Preety_India

On a side note, I feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the whole universe.

There are different dimensions of my personality that I need to heal one by one. One dimension is 1) Stockholm Syndrome 2) bpd - emotional instability 3) anger issues 4) manipulative tendencies 5) autistic tendencies 6) bonding deficiency 7) attachment issues

Since I don't have a fixed self image I need to explore myself through dimensions.

Give her and if she ain't ready to receive then she is not right. Also her games, ugh. Tell her you don't like it. If I were a guy, no way is she talking to another in front of me. Respect respect respect. I won't do that to my guy in a million years. Or I would expect to get some dose from my bf. You paid for another dood. Like what???!!

In order to heal slowly I first need to understand myself better. This itself is a huge cascading process and it will run in multiple stages. I have figured certain parts of my personality But certain parts are still a mystery to me. I'll slowly get to them

Try loving yourself. It starts from there. Be your own hero If you are trying to fix something through an external source, try to fix it from within first

And yay I'm very very excited.

Yay..

Happy Birthday Leo Gura

Just don't lead a girl on who you ultimately don't wish to be with. It's worse than rejection. Because rejection is outright. But if you lead someone on, then they have false hopes about a situation which is going to turn brutal later . I guess that's like inviting someone over to a party and then showing them the door. It can be humiliating. Best is to just avoid this bad karma. Screen girls in advance and be clever to know who you really want. Then be with them Now if you found a girl and later changed your mind then do it as soon as possible, as early as possible, that way the damage is minimum. Plus her time is saved. Don't drag it on till she develops deep attachment, kinda cruel in the end. And of course she didn't sign up for that. Think from her side. You can say dating is cruel. But this is not about cruelty and more about ethics. Be ethical. Have standards. Learn the ability to say no when necessary, and learn to be as honest as possible, don't call the girl ugly because that can impact her self Esteem, just let her know that you can't do it or don't want it. But always be honest about your intent early on.

I just wish to be in my own world.

I feel empowered. Like something new is happening to me.

I am happy again. Life is feeling beautiful once again. There can be bad things but there can also be good things

So recently I have been on a spree of socializing and making new friends. I made a couple of friends. But here's the problem. The friends that I made last year are kinda bored and don't respond that much anymore. People are only interested in the novelty factor after which pretty much they ignore you or get too used to you and don't care to respond anymore. They simply move on. Or their conversations are not as exciting as they once used to be. Now I constantly make new friends as some keep dropping out. Most friendships are shallow, some start petty drama so I have to cut them out, some move away to another city and forget you after that, in a nutshell nobody sticks around for too long. It becomes an exhausting process to keep making new ones when old ones slowly begin to dwindle and fade away. I am beginning to wonder if it's even worth it to invest in friends or socializing because it's too draining and overwhelming to begin with, to invest time and energy, trust and effort into people, only for them to turn their backs on you when they don't need you anymore or because they got greener pastures?? Very few, I mean extremely few people stick around and even these forget you with the passage of time. Now I'm a strong introvert so I can hardly get a 100 friends the way extroverts do. I barely get along and I don't do small talk. I don't like shallow stuff. I can have very few friends who are extremely trustworthy and highly compatible with me, but this is already so hard and after overcoming all these challenges and putting a mega ton effort into building that friendship and then see it vanish into thin air a few months later is very disheartening to say the least. I'm pretty much drained of my emotional and trust fuel. I can't keep doing this forever. Any alternative to this problem? Or is this a never ending process and I have to keep slogging through to the end to find those few precious gems that will stick around? Looking for true trustworthy friends is almost like looking for a diamond in a mine. Is it even worth all the trouble and time? (I'm not a shallow person, so please don't advice me to start small talk, because I can't change my persona or base character. I am born the way I'm born and that won't change) Please give advice bearing my personality in mind. That is tailored to people like me. ??

@Michael569 I don't understand why the user @Zeroguy is freely allowed to attack me on this forum. Like how has this been going on that I keep dealing with his aggression from time to time?

Stop it.

@Zeroguy stop attacking me. Leave me the fuck alone. Stop harassing me on this forum. I have taken enough of your aggression.

Mods this user is constantly instigating me on this forum. And he has been instigating me on this forum for years now. All he does is instigate. I'm fed up with dealing with this user. @Carl-Richard @acidgoofy @Roy

Because you are doing it. If you act authoritarian and act like you know better than me about myself and project your shit on me without even knowing my situation, it's certainly going to annoy me at some point. Is this hard to know? If you push something down my throat which I find untrue then obviously my reaction is going to be defensive. Try to empathize rather than judge.. Try to understand rather than assume. Then I won't have a problem. Why am I supposed to accept something that I see as a lie? You want to pass your assessment as a truth to me when I don't see it as a truth. On top of that I'm also supposed to be accept it. I see it as a violation of my integrity. Remember at the end of the day whatever whatever whatever you think of me is simply your opinion of me. It may be true. It may be not be true. Have the humility to not pass off your opinions as truths. If the very same thing happened to you you would be very pissed off if everyone had the wrong opinion of you..

Because of people like you. Answered it.. Don't attack others and expect them to stay chill. Mind your language first..

Sorry but I don't think you have the right to decide if something is a truth. You don't know me nor my situation. So can you please do a favor and keep your nonsense truths to yourself?

Same back at you.

Hello, maybe take your shit to that place than here. How about that?

kinda agree with you.

I'm sorry to hear about your experience. Christian cults are dangerous. I had a friend who was into one.