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  1. There is a long PBS documentary about Dick Proenneke, called Alone in the Wilderness, but I can't seem to find the whole thing. Dude was the OG of filming off grid living. Moved to the Alaskan wilderness at 51, built everything himself and lived alone off the land for 30 years.
  2. Extremely introverted. I occasionally struggle to find a healthy social balance, but for the most part, I enjoy my solitude, or the company of a few people I'm very close to and trust. I have a small group of friends that I do see regularly. I get a lot of routine socialization at work. I also play a lot of live cash game poker. For me, it's an almost perfect way to get a little extra socialization. You don't really have to talk much if you don't want to and can just kinda chime in here and there, but it lets you get to know people very well, assuming you play together a lot. Generally I hate large crowds, or groups of people. I'd much rather hang out with 3 or 4 other people. Anything over that, I start to get anxious. I would like to add a couple more close friends though. I'm 49 years old. I have already lost several family members and a couple friends. Of my highschool friend group of about 12 guys, 4 are already dead, and one might as well be. I can see the value of having a few good friends, especially as you grow older. The problem is, people suck. It's hard to find solid people. Hell, it's hard to BE a solid person.
  3. Where it gets a little gray for me personally, is with extremely passable trans women. I do find them atractive. I have zero interest in men, but wouldn't rule out sex with a trans woman. It's almost a kink, if I'm being honest. Having said all that, I'm not sure the reality would live up to the fantasy either.
  4. I found this guy pretty credible. Thought I would share. The information he reveals at the end, is pretty hard to explain.
  5. Totally agree. I quit listening to them, mainly because of this. They can be a bit overly dramatic too. I really like Robert Wright's Nonzero podcast.
  6. I totally relate to this. Most people aren't wired to relentlessly pursue success like this. Kudos to those who are. The world needs people like that too. It just ain't me. I really like this Einstein quote... "A calm and modest life brings more happiness than the pursuit of success combined with constant restlessness."
  7. I will be in Amsterdam next week. Been reading up on psychedelics that are legally available there. Seems like some gray area on some of this. I'm specifically curious about 5-Meo DMT. I've read it is available in some smart shops. Anyone have any experience with this? I'm not trying to break the "no sourcing" rule. Just asking if anyone can confirm that it is legally available and if so, their experience finding it in smart shops. Truffles will be my fall back if I can't get 5-Meo. Thanks!
  8. Just to add some context to the videos I linked. The police pulled the man over after they received a tip that he was a felon in possession of a firearm. He had a lengthy record, including being a registered sex offender. Sexual assault on a 12 year old. The officer on the passenger side saw a gun underneath his ass. Turns out he had two guns. He pulled one from inside his sweatshirt and started shooting. He got what he deserved.
  9. This happened recently in my hometown. Cops acted flawlessly. Everyone wants to second guess the cops. I do it too. Split second, life and death decision making right there.
  10. @The Mystical Man I agree. I was having this conversation the other day with friends. My buddy puts a lot of $ into his home theater. It's top notch. I love watching stuff over there, but my point was that it's always more about the story and the acting for me. Special effects, audio and picture quality, etc. are just icing on the cake. Give me a great story, well performed, and I'll watch it on anything.
  11. It's definitely my favorite show of all time. The Wire is pretty high on my list too. My favorite Sopranos scene...
  12. Just back from Europe. Can confirm that the only legal psychedelics available in Amsterdam are psilocybin truffles. Trip went well. I haven't done shrooms is almost 20 years. I remember not caring for them as much as LSD. Now I remember why. I get some social paranoia with them. I was on a cruise, so I ate them ( only ate about 2/3's of the box/dose ) shortly before getting back on the ship. They started kicking in as I was going through customs, so that was a bit of an experience, but not a big deal. I hunkered down in my cabin and rode out the trip. Watched the Queens funeral on TV, That was a trip in and of itself... Still integrating it. Mainly just made me look at myself a bit more honestly. See who I really am. Make peace with myself. I lost my mom and dad about a year ago, within 10 months of each other. Helped me make peace with that. Can't claim any major awakening, but I do feel a bit more honest and open about who I am and what I want to change about myself. I do feel a bit more "awake/alive" since the trip. It's hard to know if that's from the trip, or just the traveling. Guessing it's a bit of both. Travel has always affected me spiritually. Wakes me up. I've been sober as a judge since I gave up drinking 13 years ago, so this was a bit of a calculated risk for me. Anyway, that's my experience. No regrets.
  13. Thanks for the feedback everyone. I will let you know how it goes.
  14. This is one of the best documentaries I have ever seen. If you are interested in politics, or economics at all, I highly recommend it.
  15. I've been thinking a lot about peak oil lately. It's going to be a real challenge for humanity to transition away from fossil fuels. It's running out far faster than most people realize. The cheap, easy to get stuff anyway. Chris Martenson has done some pretty solid work on this. I'm not as pessimistic as he is. I think the US will fair better than most countries, but I do think we will be forced to transition away from oil in the near future and it's going to be a economically painful process.
  16. Sad to hear this. He was one of the good conservatives. Great sense of humor. I will miss his take on things.
  17. I think Buddhism is a good spiritual starting point. Especially for westerners, who have rejected western religion. It was for me. I found a lot of wisdom in Buddhism, but not enough to ever consider myself a Buddhist. "Believe nothing, O monks, merely because you have been told it or because it is traditional, or because you yourselves have imagined it. Do not believe what your teacher tells you merely out of respect for the teacher. But whatsoever, after due examination and analysis, you find to be conducive to the good, the benefit, the welfare of all beings that doctrine believe and cling to, and take it as your guide." -Buddha
  18. I'm a big admirer of Warren Buffet. If you have HBO, this documentary is worth a watch.
  19. I still struggle with this. The idea that I am god, dreaming up reality, especially all other conscious beings, only makes sense to me when I consider that I am also dreaming up my own ego ( Chad ). In that sense, I ( my ego ) am no more, or less, than all other egos. All egos come from the same source. That helps me frame this concept in a way that resonates with me.
  20. @Sine None of this is your fault. Please don't blame yourself.
  21. I've followed Tai's channel off and on over the years. Mainly for entertainment value. I've always pegged him as a con man, but he throws just enough "wisdom" in some of his content, to throw people off the scent. I'd love to know exactly how he actually makes his money and what his net worth really is. He seems to go dark for long periods of time on social media (at least on YouTube), which makes me wonder where the $ is coming from?
  22. New study...
  23. The experience of observing, processing and ideally understanding, reality. Observing reality.
  24. I have no moral objections to the death penalty for certain crimes. My issue with the death penalty, is trusting our justice system to administer.