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@mandyjw I'm struggling right now. I had sharp pains in the chest an hour ago and I felt like I was losing consciousness. So I tried to place my hands on the bathroom stand to prevent myself from collapsing. The hospital down the block is closed right now and I won't be going there because it's full of Covid patients. Few people in my apartment have already been admitted in the hospital because of Covid, it is gradually spreading in my area so people are scared to go out. I don't see anyone outside my window on the path. I'm just trying hard to survive because it's brutal right now. I am feeling sudden blood rushes to my head on the back of my head. This is just the worst time of the year for me. I can't go out because they have banned anyone from walking around the apartment because of high Covid and a few nearby buildings and stores are sealed with no entry. I was told to use the garage area to exit the building in case I needed to get food. I have stocked up food in my basement for next 3 weeks.. I am experiencing intermittent consciousness, I feel giddy and doze off and then wake up 2 hous later and I feel better and then again an hour later I begin to feel drowsy and low in energy. And the same cycle continues. I'm waking between periods of drowsiness and making food and eating hungrily to conserve energy. I also stocked up eggs because eggs make me feel a bit warmer and stronger.

You will deserve what's coming to you You brutally betrayed my trust. In the same way someone will brutally break your trust as well. "Don't hurt her (if she genuinely loves you) " don't take her for granted (if she genuinely loves you.) Send her back with a good word but don't hurt. That's the least way of being fair to someone who genuinely loves you. Maybe one day you will realize how much hurt and pain you caused to someone else. You will go through multiple cycles of multiple relationships with multiple betrayals. You won't find peace this way. In the end you will think of those who genuinely cared about you and yet you squandered them because of your bipolar narcissism. You just didn't care who you left behind. One day you will realize how fickle you were. How much you hurt me. You love cheating on women but it won't go down well. You won't be truly happy by hurting someone no matter how hard you tried to clinch that happiness. It will slip out of your hands

I'm aware of that too. But I guess one can at least ask the person before quoting if they would be comfortable with it.

@Rilles zero sunlight dampens my mood and puts me into automatic depression. Sucks I know.

@Yog it has nothing to do with mass immigration, legal immigration refugees, or integration. It's all about ethnonationalism. Watch Carl Benjamin discussion with Vaush Vaush exposes right wing motives.

@Keyhole me too lol. I'll be able to do cardio only if I had the slightest motivation to get out of bed. The only thing that's motivating me to move my ass is hunger and it takes me on frequent trips to the refrigerator and the microwave.

I don't think it's fair to immediately quote someone just because you saw their picture. Obviously you can simply mention that person. It's a sneaky thing to immediately quote someone. I know why people do it on this thread frequently but let's try to be more understanding of each other's privacy concerns. What if a person doesn't want their picture to stay here. Even if they delete the post, the quoted post with the picture is still visible. Lets be a little more understanding and avoid doing that on this thread even though some of you might have the tacky temptation to do it. Be mindful of others.

@Opo thank you, I know what you mean. Thanks for telling me.

I think I've tried this. It's kinda okay. But I would rather prefer conscious writing because it makes me feel more concrete.

@Opo it was meant as an analogy of republican politicians and not about Trump supporters. I apologize if anyone was offended. Just the only analogy of the rat and ship that I could find to be a perfect match. And I don't consider rats to be offensive. That's like insulting rats. They are just animals just like other animals.

It's so freaking cold outside. I'm gonna die.

Slowly. Imagine life to be this dirty pot, all rusted and gunk in it. It's a toxic pot. Now imagine that you are cleaning away all the rust little by little everyday. And finally it's all clean. All the toxicity has been removed. This is how you deal with life.

Cross over Been through Pass through Survive through Dealt with Done with Suffered Come through Evolved past

@Hello from Russia sounds a bit like a skewed socialist system.

@soos_mite_ah thank you for tagging me. I'll be reading your journals from time to time because they help me a lot with my personal reflection and development. Cheers.

Hmm. Someone had too much to drink.

He is purposely doing it. He doesn't do a single thing without a deeper purpose or intention. Trump's purpose is to keep complaining non stop till all followers take to the streets to protest Biden and somehow in his delusional mind he thinks that if he keeps whining then the court will do something and with the support of his followers, he will block Biden from the presidency on false claims of election fraud and convince everyone of election fraud without any evidence. He is that arrogant and audacious, he is literally drunk on power and assumes that any strategy he uses will be successful one way or another, he is thinking the best strategy in the absence of any evidence is to keep shouting non stop every day till people force the Court to find some way of blocking Biden.. He is really that deluded, his power made him blind, he thinks his tactics will work even if most people are convinced that he is lying, but he doesn't realize the depth of reality, he is living in his own world where nothing can take away his power. He has become that blind to any form of understanding of reality. He is trying to incite and provoke his followers with this intention in mind. In the last moment he wants to create big drama and chaos so Biden might be scared of the hate and public outrage and step down. He is basically putting every trick to bully Biden with the help of his followers. He will be happy if his supporters did something violent because it means he is that much powerful that people are ready to do anything for him

More evidence coming out. Not of election fraud but of Donald's financial con. The video takes a deep look at how Donald Trump is personally making money from this presidency and also funding the businesses of Jared Kushner on 5th Avenue, and lot more financial scandals where Trump is indirectly conning the system for his own gain and using his inner circle of cronies to get his job done. Trump is considering pardoning himself, his son in law Jared Kushner and Rudy Giuliani. Lots of skeletons that are hidden deep inside the Trump closet Finally the public can see the real conman Donald Trump, whether he goes to prison remains to be seen but he is already on his way to cover his bases so he wouldn't face trouble once he is out of the white house. The full extent of Donald's con is still largely unknown. The kind of policies Trump is using are routinely used in third world countries to suppress democracy and encourage corruption. At this point Donald Trump needs to be rechristened as Conald Trump.

Yep. Good one.

@Raphael yea. He is good at the Art of Mass Manipulation and Agit Prop and Gish Gallop. He wrote the book 'the art of the deal' many years ago, that book should have the title 'the art of deception.' The Trump University must be good at courses on manipulation and Deception.

This guy explains it so well. I'm such a good cook, I often end up burning the food. So this video is really important to me.

That would be such a nightmare! Just can't imagine that.

I find it so relaxing to watch these videos on cleaning dirty grubby old kitchenware. I kinda feel satisfied that they were finally cleaned. And quite a bit of tips on how to clean out all the gunk. I really wanted to know how to clean some of the old pots I had kept. I didn't sell everything, maybe like 90% of it but I still have some of the old kitchen stuff like a few old plates and pans and a few silverware and china. These videos have some good cleaning tips. This guy uses Coca-Cola lol This video below was like using the entire kitchen to clean a teapot. This one was nice. So much gunk on the pot though. Nice trick of the fabric sheet. This one of the best. Thanks lady.

What did I do with my old kitchen? I took all the stuff and kept it in the garage and placed an ad on the bulletin board of my apartment last week. A friendly old man responded to my ad and I sold him all the silverware and some chinaware at 70% discount. And I gave him some for free. I'm glad I gave it all away so I can start a fresh start from scratch. He was probably looking for something cheap and he quickly responded and he was kinda happy. I moved into another block in the same apartment last week and it was hellish. Didn't sleep. I had to rearrange all the furniture. Lot of work. I'm surprised that the old man was interested in buying my kitchenware despite the pandemic. I wasn't really hoping for someone to respond to my ad. And now I'm slowly gathering a lot of new stuff for my kitchen. This will take some time.

So the first thing that I came across was stoneware. And it seems it's the older way of making ceramic things. They heat the material to a really high temperature and then at that point they add some kind of clay to render a distinct glaze to it which is often found in stoneware vessels. It has a natural mirror glaze and its tough to tell if a ceramic or earthenware is simply painted with glaze or varnish or if the glaze is natural.. I have seen a lot of stoneware pieces in my mom's kitchen growing up. So I kind of have a clue how the glaze actually looks like. A good example of a stoneware is this stoneware mug I bought recently to add to my frugal collection of kitchen vessels. Notice the distinct glass like glaze both on the inside and the outside. A mirror finish. Often times ceramic wares do show a hint of glaze but it could be just the paint which usually wears off after regular use. Then it begins to look more matte or plasticy in appearance with a thin sheen on it. You know it then that you got fooled.