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First of all, thanks everyone for sharing your thoughts, it helped me a lot to understand a bit more. To Galyna (I'm not sure if you asked me, but this is what I think about self-awareness): At this moment I feel like awareness is realize that you are not your ego and act in that way. Act without preconceptions, seeing things the way they really are and not the way I think they are. At this moment, I know intellectually that I'm not my ego, that I am not my thoughts, emotions, etc. But they still control me, right now through observing the environment, my reactions, observing my thoughts I am beginning to develop a bit more of awareness, but I know I still have work to be done to clean the mud of my emotions, thoughts, etc . I am still no confident, I have fears, I don't see very well the problems of why I'm still not as successful as I would like, etc. And about meditation, don't be scared. The meditation that I think we need to be aware is just to be more in touch with reality. Not trying to reach an state of nirvana or anything like that. It's just see the reality better without all the ideas that we have from past experiences, thoughts, preconceived ideas, etc. That's at least what I understand at this moment. Thanks everybody again for your valuable input!!!

Elizabeth, New Jersey here... but I am native from Uruguay. That's why my english is sloppy Lol... :-P

Thank you very much, very nice answer. I see... I need to stop seeking. It's true.

I'm also on medication, I have Zoloft at this moment. I think as you said, it is good in moments where you are very depressed. The doctor I had was very good in showing us how the human brain works and how this meds help to recover the connections between the neurons in your brain. But they also addressed that if there's no help on your part the medication can be not enough. You have to work on yourself too to get positive and improve your condition. But there are some cases where medicine is needed. In my case it really helped me to get out of the bad moment and get on my feet. Now I am very far from that moment of crisis and I hope to keep it that way.

AlmostActualized.... Thank you very much for your comments! I really appreciate them! I know I am all over the place hahahaha.... That's why I was asking for direction. You were really helpful, thanks!!!

Cool Ayla, thanks for your comments. Sometimes I got a bit anxious and I want to become aware very fast hehehe.... thanks again!

Is The best way to be enlightened just to observe your thoughts and reactions without being involved in them? Is there a point where you became aware of who you really are?

I have problems with overthinking too, really helpful advices here. I found the meditation exercise that leo uploaded on youtube, where you have to focus to the outside without thinking, just note the object, then name it with the sense that you are using (see, hear or feel) and then observe it without judging, without analyzing it and then save it on a part of your memory. It helped me to be more focused and not to think so much... this is the link to that video:

I discovered mooji recently and I must say he's awesome.

I agree, I try to meditate on the bus and I read a lot. Now I'm beginning to listen to audiobooks too.

I'm trying to do a morning routine, normally I just take a shower first time in the morning. Then I go into breakfast, I am also in the process of switching to a healthier breakfast, as Leo said, more veggies, etc. Not so much bread and sugar. My idea is to make at least 15 minutes of exercise, first thing in the morning, then shower and after that meditate at least 20 minutes. Then breakfast and getting ready to work. I'm working on creating that morning routine. And then before going to bed I try to meditate again. :-)

Thanks mgi0077, you are totally right. I think I just have the response from what you just posted. Thanks!