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Not about forgetting him. It's more about removing those thoughts. I don't like him.

@Gesundheit it's a relationship. Nobody enters a relationship to be treated badly. If you were being mistreated in a relationship you'd feel bad as well. What you say can be applicable if I'm dealing with a stranger. You mean to say that tomorrow if you marry a woman, are you going to expect her to cheat on you? Is that the expectation you're going to enter the marriage with? Be practical instead of victim blaming.

What's the latest news. Is Biden going to win or not? I just don't want to wake up If he doesn't.

I'm crying.

@Vipassana but it's a mrna vaccine.

@Khr thank you so much.

OH. Then I will take it.

@arlin you're a wonderful and fantastic person. Your words made me cry and gave me hope.

I'll go and take it and cry into my pillow. And blame humanity.

The current challenge is to forget my ex. The next thing I need to do is sign an agreement to myself or Manifestato or pledge document promising that I will never fall for bad abusive guys and strictly follow the conditions of this document it self agreement. I need to ask myself this question How can I solve this problem or situation in my spiritually? Conditions of the signed agreement To question when questions arise Not give emotional authority to anyone Be skeptical of the relationship and ask relevant questions about the person's character behaviors or past dating history Not be emotionally atached quickly Not spend too much money Not ignore red flags. Not be too trusting. Use shit tests Use both brain and heart and not just hearty Observe and note Down behavior . Not allow him to love bomb me. Wall off . Not consider it as love until there are clear signs and indications of love Not allow myself to be abused . Not allow my boundaries to be broken . Not blindly trust . Not take compliments too seriously. . Not immediately fall in love. Hold off. . Not try to please him so much. . Not let him have emotional control on me . Not be too trusting . Not get brainwashed . Test the person . To not give so much importance to anyone . Not to neglect myself and my feelings . Not to put anyone above me . . Not accept any pressure or get black mailed by it . Recognizing patterns of my fear in the relationship. Not holding the fear of losing someone Keep healthy unbreakable boundaries. Not fall in love easily Not take little red flags lightly . .

Good plan. But. Jerking off is not bad. Playing video games is not bad. Wasting time is not bad. Teens do that sort of stuff because they are teens and that's fine. Everything can be turned into a learning experience.

I'm in that group unfortunately. Oh, maybe I'm fortunate.

For some weird reason, I'm just as scared of this vaccine as I'm of the coronavirus if not more. It's like a mental process. The body subconsciously wants to reject anything associated with that pesky virus. @Vipassanahow about a fake vaccine certificate you know how it works in India!!

The fact that he was very abusive in the relationship hurts a lot. He also cheated on me many times. So these are the question that come to my mind, "why did he lie to me?" "why did he cheat on me?" "why did he treat me so badly?" "how could he hurt me so much and still say that he loved me?" "what did I do to deserve such mistreatment and unfairness?" "why did he use me and pretend like he really was loving me?" "how could he hurt me and still say that he cares about me, which means that he never cared about me?" "why hurt me so much and why such deception, could have let me go by being honest?" "why not simply tell the truth and let me go?" "why did he manipulate me and play such games and hurt me with his games?" "I loved him so much and did so much for him, how could he not care about me at all and then claim that he really cared?" "how and why did I trust a man so much and let him hurt me?" I don't want him at all. I hate him for what he did to me. I wish I had never come across him. Yes. He used to call me names like bitch etc. His hate and anger used to hurt me. And those words still hurt even after the breakup. Those words and his passive aggressive statements still appear in my head. He would make me feel like he didn't love me and then next day apologize and tell me that he said that in anger and didn't mean it. Those thoughts would appear, like why did he never love me but still wanted the relationship!! Yes suppressing the pain, the hurt and the trauma of his cheating and me finally breaking up with him after getting fed up with his games. I don't want revenge but the constant emotion is of "being wronged", like something unfair that happened to me with no acknowledgement of it from his side. He has NPD narcissistic personality disorder along with bipolar. The anguish of knowing that certain men end up hurting a woman so bad and not acknowledging that hurt caused and feeling I was taken advantage of, manipulated, used, abused, unloved, uncared for, lied to, cheated on, verbally and physically attacked, feeling scammed, feeling duped, feeling humiliated by his cheating and abuse, feeling like being violated, boundaries violated and discarded, feeling disrespected and uncared, feeling rejected, feeling unwanted but used, feeling exploited and treated like a ragdoll.

Sad

It's not about the government for me. I'm scared that they won't test it sufficiently and release it in a hurry. That can be a problem with the initial batch of vaccinated people showing bad effects If it were an old vaccine, no problem Since it's a new vaccine, I have fears surrounding its testing and safety.

Here we go again. All religion is scripture and doctrine. Take it with a grain of salt. There's a certain meaning to every scripture although none of it is wholly true. Religion does help in creating a base and there's really nothing like a true religion. You can take bits and pieces from every religion and create your jigsaw.

@Rilles that was nice. What does a stage Orange society do with a sick chemist? Stuff goes deep! Eh!

Thank goodness I came across this. I was planning to eat ALA. Now I won't take it.

@Hardkill oh no. I don't think. Let's not ruin happiness. Biden is the winner. And if not, I'm booking a ticket to Mars.

@Opo tbh, I never took him seriously.