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Anything outside of the yantra is draining of mental energy. I like this curious picture. Screams sodhaumbher. Anything outside of the yantra chessboard is a predator prey dynamic.

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Self pity helps me with being closer to myself. It helps in shutting the world out and bring back all the focus only to the self. Why should anyone feel sorry for me? I can do that job myself?

Why self pity is a solace? In a weird way, self pity can function as good therapy for the soul. Being cynical helps. Pitying myself ends the need to look any further. It's like stress relief. You come to a point of closure, a sad acceptance. Self pity kinda grounds me. Because then I can enjoy being miserable instead of complaining or resisting. It brings an unusual sense of calm and peace more in a sense like "fuck you "... self pity is especially useful when things are overwhelming. You can be by yourself and take relief in your own misery. You don't have to worry anymore about how others are judging you because you are doing that job yourself. It's like liberation. Liberating yourself from the need to be perfect. This takes a huge weight off your shoulders. It lowers expectations from people. You don't feel as much hurt by what people say anymore because you have already pitied yourself and put yourself in the corner you simply accept things for what they are. You no longer feel the need to be coddled. You have simply surrendered and given up on things. It's a source of satisfaction. It's like not wanting to turn around and simply saying "why do you even care about me? Just leave me to myself. " it eliminates the need to look for love or acceptance by others and simply tells you to accept the nature of things. When we fight back hard our energies are in a constant state of stress. Self pity is also a subtle form of defiance. Because sometimes I'm tired of being sweet sweet sweet, even though I'm genuinely sweet, I never fake sweetness, so if I'm sweet to someone, it comes from sincerity. But there are times when being sweet can be tiring especially when something that I want to say is polarizing.. I don't adhere to "better safe than sorry" I blurt it out. There is no point in having tact. I simply drop the bomb. This is where people see the fiery side of me, which they are least expecting, because they are thinking of me as some sweet innocent lame ass licking kind of girl. But that I'm not. I'm defiant. They don't see me that way I'm like a chameleon I tend to reflexively change my reaction and response depending on the person I'm dealing with. So if a person is friendly with me, then I'm friendly with them. And if I'm nice to a person, and if they don't reciprocate the same, my tone drastically changes from sweet to cold. I tend to modulate my response depending upon the cues I get. This is an effective survival strategy.

At this point even if someone tried to talk me out of things, it would be seriously futile.. I'm become my old version once again. The original self.. Within me I feel like I lived a 1000 lives.. Social acceptance is such a struggle and not even worth a dime tbh. In the end its You and only you. Call me miserable for hating society. But my hate stays.. I never think too much about people. I get fed up with social politics. It looks like low level base desire chimpery nonsense to me. I always liked the higher order. Where people are about unity and acceptance and sharing.. One thing that shields me from people's annoyances is having a soulmate. Being with someone is a great fortress.. They shield you from petty nonsense. Sometimes when I look at people, it seems like they are having an orgy and I could care less.

People will have different opinions and thoughts and approaches. I should learn how to not give a fuck about them. Learn to keep peace. Learn to make peace with yourself and the world. Yes a lot of things in this world are "antithetical" and that's how it will always be. So after the thread was locked someone came to me and wrote something that I really resonated with - That’s why You see so many of these posts. It’s about goal or achievement at that point. Somewhat older guy knows that if you first learned how to treat a woman right, you don’t have to chase them. They run to you.I don’t think these posts will ever disappear . I don’t like them either, accepting helps. Like weather Yes I agree with this. As men grow older they will realize that the key to attracting a woman lies in treating her well. Then women will come to them. If you're going to be a jerk, no matter how attractive you are, women are repulsed. It's just what it is. Men end up alone not realizing a basic truth. Also sometimes I feel like I'm not well received on the forum. It could be because I'm a woman and an Indian woman on top of that. There will always be an inferior connotation attached to being a woman of color from a third world country. I know this because I feel it. Funny how people would react offline is the same way they would react online. I'm so used to this by now that I don't let it bother me anymore. I also understand why the website is the way it is in terms of money. It's a one stop destination for despo ones. But once again this is just a reflection of low consciousness in society. Why am I surprised? I'm at most peace when I'm with myself and no other. It's where I can honor myself better. Social games make me sick in the stomach. I just was never that type. I never tried to fit in or leaned into that "group think "or "peer" psychology. I was always a lone wolf. If someone admired me I was okay with it. I do get admirers every now and then. But I don't let it go to my head. One of my biggest turn offs is hostile behaviour. I've never understood why. It's mind boggling. Ive always been sweet normal docile polite gentle person around people. But being routinely subjected to hostility has made me a bit "distanced " and cold now. I'm not that sweet anymore as I used to be. I'm like "why even bother?" I mean the reason why I am polite is not to gain validation. Although narcissists always tend to think this way, the push pull mechanism, where if you're polite to them, they instantly take it as a sign of ass licking or looking for validation and kinda treat you bad or withdraw. And when you are aloof, they tend to respect you more because you aren't being needy, it's kinda unusual because they don't reward kindness but rather reward coldness, and sometimes outright arrogance and bitch behavior. Ive often noticed this with men that when I'm rude to them, they come begging Haha.. Funny how that works. Because these men have low self esteem. Men with high self esteem expect decency and politeness and get put off by rudeness. At the end of the day, I think everything works out for the good. If my energy, which is very loving, doesn't blend with someone, it's all good, I'm kinda dodging the bullet, why would I be happy with fake and miserable people anyway. I tend to get along well with people who are not into social games and ego welping, who are their true natural self, who are naturally kind and intuitive and patient and decent. I always do well with such people because they resonate most with my energy than any other I imagine myself talking to an international class of people, and then walking far away to a bonfire under the night sky and sitting alone and asking myself"this is it, I'm better off with social anxiety. I peeked outside of my shell. I thought I would be welcome with open arms and open hearts. But whatddya know? I'm the same whore once again. The same person back to square one. It's the same cycle of social games that I always hated and tried to escape growing up, same old, same old. But at least I have myself. "

I'm not going to participate much in the dating section of the forum because I don't find the threads useful anymore. I'm going to focus on any thread in that section that appears more aligned to my personal consciousness. Rest I can simply ignore. I don't think the thread should have been locked or at least should have been locked after a bunch of replies. It's a Testament to how the website is run, more conscious approaches to dating are suppressed. At this point why should I even care about pickup It makes me lose some brain cells. One thing I noticed is how polarized opinions aren't welcome even in the slightest. Do people realize that it dumbs down critical thinking? Why are the men on the forum so addicted to attracting women

Thoughts on love and relationships 1.Love is a balancing act between the fear of heartbreak and living what’s arguable the greatest experience available to a human being. Worry too much about heartbreak and you risk losing the spell. Lean mindlessly to the experience and you risk losing not your heart but also your sense of self in the process. 2.The moment you enter a relationship for logical reasons alone you rob yourself of the irrational and emotional spark that makes love, love. It’s not enough to be with a person who looks good on paper, as sometimes what you really want differs greatly from society’s definition of the ideal. Be a slave to the list and you will likely only be happy in theory. 5.At the end of the day, love is an experience better lived and appreciated when you let go of control. Much like a memorable party, one may have all the ingredients for love and not find it, and just as easily have none of them and stumble into the most unforgettable experience ever.

I agree

I feel like more and more aspects and elements of the world are drawing on this yantra.

This yantra is definitely helping me.

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The lady of auxerre dress Being engulfed in the ego Being a lost soul Losing a sense of higher self Not realizing true inner power How effective is the soul journey Where are the souls at in their journeys Helping them at their place in their journey Im gonna have to circle back with you. A little bit of mobbing makeup

Lyrics, quotes and meme collection sodhaumbher Self control. Do it collection-of-ciyiets My Channel - starting my own youtube channel

Understanding that the world and "I" need a reset.

The opposite of sodhaumbher is vraagt. Vraagt is the sprinkling of joy, beauty, love, peace happiness, compassion, empathy. It emerges in the forest as well. It gives freedom from abedemus. One way to activate Vraagt is to visualize the hindu yantra shown below. Sodhaumbher causes abedemus. Whereas vraagt brings peace and the opposite of abedemus happens which is vraanenus. It's the vraanenic lifestyle which is promoted by vraagt. Vraanenic can also be vranenic. What vranenic mean? Vranenic = fountain of yantric joy and love. How to receive yantric joy. First you need to consider yourself as a receiving vessel or container. Like a bowl or trough. Consider the yantra symbol to be a chess board. Each block on the chess board represents a certain element or way of life. This yantric system protects you from the malefic effects of the abedemus or sodhaumbher. The blocks, gray and white can consist of different things. The white blocks represent things that increase or facilitate or enhance your mental energy. The gray blocks represent things that decrease your mental energy. They drain your mental energy. The gray blocks represent things that you should not be doing -example eating junk food. The gray block also represent things that are like a double edged sword - for example socializing which can be both good and or toxic. So in such a case, you only do the good part or engage in the beneficial part and avoid the toxic part. The gray blocks also represent uncharted territory that is things that are not yet experienced which you need to get a brush with, not getting fully immersed into such experiences to come out bruised or burned or damaged, but just a whiff of what's going on, for example a current social trend, just as a precautionary measure so that you are aware of all the bad things that are going on in your environment so that you can easily avoid such things. But to know if it's toxic or not, you need at least a brushing, if not a full fledged experience. The white blocks represent all the positive and beneficial elements of life. Even activities. The gray blocks represent everything that is either harmful or needs to be avoided.

The energy of sodhaumbher is negative, critical, devouring, passive, unempathetic, hostile. It causes people to play social games. I need to come up with a word for social games. I will call it abedemus. This means all sorts of the variety of social illusions and games that are a byproduct of the shadow of sodhaumbher. What is the one key to combating sodhaumbher and abedemus.. A benevolent high conscious force..

Sodhaumbher operates in Great tenacity in environments ruled by greed, ego, narcissism, low consciousness, cheaper, materialistic hedonism and shallowness. What's the opposite of sodhaumbher.

This is a fictional story. Sodhaumbher attacks the blood and vitality of humans and animals. Whenever there is a dark energy its sodhaumbher. Humanity is being devoured by the sodhaumbher. It's enslaving the minds of humans. We no longer trust each other. We have problems, disasters, jealousy, greed. The sodhaumbher shows up everytime someone is greedy. This affliction spreads like a cancer.. It's a silent disease that starts somewhere in the forest and spreads everywhere slowly. Sodhaumbher causes eternal starvation. It leads to pyschic death . But when you see through the games of sodhaumbher, it crumbles. One has to be aware. One needs to have empathy. Everytime a greedy businessman causes the death of a person, its sodhaumbher. Notes to myself Whenever you ask for compassion and empathy and the other person fails to listen or offer compassion, it's because of sodhaumbher. They are afflicted. Forgive them. Everytime you tell someone that destruction is bad, but they justify it, its because of sodhaumbher. Everytime there is discrimination between people and lack of harmony, it's because sodhaumbher. Everytime you feel used by a person for their gains its because of sodhaumbher. And whenever someone manipulates you with fear mongering and guilt tripping against your own goodwill, it's sodhaumbher.

sodhaumbher is both a dark entity as well as an affliction or disease. It arises in the forest. Deep in the forest in the shape of a spooky skull.

I'm thinking of sgees This whole predator prey dynamic.

Another thing that triggers me is social games. I need a collective word for this.

Ive to list down my triggers Emotional triggers Too much work Stressful work Mean language is a huge trigger Offensive words like bitch Someone being rude People discriminating on the basis of race or country Misogyny Disrespect to women in general Bad stuff spoken about cats Abuse jokes Narcissistic attitude Superficial plastic bullshit New agey hollow flowery positivity crap