Preety_India

I know that if I get Covid I won't survive, because of my underlying condition. But in my last moments, I will pass away peacefully, I will bless all the good innocent souls who are living and struggling I will curse all the bad people who made my life miserable. The earth needs the battle of Armageddon. Good versus evil Christ versus Antichrist We need to liberate all the trapped souls who are still being abused

I want to return back to normalcy. Tomorrow I will stop talking to everyone on the forum. The only person I will talk to is Leo because I trust him, he is not a troll. I don't feel okay. I feel helpless and famished again. I feel nervous and upset I don't want this life

I really love the new Actualized Clips Channel. Breath of fresh air. Whenever I'm feeling down, I watch this channel and I feel instantly revitalized. Also love Leo's loose crumpled white shirt. It creates a feeling of relaxation and calm. I feel like I'm sitting at a retreat-ish place and watching these videos. Not just learning but also fun and relaxing I really appreciate the idea Leo. Thank you.

I think one of the reasons why Indian girls exhibit high levels of anxiety, depression and panic (which is often seen and perceived as drama by Western people ) is because indian girls are raised in the most horrible manner in their families. Indian girls are never raised with respect, affection, care or love. They are routinely malnourished, made to survive horrible shit, parents who control every aspect of the girl's life, treat her shitty. She is forced to marry some guy when she grows up. In short she is never allowed to live a normal life. She is never given respect or appreciation, neither by her family nor by her future husband As a result, indian women generally suffer generational trauma which exhibits itself in weird behaviors like fantasy, day dreaming, lack of maturity, abusive relationships, lack of self worth and lack of self esteem, low boundaries, overall poor emotional and physical health. This aspect is completely ignored by Western people If you raise people abnormally then they are obviously going to exhibit abnormal tendencies. What's the point of blaming them? I liken the situation of a typical indian woman to that of a black guy getting arrested by a white cop.. Just imagine the terror. He panics and starts resisting. The more he resists, the worse he gets. The cop ends up killing him. People blame the black guy for resisting. But people who point fingers don't understand that it is not the black man's fault. He has fears, real and imaginary. He is not acting or doing drama There are real consequences to getting arrested for black men whether they commit a crime or not. The world is seeing the truth only now. Once a black man is arrested, he can hardly find a job, his whole life ruined. Many innocent black men languish in prisons because they can't afford attorneys. The situation is further complicated by the fact that a majority of black men die in prison often in mysterious circumstances. Black men are routinely at the mercy of cops It's easy to perceive all of this as drama but deep down there are psychological reasons, the flight or fight response, majorly contributing to the phenomenon of resisting an arrest. But to an onlooker who is not black, it's puzzling to see such a reaction to an arrest and might seem unnecessary. Indian women are at the mercy of the patriarchy. This makes their lives increasingly complicated. The resultant trauma is exhibited in their poor upkeep of themselves and in their behaviors. To an outsider this might seem like immaturity or drama. But frankly these are just coping mechanisms against the shit Indian women have to constantly deal with from their family and patriarchal oppressive culture.

I wasted a lot of time today because I felt very sensitive and weak.. I was having panic attacks. Then some troll came around and it sent me over the edge. I felt petrified. I don't want to be in that terrified space. I want to feel emotionally stable.

When you say INTP lady, I know exactly who you're talking about. Indirect hints thrown at me. I'm offended by your comments about me. I'm not into drama the way you are

Go away. You're a drama Queen/king. Just like others. I don't want to talk to you.

I don't love you. I said it accidentally one time. It means nothing. I don't have any feelings for you. And I don't want you. Next time you will talk to me I will stay silent. I won't ever click on your profile again. By the way you're not allowed to message me That's good. I've blocked you in messenger.. Good.

Don't ever take my name. You go around telling people bad things about me behind my back. And you demonize my MBTI personality which is in my signature. You have no right INTP are not bad people. And don't click on my profile again.

I'm not interested in you.

I swear this journal section is full of narcissistic unhealthy people who crave attention and feed on any attention, even attention from trolls.

So I went away and came back and the stalker is still here

Anyway I'll leave for a while and then come back and resume my work. I'll wait till this person has left and maybe then I'll feel relieved.

There was this guy called M (think of the most generic name that starts with M) and he was on this website when I first came here He used to tease me and flirt with me and act like he wanted to pet me (sexual innuendo ) I was naive back then. I began to fall in love with him because he was being too intimate with me. Then I decided not to talk to him because I felt unsafe. He then began to stalk me. He left me for a while and came back last year. Praised me for my journal work and disappeared It seems it is him again. His name matches with the name of a moderator here... If you know what I mean.

Thank God they didn't check my profile. . I'm feeling very sensitive today This journal is my only protection.

Thank God, their attention is deflected. They are talking to someone else. So most likely I'll be left alone I don't have to worry.

From the way they talk, it feels like they are a male Could be. Thank God this person isn't talking to me.

Act like I don't know this person at all. That will keep them off me. Throw them off. So they won't notice me. Right now I'm safe. At least for the time being.

The best strategy right now is to be completely silent and simply carry on with my work and not bother myself too much by this person's presence.

I'm not sure if I know this person. Maybe I know them. Maybe I don't. I don't know. This person is constantly looking at my topics. They are obsessed with me. They are purposely browsing through my stuff. They know me. And they just want to leave me a calling card. They want me to know that it's them. Maybe they want something out of me. Maybe they want to say hi and then smirk at me. They know that im feeling vulnerable. That's why they aren't talking directly to me. But they did mention me.

This person is constantly looking at my topics. They are obsessed with me. They are purposely browsing through my stuff. They know me. And they just want to leave me a calling card.

I know this person doesn't have good intentions. This is what I fear about this place. Anybody can come in here.

I'm terrified of this person and right now they are traveling through the forum at lightening fast speed. I want to avoid this person. I feel a sense this person knows me.

There is a troll in the journal section right now. And I'm terrified of him.. I don't want the same person to be back again. Is it M?

If I ever die, even accidentally, my spirit will haunt this forum. My spirit will haunt every place where I felt upset. I didn't deserve the life I was given. There were just too many things that went wrong and nothing was in my hands.