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EQ > IQ. There are stages to this. What do you want to know? Describe what you are doing, which areas of your life are great, and which are shit. Something we can start with.

@susanyzm Try read / re-read Power of Now or/and meditate more. Good luck!

@Preety_India Thank you, I will check that for sure. @The0Self The smoking problem just seemed to stop, just by making myself busy. I am going to start microdosing psilocybin soon, I don't think it's something that is my next excuse, it will get me closer to the Truth rather.

@susanyzm Think about it like that: right now, you are conscious of the fact, that you wasted a lot of your life already. There is a lot of this feeling, that death is getting closer and closer and you only have one life to live. Use it as a fuel - every second counts now and you have to think really, really hard to make the best of what you have. It's a gift - not many people will ever become conscious of that. Try that - start from just letting go of making a decision, and just let your body do whatever it wants to start from (for me, it's almost always cleaning my room). After that, you will automatically start doing another thing, and then another and day just goes by, that's a flow state. Good luck, stay strong

@susanyzm Yeah, that sounds true, not only that, I found it working in my own life. Right now, I can overcome a lot more cravings than before, I don't buy cigarettes, and even when I smoke, it's just from time to time, I would not call it an addiction anymore. And just as you said - I think it's because of these small everyday habits - first, you don't really have time for bullshit, and second - it's such a waste to just start smoking on top of all of the great life you built for yourself. Nevertheless - that's great advice and I think everyone reading this post will benefit from it. Thank you

@AcaciaConfusa So, when you are enlightened you automatically get better in spelling? Damn, I want to get enlightened even more.

@Javfly33 Thanks, man, appreciate that

Hey guys, big question! There is one thing, that bothers me a lot. I do a lot of these great things, I meditate, eat healthy, exercise, etc. I am also on NoFap. And it's great too. I feel like, I really need this, I really like using this energy and carrying it with me, it makes me more masculine, more rational, more grounded and I feel it makes me even more intelligent (lol). Yet - there are days, and there are too many of these days lately, where this energy is just too much and I have to release it. I feel so tense and rigid that it's too much and I need to let it go. But I don't want to, I want to save it for the girls ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) But, for real - I can't exercise every day (yet), but even when I will, I think this might be the problem. My libido is really high right now and I somehow have to solve this once and forever. I move to my own apartment from September and I will go into dating balls deep, so this issue is something that I have to get rid of, to really get the energy to hustle, date, and have tons of sex at the same time. Masturbation is out of the equation. Thank you in advance for your kind answers

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@Carl-Richard You're goddamn right.

@Space Not sure about flatline, I transferred this energy into creating my YouTube videos and it all seems fine for now (although I had a wet dream meanwhile).

@nistake Yeah, I found that it is working really well for me as well. Being more and more in the flow throughout the day, made me a lot smarter and a brilliant person, as I was back in high school days. 1 hour of meditation before the day even starts might be a great thing, to get into that flow more and more naturally. I already feel like it's the Source that is controlling me most of the time, yet, the mind sometimes attacks me with spiritual, "good guy" ego, and posts like this are being created. Maybe it's some kind of a scarcity mentality, that when I am focused on my work and material desires, I will somehow lose sight of enlightenment in a process, that I will get into the rat race of life, you get it. Thoughts like that get me sometimes, maybe it's just nihilism, dunno. I feel guilty of living my life to the fullest and pursuing my dreams sometimes because they are not strictly focused on enlightenment. I know how silly that sounds. I think it's because of quotes that I heard, Leo's f.e, that all of these things, all of these pursuits are just rubbish in comparison with enlightenment.

When I discovered self-development and enlightenment concept, it became something that I obsessed about and the only thing worth pursuing in life. I was talking to myself "it's a lot smarter to become enlightened first, and then everything will become faster, and it will be my true desire, not ego stuff". Right now I am not so sure about and I wanted to talk about it. First thing is - I am not so sure about what enlightenment really is. Maybe it's just death, end of a dream, end of life? I don't want that yet, I want to experience life to the fullest, I'm still young. I got high this week and I closed my eyes, I started to see big triangle, shining in front of my eyes, like for the first time, when I tried mushrooms. Then I heard a voice in my head, saying "Everything is one" and some patterns showing. I felt, like I should get more into this trance, but I was afraid. I'm stuck. I feel bad with pursuing my materialistic goals right now, I am not giving them my 100% and I don't follow enlightenment path 100% either. It's not 50/50 too, it's more like 10/10, because of how unsure and unstable with my beliefs I am right now. Can any of you relate? I think it has something to do with my self transforming into a new one, but damn, that's a tough thing to get rid of (pursuing enlightenment), because, conceptually, I know it's the only thing that really matters.

@Michal__ @allislove @nistake Yeah, that seems reasonable, will include 1h meditation into my daily routine, as the first thing in the morning. Thank you.

Hey, when it comes to attracting females and being needy, place of lack - it's all the same stuff - it's out of desire. And desire creates suffering, right? So, how to eliminate this problem, once and forever and fully let go, while at the same time attracting desired relationship with a woman? Thank you a lot for your view and perspective on that

@Gesundheit What the heck does it mean, to create intimacy with myself, lol

@Moon No need to, I get it. Progress is just really slow, and I put a lot of work in all of that stuff, and I'm just pissed, that there is still so much to do. Not sure if I will ever be fullfilled in my life. That's what really bothers me. Not sure if that's just because I'm somehow behind in llfe, or just life is hard in general, but fuck me, that's too much. @universe Yeah, I get it.

@mandyjw I kind of get it. I understand that, in a way, that I should get rid of the place of lack mentality in me, and then it will be just a natural processs, to attract someone, that will be just a nice addition to my already fullfilling life. Am I right? The thing is - I already worked on myself as a mule, I am really busy and fullfilled person, there is a lot of stuff happening in my life, yet, there is still some kind of barrier? - let's call it that way. Love your post, but you got to understand me - I'm a guy and I wil always look for a practical answer and I still have no idea what to actually do about that problem.

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@Michael569 Yeah, that is exactly what I have to do with it. It sounds great and it really is what I should do, just not sure, if that works that way, I mean - can I turn too much testosterone into creative process?

@Javfly33 Yeah, you're right, right now my energy is excessive, so I had to somehow deal with it. Next month, when I'll get enough cash, I will have so much stuff to do, that it will no longer be a problem, but you know, you can never be sure, that one of my activities will not get cockblocked by some random events and puff - disaster, back to fapping again. I'm already concerned because it's highly addictive stuff for me and I can go from 1 time a week to 5 times a day really fast, and I cannot afford something like that to happen. I know how much of a waste it is and I just want to use that energy in other ways, before my shadow integration NoFap helped me tremendously and change was really fucking huge, so I know how much this stuff can help you in a long run. I just have no idea, how to train myself to get off this shit. Also, I realized, that fapping is really fucking great, but ejaculation, not so much, I can feel all of those neurons firing in my brain and it's not so pleasant of experience whatsoever. That's why I want to get into Karezza one day, but yeah, right now I can manage to fap 5 times a day. It's something like that - when I had no energy, it was easy to save it, because there was not that much to use it too. Right now, when there is plenty, I just spend it like a lottery winner spends cash, he just won. It's the same shit for me with smoking, I lack discipline with it, because even when I smoke, I still am a fucking monster and it doesn't affect me that much. Still - I reach for excellence and perfection.

@Lyubov Yeah, I thought about it, because another reason for me to smoke, is because it is just a cool activity, creating a smoke. I really like that.

@Roy Your advice is something I was looking for. There is a subconscious belief, that smoking is cool and I can't imagine myself as being ascetic, 100% healthy person, you get me. It's bizarre and stupid, I know, yet, I somehow have to replace it for good. Is there any guided meditation, method, or something like that, you used for yourself? @Farnaby I usually smoke while drinking or when chillin' and talking in a group, I somehow feel the need to fit in or something like that. I do whatever I want and say whatever I want to say, I feel comfortable with myself and I'm pretty confident guy overall, yet, this is something that I do when I'm with people. don't really smoke or even buy cigarettes, when I'm on my own.

@dflores321 Thank you for your kind words, for real. In my situation, it's not really about emotions, at least - I don't think it is. Or maybe, I became too "disconeected", because of the amount of work, that I put on myself. I don't know, I had depression episodes a lot of times before in my past, but this time it's something different. And I have no clue what the hell it is, I really don't. I feel like it's because of lack of a deep connection with anyone, I have no true friend or a girlfriend right now, that might be the cause. Once again, thank you for your message

I remember, when I first discovered self-development, man, it was like landing on a Moon. Enlightenment? Wow, that sounds amazing, I want to achieve that, damn. Listening to spiritual teachers, gurus, gathering knowledge like crazy. Meditation, psychedelics, yoga, books, woooooooow. Don't get me wrong, these things are still pretty cool for me, yet, there is one thing, that I am not that excited about - my life purpose, precisely - my dharma. I thought, that I want to become a teacher, YouTube creative, artist, guru, name it however you want. The perfect plan for a perfect life. And it's something natural for me, for real. I am great at teaching, I just flow with that, and I was never taking lessons about "how to teach", I just do, I just feel people. Yet, there is one thing - I don't like it that much. I'm pretty sure it's my dharma, I can do it, using simple language, being funny, with no effort, just flowing with that. So what? If you are black and tall you have to play basketball? Do you remember John Wick? He just wanted a simple, easy life, with his family, yet, Universe wanted him to be a serial killer and he hated that. I'm pretty pissed off, that when I was in my 20's (29 now) I should've become a rapper, that would be fucking cool. Being a teacher isn't cool. I know I sound like an angry, ungrateful little boy, but I don't know, something doesn't click for me here. Have any of you encounter that kind of problem?