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Then I had this dream. That I was working very hard. And I had many animals and I had an animal caretaker.. I would constantly argue with her because she wasn't doing a good job. But she always boasts how the animals are always happy with her..

Crime has become an ever present problem. There is a real existential threat to the survival of the species. Not only humans but also animals and natural resources are under great threat. The cost of medical care is really high with many left without insurance. The government doesn't pay any medical costs. People are not helped in their situations of crises. We came so far through evolution only to witness the downslide of humanity. Unemployment rates throughout the world are sky high. These people will never marry, never have children and never create families. Families which were the basic unit of survival. In some ways it makes sense to witness the downspiral because in a karmic sense with so much suffering, it was necessary for everything to collapse in order to end all suffering or make all suffering equal.. Everything starts from dust. Everything goes to dust. It's unthinkable what happened to humanity. When I look around myself, I see most families with 2 kids only. Sometimes and most often it's just 1 kid per family. At this rate, the populations are going to decline rapidly. Although on the surface it looks like the world has a huge population, but if you look deeper it's just a lot of people who are not leading fulfilling lives. Much of it is a farce. It's just numbers on paper There was a sudden burst in the population somewhere in the 70s and the 80s due to significant decrease in infant mortality rate but that burst has survived for quite some time since. Yet, overall the population isn't doing well. The next generation, the ones born in the 90s and late 90s to 2000 are really struggling. Maybe the boomers had it better. But the millennials and the next generations are struggling to make ends meet.. Middle classes are diminishing and disappearing. There is chaos. Mainly jobs. Jobs are being designed that instead of helping families manage better, they suck the energy out of families. The pay is great, that's how capitalism works, great pay for sucking your blood, yet the pay is useless in times of great inflation. Literally every major city jn in the world is expensive. Housing rates are so high. Despite doing well with education, having talent and skill, people are starving because the competition has become cutthroat. Most of the youth is left without a direction or purpose. And this youth will never have families because they don't know what to do with their lives The government has completely besieged us. Because in times of great poverty and crisis, having a paper of rights will be of no use.. The people will be helpless and increasingly dependent on the government for survival meanwhile the government will continue to exploit in the name of new leadership, and the elite will keep feeding on the middle class to fatten their reserves. The problem is that when you get too parasitic, there is nothing left to hunt or steal.. How long will the elite keep raping the middle class. Once people have been thrown into sudden poverty due to unemployment and lack of government support, these people will be rendered useless by the loss of sheer will, what will the elite harvest. There will still be talent.... But the thing is... What about purchasing power. Who will buy from this elite? Without money there will be nobody left to buy anything and business will shut down leading to more unemployment. The thing is that you can't rape people. You can't take everything away from people and strip them naked and actually imagine things to get better. You are digging your own Graves. You are causing mass number of people to die out of hunger, illness, suicide, unemployment and poverty and still expecting that humanity will continue.. The thing is... That if you make people helpless, you can make them do anything.. Job is almost like slavery.. Once you have people helpless, you can make them do anything. You can bank on their fears of survival. You can make them believe anything. Helpless people grasp at straws. They would do anything to just survive. People themselves being a time bomb. That can be potent. They will believe in race wars and division and all sorts of things the media will peddle. People will do senseless things in senseless times. Pretty much this is what you witness in America recently. America is a melting pot, it kinda represents a mini version of the world. America is like a cardboard model of a house. Whatever happens in America usually and eventually happens in the world as well. America is just an indicator of what's to expect. In a sense it's like a Guinea pig of the rest of the world. Whatever ways in which America suffers, is the same way in which the world will reflect this suffering. It seems like terrible times are yet to come. But actually not having kids is a good thing. Because why make them suffer. It seems like the woes won't go away and are here to stay. People will continue to vote for bad leaders. And government as usual won't take responsibility..

With feminism and lots of women choosing to be single and not wanting children, we are going to experience historically low birth rates. In such times it's important to have a significantly low mortality rate. Yet the mortality rate continues to climb. The reason why vaccines were invented, and almost all of human invention from steam engine to automatic food production to invention of medical equipment and general technology was all for the ultimate survival and benefit of mankind Yet look at what's happening. Instead of ensuring survival we are sabotaging survival. Stress itself is the leading cause of death in the world. People are being paid Lower, middle classes are being taxed and burdened leading to the thinning of the middle class, the elites getting fatter each day, the poorer getting poorer, jobs getting harder or completely automated to remove humans, it's crazy how we are destroying the same thing we worked so hard to secure. In a way humanity is committing mass suicide. So many people live without insurance. So many people don't have access to even basic medical care. So few doctors. So few hospitals. Governments aren't equipped to treat a large number of sick people. The medical field is constantly under funded. Much of the funding is usurped by corrupt politicians and a system that looks invisible The money is hard to come by. And whatever comes goes in invisible ways. Governments have failed throughout the world in securing a good future for people. Even tribal communities do a better job at sustaining survival of the tribe than the government Crime is always high since the 90s. Crime has become an ever present problem.

Yesterday I was thinking deeply about the nature of things. And what I really felt was a strong sense of sadness. I was thinking why as humans we waste so much potential and time. Why we never see the devil who divides us. Why we never understand that wars and fights will lead to nothing. That we need love more than ever to have permanent peace. Of course when I looked over some of my previous posts in this thread, (sometimes I need to take out the time and effort to read my own journals which I rarely do btw), I realized that I was looking for peace and stability and love and acceptance. These were key elements of life. But the conclusion was that there is just too much distraction and uselessness and vaccum in the world. I'm strongly into Stage Orange. So for a person like me, this is an utter waste of time. I am ambitious. So when I see all the distraction I feel very disappointed at how humanity is wasting so much time and potential when so much could have been achieved in the absence of these distractions. When I see how people blame and demonize each other, I'm thinking to myself, what is the purpose of all that. To me it feels like there is so much distraction, that the real path gets missed. There is only one way, just one way towards Infinity and love and growth. Just one way. And much of our life is actually spent away from this way. It's really simple. If there is any way, by pure logic, it has to be one. Because multiple ways cannot lead to the same thing. There is only one process that leads to one conclusion. But a lot of our good time that could have been spent following this way actually gets spent diverted from this way. Into mindless chatter, arguments, discussions, fights, ego battles and competitions.

So last night this was my dream It wasn't a pleasant one. I was looking at lots of people. Most of them were living in really poor conditions. There were narrow lanes and cramped houses and the people were very destructive. There was little hope. A lot of addicts. And something that they were doing illegally. It was a terrible sight. But other things. Hmm.. I completely forgot portions of the dream when I woke up. Next time I will make it an effort to recollect better when I wake up.

I'm also going to record all of my negative or sad thoughts as well bad experiences and the bad dreams or nightmares that I get.. This will be a good place for all of the dark content in my life. The good news is that my nightmares are significantly less

Now see its really simple. Everything eventually condenses to direct experience and rest is speculation. All you want as a man is pickup and a relationship and better understanding of female nature Now For pickup, you simply follow Leo's advice, you don't need any YouTube channel or course unless you are eager to pay for it and it's easily available in your area. For pickup without any course, you simply follow Leo's advice that he is always giving. GO OUT, SOCIALIZE, APPROACH. This is a simple advice that Leo always gives and which a lot of men don't follow and waste their time discussing rather than actually doing things. For understanding female nature, all you need is a female in your life. Once you master approaching women in real life and spend too much time with too many women, you gradually learn a lot about female nature purely through direct experience. You won't need any false YouTube guru who probably has never dated and is simply invested in fooling men and making money, because stuff like this attracts men so much, they are ready to pay lots of money for it, you won't need that or any course or book or coach. The thing is no matter how much you read on a forum and discuss or watch or listen to these things, nothing comes closer to direct experience, you're simply wasting your time discussing too much about women without having a woman.. It is pointless. A pure waste of time. What you need is to get out of the box and test the waters yourself. Go out, socialize, improve your skills in the direct process, move to a city where you can meet many people, once you are confident you definitely get at least one woman after many trials and then you can use that opportunity to build a relationship and even if it fails, your experience will teach you how to avoid the same mistakes in future relationships and how to be better at understanding the woman you would be with. The bottom line is that relationships can't be created through courses, books and programs. You have to actually do it and be it. You have to have a relationship to know what a relationship feels and looks like and understand and experience its ups and downs. You cannot understand war or the challenges of a war by simply reading or hearing/discussing about it. You will need to actually experience a war to really know what its like be in a war situation. Relationships are hard work. It's not sitting and eating corn. Relationships are both good and bad, a blessing as well as a curse. Relationships can make or break. They are not fairy tales. To create relationships you need tons of willpower and bravery and Openness. You can't start relationships with hesitation or avoidance or fear. Then you won't fall in love.. You need boldness to fall in love and completely trust another person Also relationships are a lot of hard work and challenge. No bed of roses. I have been through multiple relationships. It's a lot of work to be there for someone.. It's like a responsibility or a job. Most people just shy away from it. They only want the rosy part of a relationship, but not the work part. So yes, you cannot be sitting at home on a couch or computer and expecting a relationship to magically happen You will need to work very hard for it happen in your life. And even if you work hard, you will go through multiple failures and dejections and disappointments that will make you upset or hurt. But this is a test.. It will test your resilience. So it's not necessary that your first relationship will magically turn out to be successful. Maybe your third or fourth relationship will become successful after a lot of trial and error if you fortunately find a compatible person. Most people in relationships struggle a lot. Very few lucky people have a successful first relationship. For most people their second or next relationship turns out to be better because by then they learn how to spot a compatible person. Till then they keep struggling. Getting a partner/woman is just the first step of the ladder. The next step is to preserve and maintain the relationship. Its like maintaining a garden. If you don't, the garden will be destroyed. So a lot of the men on here who discuss excessively about pickup actually don't have much experience and are not willing to try in real life. It's easy to talk online.. But it takes serious hard work to go there and meet many people and do practical things. It's basically what life is. You can't dream life or discuss life. You have to live it.

Ads do appear to me without YouTube premium so I don't know how that's possible.. I don't know much about downloads. But these is no way to stop ads unless you are using an ad blocker or watching ad free channels. I don't use an ad blocker because I don't want to. A lot of people don't use ad blockers because they are configured on our browsers which is a huge security risk I pay a small amount for premium and problem solved. . Don't wanna risk my computer for a free ad blocker

Now see its really simple. Everything eventually condenses to direct experience and rest is speculation. All you want as a man is pickup and a relationship and better understanding of female nature Now For pickup, you simply follow Leo's advice, you don't need any YouTube channel or course unless you are eager to pay for it and it's easily available in your area. For pickup without any course, you simply follow Leo's advice that he is always giving. GO OUT, SOCIALIZE, APPROACH. This is a simple advice that Leo always gives and which a lot of men don't follow and waste their time discussing rather than actually doing things. For understanding female nature, all you need is a female in your life. Once you master approaching women in real life and spend too much time with too many women, you gradually learn a lot about female nature purely through direct experience. You won't need any false YouTube guru who probably has never dated and is simply invested in fooling men and making money, because stuff like this attracts men so much, they are ready to pay lots of money for it, you won't need that or any course or book or coach. The thing is no matter how much you read on a forum and discuss or watch or listen to these things, nothing comes closer to direct experience, you're simply wasting your time discussing too much about women without having a woman.. It is pointless. A pure waste of time. What you need is to get out of the box and test the waters yourself. Go out, socialize, improve your skills in the direct process, move to a city where you can meet many people, once you are confident you definitely get at least one woman after many trials and then you can use that opportunity to build a relationship and even if it fails, your experience will teach you how to avoid the same mistakes in future relationships and how to be better at understanding the woman you would be with. The bottom line is that relationships can't be created through courses, books and programs. You have to actually do it and be it. You have to have a relationship to know what a relationship feels and looks like and understand and experience its ups and downs. You cannot understand war or the challenges of a war by simply reading or hearing/discussing about it. You will need to actually experience a war to really know what its like be in a war situation. Relationships are hard work. It's not sitting and eating corn. Relationships are both good and bad, a blessing as well as a curse. Relationships can make or break. They are not fairy tales. To create relationships you need tons of willpower and bravery and Openness. You can't start relationships with hesitation or avoidance or fear. Then you won't fall in love.. You need boldness to fall in love and completely trust another person Also relationships are a lot of hard work and challenge. No bed of roses. I have been through multiple relationships. It's a lot of work to be there for someone.. It's like a responsibility or a job. Most people just shy away from it. They only want the rosy part of a relationship, but not the work part. So yes, you cannot be sitting at home on a couch or computer and expecting a relationship to magically happen You will need to work very hard for it happen in your life. And even if you work hard, you will go through multiple failures and dejections and disappointments that will make you upset or hurt. But this is a test.. It will test your resilience. So it's not necessary that your first relationship will magically turn out to be successful. Maybe your third or fourth relationship will become successful after a lot of trial and error if you fortunately find a compatible person. Most people in relationships struggle a lot. Very few lucky people have a successful first relationship. For most people their second or next relationship turns out to be better because by then they learn how to spot a compatible person. Till then they keep struggling. Getting a partner/woman is just the first step of the ladder. The next step is to preserve and maintain the relationship. Its like maintaining a garden. If you don't, the garden will be destroyed. So a lot of the men on here who discuss excessively about pickup actually don't have much experience and are not willing to try in real life. It's easy to talk online.. But it takes serious hard work to go there and meet many people and do practical things. It's basically what life is. You can't dream life or discuss life. You have to live it.

@John Iverson like I said, even about the first video he blows things out of proportion. He tries to find a fit for his assumptions. He does too much generalizing. He has ego issues and he tries to overcompensate his ego with narratives. His opinions don't come from a genuine place of curiosity or learning but from a toxic place of narration and compensatory catharsis. His opinions, his observations and his data collection is coming from a prejudiced toxic place. In a nutshell he is a false teacher

@John Iverson all his videos are misleading. He has a cathartic personality and he uses his experiences to twist their meaning and fit them into a narrative that will help to overcompensate his emotions.

He says a lot of wrong things. He reads women wrong. I have seen his content before. He assumes and speculates too much using a small sample of women. Doesn't look like he has any experience. A lot of people on this forum use this guy's content who is clearly misleading all men. He feeds too much into confirmation bias. The only reliable person who you should follow in such matters like masculinity and female nature is LEO

Abundance mindset and Empowering way of looking at things.

Today I will do not an insight meditation but an Empowering meditation

A people pleaser will try to agree with people even when they do wrong. A gentleman will either show people what's wrong or quietly walk away..

Today is July 30. THURSDAY I'm still going to use this journal but I will use it whenever I'm upset and having a bad day or a down time. So I don't have to go over or come across my own depressive thoughts in my other Self Exploration 2 journal. This journal was started with the same objective in mind but I quickly realized that I needed to separate my entries when I'm happy or normal and when I'm upset or down. So this journal will be used to record my sad or down time. <

3 things to focus on Self Ecosystem Process /Function This is basic purple stage thinking. Rest everything is Green, Orange, Blue, Yellow and Turquoise. A healthy orange, a healthy blue, a healthy green, a healthy turquoise and a healthy Purple are absolutely essential. I have developed my own system of growth. I will call it the pyramidal model of growth. It's still in formation stages. It starts with something foundational and then the pyramid grows upward rapidly towards... .. And then goes to infinite growth and maintenance. The base or foundation remains as strong as ever. So I created a three dimensional model for my growth. And this is how it looks like The upper portion is still in building mode and it represents infinite growth because it continues to grow infinitely. The bottom shows a fortress gradually building around the center pyramid of growth. The pyramid shows a foundation at the bottom and stages of growth in a gradual manner. Another image is this pyramid surrounded by a block or wall that can represent a fortress. This is the same triangle but it includes various stages of Spiral dynamics combined, the colors are a bit misplaced.

How will I feel satisfied today?

I love yt premium. Don't see any problem with it. Is when I'm upset and right at that moment a loved one shows up.

There is a certain kind of liberation associated with being yourself. It's just how it is. When you are purely you and you are your best authentic self, you instantly feel a huge dose of sunshine and pride. You are leaving all the bullshit behind and continuing to glow in your freedom and glory. In being you. Not feeling any strings attached to you, not feeling any burden lingering on your shoulders. You don't feel needy. You don't feel that you need a stamp of approval, because clearly you don't.

How much a person is desirable to me should depend on how much room they give me, how much I'm allowed to be myself, how much productive I can be around them..The key here is "being yourself" and if I cannot be myself then I should leave such company. The company of such people doesn't serve my purpose. One sign of how the devil works in your life is when you are not allowed to be yourself and turned into something that you do not want to be, if you feel like you are struggling to be yourself, then it's a sign that the devil is playing his games. One way of sorting this out is to ask three questions. 1. Is this how I want myself to be? 2. Is this how I want my ecosystem to be? 3. Is this how I want the process to be? What I mean is that you don't need to be a bootlicker in order to fit into someone or something because you should be yourself. And if you are not accepted for who you are or if you are slandered then that's the hand of the devil and you should simply leave such people because they don't love you, because if they did, they wouldn't slander or demonize or reject you. They wouldn't set you up for failure. The bottom line is... Don't be a bootlicker. Settle for nothing. Be yourself. Let go of the fear of rejection. Carve your own path. Care for nobody. Their validation is garbage. You are you and nothing should change that. Anyone who tries to make you something that you are not, they are not good for you. There is always a cult like mentality with people where if you are not accepted by them, then you are automatically a bad person. This is Gaslighting at its finest and Stage Blue/red societies use this Gaslighting to their advantage to put good people away by branding them rebels. You don't need to be in their game. You don't need their drama, you don't need their bullshit, you don't need their game.

I just hate it when I get a really important thought in my head and I just miss it. The problem with some people is that they haven't been through shit in life yet they have an opinion on everything. In the end everything is just bullshit. Everything. Everything is just nothing I want to really be very authentic in life. Like truly authentic. I am so done with the fakery in the world. I don't want to buy into it. I have always been more or less authentic but I want to take it to another level, to a higher level. I want to be purely authentic, remove all my impurities. Being authentic will give me a good sense of direction. The other thing is that I no longer want to be associated with any form of politics that people do. I have a crystal mind. I want to see through their bullshit and be able to deny them when they do it, catch them in their act.. I just want to say "No" to such people. Because all it serves is nothing but drama and it is draining to my productivity and to my essence, to who I really am from within. I just want to be away from that bullshit. One way to spot bullshit is to ask myself "is this bringing out the best in me or the worst in me?" and if it serves my purpose really well and brings out the best in me, then yes, I should really engage in it. If not, I should simply respond No and get on with my work.