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I haven't replied to Joseph for months now.. I just don't feel like replying to him. I feel hurt and betrayed. My trust broken. My heart discarded. I still can't imagine he cheated on me when he always told me that I was the only one in his mind. He would tell me how wonderful I was etc etc etc. I don't believe his words anymore. Those are empty words meant to make me feel good. True love is loyal. I never cheated on him. Such a thought wouldn't even enter my mind in a million years. I worshipped the land he walked. I could not even think of another man, because to me love means loyalty

So these are the text conversations between me and my brother. He is trying to help me but it's not working because my mother has threatened him as well. I kept telling him that whatever she has been doing is domestic abuse I'm collecting evidence. These text messages are evidence on my phone. If anything wrong happens to me, the police can investigate that my mother was behind this. . This is the stick she uses to beat me with. This photo is evidence. I stole the stick from her. And I have kept it with me as evidence of her violence and beating. She got herself a new stick last month. She brought a long wooden stick from the store. She disguises it as a tool for cleaning or moving. But I know it's purpose. The purpose is to scare me with it and beat me. This is criminal intimidation.. And this stick is the evidence photo. I'll keep all of this on my phone in case.... If things go really wrong. Today after 6 months I opened my messenger and saw these messages from my American ex who I broke up with. It's Joseph He is trying to win me back. He has left a ton of messages. This is his last message. I'm in no mood to reply because I just want to forget him. I find it difficult to forget him but finally I can. He treated me badly, cheated on me, and emotionally betrayed me, his new girlfriend left him and now he wants me back. What a load of crap?? Even if he might love me, I don't trust his love. I didn't block him because I wanted him to say whatever he wanted to say We had a 3-4 year relationship while I was in the US after which I returned back to India. I will never forget him. I told him once that the day I die and the moment I die, for one last time his name will be on my lips because in my mind I considered him my true soulmate. He was everything to me. The betrayal left me in a state of shock.. My only greatest love that I treasured ended in betrayal. I never loved a man the way I loved Joseph. I loved him like he was a part of my soul. But it was never meant to be So I will never go back to him. He tainted my pure love. I wanted his name on my grave, or on my corpse. I used to call myself Joseph Regina fondly when we were together. I was so in love with his name that I wanted it next to my name. And he used to call me Regina fondly like a nickname. So I used to call myself Joseph Regina.

Look. Everything is learning. Abusive relationships help women understand red flags in a relationship. It's not always about healing .it is sometimes about learning. You're vehemently trying to make the woman look problematic. Abusive relationships are not rare just like golddiggers aren't rare. People have to go through negative experiences to learn. Doesn't mean they are problematic people.

@Zeroguy you're doing some serious victim blaming. Not interested in arguing further with this pointlessness

Not true You can never know how a person will turn out in a relationship. Some women might like abusive assholes. But this is not true of all women who are in abusive relationships. Please show compassion rather than judgement.

@Zeroguy a lot of alphas are known to be abusive. There are healthy versions as well. Alpha can be strong and they use this strength either to protect or bully. A woman being with an abuser is not because she wants abuse. That's serious victim blaming. Relationships are not easy to leave If you don't understand the psychology of abusive relationships, at least don't judge and victim blame.

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Can you imagine my stupidity when I placed eggs to boil in the microwave I took a small bowl and added some water and placed eggs in the water. No lid and placed it in the microwave. After some time I heard a loud bang and I ran to the kitchen and saw that the microwave door flung open and there was boiled egg splattered all over the place both inside and outside. It was like a mini bomb blast. Lesson learned the harder way.

Your point is actually very simple All you're trying to say is - how is someone gonna survive if they aren't tough enough? I get it. And I believe that children should be raised strong. But appearances can fool a lot So called tough or strong people can be very self serving and eventually detrimental to society. The whole idea of overpowering others comes from the need to secure everything for oneself. The whole game is chimpery. It is rooted in selfishness. It's one thing to be strong to defend oneself and others. But another to dominate and be super Alpha But get this, this is not encouraged by women. This is the nature of animal and human society in its less evolved form. It's basically survival of the fittest. Even if women didn't exist, this would continue because it's a fight for survival. The animal nature is to compete for food and attack the rival. Rivalry among humans will continue forever because this is how survival works However with greater consciousness we can transcend survival and make it less competitive.

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I want a guy who is balanced. The so called macho guys who act like they can dominate everyone turn out to be users and abusers. They hurt. Eventually women run away from such men. It's not all rosy. Women are fed this story that a prince is riding on a horse wearing armour showing pride and strength. But the real Prince is riding a donkey irl.

When life ditches you and even death doesn't want anything to do with you

I want to meet God. I think about this everyday.

Alpha men make a joke out of themselves. lol who cares. Any alpha abusive man who breaks a woman's heart

My Dad wasn't an Alpha guy. And I'm very much here. End of the story.

My dear, those days of hunting gathering are gone. Welcome to new society. Here we have anti-hunting rules. People can't hunt a deer, let alone a woman. People are even turning vegan We are seeing a change The caveman would be rolling in his grave. Let him. Don't hunt anymore,be sweet and eat pussy or sugar walls. Goodluck

A beta male is not a pussy. This is some serious toxic masculinity shit. And what is this whole rewarding thing? What sort of terminology is being used here? Why is a woman's emotion of loving a man being weaponized and called "rewarding " This gotta be some real red pill shit. Quit that thinking. Women aren't rewarding anything. They simply choose what's best for them If women were always supporting abusive gangsters then how come they are in prison? Why aren't our leaders abusive men ? So your logic is false. Women choose bad boys out of naivete and lack of awareness. This is not a rewarding behaviour. Women have to go through this critical experience to learn better what to look out for. They eventually settle for a beta guy But for this the woman needs to go through a mental evolution process where she eventually learns what's best for her. An abusive guy is a part of her learning and such setbacks teach her valuable lessons in life. These are obstacles on the path,not milestones. An abuser is not an achievement for a woman, he is her mistake. And only through mistakes she learns. Some women are wiser and some women aren't You can't blame women for their mistakes because they will eventually learn better and outgrow it As for society, it is made by both men and women, blaming everything on women is Toxic Red Pill Shit. You seem to have swallowed a ton of this ideology. Log off the channels you're watching and in case you paid,get a refund.

You're using some reverse logic Women didn't create rules, laws and ethics. As a society we need these for proper functioning. In fact the opposite is true. Because of these very ethics and laws, the guys who you call pussies are safe in society, if it weren't for these ethics, the Alpha chimps would've wiped out the gentlemen long ago So you gotta be thankful/grateful for a civil society. Only in a civil society, gentleman are safe. Are you seriously advocating a stage Red Society. Good luck with that because in that society, nobody is safe other than gangsters.

We are not animals in war. We are human beings. We have rules,laws and ethics and courts.

You know in a way it is,it is a type of red pillery shit. Just be an authentic good intentioned guy You don't need to be this hunter wolf thing. It's not a good road.

@Husseinisdoingfine don't follow any tom dick harry advice you get here. It's all stage Orange You do you. You be good. Don't change yourself simply for some tit ass woman If you're valuable you'll attract someone valuable as well. If you become cheap,you'll attract some cheap one We eventually attract those that Match our frequency Don't attract bullshit