.

I have no strategy to read books. I just read them for more than 30 minutes. But I would like to learn more about how to read books effectively. Is there a book that talks about it? Lol.

Yep. Maybe it is. But it also came with many dellusions. Thank you I never had hallucinations due to psychosis. I just had dellusions. I'm studying more about what psychosis may mean. Maybe it's a sane response to insane conditions. I'm also aiming to study Carl Jung and Stan Grof materials. They have even a mystical approach to psychosis.

I was looking at this video about the relationship between bipolar disorder and enlightenment: I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and I had similar experiences, including wanting to give love to people. I would feel that everything was connected and I was very sensitive about everything. I was able also to read people's thoughts, but at those moments it was very scary. During these anomalous experiences, childhood traumas emerged as well and I felt a lot of suffering. I'm more aware of what those experiences meant and I think if I face the healing process, I will have a better life.

Here in Brazil I did a kind of a reiki with slight touches in certain points of the body. It made me recall some memories. But the therapist also stimulated my heart through massage. It was funny because I started to cry during the session. It helped me to feel more compassion for my parents and people who bullied me during my childhood. Maybe you can find a similar approach.

Find a meditation mentor to help you. It remembers me when I meditated a lot before my psychosis. I would have a voice inside my head who kept giving me orders. You can get psychotic but it's okay because there are people who recover from it and become even happier and fulfilled.

Do you have a mental illness diagnosis? If you're getting psychotic, it's not a good idea to go to the monastery.

Thank you for the honest answer, Leo. If I'm judging, I still have a lot of work to do. I still can't fully grasp what many Turquoise teachers say, but a lot of what you say is easy to understand, maybe that's why I'm still so attached to Actualized.org. Anyway, I think the same (due also to my life experience): the teacher won't explain me everything, he/she still has flaws and incomplete teachings and it's important to make use of many sources. I didn't got it.

Thank you for the answer, @outlandish. It's important to understand that I'm not calling Leo "shady". It's just a feeling I had and I don't always trust my feelings. I got it. If we put Leo on a pedestal, we start to separate ourselves from him.

I have a different interpretation of killing your ego. If you consider we live to serve others, you may think that you should have a job in order to do it. Your ego is telling: "I just help others if I have a job." But then you find a job and start working, and you still feel you're not helping others. That happens because your ego tricked you. You can help others from any position, but your ego makes you believe you'll only serve other people after achieving a certain goal. The same happens with happiness. If you think you'll just be happy when you achieve a certain goal, you'll never be happy. And finally, it also happens with self-worthiness. If you think you'll just be worthy when you achieve a certain or do a certain thing, you'll never feel you're worthy. When you kill your ego, you realize you're already helping others. You realize you're pure nature, you're love. You then help other people expecting nothing back because you killed your ego. You see value in other people because you realized your own value. You don't need to read a book in order to kill your ego. You don't need to meditate. You don't need to have mystical experiences. You don't need to do anything at all. That's just my interpretation though. P.S.: killing your ego also let you take action faster.

Just checked it. People share some beautiful art. It's awesome! I just watched 20 minutes of his video and felt that lonely vibe again. He uses words like: "to understand such thing, you need to have mystical experiences" or "to grasp the meaning of this, you have to work on your consciousness." His statements resonate like that: people who do this are more conscious, people who don't do this, are not. I have the impression it separates him from other people. Even if you do not meditate, even if you do not take psychedelics, even if you didn't have mystical experiences, even if you did not grasp the meaning of reality, your opinion has a very important value for any being. You don't need to follow anything in order to be happy. You don't even need to meditate. Sometimes I watch Teal Swan videos. Never heard about Lisa Cairns though. Yep. Human interaction is what makes us human. I remember moments I was truly happy in life. I did hard work, really commited myself and also helped a lot of prople for free. But I had lack of emotional coping experience, so I wasn't able to make that happiness lasts forever, but it still lasted for a long period of time. You're welcome :). That's what my intuition tells me as well. Did Leo tell someone to kill him/herself? It's great! I hope things keep working for you. You're welcome What I described are my feelings. They are not just based on my past experiences, but also on what I experience in the present moment. Sometimes the videos evoke sadness because it seems Leo is sad and lonely. Sorry, @Nahm, I didn't get it.

Thank you for your answer. I like reading fiction books because they inspire me. As an artist (I love drawing), I have the need to become inspired by a fiction book for example. It can also be a movie, a theater piece, a song or a poem (I still want to study Joseph Campbell's materials in order to even become more inspired). Fiction books and romance let me fantasize and it's very positive if I want to create a drawing or a painting from my imagination. I read an article that says fiction books help you to have empathy for other people because you put yourself in the skin of the character.

Yeah, it's possible to experience psychosis after a meditation retreat. You may want to read Rethinking Madness by Paris Williams in order to understand what a psychosis is. It's possible that the person is passing through a spiritual crisis. When the person pass through a spiritual crisis without observing the ego, it's called psychosis.

It also says that Donald Trump is Orange. I thought it funny that the same page also refers to Lair Ribeiro, a Brazilian physician that has many materials about orthomolecular medicine (I'm Brazilian and sometimes I take a look at Lair's videos). Just realized that there are many other things about the spiral dynamics that I need to study. I thought spiral wizards were just Yellow people.

I think I read similar statements in a Jonny's Bowden book. There are other authors like Mark Hyman and David Perlmutter who demonize wheat and gluten as well. There are researches suggesting that wheat can even boost the immune system. I suggest taking a look at Michael Greger articles or at NutritionFacts.org.

But I'm not demanding guidance. Many answers are inside of us. They can simply understand and accept people with mental disorders. I hope you take the big picture of what I'm saying. I'm advocating for understanding, and not for guidance. Anyway, it's good to hear that you did a good work with your kundalini awakening. I read some stuff about it and I think it may have some relationship with my anomalous experiences during psychosis.

I just read the policies to participate in a Vipassana retreat of a meditation center and it's an absurd the way they treat people with mental disorders. I read the policies of this meditation center more specifically: www.dhamma.org/en/index They say Vipassana is not recommended for people with mental disorder and even say that those with a history of various treatments tend not to complete the ten-day course. It's is NOT true! Mental disorders have a strong bond with spirituality. It's unfair what they're saying. They're doing the worst by stigmatizing people with mental disorders. I can't understand why does it exist among the spiritual realm. If you commit yourself to spirituality, you should understand other people better, and not stigmatize them or treat them as different people.

Sorry for understanding you wrong. Anyone can have a psychotic break, not just the ones who have a mental disorder background. It still seems to be a lack of understanding of the staff people and they blame people with mental disorder background. Or don't you think it's odd that many people who went to ten-day retreat came back to their homes experiencing mental "problems"? Why do you think that there are people who experience psychosis after or even during a ten-day retreat? Why do you think that even Leo has a video explaining the dark side of meditation? It's not because these people have bad genes or they're having altered states of consciousness due to a chemical unbalance in their brains, but because the suffering they pass through is part of their healing. The ones passing through a psychosis or mental "problem" may be experiencing a spiritual emergency. It's not supposed to be viewed as a bad thing, but as a good thing.

If you consider the etymology of this word, non-duality is just an ideology if it's a set of ideas, doctrines through which the world is interpreted.

It seems to be a good idea. It's just important to understand that people that are passing through a process of psychosis may not be able to attend this course (if a person is passing through a spiritual crisis, it's recommended to stop her spiritual practices). It's also important to understand that, if the person with mental disorder background feels she can face a normal ten-day retreat, the doors are open and she can apply to it. Do not underestimate the capacity of a person with a mental disorder background. I haven't gone to a Vipassana retreat yet, but I'm quite positive that I can do it one day. By the way, there are people who were diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia who did a ten-day retreat. An altered state of consciousness is not supposed to make you weaker, but to make you stronger. I understand they have to protect themselves, but it seems they are protecting themselves due to lack of information.

As I said before, if you're psychotic, you shouldn't go to a meditation center. But many people with mental disorder background don't get psychotic anymore. Many of them passed through a process of healing which psychosis was part of it. Even if they are having problem with such "neurotic" people, it's possible to take measures in order to include them, and not to exclude. According to this article https://psychoticbuddha.blogspot.com/2013/01/psychosis-and-buddhist-retreats-back-in.html?m=1 there are retreats that are accepting people with mental disorder background. And it seems they don't ask if you have a mental disorder background, but just if you can meditate for long periods of time. That's the point they should investigate, the capacity of a person to meditate for long periods of time, and not if she has a mental disorder background.