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@Etherial Cat thank you for the advice. Yes it's the same person. I'm trying to heal. @BornToBoil thank you for book suggestion, Byron Katie sounds great. Thank you for your encouraging words. @Gesundheit thanks for the quotes. @hyruga thanks for the input. @Brittany thanks for the videos. Helpful. Yea I totally get the Antichrist thing. Sometimes it really feels that way. That's a unique way of looking at things. Puts a new frame on everything. And makes sense. @Bojan lol hehe. That was one heck of a story. Thanks for the laughs. @Javfly33 thanks for the input.

A woman likes a dominant guy because in the feminine mind (evolutionary reasons) dominant means "protector of the tribe/family and provider /caretaker/guardian". Basically a dominant guy screams "security and ability." Women want security in relationships more than anything, whether it be financial security or emotional /sexual. Women view alpha as "strong secure caring." That's why they're generally instantly attracted to a strong alpha dominant guy. Also sexually a lot of women prefer domination in the bed. They feel fulfilled. Does this mean they like an unkind guy? An unkind guy = asshole (AH) A woman doesn't like or want AH. They simply tolerate an AH with the expectation that he might stop being an AH. But that doesn't happen. She will stick around in the relationship for a while after which she will dump the guy. The theory is this. Everyone likes caring and affectionate, both men and women. The only difference is that women like the extra X factor of "sexually, financially, emotionally" dominant because it aligns with their needs of the perfect Prince Charming - handsome, sexy, dominant, kind, strong, secure, provider, faithful, respectful. Can't blame women. This is how they've been fed with fantasies in movies, books, novels, girls discussing boyfriends etc etc. It comes down to raw social conditioning. Women have been socially conditioned by both patriarchy and females to consider "strong, dominant, caring kind" as attractive. The bottom line is that both gender like a "caring person." Nobody likes "unkind or AH."

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This is a journal I will be using to record my psychedelic experiences. My past experiences with psychedelics and my current experiences. I do take psychedelics in certain measures, although I can't discuss the exact logistics. I can describe how I felt on them. Also I'm going to look into other people's experiences on this forum and elsewhere and see what insights I can gather. This is an exciting Octonaut journey. I also want to look into Youtubers who do psychedelics and relate to their experiences as well and inspire myself to do more trips in the future.

Insights and experiences.. Rose tea. I love this Meme.

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Mescaline brew , I won't be talking about ayahuasca trip anymore

Taken from the forum. I chewed and swallowed 1 gram of Magic Mushroom at 4:30 am. Then I sat on a Chair and started Meditation in my room. It was not deep meditation. I was just switching between meditation and open eyes so I can notice if there are any changes in my experience. After almost 20 minutes suddenly I started to Hear a Clear Sound of Silence (Beep with 528 Hz Frequency) like when we go higher on Mountains or airplanes. And the sounds of my surroundings became secondary. I became more present and started to feel distortion in my body particularly in the face. I was feeling confused and was not sure if these experiences are my misunderstandings or I am actually feeling all this in reality as a psychedelic experience. Now as my feeling was getting intense I started to get a feeling of fear as well. At 05:00 am I thought that what if I fell from the Chair I should go to my bed. So I turned on Meditation Music on speakers and went to bed and sat down there. Colors became more vibrant. I started to see blood veins in my hand. After a few minutes, I thought that this music was distracting me so I asked my Trip Sitter to turn off the music. And I felt that I should lie down at 05:15 am so I lay down. I was feeling that I am drowning in nothingness or void but I felt really scared so I was trying to resist this also and trying to remain in reality with my body. The reason for Fear was that it was my 1st Psychedelic/Spiritual Experience. There was dim yellow light in the room and I started to feel really congested. Negatively, like I am having difficulty breathing, I got an inner call that said go outside into nature so you can feel better and have different experiences with nature. By 05:45 am I asked my Trip sitter to help me to go to the terrace. I was able to concentrate and Focus on things and at the same time, I was confused also. When I came outside everything was very Fresh, Color Full, Vibrant, Bird's sound was really amazing, Echoes at the same time I was feeling like I am in High Fever, I was feeling High Temperature. I could See Clouds really clearly with different layers of clouds, I was able to see and focus in sharp, small details like Hand pores, etc.., Was feeling a little bit of distortion in objects, I was getting an inner call that let’s leave the steering of this body-mind and let me drive but I was scared to leave the control. At the same time, I was in the Happy, Giggling, and Laughing Mode. I was getting laughs and jokes on every worldly thing. I was laughing at everything like I am watching a real comedy movie. The whole universe was looking like a comedy and a dream as well. My language was also like a funny thing to me. The funniest thing was “Time”. I do not want to think or talk about time because it was the funniest thing in this universe. Because at that time here and now was the only thing that matters and I was sure that the Future and the past did not exist. I was getting inner calls that now don’t focus on this body and world because this world is a Funny Dream. Focusing on the world will cause you only laughter and nothing else. Leave this World, body, and mind and become 1 with nature or consciousness. But I had a feeling of fear and was trying to hold this Dreamworld. I was feeling Morphing in my body. Around 06:10 am my feeling of fear dissolved and I got an inner call that now I should get serious if I want to learn something new I was ready to go with the flow and was serious to learn, understand. Around 06:16 am I was feeling intense Joy, Calmness, Amazing, Freedom. I was feeling very trapped in the body like I am trapped in a very small thing and there is no oxygen and I wanted to come out of this world and body. I felt like birds were talking to me. I had a lot of compassion toward every being. There was a whole Universe or infinite Well or infinity in each cell, or atom, grain of sand, in everything. Focus on each object was sucking me into the infinity of that spec. There was infinity in each pore of my skin. Now I was looking at my body and all other things in a 3rd Person. Like VR Game Experience. My whole body was melting away. It felt like I have left everything but I am stuck at the back of my head. I was in total presence, I didn't want to hold on to thoughts and memories, and everything in each moment was perfect. There was Blind and infinite well in each thing, object or thoughts. In which well I was focusing on I was getting sucked into that thought or thing. I was not able to identify which sound is coming from where. I was getting aware of everything but was losing my sense of My Words and body. Everything was dissolving into nothingness. Everything was flowing like Air or River. Nothing was staying. Each moment was unique. I don’t want to talk about the previous moment. I was feeling distortion in Heartbeats also. Whenever I was laughing I felt like my mouth would morph into an infinite wide open. This body was feeling like a prison. Then my 2-year-old daughter woke up and came to me. I was amazed to see her. It was like I was looking at her for the first time. And she was looking cutest. There was a whole universe inside her eyes. I wanted to drown in the infinity of her eyes. For some time I enjoyed her cuteness and company and Now I want solitude so I can understand things more deeply. Sometimes my hands were looking like baby hands and sometimes it was looking like monster hands. Then I decided to go inside to enjoy a few things from the computer and for Meditation. I asked my Trip sitter to help me to go inside. And When I stood up I felt so amazed. It was like I am wearing VR Glasses and watching my body arms in the third person. My body was looking very small. But I was able to control my body and walk. When I came inside it was like I was looking at my home from inside the 1st time. The entry door of my room looked very small. I sat on my computer chair and started watching a few nature Pictures and I was getting sucked into those pictures. Then I Started to Watch the Documentary “Moving Art” on Netflix (Nature Documentary) and after just 5 minutes. I started to cry through my heart and there were tears in my eyes and while crying my feelings and thought was that I or He (God) is alone and has no one for the company to enjoy and these World objects, World Nature, etc..are the only Imaginations I have for my company. I or He (God) has nothing other than this dream and I had intense compassion and self-pity at that time. At that time I felt that Surah Ikhlas (Verses of Quran) is not just a surah it is a His Sad Story as well... Everything on the computer was looking very clear and sharp. Wisdom & Insights I got during this Trip: He is just exploring himself. He is infinite. Everything is him. He is happy and enjoying everything and wants us to just explore and enjoy. Enjoy the dream. Don’t take anything seriously. Then I thought I was wasting my time on the computer so I shut down the computer and came back to my bed and started Meditation. I closed my eyes and there were a few blurred and faded patterns. It was like there were infinite doors and He (God) was asking which door do you want to enter. Then I felt like laying so I get laid on the bed. Now I feel that my psychedelic experience is going to end so I thought now I should spend some time with my family. I came to my family room enjoyed the cuteness of my daughter for a bit more time than I thought I should watch myself in the Mirror so I got up and went in front of the mirror and I got really disappointed I was looking really bad and unhealthy and felt self-pity and asked myself that what have you done with this body which was a temporary gift to you. At 08:00 am I was back home from my trip.

Extremely emotionally abusive woman. Just leave her. Let her know you deserve better.

@BornToBoil I just hope everything turns out fine for her. I'll say this much. When it comes to such things, there may or may not be Traps, one cannot be fully sure, so the best strategy is to be careful in advance. I know you care about your sister and that's why you opened this thread, if you had no problem with their age gap, you probably wouldn't have asked this question to begin with. These are your words from your original question "am trying to be open minded and all but I am still a bit concerned about this", so it does seem like you're concerned All I'll say is this. You keep an eye on the relationship of your sister. This is your responsibility as her brother since you do have some concerns. If you come across even the first sign of bad behavior from the guy where it seems like his intentions are not genuine but to simply use your sister for sex, then please warn her immediately about it and make her get out of it. If he is good caring guy and not simply pretending it, then cool, your sister will most likely be happy with him, so will you. Best regards.

I've a honey bottle and every time I open the kitchen cabinet and open this bottle I see ants in it. How to stop this?

There is no point in rehashing spiritual principles unless you embody them and unless you implement them. Only a wise person can fully understand me and all the bad mental programming I've been through and how it should be undone and replaced by reprogramming. ——————————————— Genuine hearts and proper minds is a great combo. ——————————————— This image is bomb. Love it.

Struggling always makes you stronger. Remember I'm proud of you and your struggles. You have this going for you. And in my opinion.... you are Bright Brilliant Beautiful.

@Arcangelo it's ok Arc. Gotcha. Hope all is well and have a wonderful blessed day

What I'm going to do in this journal is use these straight lines to extend on a particular insight. Whereas if I'm having insights in rapid succession then then I'm going to use bullet markers to jot them down But if I want to extend on a particular insight and give an explanation on it, I would simply use dash or straight lines such as this —————————

Insights such as reprogram the mind Also this new insight that you really need to be way past something early on to know how you should really put things into motion. Otherwise there will be a ton of distractions. One way to keep going in the right direction (all of life is going in the right direction) is to keep a goal board and track your progress towards it. If you're doing good or great, continue. And if you're slacking, then look for reasons and eliminate those reasons. ——————————————— Keep a track throughout the day —————————————— Always focus on the inevitable this helps with decision making ——————————————— Always remember that every problem has a solution in reprogramming the mind. ——————————————— Focus on positive people. Focus on serious people. Focus on matured people. ——————————————— Go meta on everything. Use systems thinking ——————————————— Remember you can never change the world so don't even try it. ——————————————— The problem with giving advice is that it ultimately falls on deaf ears when people get to attack that advice. It serves no purpose even if it's the best advice. There is a huge problem with giving advice in an open environment. Because it's not a clean environment. Even your best intentions are misunderstood and twisted and spinned in order to fit their narrative. This is an inherent flaw.. ——————————————— Connect with positive and serious people who display the best intentions. There will be too many jerks online. Just don't play into their game ——————————————— Always remember that principle is more important than company. ——————————————— Build yourself up Build back better Bright Brilliant Beautiful ————————— I have struggled so much and I came so far, even the devil is going to be have some mercy on me. ——————————————— A trap may or may not exist. But learning to be careful is important ————————— You need to be able to give advice in a clean environment. Without all the people jostling ——————————————— I need to do hourly updates ——————————————— All that the devil achieves is distraction from "work" ——————————————— The best couple in my opinion is Barack Obama and Michelle Obama. They intuitively understand each other. ——————————————— You have to be in a proper grounded emotional state or place to be able to work toward your goals in a definitive manner. ——————————————— I need a partner who keeps me grounded. ——————————————— Feminine nature Very trusting very giving Masculine nature - dominant or passive What is feminine attracted to? Dominant masculine Why is feminine attracted to dominant masculine? Because she perceives dominant as protective. She does not see beta or passive as protective. So zero attraction to beta. In masculinity, you can dominant abusive DA, or dominant protective DP... The feminine mostly ends up with DA instead of DP. She has to work very hard to find DP and sometimes she never finds DP. Most alphas = abusive Most betas = insecure. Both alpha and beta use abusive tactics Alpha uses domination and fear. Pure fear. Beta uses gaslighting and guilting and contradicting/ opposing/ hyper critical /violation of boundaries / constantly attacking self esteem/ drama creation /giving emotional stress /unnecessary demands/ emotional blackmail /childish behavior /immature behavior /asking you to prove love/not ready for resolution / playing victim /suicide threats and obsessing and control freak behavior, using insecurities/ jealousy. A woman should be given 2 choices. Either find a healthy male or be single with the ability to survive alone. If you can't find a healthy male then remain single. Whats marriage = brainwashing.. Packaged as tradition and culture. Patriarchy. Prince Charming = brainwashing Romantic movies and novels = brainwashing /fantasy Reality = men have agenda / max benefit Man's stays in the marriage = because of social pressure Men = want more than one woman. Masculine nature. Healthy men = very few Most boyfriends = assholes Solution to female problems Enemies of a female /enemies of the feminine = chemicals, hormones, thoughts, emotions. A woman uses her heart more often than the head. Love = attraction /addiction /drug When the woman breaks the relationship she experiences withdrawal and suffers relapse just like in addiction, she goes back to the abusive boyfriend Her chemicals are very strong. The more feminine a woman, stronger her chemicals. Once she is in a relationship, if it's abusive, very difficult to break chemical bond once formed. These chemicals /hormones /emotions create sticky brain fog. Chemical fog /love fog. Her brain is full of love fog. She won't leave the abusive boyfriend unless the love fog dissolves. Why does a woman not leave? Society will say low self esteem, trauma, unconscious behavior, low self worth or that she is always attracted to assholes etc etc.. These are fringe reasons but not key reason.. She falls in love through manipulation. The key reason why the woman is staying in such a relationship, is because of chemical attraction /chemical bonding or love fog. For removing the love fog, the woman has to be dragged out of the relationship by multiple people including supportive family members and other community people to slowly coax her into leaving the abusive boyfriend. Coaxing should continue during relapse phase also. How to prevent this problem Give women financial Empowerment Give women tools and resources to know what toxic and abusive relationships look like. Awareness about domestic violence and emotional abuse. Give them books, videos, articles, interviews, discussions therapies. Give women emotional support, both family and community. Other tools - Reprogramming the Mind. Coping mechanisms. Survival mechanisms. Healing mechanisms. Defense mechanisms. Examples of Reprogramming the Mind If you're trusting - become skeptical If you are thinking it's good - think it's bad If you believe easily - don't believe easily. Give more time and opportunity and higher threshold to reach the belief point Run a lot of shit tests on the guy. Only if the man agrees and listens 80% of the time, and disagrees 20% of the time, he is good. Also keep a three strike rule. Thrice if he hurt you (minor hurting) and 1 strike rule for major hurt. So if he hurts (minor) thrice and major once then he should be dumped.. Trash bin. Don't simply allow anyone in your life, don't let them in your life if they can't pass the test. Have strict filters. You should have a higher threshold for someone's good behavior to begin to really matter. If you think it will get better - no, it will get worse If he is too sweet - think it's manipulative The issue of female loneliness, lack of family support, dysfunctional family, lack of emotional independence, lack of community support, bullying community lack of family support, dysfunctional family, lack of emotional independence, lack of community support, bullying community = factors that increases loneliness. —————————————— ———————————————

I don't like honey bee sounds. I couldn't sleep an entire night because of it. How to cope with it?