Preety_India

I think I didn't word it correctly. What I meant is people who are very egotistical and show some pride like fake pride. For example, (just don't take it in a girl guy context ), let's say some guy texts me on here, and I instantly reply to me very politely, lovingly and kindly, next time he would be very abrupt and even rude with me, as though taking my kindness for granted. Like I'm not an important person and treat me harshly. Taken for granted would be the right phrase. Now if the same guy texted me in the second scenario and If I ignored him or replied rudely or abruptly or acted like I'm too important, he would be a bit careful with me, even giving a more privileged or preferential treatment, wondering that I must be special if I am being so egotistical. He would even compliment me and want to be friends This situation also happens between people of the same gender. It's irrespective of gender or culture I find such attitude very cheap because it tends to discourage kindness and humility and treats it like weakness or something to be taken for granted. It supports narcissism because it gives value to people who attract power, act egotistical and special and tend to look down on others. Such people unfortunately garner more respect despite their fake pride and hostility

@Zeroguy this is not about romance.

My trust on this forum has dropped from 70% to like 6%. I feel like everyone here is always wanting to fight. So the best option is to be completely out of it.

please no comments on this journal. please respect others requests.

Don't think how life is right now. Yesterday I felt like taking the handgun and blowing my head off. Because I was tired of a bunch of people on here playing games with me.. But anyway, stuff happens, life happens, don't think too much. Just live in the moment. Don't live for anyone, live for yourself. Remember that as a human being you have tremendous potential although you don't see it, it's like digging a mine, you keep digging deeper and deeper and eventually you get gold. Same goes with human potential. Today is a mystery. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow there is a whole new existence you never knew existed. Keep trying. Keep moving on. Never give up.

Just stop talking to everyone that's it.. It again looks like the same damn place that I came from..

Just hate everything here and forgot to log out as usual

Never tell a guy here that you're in love with them, it backfires very badly.

Created the following diagrams to explain the two mountain and the supporting chain principle.

In between is the processing part.

The two mountains..

This is the most beautiful thing I saw. I want to sleep next to those cats.

I'm the now or never, all or nothing kind of a person. Once I develop a strong form of resentment, all bets are off The game is up. My mind will begin to operate like a helicopter. It will search for everything that can be potentially threatening. My mind turns into a scanner. Scanning every little thing. I go into state of hyper awareness. I don't go back from there. Everything suddenly becomes very strict. I keep a note of every little thing. My mind starts registering things at a very fast speed. I almost turn into a monster. Once the threshold is crossed, it's crossed.

Anybody who will defend me will need to be extraordinarily strong and brave person Most people aren't like that. But anyone who defends me will have to be a righteous and brave person. Life experiences have taught me that only those exact people defended me in every bad situation When an innocent person finds themselves in trouble, only a brave person rescues them I can write this in stone - that whenever I'm stuck in something bad, God will come like a lightning bolt and save me. In Hinduism we have a saying that goes like this Jaaki rakhe sai maar sake naa koi Which translates as no force in this world can destroy the one who is protected by God. The force of God comes into good people and assigns them the task of rescuing the innocent. Good people in this world function as saviors and angels. When good people vanish from this planet, this world will become a very poor and dark place. Mark my words The spirits that remain loyal to us are eternal. Seek God before it's too late No good has ever come out of evil manipulations Bow before the almighty God or face his wrath

I'm done. What do you not understand? I said I'm done being fucked over. I have resentment now I behave like an elephant. You know how they behave? They remember each and everything that was done to them.. They have a grudge memory. You do one bad thing to an elephant, they will remember it for the rest of their lives. This is my subconscious speaking. All the bullying that I suffered is lodged in my subconscious. I ain't forgetting anything. You do one bad thing to me and I'll remember it down to every minute detail I always remember what bad thing a person did to me. And I'm fiercely loyal. You shouldn't go by my words. You don't betray someone like me. I might appear light hearted, and cordial and all that. But I have a deep spirit a strong soul I don't need a brain and a heart. My soul is enough Even if I die, my soul will remain alive. Once I detect that something is amiss, my elephant mode is activated. Think of a mad raging elephant. I go on a rampage. That's why elephants are important for me. They resemble me. Not in size. I'm just a 5 feet 6 in petite woman. I can't do shit physically. But I can do a lot of shit spiritually. Don't provoke the elephant.

So yea, the saga of the bad mood shwing continues. It's like what,,, huh??? Day 6 It's may 6, and same feeling of anger washing over me I want to scream at the top of my lungs Am I a ragdoll???????????? I feel drunk right now. And a drunk man (woman ) always speaks the truth. I said I feel drunk right now... I did not say I'm drunk... Do you even understand the difference?? I'm so exhausted and fed up... Fed up of people trying to stir shit up. Storm in a tea cup I guess living in a First world country must be a nice treat. Live in a third world country for a day. Come come come. I'll show you. I will show how people live. You wanna feel sorry for me???

Want to keep a mood tracker This forum always puts me in a bad mood these days.

These sound effects promote a feeling of relaxation.

Fun times. Some times. Whenever someone calls me a dummy it's the most endearing thing for me.. I remember Joseph's nickname for me was "Dummy. "

Like this.

It sounded like these sounds

@Michael569 dark chocolate causes me acidity.