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  1. Well the purpose of self-actualization is for personal growth and development throughout one's life. Doing to being is one part of the personal growth, but wouldn't say that is the entire purpose of self-actualization. Whenever I question what I'm doing, I always refer back to the basics, so here's Maslow's hierarchy of needs This is what you are aiming for Are you missing anything here? If you are, focus on that. Gotta get all of the goals for the progression to work Doing can be seen as a perception as I'm sure you know. The doing is affected mostly by thoughts. The labels we make, the judgements we do, and the values we assign, all create a perception. Even the concept of doing is just mental masturbation of the brain. So right now, me explaining this is creating a perception of the "known" by the brain. That's why exploring yourself is better. But ultimately, what you're trying to do, right now, is create a thought that is is creating the being perception. This, however doesn't work because... The being is a perception. A perception that looks at things holistically without judgements, values or assignments. Here's the thing though, the process of judgement, values and assignments all includes the thought. You can't try to be, you can't do to be. So what does this mean? You have to just observe the doing. See the judgements, the values and the assignments. You'' get to a point where you see that all of this is pointless and creation on the mind. That's when you start to be. That's when you start to see what judgements, values and assignments truly mean and the affect it has on you But dude, look, you can see that the ego itself is reinforcing itself. That takes awareness to see. You can literally see (moment by moment) how your ego does tricks to you inorder to strengthen itself. To me, you've made progression and won't fall back because of this Why aren't you fully conscious? Because of red herrings and distractions. You don't need to do anything, you just need to observe
  2. The fact you've been blocked on Facebook shows the corruption. I wouldn't see Facebook block (assuming it was by Iraqi government) as a negative thing. it means your ideas and message is powerful enough to scare the government. It is very hard to communicate the situation in Iraq to the western, because of how different the countries are in every aspect to religion, culture, education, political structure, etc If you're getting results in showing spiral dynamics/system thinking to individuals then that is your best bet. I would go to more into that and start preaching it and would go into journalism as you said before. SO if you need intellectual support, read the books by Clare Graves, or there is a book literally about spiral dynamics, Spiral Dynamics: Mastering Values, Leadership and Change by Don Edward Beck (Author), Christopher Cowan (Author). If you can't find the physical books, try and get a PDF copy of it. It's amazing how much you care about people, to show them consciousness-work. It's very brave and I'm seriously hoping you succeed But to actually reform Iraq? In my opinion, that requires politics I'm afraid rather than the internet. Reforming includes creating new laws as well as changing them... But you can always try and influence politicians with the internet
  3. In order to reform Iraq, you're going to have to be in a position of power. You're going to have to get into the politics, either through political parties or journalism. Sad to say, you can't reform Iraq alone or even with a group of people without some form of power. Look at the many works that masters and consciousness people have done yet majority, if not, the whole world is unconsciousness of the work we do here. One reason is because of political powers that dictates our education in our earlier stages of life Your goal is of course, not bullshit. You can do anything which involves reforming Iraq. But you're going to have to make some sacrifices in order to do this and that may involve your security. So preach ahead. That's my suggestion. Another suggestion would be to do some studying on Islam. Really research and understand every aspect, every surah to every ayat. This is just because of the population being Muslims (reminder, Islam and Muslims are not the same, there are different degrees of Muslims but researching Islam is a good start) Integrate your consciousness work with Islam and that is a way to relate to people. There is a lot of wisdom in Islam Also talk to Kurds.
  4. Yep. you're in a loop. You already know what you're going to think of, which influences the actions you do. 99.9% is unconscious, and the other 0.01% is things you see. Your thoughts are those of the past. The thought themselves, cling onto each other, so essentially a thought last week can reoccur next week. This could be from the memories that are formed perodically, which results in desires, pleasures and joyfulness being formed as well. When a thought or action is pleasurable, you are most likely to do it again and remember it. This is one way of how addiction is started. Or if you have a memory to do "something", you will obviously do it. It's quite obvious but you need to see it deeper So with the example of the Kebab shop, your desire and thought of that lovely, tasty and juicy kebab will 100% come back since it's pleasurable. But it takes serious awareness to see this. Me explaining it right now may challenge you to think about what memory is but won't fully grasp it. If I was you, I would do a research on memory and how thoughts can be expressions of the memory This doesn't mean you will be stuck in this boring loop. New additions happen to the loop, so for example, instead of a kebaby, you can go for a chinese and the loop goes on from there
  5. @Emerald What about yourself? You described the environment but have you actually seen what you was looking like in that moment in the town?? Your age? Your clothes? Your health? Or was there ever a person in your place? Was you just floating around? Was there a point where you literally looked in a mirror, because it sounds like you was in a kinda "realistic" realm
  6. Holy shit, it sounds like you've had one of those experiences that DMT offers. It's like you broke through. That going down on a lift is like going through a tunnel, a wormhole to the other beings and God?? This sounds fucking amazing? Your experience is very similar to those of Ego Death. I'm not saying you've experienced that in totality or maybe you have?... But I say this because with a lot of what people say when they say they have "experienced" ego death in forms of psychedelic trips or other forms, is pretty much the same to what you said. Especially the "going down" or the shapes you saw as well are a very common theme. Also the idea of "I've been here before, I feel like I belong here" is in every single article or reading I have done on these types of experiences. This is also common with ego death as well. The fear builds up and then whoosh, it goes when you accept. I don't know you very well unfortunately but have you looked into psychedelics and their affects? Maybe something you can relate to them somewhere in your experience. I don't know if you ever had those types of trips, but I would definitely do some research on some people and their experiences with "ego death". I wouldn't know, I've never experienced anything like this but what I can say with some readings I've done on psychedelics, it's definitely something like what you described. I hope I wasn't rude or anything, and would want to know more lol
  7. Your meditation and self-inquiry is clearly working but you're not seeing what's happening (as in, you may not seeing the progress). You are now actually seeing the "true" you. This means you're seeing yourself as the devil! Yes you are the devil. But you shouldn't feel bad about yourself, or even try to change yourself dramatically. This is because everybody is the devil, you're one of the devils that is starting to realize and action will only come with awareness. So keep doing what you are doing and you will naturally change I put true in quotation marks because that isn't obviously the authentic you but your ego you. It isn't the awareness you. You also have a clear idea of Karma as well. Karma isn't actions that will affect you in the short-term but will in the long term (as I am sure you know). But now you need to realize that it isn't just with your friend but your whole life is a self-deception. This friendship flaw is only one part of a thousand other parts that you can put awareness onto. Like for example, how you feel about money, power, status, rank. These are just self-deceptions that you assign meaning to! it isn't all the "egoistical" stuff either, its also about confidence, purpose and love. This is a bit more deeper and I am not saying you shouldn't feel these things but it's a question about self-deception Watch Leo's video on self-deception I think the actions you are thinking about doing are perfectly fine and are even creative like the non-duality action. You can do all of them. Sounds to me you know what you're doing. The advice has always been within you, just keep searching for it Much love
  8. Break it down and take notes. Breaking it down could include finding definitions of certain words, or writing down a quote/piece of information and on the side of that, writing down what you think it means. Contemplation is needed. My favourite way to take notes is the classic The Cornell Method
  9. It's magic
  10. Fear is quite common. So the fact that you're aware of your fear is nice The thing that's stopping you is the fear. The fear is a distraction and it's manipulating you to stay still. I would suggest working on the fear, by understanding where it's coming from. Is the fear because you're scared to fail? Is there anxiety on some of the actions you need to take? Is the fear related to something else like self-doubt? I would finish the LPC, but if you feel like you don't need it, it may mean you don't need it currently because you've made tons of progress and such. What I would do is stay on that video and work on other things such as hobbies or do other researches. When the time is right, return to it.
  11. That's for you to explore. some say it's a overall consciousness that is attached to "everyone", some say it's the objects themselves, like the universe is made up of awareness, so we are only simply aware of our brain. Some say it's God? But who truly knows? I've made the mistake of asking people on the forum about deep awareness. They can provide good insights but there is no better insight than yourself
  12. Well I think they do suffer because they're stuck in a loop. It's just short-term and bursts of happiness or materialism. So they will suffer after that burst is gone, so it doesn't matter if they do the work or not, you're going to suffer regardless. But I don't think self-actualisation is about being happy or to stop suffering. I think it's more about allowing everything in life to flow easily and to explore more about you and create a connection to everything. To create a more potential "you". The work we do here is also to accept that suffering is there and we must be with it, because it's part of us. We have no control of suffering, and that goes for being happy to. You can't control being happy either, or content, fulfilled, whatever. We have no control over what actually happens What we have control over, is awareness. That is something that people are missing.
  13. It could also be from overwhelming senses that you've discovered. We're not always limited to just 5 senses, perhaps you've opened other senses in your body. I've had such feelings like being complete aware of all the items in my room, and such. This could cause the discomfort in the head as well For the rush of energy, no idea. Something for you to explore
  14. I've had this a lot, and I know a lot of people on the forums post about this as well. It's quite common, and I don't exactly know what it is since I haven't invested in any Electroencephalography or brain-activity tracking devices. Personally though, I think it's you becoming extremely relaxed and in a state where you actually forget your body/balance, if that makes sense? It's like meditating so hard, you forget you're meditating and then your senses all align at once after they've been numbed down and it's a headrush That's my view. If it really does bother you, try some breathing exercises
  15. You could use Martial Arts to discipline yourself. But that discipline will only get you off your ass and be proactive. That energy can be used for your spiritual work but I don't think the art itself is enlightening. It can just make you very focused. Aikido is very nice but hard to master. But any Art will make you disciplined, regardless.
  16. Complementing and this occurred to me... So I have my mind, and it stores/creates memory for me. Then thoughts are created by these memories and thus are just expressions of memories. I am aware of these memories/thoughts This is only something I figured out for myself, and not saying it is true for all but this is something I observed and seen. But then.. This got me thinking, all the work that I do, are ultimately stored within my mind, within the brain. So my progression has obviously been influencde by the work. This would be a good thing right but... How do I know that my actions or progression or path isn't just copying the things I've read and done work on from thoughts/memory? Then when the insights comes in, it's just from the memory rather than within or "Truth" Isn't this just manipulation? Then the other side of me says "I practised the things that I read up on, and it is true"... But is it only true BECAUSE i read upon it? Here's an example (really stupid one) if you don't understand the topic Truth is that... If you eat cake every day, you will be happy. So If I actually ate a cake everyday, is it because of the Truth that cake makes me happy, or is it my memory of that Truth manipulating me to think that I am happy? So if I didn't learn this "Truth", would I be happy if I ate the cake regardless??
  17. @Faceless So the new is never new. It's always old. Projecting the old is new and vice versa. It's the same? If Truth is dynamic, it cannot be achieved via static means, through thoughts? I also love how this topic was supposed to be from an epistemological perspective and turned into the validity of Truth and thoughts, haha.
  18. @Faceless I can definitely see the I creating its own version of Truth. The thing that I'm still trying to figure out is how to leads to the same destination. The fact also of creating the Truth is indeed creating security but is needed to arrive to... Somewhere. Once that security is gone, and the agenda is no longer, I can arrive. When I say I want to be what I'm "supposed" to be, that itself is just an escape from security. That was my own version of Truth All of what I just said is a version of Truth. It's very subtle
  19. Yes! You are right. This is a needed reminder. Something i actually forgot and that is everything I am do is already me. I am constantly changing, and that is the real me. I will change regardless if I want to, meaning there is no actual "supposed" to be but there is to an extent (with the consciousness and such). But yes, you've just realised I have no respect on it. Not giving a fuck about the experiences, the things or what I want is is invalid since how do I know if I don't actually want it if I never had it . I think I need to think even bigger with my life-purpose vision What I don't want = What I want @Faceless Taken me a hour to get through your post lol I think you're suggesting anything you make in psychological time is trapped in psychological self (trapped in the I) and that it's version is based on the psychological self. But regardless of what Truth is out there, it all leads to the same one place?
  20. What if it isn't though? You see people following "crazy" theories and they think are right. What if I am the crazy one? . Not wanting anything in life? That sounds fucking stupid doesn't it?
  21. Yeah, I do, but most of the time it feels forced to do those things like I can go to the Netherlands with my friends and have an experience over there yet it feels forced. Ever since I discovered this work, I just feel like I don't want anything anymore, and I feel at peace with that... I've seen a lot of forum posts talking about this but it just isn't really interesting for me. What I think is happening is that I'm drifting my attention from working on myself, and I feel fine with that. I don't want to work on myself for egoistical means but work on myself to actually get to the "What I'm supposed to be". Then I feel like I'm just manipulating myself with all of this knowledge
  22. @Nahm I want to be what I'm supposed to be. This is the key. What I don't want is not to be the real me. To be lied to I have a vision in my life, the materialistic vision, but you are right in saying I don't have anything for the me.