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Night after night. Day after day. Just imagine your self as a cavity You can heal different parts of this heavily damaged cavity slowly cleaning out every corner of it.

I cried so much when I felt a form of release. I felt quite vulnerable.

Huge insight Today I was contemplating on neediness and why it hurts so much when guys and girls are rejected. And suddenly the insight that came to me was - "you need you." You need yourself more than anything. This is where everything ends. Your inner self needs you and you're depriving it by seeking things in the external world. It will never work. You need you. Go back to your self..your inner self. Your inner world. Heal it. Seek it. Find it. And come back. Then even if you engage with the outer world, you'll only find people who allow and support your growth. There will be no people pleasing or misunderstanding. There will be no need to impress. You play games out of the need to either solve something, redefine something or create something. You're trying to secure the situation/person to yourself with your manoeuvres. But this will never work. Because it's not grounded in simplicity. You're simply playing to make it work your way giving your own definition to things, causing it to objectively fail even though subjectively it all made sense to you, you thought everything was going according to plan,until you get the rude awakening that it was all your game and destiny had different plans, causing you to waste ample amount of time and opportunity to do good. Your mind creates stories out of your needs. To fulfill that need some story has to be accepted. Some story has to be created. You'll be strong and on your own. You won't seek people to complete you or compete with you. You won't be looking. You won't be searching. You'll simply be waiting like a container to be filled. You will have people who come up to you who will automatically get eliminated when they don't flow with you. You won't be hopelessly chasing. You will only have those who really passionately want you and who help your growth by being with you. You won't have to worry about them leaving you and even if they left, you won't be hurt because you never asked them to stay so it will be easier to let them go. You won't be too desperate. Especially with those who don't want you. So your focus will come back to those who actually care and resonate with you.. with these people you can then develop a bond. Of course this doesn't mean that these people won't leave. Yet you aren't desperately hanging onto those who genuinely don't care about being with you. You'll emit neutral energy. There won't be any connection unless they connect with you properly. You'll only feel invested when they're invested. There won't be imagined stuff where you think they like you when there's nothing there. Look inward because your inner self needs you

I think you need to be assertive but non emotional or lacking in depth.

It becomes like a dopamine thing.

Don't be attached. Let go.

What are you going to do next? Focus on lists.

peanut butter is not good, just saying. Everytime I had peanut butter, I felt intense discomfort. And then I saw my urine color was different. I'll never eat peanut butter again. There's gotta be something wrong about peanut butter that I'm possibly not aware of ?

I can't live without the love of a man. I feel like I need a man to love me. Till then I'll always be sad.

@hoodrow trillson maybe read other responses before jumping to conclusions? And what worldview you want? Your worldview?

This is about @Leo Gura 's views on dating. It took me a while to come to this. An uncomfortable and difficult topic. But I felt I needed to open up about this. Personally nothing against Leo at all. In fact there will never be a reason to be against him. I like watching his videos. His enlightenment and actualization stuff. It's awesome and has been very inspiring. Leo is the reason why I feel motivated. I hope I'm allowed to have a criticism of Leo. If not the mod can lock this thread and It won't matter. The problem area for me with Leo is his dating stuff. To be very honest many people have told me the same thing along the lines of - listen to Leo but not when it comes to dating. I have religiously read every comment that Leo makes, I deeply respect him, yet it hurts every time I read his comment in the dating section and it is always a bit biased against women and lacking the female Perspective, as though the female perspective is absent. It seems Leo focuses more on males because his audience is mostly that and I rarely see him correcting males who have the standard stereotyped bro biased opinions. I like how he has evolved over time and objected to red pill content on this forum yet there's seems to be so much that needs to come to a point of balance especially in Leo's perspectives. Leo is crystal clear on the male version of intimacy but he fails to include the female version or does not state it enough. I would have appreciated a more nuanced neutral approach from him seeing the level of development and growth and inner work he has put in over the years, it's a natural expectation that his views in this area would be a bit more refined than the general crowd. However I see a characteristically strange emptiness when it comes to this area and more alignment with the pick up way of thinking about women, I'm not against it but it leaves me with a sour taste in the mouth because often times that's not how the female mind is thinking which is frequently represented in the posts that so many women including me have made on this forum, it feels like Leo leaves out an entire chunk of the female Perspective and becomes very dismissive of it. This strays away from what we would consider a wholesome normal healthy balanced perspective to female sexuality. It's hard to pinpoint every little thing he says and I do understand that sometimes there are nuggets of truth in certain things he says yet overall his opinions are largely lacking and tailored to suit the male crowd better. I don't think it would be too much to expect that Leo try to make fine tuned enhancements to the way he approaches things when it comes to dating and not rely heavily and excessively on the pua model that he has ingrained along the way. I understand that he wants to be able to relate to his audience yet much is left to be desired on a wholesome level.. I hope I'm not banned for this. Thanks for reading. People can leave in their comments as to how they feel about Leo's opinions on the dating section. But I won't be replying to them since it would be unnecessarily drawn out. Leaving opinions alone would be more than enough I guess. If Leo responds to this, I won't reply to Leo's comments because I don't want a fierce debate with him. One thing that I admire about Leo is his intense level of loving maturity, I'm yet to come across someone like that.

I need to start focusing on good things

I have a problem with how there's a general sentiment on this forum where it's often shown as though women owe you Sex and words like rewarding and punishment are used. A woman is only looking for a man who is good for her, not rewarding or punishing you. Men who act like women owe them sex come with a mentality that objectifies women. It's a terrible mindset often found in incel communities online. Jim Jeffries hilariously breaks down this toxic ideological mentality in his video.

@eaaaeaeae few weeks ago.

Add later.

@eaaaeaeae I'm learning Greek. Πώς είσαι.

I will forever be in love with you. I will love you deeply.

Whoever you are, you're my Prince.

I'm thinking about all the good things.

So I took a nice nap 9 hours ago and I'm feeling fresh right now. This feeling is so good. Like the smell of morning flowers.

@flowboy you're welcome.

@flowboy yea I picked it up. It's lying in your mailbox. Go get it.

@Harlen Kelly I did as you said.

@eaaaeaeae I guess you're German.

@Harlen Kelly you want to slut shame me.