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So I have a cluster of symptoms that become a part of this psychological disorder These symptoms are shared between and across the whole board of psychological conditions.. Psychological profile of my condition ? Anxiety ? Depression ? Melancholia ? High introversion ? Nightmares ? Loneliness ? Hyper sensitive personality ? Cluster B personality symptoms ? Borderline disorder tendencies ? Codependency ? Fragility ? Submissive behaviours ? Hyper curious, hyper vigilant ? Avoidant behavior ? Empath ? Vulnerability ? Brain disabilities ? Weird sexual fetishes ? Extreme attachments ? INTP, sub INFP personality ?Enneagram type 2 behavior ? Hyper emotional behavior ? Nervous personality ? ?

Yes shed all the baggage now. Shed all the baggage. It's over for good.

I'm going to limit my interactions significantly from now on Only with people that I get along with. And only in journals. I've had enough people shoving into my face. Acting rude.

In a way i tend to write defensive stuff and it keeps a lot of people away that anyway I wouldn't want to deal with.

Thank God..

Either supportive comments or no comment at all.

Dreaming bigger stuff

This year is great for me. I already know.

@BornToBoil something revolving around spirituality. But not formulated yet.

April 2021 A few resolutions ⌾ main objective is productivity ○ wholesome people. Wholesome relationships. Wholesome conversations. ○ learn more. Sharpen skills ○ invest in motivation ○ increase maturity levels. ○ develop a concrete life purpose ○ implement spiritual goals ○ work on self care, and self development

April 2021 A few resolutions ⌾ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○

1st week of April After breaking up with Andrew, I declare myself as single and not interested in relationships anymore. I begin to see the misery of romantic relationships and all the drama and baggage they carry and how much they destroy life. I want no part of it because there are better things in store for me. Massive awakening about romantic relationships and the level of destruction they cause meanwhile offering nothing much in value.

Last week of March I begin to realize the importance of acceptance. I write about acceptance and liberation in my journals. I also forgive Joseph and let it all go out of my system The level of maturity I gain in this week is quite significant. I really feel like I outgrew a lot. This is a whole new dimension of me that I never discovered

January 2021 Dealing with depression post breakup with Joseph. Tried to distract myself on the forum to stop focusing on his thoughts February 2021 Constant engagement on the forum to forget Joseph. I contact a psychologist regarding my depression. February 12 2021 I'm diagnosed with PTSD. For the first time. I have been given a bunch of therapy session dates. And the diagnosis is grim. Psychiatrist tells me to not take it lightly. I'm having continuous nightmares and insomnia. My health is impacted. I start acting erratic. March 2021 1st week A horrible incident happens in my family and I end up injured. I go through bouts of depression, insomnia and extreme panic attacks for the next full week. Unable to sleep out of fear and anxiety. PTSD symptoms get worse. I try to cut myself. Last week of March I begin to feel better but slightly stressed out by all trail of past events. April 2021

January 2021 I was still trying to heal and move on from Joseph. It was a brave struggle. Finally I let him go. February 2021 February 21 It was my birthday and Joseph texted me to wish me on my birthday. I told him to get lost and never text me again. I wrote him a bunch of hate messages and told him off One week relief after that. Someone from Joseph's camp contacted me. It was a tense conversation. I told them I don't want to talk about it. March 2021 1st week Joseph contacts me again. I block him. March 25 I decide to finally forgive Joseph. I text him and leave him a message telling him that I forgave him. Blocking him again. March 19 I break up with a friend on Actualized. Forum. I was very furious and nervous. I begin to search for new friends on March 22. I make a few friends. Not a great start. April 2021 1st week.

Coming here to lecture me.

You and your fake love. Who cares?

Not bothered about you one bit. Go away

@Nyseto by your logic nobody can have a discussion on racism.

Since December 2020,

Timeline The first major change was dealing with 2 breakups. October 2020. One with Joseph that happened some time last year after we got back together for a short time. November 2020 I discovered his cheating. February/ March 2021 Second break up happened with Andrew this year. We had issues for a long time. December 2020 I was going through intense emotions of trauma and suicide. Rough period. January 2021 I was still trying to heal and move on from Joseph. It was a brave struggle. Finally I could let him go.

Millenials are thousand and 1 percent better than boomers. Boomers are lazy and annoying.