Preety_India

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Invest in ideas and vibes. Not in people.

@snowyowl I show her kindness. I always take her to doctor visits for her diabetes and other issues. But she is always rude to me. Extremely rude. Whenever I speak softly to her, her answers are very narcissistic and inflammatory. For example 2 days back I dropped something in the kitchen. Like salt. While I was trying to clean up the mess, she came there and saw there was some salt scattered on the other side of the kitchen near the wall and it didn't catch my attention and she said something really mean like "who's going to clean up this mess, your father ?" My father died many years ago. It was extremely hurtful of her to say that and refer to my dad in such a disrespectful manner. It's like I never talk to her because her replies are extremely hurtful, mean, vitriolic and narcissistic. She talks a lot about success and money. Very stage Orange but mostly toxic stage Orange talk. I usually talk about spirituality and she isn't interested and I understand. But I'm not materialistic like her Literally every occasion where I'm trying to be gentle and polite she turns into a verbal disaster with her obscene profanities and verbal abuse. Words that I'll never use for my future children in a 100 million years It's too hard to live with such an abusive person. There's a point where you give up and breakdown She is a total bully and insulting me and my dead father is what gives her a sense of superiority. She often tells me"you have turned out just like your dad" which she means in a derogatory sense In her mind my dad was a stupid submissive spineless man. However he was a very strong man in my eyes because he fought a huge battle with his terminal illness for a long time However she treated his illness and disability as a weakness. He was wheelchair bound and she used to throw things at him. I used to defend my dad against her attacks. She never cried at his funeral as though nothing happened She gave me tremendous amount of trauma although I don't feel hate towards her(sometimes I do but I wish her closure in life)

The concept of bravery

I always wanted to explore the culture in the mountains of America. The culture of Native Americans. Their culture has fascinated me more than any culture on planet earth Eventually over time I'm going to imbibe and integrate a lot of the values and traditions of Native American culture into my life for the majority of it. The world is getting crazier by the day and there seems to be no source of inspiration to derive from whereby you can live in a decent peaceful way away from all the bullshit politics and spiritual manipulation of the new agey spiritual dogma in the name of enlightenment and all sorts of fancy words. I need a breather. It seems the Native Americans have the answer for my concerns. Their culture seems to be a refuge away from the madness of the world. I have always felt more spiritual whenever I have tried to explore Native American culture and traditions. They seem wise and more grounded and connected with nature.

Some sort of a portal

Sangre de Cristo mountain range.

Will I have to go through a soul death in order to have a transformative understanding of life?

One Cardinal equation of my soul Math is to never hurt anyone in life

I think you're being excessively attached and dependent. Heal yourself. You'll always face this problem if you don't heal your void Girls can't be your permanent source of joy and when girls sense that, they'll most likely not want to fill those shoes for you. They'll walk away because they don't want the job of being a love supply for you. You're starting things on the wrong foot.

There are 3 paths according to my latest insight The noble path The needs path The ego path

I have never said I'm pure. But I'm asking Leo how can he talk about not being selfish without transcending survival first.

Why is it that every girl is flaking on you. Are you doing something wrong ? A couple of questions. What do you think you're doing wrong? Why are you constantly failing to get a date ? Where are you falling short in your strategies? Are you messing with logistics? Are you giving the girl what she wants? What improvements you think you might want to include in your next sessions? Do you consider yourself good looking ? Are you having extremely high standards for women?

I believe that there are powerful spiritual forces in the universe.

I'm working to improve my voice, accent, tone and pitch.

So thinking about doing this again. Just recording myself for my Actualization work Nothing fancy

@RendHeaven ah yes. Maybe I need to wait and it will be auto corrected

Invitation to STDs.