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I don't feel resentment. I just feel abandoned and lonely because they don't give me any time at all. It's like for them I don't exist. I put up with it for the longest time. But it's slowly wearing me out. It's the absence of communication that's killing me. And when I call, everyone finds some reason to hang up. They only call if they have to get a job done. I feel shut out. And this happens even when I'm being nice and polite. It's like they don't want me anymore and that feeling hurts.

Not interested ever in that kind of drama.

It's also about morality or value structure. Not simply attraction strategies. People with a good heart and robust morals don't stoop to manipulating others to get something.

@Forestluv also he would constantly refer to him as my child instead of "our child" because in his mind he was already disowning our future child, somehow the child being mixed made him feel like he didn't belong to him since he wasn't going to be "fully white."

@Forestluv Racist white people (not all white people to be clear) tend to not only regard black people as subhumans but they extend this perception to all other colored races as well. I didn't know how it felt to be dehumanized as a subhuman until I met my first white boyfriend in America and it was an eye opener. Like one day I remember we were both having a discussion about having children. I was excited to have kids with him. And I began to discuss baby names with him. Over the course of that discussion, he was a bit miffed at the idea of me having his kids. He wasn't very excited and I was sensing his discomfort and I began to ask him about it and he told me at that point that he didn't think it was a good idea for the two of us to have children because he thought that our child was going to be having inferior genetics. He told me how my child won't have blonde hair but black hair, like my hair, and how he didnt like the fact that our child would be mixed and in his opinion our child would be "less white" than typical white kids and so he kinda felt insecure about how inferior our child would be in front of other kids. It almost felt like he meant to say that our child would be subhuman because of my genes in the baby. Needless to say that day wasn't the best day of my life and that incident was etched in my memory.

To learn how to attract women without having the need to manipulate them and put their emotional health at risk. To respect women first and approach them sincerely no matter what someone says and not treat it like a game, but to be true to oneself whether I get girls or not, but to never depart from my core values. To set my intentions clear when I meet a girl and not objectify her or consider her a general replaceable girl, but to have an honest interest in being with her, not just for sex, but to get to know her, understand her and develop an intimate bond with her, not to fuck her and dump her later, but to respect her sexuality as she is respecting mine by accepting and trusting me, to be grateful to her for accepting me as her boyfriend and repaying this gratefulness with commitment rather than stabbing her in the back by quickly replacing her with another beautiful girl leaving her emotionally confused, hurt, distressed or tormented. By understanding that if she placed her trust in me enough to open her body to me and sleep with me, she didn't simply do it for a random sexual experience, but because she was emotionally invested and bonded with me, and respecting this emotional investment from her side by not playing mind games with her and toying with her feelings, treating her body with utmost respect and not using it as a cum dumpster, not making her feel emotionally unsafe by constantly betraying her trust, by realizing that she has emotional needs just like me as a man, and if I want my emotional needs to be respected by her, then I should respect her emotional needs as well and not cast her needs aside. By being good in bed and not always expecting that I should get all the joy in bed meanwhile she feels like her sexual needs werent satisfied. By attracting her and proving her that she is attracted to the right man and not simply attracting her just for the sake of fulfilling my ego, and then dumping her and breaking her heart when my needs are fulfilled.

I can't really blame her if she has been exposed to racism all her life. It's difficult to predict what racism does to the psyche since I or you never had to face racism on the level that black folks have to face. So it's easy to judge her as over projecting. Think of it in terms of trauma. If you were traumatized by something, you would extra paranoid about everything that even remotely reminds you of the trauma that happened. It's PTSD showing up in bits and pieces. For example if I was sexually traumatized at a young age, it's much easier for me to be paranoid around anything of the sexual nature and freak out even if the person didn't intend to hurt me sexually. All of this wouldn't happen if racism didn't exist in the first place. It's like a chain reaction that is set off and nobody can stop the end effects of this chain reaction. It's unfortunate side effect or by product or end product, nevertheless it's root cause lies in racism itself. Maybe as racism declines, it will flush out on its own.

The ending was perfect. Put a nice chuckle on my face.

Moonstone Mystic Tarot Forecast And to the candle I give a spear To the morning star a body of hemp To abiding shame an ax To the expected guest an oak tree… The mystic climbed the stairs to put fire to the lighthouse candle. Two hundred circular winding steps to his nightly destination...lives hung in the balnce....you see the ships at sea clung desperately to the streaming beams of salvation...... To guide them past the ragged reefs and jagged rocks. The spell is cast over thee Curve soft, silky, chills. Swell, taut, protrudes, aches Tunnel, tight, hot, wet. Nub, hard, throbbing, spasms. Petals, flushed, swollen, moist.Well, soft, slick, hugging.Tube, hangs, soft, wrinkled. Bags, sway, firm, sensitive Rosebud, closed, but opens Pillows, press, linger, invoke.Pearls, grip, burn, mark. Velvet, glides, trails, excites. Swell, is twisted, pulled, pinched Petals part, exposing the nub Nub, rubbed, licked, sucked. Tube delves into the tunnel.Pistoning as friction builds. Stands, hard, smooth Hard smooth enters rosebud Pushes, prods, breaks through.Screams, pants, moans. Velvet enters well, circles, exciting. Pressure builds, senses heighten.Ice chills turn to fire to volcanic Ohhhs, ahhhs, turns to moans Turns to gasps, and whimpers. Cries, screams that crescendo. Nectar explodes to honey that drips. Lava thick spews deep. Mixture like cream paints the walls Tangled, exhausted. Sweat, essence Dreams, snores. A beam of hope for ship and scow still pierces blackest night as the mystic one will still be found climbing up and hobbling down the winding staircase dutybound. Welcome the sun stroking peaks aglow, the thundering falls, mist-kissed rain, the Solitude, so rarely reached, too often breached. stillness loosen, untamed words in the native tongue, before thoughts unspoken, became yours, mine, ours, to the wild bear these cryptic symbols scrawled on my halved heart tokens of longing, succor for the lost. Darkness Emits from one. His pyramid Blocks the sun. Built on souls of light,now drowned in his artificial night. A vision quest to save you, for your dreams are not yet true.Clowns cry before a broken mirror, for who they were fades each year. Bodies line the streets at dusk, choked out by money lust. The banks hold the seat of power, as I hold to them my tarot card: The Tower

You have to be a hermit and you have to be in your fortress. And you need a fountain.

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It's so difficult to be a woman. You're always taken so much granted.

The title of the article is " Inside the rape trial that reveals the depraved world of pickup artists." https://nypost.com/2016/09/21/inside-the-rape-trial-that-reveals-the-depraved-world-of-pickup-artists/

To be honest this is such a toxic take on it.

You can't weed out social evil with that mentality. Not wanting to attack you in any way. But trying to tell you how I'm lookin at your perspective You're having the "enable the abuse and enable the abuser" mentality. It won't work and creates a ton of misery. Look inside instead of looking outside. Social evils cause a ton of misery and it has been the constant endeavor of cultures to get rid of it. You're thinking from a very one sided way. You're not a victim of sexual assault so it's kinda cushy for you to dole out prerogatives like "evil is a part of life, deal with it", with this mentality every social evil has to be accepted and we might as well begin to live like animals and loot each other to survive. People have tirelessly worked to end or minimize child abuse, rape, human trafficking, violence, bullying, harassment, and the list goes on and on. You have no idea what you're implying here. You're basically invalidating the great efforts of people who worked relentlessly to clean up society and reduce large scale suffering. Please reflect on whatever you said. Don't have such a passive approach to social evils. It might not matter so much to you because you're not a woman. But you have no clue how much fear the word rape or assault or aggression creates in the female mind. I don't even want to think the horrors of sexual crimes and the life long trauma that victims endure. So to sit there and say that it's compl a part of life and don't do anything about it, don't even shame it is absolutely unthinkable, either too ignorant of other's sufferings or simply not wanting to show even a drop of empathy for sufferers. Sorry but that was too much to take. Pure justification of rape on another level. Please think about it. Even if I were a man, I wouldn't want women to suffer such horror only because my dick needs some pleasure or because my heart needs some validation. Someone's deep suffering is not worth my pleasure. Should never be.

Women don't owe you sex. It's an entitled thinking that women should be held responsible for not giving enough sex to enough men and then the justification of aggressive behavior towards them including rape or hate directed at women for not getting what you think you deserve from them.

Yea the recontextualization of broader concepts and ideas by a small group of people and the whole mass of people simply relying on this contextualization is a huge problem in my eyes. It is responsible for mob mentality, cult mentality, lack of free thinking, resistance to new ideas, demonization of those who disagree with the standard perception and elimination of important information.

What are my psychic senses telling me? Hmm. Today's psychic sense of the world.

This girl talks so cute

Posting random stuff in this journal.

Marmot screaming

Psychic attacks and how I suffer from psychic attacks When you tend to use psychic tools to harvest your psychic energy and this increases or strengthens your psychic energy response. This psychic energy response creates a psychic field, a strong psychic field. People with psychic fields are prone to psychic attacks more often than those who don't have a psychic field Psychic attacks make you very vulnerable to destruction.

Fortress Archetype Set I like this archetype set. One is the Devil Second is the Ghost Third is the Archangel. Fourth is God. Fifth is spirit animal totem The Grim Reaper/Druid. Soldier(me or anyone)

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