Aakash

@Jack River what do you mean? that even death is an illusion?

@Shin i've given up on dying, i just can't understand what it means! i thought i would die when my ego dies, that didn't happen. i thought i would die when i became pure awareness that didn't happen i thought i would die when i reached the non duality, that didn't happen i thought i was dead when i realised that i was never born, nor does one who is born dies, that didn't happen i thought i would die when i stopped using mind, it seemed like a death- but it didn't feel like i was dead @Leo Gura please tell me what it means to die, what is the method to dying i actually think i'm already dead, i just don't know it Disclaimer: i know i used the word i , and i implies someone to die, but it's not what i meant, i just don't understand what it means to be dead in enlightened terms (also do not mean physical death)

@Shin i can never tell where your at on your spiritual journey lool! please enlighten me, so i know!

Aka being aware is all there is or awareness is all there is

as synchornicity goes this relates exactly to what i just posted about "being aware of being aware"

@SoonHei not quite tunning out, more tunning into the video, but creating no mind noise, being aware of being aware, and i tried the first time to mimic his state of being, its clear that hes speaking from his direct experience of being awareness and then saying these conceptual words but the experiment isn't to understand the word, but to connect to a deeper awareness of viewing the video sorry if it doesn't help i'm not sure how to put it into words. hes so paradoxical to the point that his words have no meaning, but i also know for myself that the words can never point to what it is, it is under! all of it. it is you, being aware then the second time, i was being awareness and tried to see if his words matched, the words that did were "silence, but silence doesn't even get it completely" which was true because it was awareness not silence

on second attempt, the connection i got was a pure state of awareness, i just dropped all meanings behind your words, and resided as awareness.

the connection i got was a deep state of now, the word i hung to was its a mystery so theres no point trying to figure it out, the true self is grounded in the present moment.

seriously if all is awareness, then what am i interpreting and putting my judgement and assumptions onto? consciously aswell through identification with the self, is this pure ego if you seize all segmentation/ distinctions then all that would be left is a unified feild? would you exsist after

@Mu_ i've actually been considering for the last hour or so, that maybe i should just live my life this way. since all my preconcieved notions of enlightenment were false. maybe suffering is actually good

@Serotoninluv fair enough thank you for all your responses

@Serotoninluv so in the end the point is just to live life, watch it unfold in the now and then just let awareness do its own thing?

@Shin aahaha enligthenment 101! the basics! i'm simple reconfirming although nevermind i already got my answer now!

@cetus56 sounds amazing! enjoy the beauty of the woods

@Serotoninluv @Jack River so your both saying it doesn't matter where you go, you end up in the now. even action is non action similarly the higher order being is still present even if your not directly aware of it and so you don't need to end up doing any action to search for it, it is here with you now. letting go and being in the now (without a phase of time) is still being the higher order being.

anyways thank you all for your responses, note: i am officially mind fucked, because i can't aware awareness- i can only be it lol, so i'm just going to ground myself in the present moment even more or in some flow state, forget being headlessness, its not sustainable long term.

@Mu_ @Serotoninluv but is this not because everything is awareness, regardless you will still be the duality being experiencing all the depression,anxiety and stress. its the fact that you know that it is not you, that is the healing property?

@Jack River what has your experience been of keeping everything is awarness at the forefront, are you able to maintain it for a sufficient period of time?

@cetus56 i see, thank you for answering my questions, it has been most helpful @Jack River ahmen to that brother, foreplay is what its all about hehehe speaking the truth, i totally see what you mean, also thank you to you aswell! yeah umm next time use more heiroglyphics! if your going to write a whole sentence

@Jack River thinking silence being obsersvation is the same as seeking not observe think contemplate be did i get it this time?

@cetus56 O.M.G to remain the same always, that's actually insane. no wonder why this takes years to get down completely. I was wondering why leo says he's not enlightened, i think i understand now. enlightened masters must be in some next domain of awareness. are you able to sustain it while your building at work?

@Jack River what did you really mean?

thinking, silence, world-view observation is looking thats all i got out of that lol

@cetus56 so it becomes a matter of my resolve ? is this why people always say that its okay when your sitting and in silence, but when something drastic occurs would you be able to remain in non duality? i.e a death of a loved on, the heart break of a relationship currently i was trying to watch a tv show whilst keeping the reality that everything is consciousness, i went in and out, in and out of the state.

@cetus56 yeah thats kinda what it seems like. i have come across a problem are you able to remain aware that everything is awareness and focus at the same time i.e performing an activity, such as watching a movie or video.