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@zeroISinfinity yeah i finally understand, i'm in it right now i'm just not being it so how long was your journey to completing this until it became perminent

so what your saying is they're not conditions to enter, but rather results of being in the portal, i didn't want to do anything but BE i was thinking this, would cleaning up my diet, and stopping my addictions, like does this have anything to do with whether you die or not, because i feel like it doesn't you could literally die without becoming the biggest yogi in the world but yeah i never realised that until you said it now yeah that's the major thing, authenticity is on a whole different scale, i've never felt even close to the autenthcitiy i felt in the portal, like its like authenticity is a different DIFFERENT level of being compared to even living authetntically in an ego mind but do you think things like being nice , talking truth, giving up addictions basically buddah's 8 noble paths for example help lead to this, also i guess this is what teotalizing is definitatitly right about everything else you wrote the only thing you can do now is absorportion, why do you come out, do you think? it can only be because you identify with something else simultaneously Yes i see all of these are true. especially the absense of self, as soon as my mind came back and started labelling, it basically lost absorption at this stage you are aware of awareness, but you haven't realised pure awareness

@zeroISinfinity YEAH YEAH BRO I get it, you have to drop everything at the portal, every concept, every thought, every identfication, nothing will survive, there will be no experiencer, no expereiecned <--- even this is concept, and it is not possible to compare to the real thing. But i'm just interested in listening to others experience of it, when they first encountered it and how they encountered it, my monkey mind is interested in it, but its not interested in finding out what it is, its interested in just listening to others experience of it

Another question preetom, i felt like this is a portal for begginer , like it took me 6 yeas to sort out my monkey mind duality to give it even the slightest of time to be quiet to open the portal. Like how long does someone who's medititating for, for example before they reach this because! THIS is medititation + intent, its simple not just mainstream meditition

@zeroISinfinity wait wait i'm not ready i need a day or so literally, like just to do all the stupid shit i want to do one more time, because lets face it, thats basically like saying your identifying with the current NOW, so eventually you will detach from your mind, the longer you stay in the portal. But i get it, the portal is you, you must be feeling PEACEFUL, I FELT LIKE I COULD STARE AT A WALL FOR YEARS! and i would be as peaceful as when i started

Questions like is this the third OX tail of the The 10 ox herding pictures - Tasting enlightenment for the first time? @Preetom Yeah i'm not going to lie, when i reached the portal and came back to normal, i instantly understood psychadelics and what 5-meo is basically teaching, so i called it basically the god pill, like truffles, weed is nothing like this

Yeah i know, but i just have to know about this portal, even though it doesn't matter in the long run.

also i feel like instantly alot of my desires have got destroyed having tasted the portal, its like i don't feel that anything else as equally worth it, seriously you can't offer me anyting in the world, but i would take that experience of the portal in the NOW to all of that

yes i realised how hopeless i am lol

@Druid420 yeah its true but, it is a complicated process, it took me 6 years to even get this far lol, jesus buddahing christ man, @tsuki your welcome we can call it even, you gave me the gateless gate, i gave you an orgasm sounds about equal in value

ahahaha very funny looool very funny loool THANK you for your help, as you can probably tell, i really appreciated it obviously

OKAY LAST QUESTION! what do i do about passing my final year of university while trying to go into the void?

I KNOW BUT THATS NOT THE POINT LOL, BUT YES I AM LOVE ITSELF JUST LIKE LAUGHTER SO I'M SURE EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE

exactly! imagine they think i'm crazy or something ahahah! trying to be the hero who changes the world! ahahaha thank you for this confidence, its reassuringly true, AAHAHAAHA i always wanted to experience a buddah laugh but i guess thats just the universe laughing itself.

basicaslly the last question i want them to ask me is that it will be obvious through my actions ill be sitting there staring at walls, loving solitude

Right you can't embody it, because you are it but the person who's surrendering thinks i am the person surrending to become god when this isn't right its becoming what you were the whole time. i see why i can't tell my parents, because it would be spreading delivery and falsehood

actually i see what you mean, that is literally death

woAH that literally means i'm talking to god right now asin you are literally god and i'm talking to you as a seperate self but we are the same, woah thats trippy. HIIIIIII GOD LOL aright , lastly i thought of another question, do you think i should tell my parents, or is it best to go quietly? i think i should go quietly , i don't want to affect their reality, with thinking i'm special or god or anything sounds like the better decision right?

LOOL! okay last question: it seems to me that you can't talk about it past this point , like there's nothing you can say about it at all, its literally just you and your experiences and the practices, until you don't need the practices anymore?

literally only a matter of time! you can't unsee it once you've seen it because its literally like NOW the access point is literally in the NOW, YOU CAN'T MISS IT have you done it or are you still trying?

@Shin LOOOL! i understand those panic attacks that you've been having in bed and those days where your not motivated to get out of bed from reading your journals, it literally makes sense now some solid advice, definately if you try to understand it with the brain you get out of it and does that include planning how your going to live your life because thats believing there is a "you" to plan it?

and how far on the journey are you ? LOOOL i finally understand what it means to die @Shin

is surrendering basically the idea of no surrendering, its like you let it happen to you. like the idea is to remain there at all times,

@Druid420 i see which is exactly what it felt like if i went fully through, its basically like going to a place of no return. because your perspective changes to pure awareness and isn't from the perspective of you. So i'm guessing the more you disconnect from the mind, the less you identify with it.

@tsuki LOL MY SHADOW WORK IS SAYING GOODBYE TO MY PARENTS AND LIFE ! @Druid420 yeah that was it, it was awareness of awareness does that dissipate into pure awareness when you go completely through