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He texted me back even when I tried to end the conversation by saying bye. I hate his balls. He has the gall to compliment me after leaving me in pain and hurting me so much I get too much anger how neatly he acts and doesn't take responsibility for all the hurt caused and tries to make it look alright when I don't feel alright at all. I hate his guts that he makes me feel as though I'm wrong for feeling hurt. Like f him. I feel so much anger at his audacity. He doesn't let me end a conversation. He is a narcissist. He tried to use me and makes it look cool. He always tries to win and makes me feel wrong all the time and tries to have an upper hand. I'm done with his narcissistic mind games where he is feeling all cool and comfy meanwhile I cry feeling all the pain. He used to mock me. He is good at mind games. I have forgiven him. He needs to shut the f up because every word hurts. He always has to have the last word even when I'm walking away and ending the conversation.

Narcissists can never have a meaning in life. It's all about ego for them It's all about stage Orange ego needs. The reason I like stage Green is because it imparts meaning to what we do.

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I always had a problem with emphathy. Being empathetic always ended up me being taken advantage of. I need to figure a way out

Part 1 deals with the spiritual side of things. Part 2 deals with the materialistic and survival aspects of life.

I have to divide my life into 2 parts. Last bunch of threads that I had opened on the forum. And they were meaningful insights.

Why is it hard and if it's hard, isn't that a good thing ?

I agree

Maybe you're misleading her. She wouldn't be here in the first place doubting things if it was so perfectly healthy.. I don't like how you're trying to normalise it when she is clearly having doubts.

I'm from India. There are too many people around me who died. They were people with families, kids and in their mid 40s. I had the impression that only elderly people died. But that's not true. Many many people are dying in my country and it's not like they have to be too poor. Some of these people are well known celebrities. Yet their immunity levels aren't Strong enough to deal with this virus. I'm in my mid 20s and yet my immunity is not too strong because of malnutrition in childhood and a lung infection that was never medicated/treated when I was a kid. Covid is my greatest fear. I can give you a 100% guarantee that If I get Covid I won't survive at all. That's why I haven't stepped out of my house in more than a year except for groceries and pharmacy. The vaccination in my area hasn't started yet. You possibly don't know a lot of things that are quite brutal and are happening around the world You're born in a first world country so I can't blame you.

Recently I've been talking to a guy. Who I think has been lying to me through the teeth. I don't feel good at all. I felt very angry. Literally whatever he said didn't make any sense at all. Everything was a fabrication. Literally everything. Just made up shit. It was annoying because he came to me for help. I trusted him, gave him ample amount of my time. Took time out of my schedule for him. Yet this guy kept telling me stuff that just wouldn't add up and didn't look logical from any angle. I felt cheated and sort of manipulated.

I like to be by myself. But hey, it's not like I don't care. Sometimes it hurts when you talk to me and I can sense the vibe is not to get along with me, but more like trying to preach me. I don't like that. Whenever I talk to people I can sense their vibe.

Promptly ignore those that waste your time

These days I follow the one strike rule My self esteem lessons might be working ???????

I do things differently. I don't put the burden on you to understand me..but I at least deserve to be talked to respectfully.

I just want to be able to live a life where I don't give 2 shits about anything.

No need to give him your energy.

Or maybe they're too scaredy of the needle but don't wanna admit that! Even if that's the case, it's too out of ego protection from fear.

Why would you create a self limiting belief ?

Journaling is the best way of expressing oneself.

hahahaha. Exactly. Same thought.

What you're calling freedom is actually slavery and comprise. Wake up.

I don't think there is honesty here from that guy Furthermore when a guy says that he can love multiple women, he is only loving where he can put his dick. He is not being authentic. Just manipulation. An authentic man will not manipulate you and respect your needs. He won't tell to okay it or normalise it By the way, why are you valuing yourself so low that you're ready to settle for such bullshit? Really, how exactly do you feel when he is sleeping with another woman ? You feel great?? I'm from a third world country and even I won't settle for a man who tells me rubbish and how he likes other women, I'll simply pack my bags and leave. He can have the girls You think this is sustainable ? You're deceiving yourself! a man who wants to cheat and wants your permission is low class behaviour. You deserve better if you are a loyal person. Find a proper man who has the stamina to value your needs and not make you sacrifice for his bullshit fantasies. Move on and find a better man. And if you can't find a better man, then no man is needed,being single is better than tolerating such nonsense. Self esteem lesson 101 - never put up with such cheating nonsense no matter how much ever that man/ male society convinces you. It's their agenda to keep you deluded. (The only reason you can't break this relationship is because it's been 8 years and you're trying to salvage it by grasping at straws. Learn to deal with reality and find emotional independence)

And why do you want to date such girls who aren't conscious enough of what they want?

And not all women enjoy sleeping with fuckboys. So maybe you should know who you're approaching.