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  6. Posted

    V does give me intimacy in between intervals. Like he would touch me, kiss me and grab me whenever I'm around in the kitchen. He gives me abundant amounts of attention. 

    He does follow me around. 

    He tells me that my pussy belongs only to him and nobody else. 

    That he would kill if anyone tried to harm me. 

    He cares about my basic stuff in a way no one would. 

    Wakes me up in the morning. 

    Does my laundry sometimes. 

    Cooks dinner on days when I'm feeling ill. 

    Rubs my back. Runs errands.

     

    Does call me at least once in a while to check on me. 

     

    Hmm. 

     

     

  7. Posted

    V tells me interesting things. 

    He tells me that he is my husband. 

    And so... I should respect his command. His love is not to be taken for granted. 

    Then he proceeds to tell me that he has multiple extra marital adventures, just one night stands with other women. 

    And he tells me that I shouldn't need to worry about that. Because those are not important to him. To him, I'm his number one. His wife and his ultimate woman that he wants to spend the rest of his life with. 

    Not sure what to make of his words. He loves me but at the same time sees others on nights. But then how does he love me? 

    He says this is how its meant to be. 

    That I can run around with as many guys as I please. But in the end I will run back to him no matter what. That this is how a husband wife relationship is defined. This is how its gotta be. 

    That he doesn't give a fuck if I slept with other men. Since I belong to him. 

    He knows whatever happens, I'm back with him. 

     

  8. Posted

    I know that people who hate me just wanna punch into me. They want to see me bleeding, dying. 

    Maybe they want to practice necrophilia with my corpse.. 

    They want my parts spilled out. 

    They want to see the terror and Vulnerability in my eyes to their heart's content.. 

    They want to get sadistic with me. 

    Maybe somewhere in all those desires, they wish to preserve me still? Maybe they want to see me again? Maybe they miss me? Maybe there's a soft spot where they secretly do not want me gone and withered? Maybe in that spot they wish to understand me and not see me hurt? 

    Who knows.... Not that I really care. Anymore.. 

    Hate me some more. Throw stones at me. 

    Shame me. 

    I feel hurt by fake love. At least hate is genuine. 

    There is no love lost in between... 

    I have been treated miserably for years. No longer must I take it. 

    Beaten, abused, gaslighted, bullied and then owned. 

     

     

  10. Posted

    Maybe I should prefer being hated to being loved 

    Because when you're being admired and loved, you have to constantly stand up to some expectations that are unknowingly inadvertently placed on you by those who love you/admire you. 

    When you are hated, there is always a point where you could be hated no more. And what does hate even mean? Just the opposite of love? Don't we sometimes hate those who we secretly love the most? 

    Yea hate is a strong emotion, stronger than love. 

     

     

  11. Posted

    I visit S every night. I trust him to not exploit me.. 

    He treats me gently. 

    He understands my pain and doesn't judge me. 

    I think some of us take to the darker alleys of life out of deep shame and repression. 

    We turn to corners where we won't be judged the same way we are in society. 

    S himself is devoted to bad activity. So how can he judge me? 

     

  14. Posted · Edited by Preety_India

    V doesn't understand my emotions. I have deep emotions and feelings for him.

    V, I know that you have a lot of animosity against me. But I love you. 

    Despite all the hurt and pain, I love you 

    You don't give me a safe space where I can express my love for you 

    All that you give me is rotten spaces to comply with. 

     

     

  16. Posted

    My womanhood is looking for those 3 things 

    Intimacy, alignment, polarity. 

    My womanhood is desperate to merge with Masculinity. My womanhood cannot sustain on its own for too long. I feel this way. 

    I need V in my life. 

    I need P in my life 

    I need S in my life 

     

    Plus I'm a codependent. I need to be in the "follower" role. I cannot lead a man. He has to lead me. He has to have the leader role - domination and protection. 

     

     

  20. Posted · Edited by Preety_India

    Your hands don't have any strength. Lmfao. I'm a tough baby..

    Try to bend my wrist. And it won't bend. 

    My wrist is tiny. But I'm a tough baby. You can't even bend my wrist haha. 

     

    (secretly observes his hands to see if they are really strong) 

     

  21. Posted

     

    I'm laughing so hard right now.. 

     

     

    Hahahahahahahaha Hahahahahahahaha Hahahahahahahaha Hahahahahaha hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

     

  22. Posted · Edited by Preety_India

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    I love you. 

    You stole my heart. You took my breath away. You're in my heart forever and I'm slave to your love.. 

    I worship you. I love you deeply. I can't live without you. You are my love, you are my soul. You have my heart. I promised myself that you're the man I will love forever and only you and none other. I won't love any other man except you. 

    The day you told me - "give yourself to me," I gave myself to you and never looked back ever since. 

    I can die for you. I swear I will give up my life for you. I have surrendered my heart and my life to you. 

    Whether you love me or not, it's not relevant anymore. 

    Whether you hate me or not, it doesn't matter anymore 

    Whether you like someone else or not , it won't piss me off anymore 

    Whether you give your love to me or not, I will still love you just the same. 

    I want nothing from you. No commitment nothing. I don't even want sex. 

    I just want to keep loving you and worshipping you. 

    What you do of me is up to you. 

    I won't be hurt no matter what you do. 

    If you feel like you wanna kill me, then here I am, I surrender my body and my willpower to you.. Do as you wish 

    I have fallen in love with you and you have found the way to my heart. 

    .... 

    This is what I wanted all my life. It's you. Only you. I love you. 

     

    ..... 

    You know what I like the most on your body. That place. That place on your neck. Right in the center, a bit lower. Yes yes yes, right there. Right near your throat but just below it, where it's a bit shallow. That central place. Right there... Hehe I was looking up for the scientific name for this place. It's called the Jugular notch or the Suprasternal notch. 

    I want to place a knife right there and cut the Jugular. I'm joking. I want to touch there and feel all of my love flowing through it. 

    Keep touching there and you'll feel my love. Hehe. My love flows through that place into your body. 

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  23. Posted

    V is a total psycho. 

    • His eyes are psycho stalker eyes. Sadistic eyes. 
    • He is sadistic 
    • He is psychopath. He plays mind games 
    • He is sociopath. He takes pain in pleasure. 
    • He is deeply insecure and has a Jekyll Hyde personality 
    • He is a stalker. He is obsessed with me 
    • He is predatory and rapey  
    • He is pure schizophrenic bipolar depressed sadistic  psycho 
    • He is machiavellian, cold, psychopath and manipulative. 
    • He is egotistical and stubborn and adamant 
    • He is Bossy and narcissistic but maintains a sweet facade.