Preety_India

Being an Indian is a very difficult thing in this world. I've to be very raw about my feelings.

Yes. Sometimes.

When you live in society you have to hear what people say. There is no escape. Wherever you go, people will say things. Today Leo said on the forum that Americans treat their dogs better than Indians treat their children. It stung. Not gonna lie, I felt humiliated. It wasn't exactly racial but he probably should have been more sensitive. Also it reminded me of the phrase in the British colonial era - "Indians and dogs are not allowed. " These kind of things hurt. The privilege that rich people have in talking down to the poor. It's not something you brush under the carpet

Why should it matter?

One of the best ways to describe this forum is to simply have a look at this thread

Starting shit over nothing...... Favorite pastime of the rich.

Rich people love drama, don't they? One of the perks of being rich and useless is the ability of feeling extremely sorry for yourself and complain about almost everything in life. It's like watching a sad movie just to experience sadness, because you don't have anything tragic in your life to help you experience those precious emotions Sometimes you watch other's lives and enjoy their misery and sometimes your own life is a miserable tragic movie.

Well the real curse is being born poor and being born in an Indian family to top it off.

After going through some of the stuff here, realized that most people here are wealthier and financially better off than me. Obviously they are going to have cushy lives.

Absolutism and nuances. Will write about this later..

There are 2 forms of acceptance or two ways to describe acceptance..

Going to add this in forum entries later. Saving it here for the time being A real man is someone who: very strong emotionally and psychologically. doesn't get afraid easily very patient and can tolerate a lot a leader and an example for others has good integration for the feminine as well very calm and in peace expressive and can convey love doesn't break under pressure is not afraid of others' opinions

@Eren Eeager that was a nice list. Useful.

I wanted to say that. but wasn't sure if that word was allowed on the forum.

Sometimes negativity, hopelessness, sadness, loneliness and lack of acceptance radically change you as a person, they push you in a direction that finally ends up aligning to the highest growth that you could have wanted /needed. Whatever occupies my time and energy right now are the things that matter most. Maybe that's what God would have wanted.

Someone who isn't emotionally unstable and insecure or immature.

I like how all these pictures merge with my ideas.

The thread nobody likes me was opened long ago, somewhere in March. I've come far from there. I think it's better if nobody likes me, it's a sense of relief. At least there is nobody to impress and that saves energy.

Even if the past 5 days were an absolute displeasure here, things are way better than they were in March last week.. I'm coming to a closure point. It's time to move on from here.. I wrote a while ago how I wanted to plan things. How this plan was supposed to work. That's what I'm focused on I've also become much better at assessing people than before. In the past few days while contemplating about this forum, i've realized such profound things that it hurts to even express those things. There's just nothing left to say other than the word peace... I don't exactly remember how things happened, in what order, but I ended up shedding all of that immaturity I had when I first came to this forum and that was in late 2019.. Precisely around November I was a bit immature with my posting throughout the first 6 months of 2020, I'd call it social immaturity and it continued that way throughout 2020.. It was in December 2020, that things were slowly coalescing. Somewhere in March last week I began to write about acceptance. That created a big change in the way I viewed things. I kinda grew up. I've realised that once you attain that level of maturity, you never go back to who you were before. Maturity is a one way street. All I needed was a mindset change, a mentality change, a perspective change, a paradigm shift. When people don't accept you for who you're, you have to let go, it is upsetting at first, especially knowing that you couldn't have done anything wrong in the world for that to happen, yet, it still leaves an unnerving feeling, but through my intense realizations, I've come to this peaceful understanding that sadness and loneliness are such beautiful things, I never knew, social conditioning means that you'll never look at sadness and loneliness as a positive state of being, you will never look at it poetically, yet, when you remove those layers of social judgement, you discover yourself and the more you discover yourself, you reach deeper truths within you that you possibly could not have known living superficially amongst people. Living for myself only for the past few weeks has taught me that sadness and loneliness, aspects of my personality that I hated and rejected, are here to be my own, they are friends, not enemies, they are truth, they are beautiful. I've become a changed woman.

When people don't accept you for who you're, you have to let go, it is upsetting at first, especially knowing that you couldn't have done anything wrong in the world for that to happen, yet, it still leaves an unnerving feeling, but through my intense realizations, I've come to this peaceful understanding that sadness and loneliness are such beautiful things, I never knew, social conditioning means that you'll never look at sadness and loneliness as a positive state of being, you will never look at it poetically, yet, when you remove those layers of social judgement, you discover yourself and the more you discover yourself, you reach deeper truths within you that you possibly could not have known living superficially amongst people. Living for myself only for the past few weeks has taught me that sadness and loneliness, aspects of my personality that I hated and rejected, are here to be my own, they are friends, not enemies, they are truth, they are beautiful. I've become a changed woman.

I'm finally coming back to normalcy after 6 months

I don't exactly remember how things happened, in what order, but I ended up shedding all of that immaturity I had when I first came to this forum and that was in late 2019.. Precisely around November I was a bit immature with my posting throughout the first 6 months of 2020, I'd call it social immaturity and it continued that way throughout 2020.. It was in December 2020, that things were slowly coalescing. Somewhere in March last week I began to write about acceptance. That created a big change in the way I viewed things. I kinda grew up. I've realised that once you attain that level of maturity, you never go back to who you were before. Maturity is a one way street. All I needed was a mindset change, a mentality change, a perspective change, a paradigm shift.

I've also become much better at assessing people than before. In the past few days while contemplating about this forum, i've realized such profound things that it hurts to even express those things. There's just nothing left to say other than the word peace...

I wrote a while ago how I wanted to plan things. How this plan was supposed to work. That's what I'm focused on now..

Even if the past 5 days were an absolute displeasure here, things are way better than they were in March last week.. I'm coming to a closure point. It's time to move on from here..