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@egoeimai awesome. You have a brilliant gift for art and it will only get better with time. Wish you the best ❤️

You mean a salon nail artist?

@egoeimai omg this is just brilliant. I really love the hand. It's so intricate and real. Did you join a professional art course/class or simply kept practicing over years?

@Leo Gura @Eph75 @Etherial Cat @Keyhole Do you guys think that I should tell my current boyfriend about these fantasies and tell him to play them out with me. Would you advise that? Or would he think that I'm being weird because I don't want to disappoint him.

I don't know how to tell Andrew about my fantasies. So far the sex we had was just normal sex.. But I have deep rapey fantasies and sometimes there's a bit of guilt associated with saying it to him. So I never told him. I just don't want him to freak out. When I told Joseph about these fantasies like how I'm having rape fantasies he did not take it well. He kinda dismissed me and that created a dent in the relationship. For now my fantasy is just mine and I don't wanna tell Andrew right away. I imagine Andrew doing those things to me..

Hehe I would be delighted to see more. ❤️❤️

@egoeimai that's awesome. Love it.

Ahh! Gotcha.

@soos_mite_ah all you need is warmth and gentleness and a big dose of joy and healing. Always remember that you are deserving of all the love in the world and you should strive to embody what you deserve in your life. You deserve nothing less and I'm happy you are coming to realize it.

Glad to know that you are healing. You're a wonderful person.

Lmao I don't have kids. I'm not even married.

@soos_mite_ah just a funny non chalant question. Whats the meaning of "soos mite ah", is this an anime thing because I'm completely out of touch with anime stuff? On a side note - I lost my period for 3 months when my dad died. It was a horribly stressful event for me. And whenever I suffer even little amounts of stress (usually because of an abusive violent childhood) I generally end up missing/losing my period for upto 1-2 months. So you might want to look into that aspect of inner stress bothering you that might have an impact on your period. My period is normal when I'm stress free. And I hope that your condition improves and becomes much better and you feel better enough to get going in your life and get everything sorted out and put together. Sending you this big hug from me, (I've suffered trauma so I know how it feels to be in your shoes and you'll be alright once you are detached from your environment)

Leo put me to ease. I was having this feeling since last year. Like last year November to put it on the forum and I couldn't out of deep shame/guilt. It takes great open mindedness to accept female sexuality. And I'm grateful for the people on the forum for not making me feel bad for having thoughts and fantasies that are just normal. (cut out all judgement and criticism)

Who wants a nauseatingly critical boyfriend? Be with me only if you can handle me with kid gloves Because my trauma is not my fucking fault.

Instead of using discipline I used distraction. And distraction was just a coping mechanism.

I think this is what exactly happened to me. I was never treated gentle by my parents. My dad never stood up to my mom's behavior and she was just downright abusive, not just critical.. In terms of discipline she was extremely harsh to the point that I began to see discipline as a very negative thing.. Thanks to @soos_mite_ahfor bringing this up because I wasn't aware of this unconscious dynamic happening already in my brain. I was treated so badly that I lost any tiny bit of self awareness I could ever have. Instead of being disciplined I became suicidal. I also like the part about vulnerability. I was made to think that I always needed to be tough and suck it up and not expect much. My boundaries and expectations completely ruined. So the part about being vulnerable and being respected for being vulnerable really cuts deep..

@Raze I don't have money for therapy.

Yea moving out too early is a bad idea. Unless you're able to handle being an adult. For some people growth happens at a later stage. Everyone does not show the same growth at the same age.

Sometimes I just feel sad. Like nothing is ever gonna work out. No matter how hard I work.

5x + 2y = 12.. .. X has to be 2 and y has to be 1, none other. This is only life.

I've no idea what happened today. The number 4 kept recurring in my dream. Someone with 400 points. It was funny.

I like these posts.

@The0Self does it eat the memory/storage data of your phone.

@Carl-Richard it means a person who lives in their spirit, and doesn't care about the world, a rebel.