Preety_India

And you don't show any compassion for the dead. That's the mentality that perpetuates crime and domination.

Crime happens because of a criminal entitled sociopathic mindset. Don't justify it. There is no other reason for crime than a person feeling entitled to take someone's life and there is no justification for such entitlement. Your views are downright dangerous.

No. Men in other countries don't kill women. Not the way they do in India. Stop defending criminals and crimes. There is no justification for crime unless it's an act of self defense or domestic abuse. You need to change your mentality or leave women alone.

So a man has the right to kill a woman just because he is struggling or just because she doesn't have compassion for his struggles. Where do you get all these ideas from? From Indian culture? It's because of this disgusting mentality that women in my country die everyday at the hands of the men in my country. This same mentality.

That's not the solution. And I've no problem with pickup. What needs to change is your disgusting entitled mentality that you think you are punished if a woman rejects. A woman will love the man she wants to love. It's her choice and you can't decide her life. Get over it.

This whole thing that men are punished if a woman is rejecting him is so ridiculous. In my country, it's a common occurrence for women to be murdered when they refuse a man's advances. Everyday I read about some Indian woman losing her life because she said no to a guy and he felt entitled to her affection and body as though she owes him something and if she doesn't say yes then the next thing is murder and often times such killings are justified by the murderer and some patriarchal misogynistic males.

The heat is slowly dissipating from my system.. I finally found my way after a lot of struggle. I feel free.. It's done. Yoohooo. I'm going to collect a bunch of papers and draw chessboards.

@ajai I'm glad!

From now on my forum participation is going to be extremely restricted. Uploaded my third video. This took a long time.

@Findus do you remember me?

Takes an awful amount of time to upload a video.. Shucks

@Etherial Cat thank you.

@fridjonk thank you

It's just a brave step I was literally shaking while making the video.

So this is set and done. I can work more on my videos. It won't be so polished in the beginning because my communication skills suck big time. But it's a baby step in this direction. I'm trying to be positive No negative vibes in my room. From here on, full focus on my channel only.

This is my second video. Felt really nervous. Kinda laughed out of nervous anxiety.

@nistake thanks

My first youtube video. Kinda feeling really shy.

@Michael569 it will be a combination of everything.

How-do-actually-successful If I could simplify and extract the most important keys of what made this relationship work, I'd say: no ego games, authentic and honest communication (be open and vulnerable), and LOTS of shadow work (both individually and together). Healthy communication and collaborative inner work builds a feedback loop of inspiring and pushing each other forward. This is of course, a very rough over-simplification, and there's a lot more to say about this topic. Yes, there are conflicts and hard times, but as others have said here, conflicts are not bad, just be honest and try to resolve conflicts consciously without falling into ego traps and biases. This is how you grow as a couple.

"Heaven In Your Arms" Here I go falling in love again I don't think I can stop it And I know that it might hurt But I can't do without it Losing sleep, I toss and I turn I wonder if you're aware That I'm thinking of you, can't you see You're the only one in my fantasy Ooh-ooh, it must be heaven in your arms I don't doubt it now Ooh-ooh, it must be heaven in your arms I need to know it now Ooh-ooh, it must be heaven in your arms Oh yeah I'm alone, don't want no one else I roam the streets of the city I call you up from the payphone nearby But you say you're too busy You gotta run out in the night Come my way, I'll hold you tight Ooh-ooh, it must be heaven in your arms I don't doubt it now Ooh-ooh, it must be heaven in your arms I need to know, whoa

One of the problems that I detected in my personality is being or feeling antagonized heavily. This also has an environmental trigger. Whenever my mom shows up at my place. My mood is far better and jovial when my pathetic judgmental mother is not around. She can act too greedy and judge every little thing I do. I observe that I'm constantly triggered around her. Growing up, she was this pathetic narcissist parent that I began to hate and resent. I find that a ton of my emotional triggers remind me of her harsh judgement. It reignites built up trauma. It's like a switch. When it's pushed, I go off... What I see here is intense emotional aggravation and irritation At what point does irritation turn into depression? Growing up, my mother was my constant bully. She never appreciated even a single thing. Everything that I did was wrong, everything that I did was bad. This constant emotional irritation was a repeating or recurrent theme in my life It was this chain Emotional irritation --> building emotional stress -->not feeling free/not feeling like I can be myself --> feeling restricted --> sense of fear and stress --> buildup of tension --> mental breakdown -->feeling depressed --> feeling helpless --> PTSD triggered --> outbursts, suicidal, crying, self harm, anger, violence, rage, throwing things, feeling sad and upset after anger outbursts -->everything begins to hurt -->more minor emotional triggers --> buildup of triggers --> reignition of trauma /emotional abuse/PTSD --> vicious cycle repeats.

I've learned over the past few days that I'm bad at self control. And what happens is a chain reaction. I get triggered and then it leads to further problems. One thing leads to another. I need to start controlling myself. Control the trigger and irritation I feel. It's an allergic response of course. I need to write copious amounts on how not to be bothered.