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  1. Of course, when I mean misguided, I mean I'm going in the wrong direction, not as a teacher. At the end of the day, all Truths are equal to One. Thank you for your kind words. I will observe because a concept cannot be Truth! You're right, it is a whole different topic but conceptual understanding is not the Truth. The Truth is everything, the ego, the concepts, the non-duality, the duality, everything is Truth. The religions are true, the observation of actuality is Truth in one way or another What makes conceptualisation different is that you can see why everything is Truth
  2. I'm not saying you shouldn't do this exercise. You should definitely but without conceptualising or seeing the false of the hand, it's just awareness Really? I mean, I've never seen any danger in understanding the world, is there something I need to avoid?
  3. It's only a mistake if you believe in the concepts, without seeing the truth behind the concepts. We are living in the dream world because our entire reality is created by my mind. I can say that because that is something I've observed and experimented with. With science, there are concepts/models that we can apply to things. There isn't actually "particles" in the universe but we applied a model/concept in order to understand them. To see the falsehood behind the solid/physical universe Yes! This is true!!! Concepts allow awareness onto the falsehood of our reality. It's why I follow them so strongly, because I have seen some falsehood in our reality. I can say it's false because I have experimented, questioned, and observed what the concept represents and I do this every meditation, every moment (or try to at least) I don't understand why people are against conceptualising. If you're just looking at the hand, you may realise that the hand is right there, in your direct experience but without conceptualising this hand, you're only looking, not seeing what is false about the hand. What is the experience? You need to conceptualise to understand what the experience is! What I have to agree with Leo about this subject of the hand is that you will eventually see that nobody is looking at the hand. There was no hand and there is no you looking. This is ACTUALITY. There was nothing there in the first place But that cannot be achieved by just "looking" at the hand or actuality. You got to see what you're looking at, and how you're experiencing everything I still feel lost and misguided though...
  4. I understand this completely. What's fucking me up is this... My current stance is that We can not see the Truth because there is nobody to see it? We're just a concept, there's no seeing, there's only Truth. We are only concepts in this reality, that's all we ever was. This makes sense to me because all concepts I have thought about is true in actuality (to me). Psychological time can stop, but you cannot it. Who said you can? Who came up with this idea? Only by concept. I'm not really asking for the truth but the question of validity in conceptualising
  5. This is the exact way I see reality but see, what you said is conceptual AND actuality. My mind is filtering, my mind is making labels, that's all conceptual but it's happening in the ACTUAL. I can observe these and I can literally see myself making labels and judgements. So why is it that this conceptualising is the cause of suffering as most people suggest as well as bringing me back down Perfect. This is true This is something I need to realise Right now. I just feel really lost and don't know anything anymore.
  6. This is something I just can't seem to do. I think I've completely convinced myself that I am just a concept and my thoughts are a concept. If I were to stop, then I am just the non-dual universe, to stop conceptualising IS conceptualising. My entire EXISTENCE, what I call awareness, what I seek, what I am is just a concept! I haven't seen awareness, I haven't felt awareness, I don't want to read bullshit's people on awareness because THAT ITSELF is a concept. It's nothing but a concept! It's a concept in reality. There is no escape in conceptuality, is there? How can it not be useful though? You deal with death, you deal with life, you deal with suffering, you deal with acceptance, fulfillment, whatever. You don't need to use conceptualisation but you conceptualise because it's a way to understand why we suffer, why we are this way. Here, I am talking about the "you", the identity, the ego. it stops our heads from hurting. This helps with all of the "problems" we have. "What are we without our problems" - Mooji @Rilles This is why I don't see conceptualising as a bad thing? Is this for security or a release from pressure? Seeing is already happening. We see EVERYTHING. But we ATTACH to things. We attach to our thoughts, and apply meaning to the seeing. Seeing is just seeing, BUT WHO SEES. Is seeing a sensory? We need to conceptualise to SEE.
  7. Well, with the questioning of the self, you have to explore that yourself. But you have a good start, you're resisting because the self doesn't like it, but why? Keep going deeper. Only you can answer that yourself If you question about why you have to like your life, that shows real progression. Life isn't about liking, or hating it but living it. You're actually starting to see the bigger picture. What you are truly apart of. Some say it's because you are living in "psychological" time, that is created by thoughts which are expressions of memory, and sensory inputs from the environment. The thoughts cling onto themselves, and clings on what is the known. The known for you is that you exist as an individual who is separate from the universe. Essentially, you're living in the past because the thoughts are only formations by the memory-knowledge-experience :@ This is why you are scared as well. You are scared that you won't have any pleasure/security in the future, so every movement is an afraid step in the moment. The thought doesn't like that. The self can also be considered as a thought/identity that is formed in it's own accumulation Again, this is what some people say. In actuality, you have to see for yourself You can unconditionally love everything You can open up your love since love is a outcome of the opening of the heart. Once it's opened, can't close it. Got no choice but to love Just question the hell out of that fear. Why the fuck are you scared of picking up that COFFEEEEEEE
  8. I feel like the interaction is nice though. It's a way to be aware of what our ego is doing in it's present moment by seeing how others react. It allows me to relate to their situation, like with this topic on visualisation. Of course, it can have the complete opposite affect but that's on the seeker
  9. @SoonHei Very valid point Something i want to add onto this... Sometimes when you don't know what you want, the things you want can be disguised. So even tho you may not care about the nice house, when you end up with a shitty house, it can be create conflict. It's because you never wanted that shitty house but were too occupied with why you don't want anything It's really a question of wanting. If you don't want anything, then it means that you're in a state of not wanting. So you wouldn't want that shitty house anyway, but may not even realise it. Also, negative turns into positive but that depends on the person, if they react to negativity. But that's an assumption that I made, my apologises with the question with do want vs do not want, isn't that what the Ego essentially is? You say it's all images and visualisation, which can be true but why are the visualisation and images occur in the first place?
  10. I actually use pictures that I find online to match my ambition. I have a page in my journal that has images of what I want (or something close to it) and have a little paragraph/sentence below it to remind myself what the image is supposed to represent With the question of what to visualise, I have had this issue. But @Nahm told me one piece of advice (correct me if this isn't what you meant) and it stuck with me... it's not all about what you want, it's about what you don't want as well. You don't want to live in a shitty house, you don't want shitty relationships, you don't want anxiety, or to be nervous. Look for what you don't want too
  11. Yessss. This is a very nice way to keep it simple when talking about doing. So we have to use awareness to see the doing. I am now understanding what you mean now when talking about disguising Indeed, you do see the Doing being disguised.
  12. This is where it gets tricky. If you try and describe what is a doing, that is your own version of a doing. If you try and describe doing, you are doing the doing by saying that doing is since... Conceptually, doing is the action of putting values, meanings, judgement and such onto the "raw" universe (my own version of it). How can you trust your mind to know what a doing is. This is only TRUE to my mind. How can I trust myself? Is there a such thing as OBJECTIVITY
  13. @Jack River I like how you describe this when it can be difficult due to its nature Can we say that all of what you said is knowledge? How do you know you're not being influenced by knowledge? Thoughts cling onto itself?
  14. You are right in saying that it can be interpreted as a reaction Is awareness part of the psychological knowledge, thought or time? I see it more as a sensory thing like how cold it is outside? If we take this idea, then awareness is detachment without "doing "detatching and that just doesn't make sense We gotta observe to see!!!
  15. Awareness is the act of detachment. when you observe at a thought like the way you describe, that is detachment. You detah from time, you detach from your thoughts, you detach from your identitys reality. All of this is a description of detachment rather than actually detaching I was wrongnto say "to detatch". A most accurate way of representing this is describing detachment as awareness
  16. That is very true. But observation requires detachment. This allows us to be empty of intention and to keep quiet because... If you want to do nothing, you must not stop the mind. You want the mind to go on its course, to leave it be and to ignore it and remain as Self. This is the definition of detachment. You are no longer your thoughts. You are only a seeker of the thoughts If a thought comes up, instead of saying I, say your identity, for instance, Jack is thinking this... This is observation. Once you understand how Jack is thinking and why he's thinking this, then you can question the seeker . I'm sure you know all of this but this is just a reminder But very nice, I didnt even realize what I said. This should help being less bias of my mind Thank you so much <3
  17. Personally, I don't see it as the same thing Do Nothing is detaching yourself from the "Doing". You're no longer imposing any meanings, values or ideas onto the "raw" universe. The doing will filter the universe. It's more for a existential questioning/seeing No manipulation is more about how your ego will try and benefit itself. It will manipulate you to think in certain things, or use certain things for its own gains. This is more about the practical side of your life. Manipulating your partner for sex since it benefits you. Having sex with your partner without any intention or benefit, or for selfless love is different to the previous. You shouldn't stop the manipulation but beaware of the manipulation that your ego imposes Both are good. They are both needed. They just open different PoV
  18. I don't think you will lose the ego. You will transcend it, as in, you will see answer the nature of the ego and more. How can you lose something within the universe, when the universe is all there is. No possible escape for the ego. It never disappears, only your awareness of the ego does
  19. The ego-backlash is happening right now. You go in, and you can't be motivated to do anything. It's happening right now My tip would be to work on addiction. You're addicted to playing games, and watch videos. Watch Leo's video on addiction because that's what happening right now But the brute force is one way of handling this. Forcing yourself to do is one of the hardest ways to go about but still a way to handle this problem
  20. Following with @FredFred post, for part I, he says that Spiderman is bounded by the universe's laws and this showed me that the person in the video doesn't understand what absolute infinity is then. Of course it's hard to understand absolute infinity but we can make some guesses. The reason Spiderman is bounded to the Marvel universe is because that Marvel universe is out of infinite amount of universes. If spiderman was not bounded to that universe, then it would not be infinite. Spiderman of course cannot manipulate or control the universe, since whatever action he is doing IS the universe and that it's playing itself out. Part II as well, having a hard time with infinity. Every single action we do is one combination of a infinite reality. This is the most basic way of understand infinity. If we were to go beyond laws of physics, then reality wouldn't be infinite. The real question is, how do we know if the infinity actually exists? We can't think outside can we to see if it does That's why I agree with the guy when he says we cannot understand fully of infinity or even enlightenment. This is because of the bounds of our universe and our subconscious mind. It's almost like we're not meant to learn it because it goes against infinity. The unknowing is part of infinity. Won't stop me from trying to understand though, I would rather just walk around in a circle then just sitting still and thinking about US politics and how that's fucking the world up. I may be wrong that we cannot understand. How can I know if we haven't tried Also what he says about 5-meo-dmt is bullshit
  21. Of course, I'm not judging or anything like that. I'm just worried about you. But seems to me you're already strong as an Ox That's beautiful what you say. I sometimes feel that Acceptance is the only way. I hope people will read this and relate to it. I know I do, sometimes red herrings appear and I bullshit myself a lot. Forums help me to stop doing that with people responding to some of my posts and saying "Keep it simple" and such, just like you did now.
  22. There is a lot of Truth in this, but why express it? Is there something deeper that you're frustrated with?
  23. Pick a day to restart. You see, once you're on the path of self-actualisation, there's no falling off track. Look at your current situation, you've tried the self actualisation and then you think you fallen but in fact, you're learning. You learn what failure is, you learn what your needs are, you learn what you want and what is deep within you. If these things weren't true, you would had not posted this thread on the forums See, you came back to the forums, and to the work. You will always come back and try again. You haven't lostbhope, you still have hope and this thread is proof. YOU CAME BACK! Pick the day (next Monday) and start again. This time, be even more aware of distractoons? The best meditation for me is just observation and self enquiry. It's simple, be aware of your thoughts, don't judge them, become detachand understand what they mean but look at Leo's beginner meditation again I love that you came back. I love you! Good luck
  24. Why label emotions as useful or not? There's no need to judge emotions for what they are. They do have a purpose, a purpose to be itself. Anger exists because it exists, and this goes for all emotions. No need to suppress them, or control them. We should just observe them and link with them, be joyful and fulfilled with them. That's the only way because you cannot control anything. Just my opinion. The study of psychology, and science/actual experience is something you should definitely do to understand emotions and what they are. But never label them as useful or a purpose. Everything has a purpose, and it is for themselves to exist