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Day 1, few hours in: 22/03/2021 (Week 1)

Women get turned on slower is because women need intimacy to build on.

You are not being aggressive enough, not in behavior, but in approach. You aren't aggressively chasing your goals. Seems like you lack passion. Maybe there are a few limiting beliefs causing hesitation and failure. A girl having a boyfriend doesn't matter Your presence can be so strong that she might leave her boyfriend to come with you. You need to improve your confidence and not appear needy.. Or else every girl will appear as 'not available.' You lack confidence You lack charisma You get needy These above things are the root cause of your failure in having an engaging relationship. Build confidence, build charisma and drop the neediness. That way more girls would get attracted to you.

I feel very weak but that's ok. I had a bad dream last night. That I'm losing my life. It was cruel. I was with my sibling Mr A Mr A is very dominating. Now you're walking with your mom. What do you feel?

दिल से तुझको बेदिली है मुझको है दिल का गुरूर तू ये माने के न माने लोग मानेंगे ज़रूर ये मेरा दीवानापन है या मुहब्बत का सुरूर ये मेरा दीवानापन है या मुहब्बत का सुरूर तू न पहचाने तो है ये तेरी नज़रों का क़ुसूर ये मेरा दीवानापन है दिल को तेरी ही तमन्ना दिल को है तुझ से ही प्यार दिल को तेरी ही तमन्ना दिल को है तुझ से ही प्यार चाहे तू आए न आए हम करेंगे इंतज़ार ये मेरा दीवानापन है या मुहब्बत का सुरूर तू न पहचाने तो है ये तेरी नज़रों का क़ुसूर ये मेरा दीवानापन है ऐसे वीराने में एक दिन घुट के मर… تم دل سے بے ہودہ ہو میرا دل ہے آپ کو اس پر یقین نہیں ہے لوگ یقینا. راضی ہوجائیں گے یہ میرا پاگل ہے یا پیار یہ میرا پاگل ہے یا پیار اگر آپ اس کو تسلیم نہیں کرتے ہیں آپ کی بینائی یہ میرا پاگل ہے دل کو تیری ہی تمنا دل آپ سے پیار کرتا ہے دل کو تیری ہی تمنا دل آپ سے پیار کرتا ہے چاہے آپ آئیں یا نہیں ہم انتظار کریں گے یہ میرا پاگل ہے یا پیار اگر آپ اس کو تسلیم نہیں کرتے ہیں آپ کی بینائی یہ میرا پاگل ہے ایک دن ایسے ویرانے میں دم گھٹنے سے مرنا…

Joseph you were fake fake fake fake fake fake fake fake fake fake fake

My heart will beat for him again. My spirit will rise from the grave again. I will be with him again. We will be one again.

I feel like a bad boy will protect me from all the bad things in the world. He will shield me. He will hold me tight. He will grab my face and kiss me and tell me what's right. He will.

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Love's my religion, but he was my faith Something so sacred, so hard to replace Fallin' for him was like fallin' from grace All wrapped in one, he was so many sins Would have done anything, everything for him And if you ask me, I would do it again No need to imagine 'cause I know it's true They say "All good boys go to heaven" But bad boys bring Heaven to you It's automatic, it's just what they do They say "All good boys go to heaven" But bad boys bring Heaven to you [ You don't realise the power they have Until they leave you and you want them back Nothing in this world prepares you for that I'm not a sinner, he wasn't the one Had no idea what we would become There's no regrets, I just thought it was fun No need to imagine 'cause I know it's true They say "All good boys go to heaven" But bad boys bring Heaven to you It's automatic, it's just what they do They say "All good boys go to heaven" But bad boys bring Heaven to you I still remember the moment we met The touch that he planted, the garden he left I guess the rain was just half that effect No need to imagine 'cause I know it's true They say "All good boys go to heaven" But bad boys bring Heaven to you It's automatic, it's just what they do They say "All good boys go to heaven" But bad boys bring Heaven to you

I want him to play with my hair and jump on me. I want to touch his face. And feel his arms wrapped around me. I want to feel the sparkle in his heart. I dream of him. And suddenly I'm whisked off into the depths of the night, suddenly into oblivion, into places I know nothing about, into parts of my heart I never explored.

Science is meaningful.

One sign of fake people is that they wear many hats Too many hats. For example, someone could be an MTV star and then switch their career and get into reality Show and next thing you know they have their own podcasts. They are always chasing the next hottest thing in the market. They don't have a fixed purpose, they are just looking for money, any thing that can give them a temporary fix. They can even reinvent and re-brand themselves as an artist or an actor all of a sudden and when you begin to dig into their past, you realize they had many tricks up their sleeve.. They are the modern version of the gypsies. They go where the money flows. This means their career or intent or purpose is not pure and they have much to hide. They will do the same with women. They will cheat on their gfs and not let anyone know. They will have multiple fake relationships and often these relationships are like a trade contract, ever seen the fake reality TV relationships only meant for getting publicity. Like the entire relationship is a publicity stunt. Seen the relationship of Selena Gomez with The Weekend. Exactly like that. The kind of relationships that Kim Kardashian might have. It gives fake people some publicity and leverage and of course it's a cash flow ————————page breaker———————— Be with people who treat you right ❤️?who respect you Preety.

How to know if someone is fake. My exploration of relationships.

What can I do to motivate myself? ————————page breaker————————

Decided to include both concepts in the same journal.

What kind of a guy I want? How should he look physically? He needs to be kinda in the middle, not too strong or bulky looking and not too skinny either. Someone who looks strong enough but not intimidating lol.

"Broken Bells" I can see the faces through the broken glass No longer pass Looking at the sky I see the city lights But no star fights I never want to fall asleep Within our dreams the weight we sew, we reap Though I believe the sun still shines and I believe there comes a time When out of silence we will sing And even broken bells will ring Not all the answers are the same Yet we still play the game Sweeping off the pavement with a parlor broom Going nowhere soon Between the cracks of sidewalk there's a flower grown Beyond the stone I never want to fall asleep Within our dreams the weight we sew, we reap Though I believe the sun still shines and I believe there comes a time When out of silence we will sing And even broken bells will ring Not all the answers are the same Yet we still play the game Yet we still play the game When out of silence we will sing And even broken bells will ring Not all the answers are the same Yet we still play the game Wt heck is this song

Great resource. This channel.

I recently discovered new insights on behavior of narcissists and that is that narcissists have a tendency to manipulate a situation to make themselves look better. For example - they might relate an incident that happened in the recent past and they will usually narrate the story in such a way that they will appear completely innocent and the other person (preferably a partner or a neighbor) would appear the guilty party. They will look like they did nothing wrong. However the reality is different. They definitely have had a fair share of a role in the whole situation. It isn't the way they describe. The situation is quite different. In fact the other party was probably just reacting.

Time for me to move to Seattle. Stage Green hippie Ayahuasca retreat. That's a real bait for me.

Right now I need a bad boy to dominate me and put me in bed

Weekly questionnaire Some questions to ask myself How did I solve my problems this week? Did I achieve my weekly goals? What options do I have? what's on the menu? What motivated me this week? What is my source of inspiration this week? What do I wish to get done this week? Did I get rid of my obstacles and if I did, how did I do it? What are my current obstacles this week? What is my progress rate this week? Did I have a good start this week? What demotivated me this week? Which tools, insights, ideas, sources, resources did I use to be productive this week? Am I staying in tune? Am I in the loop? ————————page breaker———————— I need to drink cold water. It's getting hot here.. ————