Preety_India

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I'm not asking about teachers or gurus, like YouTube gurus I'm asking about women celebrities or just generally women in the media that are good role models in terms of their overall achievement, their personal philosophy, personality, dating life, relationship history, attitude towards dating and sexuality and overall persona. Just listing their names and their respective fields would be enough.

The whole hypocrisy with Eastern women is amazing to watch. Western women are far more open in that sense You don't have to deal with this struggle with a woman who is always trying to be some secret goddess. Tired of what women do to each other. Tired of this shit. I take comfort in the arms of a white woman or a black woman. Any western woman. They are a breath of fresh air.

Will I ever see two Indian women in a single video like Cardi B and Megan thee Stallion??????????? No way. Indian women act like bitches to one another. Sometimes I feel black culture is better than Indian culture. I have felt more accepted by black women than by Indian women. And this shit has nothing to do with skin color. It's about attitude. The Indian attitude is kinda shitty. Full of false pride. Black people are more humble. Other women can chill out with each other. Indian women can't. And this keeps our culture in a perpetual state of static.. That's why Indians are so unhappy even if they have wealth. It will take ages for Indians to be that open. It's not a symptom of the mind. It's a symptom of the heart. These aren't good hearted people. There has to be something horribly wrong with a society where a woman feels terribly scared to express her opinions. When was the last time that I had a wholesome laughter with an Indian person just chilling out? It never happened. I swear I will have a happier time sitting and chilling with a black person I understand that humanity is greedy. But at least not show it so openly. At least we can chill??? And embrace selfishness and not act like hypocrites? I swear when we don't embrace our shadow selves and continue to revel in spiritual ego, we become the biggest hypocrites. It's God's way of showing the mirror. Black women easily embrace one another and get along. Indian women act like Kylie Jenner. Oh so special!!!!

I see a huge problem with Indian women. They don't support each other. And that's the biggest problem. They don't stick with each other. So injustices continue. That's the root cause of the whole problem. Only if Indian women actually behaved like sisters. I can only wish. Indian women play games with each other. I don't like it. Even black women and white women don't do this to their own. Indian women betray each other all the time and that hurts me deep.. There is no love between them. Not the way white women are with each other or black women. These women have empathy for each other. Even native American and Mexican women. But not Indian women. That just boggles my mind. It's terrible thing to deal with. Like can't you just jump out of your manipulative all so secretive persona and just act normal sometimes? Do you really have to be most secretive and Desired woman at all times at the expense of other women???????? I never understood the bullshit logic of Indian women. This is what hurts Indian culture. However some Indian women are pretty frank and good.

I still remember that Indian guy on this forum who pushed me to give up my fears. And when I did, he treated me so badly that I was traumatized for a whole week. For 1 week I couldn't sleep. It was so traumatizing. It's like my Indian guy trauma hits again.

I'm too scared to write my experience as an Indian woman. Too scared. I still have that fear - "what if?"

It's like a woman living in Saudi Arabia writing about her experiences living in Saudi Arabia. Would it really benefit? Its kinda awkward. I should only do it if I have public confidence and if I am a popular personality like a public figure. Or else it's foolish.

I have tried approaching a lot of the elderly care homes but the panic created by the pandemic is so strong that they are literally not ready to take anymore patients. They simply hang up when I call them. There was a care home that I managed to find and it was meant as a recreation house for elderly people with mental illness and they stated an exorbitant price per month which is like half of my bank account, of course I had to reject their offer because they were so money hungry. The only people around me who can afford a decent place for the elderly are very rich people. But the pandemic made it incredibly harder to get anything done. I'm desperately waiting for the pandemic panic to go away. After that I'm planning to approach Social Services and maybe they will intervene and give her the necessary instructions and therapy so that she realizes that she needs to act wisely.. I guess Social Services will really help me out with the situation. I just do not want to physically be around them because of the pandemic. Once this whole thing is over with, it will be much easier for me to handle her.

She was openly being foul mouthed and obnoxious and downright racist to a lot of black women on the show and not to mention supporting other racists quite candidly. If you didn't catch up on the latest hysteria. It's all in the news. She eventually stepped down. Bad role model.

Exactly my whole point all along.

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I agree with you although the example of Sharon Osborne was a bit off given her recent shenanigans and awkward exit from the show. Hahaha, not that much of a high quality woman, guess it works for her husband though.

Do I deserve to be harassed, bullied and abused just because I have an opinion?

Haha this.

This is the continuation of my old journal. I've some fresh insights that I get from time to time when I contemplate on my past relationships that involved emotional abuse, specifically narcissistic abuse. Disclaimer this journal is not about anyone here, it's my private experience of narcissistic abuse I faced at different points in my life. I request to not leave any comments in my journal. If you have any questions you can always ask me in personal messenger. Thanks for the understanding. (Please don't pm me asking foolish personal details.. )

Sometimes I understand that I'm quite antagonistic with people especially online. In real life, I can be very different. But do I regret this? Why? Because this way, I sometimes end up avoiding the wrong kind of people from being in my zone. I can't be blamed. Internet trains me to have the least bit of trust in people i interact with.. It's impossible. If you are going to be malicious to me, I will figure it out either way.

It's not just the videos. Look at how he interacts with the men on the forum. Especially in this section? You understand what my point is?

Read the Comment before that.

I know I have written this many times in my journal. But saying it again. This forum is full of BS people. Like all the time. I'm so freaking tired. Anybody can make an account here just to harass someone. This is the biggest drawback of this forum. It makes it very cheap, although it's not the fault of this website itself, rather the nature of internet. Case in point. A few days ago I was responding to a thread in the Society Section regarding false rape. And out of nowhere a person drops in to tell me that they had been falsely accused. And I'm wondering what are the chances of such a thing happening. It felt weird and bogus. I checked the account. It was someone who had just created their account 5 mins prior to my comment on the thread. I called him out for making a bogus duplicate account and he admitted that it was a throwaway account. Mods must have read it, I don't even care if they didn't. But I was thinking to myself, how easy it is to simply make a throwaway account just to bully someone for their opinion. This is what made my position on the forum quite vulnerable. They can make as many accounts as they want to simply bully and abuse a person and then log off. Nobody would even know if it's one person doing this. This reminded me of a cyber bullying incident that happened a few years ago which I narrated in another journal where a guy who was in love with me created 17 accounts to reply to me and harass me. It was the strangest experience that made me realize how vulnerable I was being on the internet. Literally anyone can do anything to you. .

So this is how I felt today. It was a lot to process with the past coming up over and over. This realization only hit me since 2017 since I did my first shadow work. I was beginning to realize for the first time how much my childhood had impacted me. Wish I could rewrite things.

Of course I ain't hot. And I ain't above all men. But I don't want to keep hoping for possibilities. Because that's a fake dream. It doesn't work, at least for me. For whom it works, good for them, not for me. You ain't stabbing my ego. You're only stabbing your projections and shadows.

There is a simple logic to this Leo makes videos on dating directed at men to help them with pickup. This is bound to attract men who have difficulty with getting good with women. Such men generally belong to the group of incels, red pill guys and men who are not willing to put the effort in appearing attractive to women or who got issues like insecurity which are easily sensed by most women leading to rejections. Such men will generally flock forums like this because this is their playground where they learn how to get good with women with Leo being their guide. Whereas women who watch Leo stuff are more oriented to building their life using his self Actualization videos. Such women are generally secure in who they are, they are looking for tools and resources and general guidance. That's why this forum is uniquely geared towards attracting thirsty men and secure women more interested in Self development. This explains the contrast. In reality such dichotomy doesn't exist. Because both men and women can be equally insecure.