Lucas Lousada

origin of life

Last night I had another experience, I wouldn't say it was an enlightenment experience, but it was some deep one, more emotional than others. Me and my wife were laying down on bed, with our hands folded, I remembered every time I tried to meditate, I always had this urge to be alone and without any external stimulus. This time I could feel her, I could feel the sun and I could also feel our energy as one. Thats when I realized duality, duality exists as a non-duality property. we TOOK so much from life and we usually don't give anything back. When I started giving myself and my energy to her, I realized we are just one, a non-duality organism. we can't merge to be just "one" as -1 can't be 1 and 1 can't be -1, but if we concentrate and realize that TOGETHER we are 0, we are NOTHING, therefore we are everything. non-duality just rise up. Does anyone have had this experience before?

And that is how the universe created himself.. and when you are "awake" .. you are not trying to "escape at all". on non-duality

If you have the power to kill yourself and end your life.. You have the power to become everything you want to... I mean, if are free to go "wrong", means you are free to go "right".. but you will need to push it harder.. To die is easy..... you just let it go... to LIVE... prepare yourself to battle.... once you "die" it will appear to have been just a glimpse of time. because you are infinite... and 100 years is absolutely nothing... you wont even remember it all... like a dream...

Yes. This feel is something like being SUBMERSE in a dense water ocean.. with just that tiny bit of your head off the water, and you can move that point in your body without moving your body.. tip Try to make it to your nose next time.. focus that this is where the AIR is coming from... Try to breathe just this air from "outside".. you will probably ever hear some whistle coming from your nose. and a fresh air feeling you have never had. If you were able to do this, focus on that and try to realize that you are in an ocean, floating.. and just give yourself to it.. the problem is that when you TRY to breathe... you fail.. when you stop trying and let it be.. you will breathe better... Something like a quicksand...

There are some audible guides to "past lives" memories.. but its odd how "past lives" could exist.. as you are "living all of your possible lives" at the same moment.. But you could try understand your life as a an inversely proportional life of "someone else" and you could be directly connected. Like a quantum entanglement... and this could be what you call your "past life"

Even a single proton does not exist without an anti-proton somewhere.... Even a single QUARK does not exist without an anti-quark somewhere.... IF they met, they will disappear.. Just like LHC, when they hit 2 particles to create some other particles from what seems to be "nothing"... those particles only "LIVES" for milliseconds.. cause they find their "partner" "anti-particle" and became NOTHING again... Imagine that happening infinite times and particles getting away of the 3 dimensional field from each other.. matter and anti-matter will build up... Thats an easy way to imagine what is our universe... its just a bunch of 1 and -1 far from each other.... those 1 build up with other 1s and create 2s... we dont know if those -1 build up with other -1 too to create -2 ... if they do. all of what we call "life" could vanish in 1 milissecond... IF those particles met all at the same time... but lets be realistic and say, that this will propably never happen... but some -9999999 could pass by a +888 and vanish it forever..... Like a black hole eating up a star....

After some enlightenment experiences I think I quit too. Pursuing that every single day, trying to stay in a full conscious mood, trying to have no ego, no self most of the time, started to destroy my life. having family and friends and any kind of social interaction simply doesn't work with this kind of life purpose. So I am now building my self again, creating my ego again, feeding the devil that the self is. and living this life as it should be. with a self, without the thought that I AM the environment too, creating that barrier that defines me and building those walls again. I realized that once I am in a 3 dimensional body, with limited time, I will live this and when I die, and my ego remains I will work with enlightenment again. for now, I just quit.

First thing that you must ask yourself : Are you a proactive honest person? I mean, you see someone doing some shit and you go there and say. hey you are doing some shit. or Are you a reactive honest person? I mean, you see someone doing some shit, and keep your honesty to yourself, and IF and only IF they ask you: Did I did some shit ? what do you think about what I just did, and THEN and only THEN you said: you did a pretty bad shit Be careful, being a proactive honest person is awful, dont be this person. If you are reactive honest person, you can always LEAR how to speak to people like they are human beings and not dogs. Its honest if you say "you stink you should take a bath right now " to your dad or "wow, hard work today, hun ? I can smell your hardworking from here" you dont need to be an ass to be honest. IF you dont want to THINK about what are you saying, and how are you saying.. you just want to say it. You are not honest, you are just an idiot who want to hurt people with their problems. If you like people and want to be honest with them and want to help them with something you might say after thinking about how to say it you will be ok

there is an app named meetup download and put what you like and where you live. you will ALWAYS find someone with something in common. 2nd idea: go to places that YOU feel uncomfortable if you cant find any other place to go (a club that play songs that you are not into, for example) 3rd best idea. go to new places.. do you like beer, coffe, tea, cakes, ice cream.. walk around where you live and go to a place that you have never been before and stay some time there, analise who goes there, who works there, people behaviors.. etc go find something new. like something you never ate before, etc 4th and thats a tip I have struggled too many years lost in my mind because I did not have that "going out mood" I like to stay home and do my shit alone.. Took me some years to realize that THIS IS OK TOO.. there is nothing wrong with that, you should not feel guilty if you like it too..

people are always changing.. like literally and mentally you are not the same person you were 5 years ago, all of your cells back in that day are dead and you are completely another person right now. a lot of what you think was right and wrong are gone and you think differently than 5 years ago. this happens to everyone, time is the key. and changing.. you must change over time, if you don't do this, you better be dead. so answering your question. NO - if you or the other person have not changed YES if you are really alive and some time have passed

remember: if you can kill yourself, that means that you can change what 4th dimensional line (time) in a 5th dimensional field (all possible futures for you) So if you can do that, means you can change to other lines too, chose the one you want and go for it, you will probably never reach 100%, but I guarantee, if you hit anything above 60% of it, you will start thinking more positive. Think about your mind a pool that you are in, half of your body is inside, and half is outside where you can breathe, when you can breathe without any great effort, you can enjoy the calmness that floating in water creates, right now I see you inside the water and time to time you go up to breathe, this means you are not going where you want to, your 4th dimensional line is not where you are, you need to change something in your life that is making you that way

You can meditate laying down on your bed, or on the floor, tips: Do not let any part of your body touch any other part( example arms and hands stretched, not on your belly ) lay down with your belly up, give a little space between your legs ultimate silence, if you do not have any earbuds, earphones, try to find some pillow strategy to block noise pay attention in the darkness in front of you, usually when you close your eyes, people dont realize that the darkness can be seen. weed can help you relax, if you live in a country that is not allowed, you may need some extra energy to help yourself. try to remember that end it all requires a really amount of energy, because it is a big change, and if you have this power, you can use that same energy to change other things. I believe you know what makes you feel down, cut it off your life. Life itself is nothing, your consciousness is the real deal, you can end your life a thousand times but if your consciousness is not in peace, not a single one of them will help.

Just remember: You have built another wall for you consciousness. If you try to meditate again you will probably go well for some time but when the mind feel threatened it will use its new SHIELD. "knowing how it is to experience" and you will probably fall for this thoughts, and lose yourself for some time on them, analyzing them, remembering them, thinking about them.. until you realize you are trapped in this new labyrinth your mind have created. just remember that to awake you need to fully just observe, and do not think about it, do not try, do nothing, just let yourself go.

Hi, did anyone got really depressed after some enlightenment experiences? I had some experiences and they were the most beautiful things I have ever felt. Now it seems like this "ego life" doesn't interest me anymore. Everything is so small, and insignificant, good things, bad things, they're nothing. knowing that this life is important to the infinite multiverse become really infinite, did helped a lot. Right now I feel like I am trying to cross some 4th dimensional lines, so I could be one of the good versions of myself. Everything is great, I am married with the woman of my life, a great job, a great life, I have plans, I have an awesome family, I have support, I have all I need. But still, after seeing the Truth, with capital T, after seeing "god," after becoming "god", after just realizing WHAT IS LIFE, and how it works and how its only purpose is to keep being, keep existing, I have this feel like I am just one of those failed attempts like some solar systems with just single cells bacterias, or even just a planet like Mars, how is just close enough to become an earth-like planet full of life, but its not that perfect so its a dry, almost with no life, struggling to keep being but without a real purpose to. Anyone dealing with this type of feelings after an enlightenment experience ?

Thanks everyone for that. after some time I can see myself better than ever. Will proceed to my quest "do not regret my life when it ends" for now I am working on my past choices and dealing with them in a good way, I am in a comfortable position now, in mind and spirit that could only be archived by having those experiences.

That is the problem. I understood that nothing really matters, at all. even if you kill 192837918273918273981 people or if you save 192839182739817239812739 people. Does not matter, at all.

Thanks again @deci belle I am trying to put some balance between my 3D life and the enlightened life. For now, I am just trying to "not forget this dream" I am not keen in having enlightenment experiences, but I don't want to forget that too. As you said, I will get my 3D life to calm down, to ease, and when I feel comfortable about who I am as self, I will re-start this seek for enlightenment more often.

It is not difficult, you are just seeing it form another perspective. "Its not about the nail"

There is not Nothing you do matters, if you are awake or not, doesn't matter, for each version of you that are a awake, there is infinite that you are not, and its ok too. Who you want to be in this infinite possibilities, is just a choice, a meaningless, stupid, choice, that does not matter at all for the infinite. You dying or living, the planet dying or living, the solar system dying or living, the galaxy dying or living, does not matter. OR you can see as "you have the same importance as a whole universe" - good view "you have the same importance as a whole universe" -> not important at all, less than a drop in the ocean - bad view

its a pain, even more if you have another person in your life, usually, people want attention and its too much to share with the family members already, and requires a great peace of mind to look at someone who loved and molded your beloved one, BUT there is also that chance of everyone getting well together as friends, its rare though

When a person is that jealous in a relationship is because the person usually do / did something You will never change how someone want to live its life, you can take the persons path or you can find someone who have somehow the same path as you want. love is aways superficial, you did not loved her 5 years ago. if you stop everything now you will not love her 5 years from now. If its harming you you have the choice to quit, always have this choice. Love is building, and there is nothing to do with "sensations" itself, She looks like she is into sensations, not into you. She is not wrong, though, its just you that is building a life in her, and not in sensations, and you are not wrong too. I just dont see you together living a happy life, you can always find someone who is into you, or you can change yourself to be more into sensations than HER, you are not a stone in a jar.

This image of yin and yang started to make more sense for me as part of how nothing became something in the first place, and its pretty much follow the same pattern forever deep. I feel trapped in this cycle of being.

Thanks @deci belle That was very soothe. I seek, not everyday though, enlightenment experiences. I do not want to live by it, as in my perception, would go against every 3 Dimensional goals that I have in this life. All I want is when my body gives up, I could find this peace and stay there for some time. I feel like I need something that makes me keen on living again. Living itself would have to do the job for now. As I said, I just want to be the best possible version of myself for now, and for that, I need to be. Do any of you stopped looking at "ego" goals and gave up this kind of life and started just focusing in the Truth, to stay connected more and more with it? Thanks one more time

Have anyone tried to sleep listening to this mantra?\ I had a lucid dream that I was hearing the mantra even without the headphones, I was really deep, took me lot of effort to awake so I could stop listening to it. Beautiful and terrifying .